Void if Removed

I'm Trot and I need some space 🌌

[ciervobizarro]

[ciervobizarro]

Blackberry.

[cloudtail4571-deactivated202604]

[mollymendoza]

HERE WITH ME // Molly Mendoza

Sumi ink, gouache, gel pen on 7x10” Arches

For solo show at Nucleus House 1/10/25

[rot-farm]

color study of just some cool ass fish. Original image sourced from @ meenmeen_0 on tik tok!

[photophoros]

Sinner

[pitofsquids]

Gut Instinct

[kirimisosoup]

angel feather ruffle

[chaoticneutralwife]

sorry i said that super creepy stuff out loud haha do you still wanna fuck?

[qrowscant]

things grow when left unattended

[kkbardd]

I want to be you, I wanna be just like you

[acorviart]

eagle brand medicated oil

[smiggles]

gift for a friend of mine

[smiggles]

Blender Time for Smi

[sloppjockey]

fawwn / gouache painting on paper

[sunlit-mess]

Ever since I started taking the medicine, I no longer rely on my pen to keep me busy and distracted; my head is too quiet, and yet I feel completely numb, hollow within. And the thing about me is that I am emotionally attached to drawing; it is how I express my thoughts and feelings, something to keep me busy from my problems in the world.

Drawing has developed into nothing but a coping mechanism for me. I find pressure in doing so as if my life depends on it, or maybe the next hour or day, fearing succumbing to the idea of death.

Nowadays, even when I come back from a better headspace, I struggle to draw. I can't seem to get my ideas right, nor finish a piece properly. The spark is different and dim, but I hope it will shine for me soon.

Maybe it's not the medicine, maybe this is part of growth, maybe a part of healing?

Maybe I'm just grieving myself again, yet there's no other way but to move forward. Until then.

[yuki-kirei]