lol is it really my life if i don’t go somewhere and not get gropped by a guy?

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lol is it really my life if i don’t go somewhere and not get gropped by a guy?
the first time a boys unwanted hand grabbed me i was 8 years old. at the time i had no clue what was happening and just laughed it off. the boy was 13.
the next time it happened i was 12. my mom went to my teacher as it happened in school and they did nothing.
at 16 i went to my first party and a guy decided it was okay to grab my chest as if it was his to grab and then went and laughed about it with his friends.
at 17 they were talking about my ass saying it was flat and my friends who were girls joined in and laughed as if sexualizing my body was okay when i wasn’t even comfortable sexualizing my body yet.
at 18 i went to my guy friends house thinking it would be a good night with a few friends. that night a guy decided it was okay to grab me and my other friend. it happened all night and no one stepped in. he then tried to kiss me and when i said no he kept trying to pry me with alcohol to try and change that no.
i do not know of one girl who has not experienced sexual assault.
but not all men right?
i’m shutting down again.
succumbing to the darkness of my room as i lay in bed.
my friends text but i don’t answer.
i have school but i don’t go.
just listening to the quiet as i shut down again, hoping to feel better tomorrow.
as we get older we look at that christmas tree in our living rooms.
we stare at them. and we try to recall the childhood and the feeling it brought us.
now all we feel is loneliness, as our families are in their seperate rooms we stare at the christmas tree and feel what it used to mean and what it currently means and realize how much things change as we get older.
i want to go back.
ok but fr, people just are happy in relationships and that being their only relationship?
like i’ve had so many friends drop me and everyone else for some mans? y’all are seriously happy like that?
does anyone else just feel like their playing a character in their own life?
my whole life as a female ive been talked over and been told to shut up about my opinions and to see a woman in office of one of the most sexist countries i’ve ever witnessed means a lot. This is my hope that one day I will not be silenced anymore.
am i ever going to feel completely and utterly happy?
but does anyone just feel stuck?
ok but why is it that everything in life is about finding a signifigant other? like i’m 18 and i’ve never had an s/o because I haven’t wanted one. like no zack I don’t want to date you no it’s not because im gay it’s because i’m just happy being on my own. or like when my friends are all talking to ppl in just expected to like find someone to double date them? like sorry bro i do me and i don’t need some dumb boy to hype me up when i got myself. like is this not okay and am i the only one the feels like this?
dear class of 2020,
as we graduate i feel we have a duty to explain. these past four years of high school have been some great years. but we did not peak in high school. we have an entire life ahead of us and so many more adventures in life. although looking back i though i would share what i learned.
1. do not let people hold you back. as i first started high school i was in a low place, i let people that i had never even had a real conversation with affect my life. and there we some i did have some with that tried to hold me down in the low place. sometimes it’s better to let go of people for your own sake and theirs.
2. if you get into a relationship do not let it engulf you. i never had a relationship in high school in fear of this. their are so many experiences to be had with friends and family, why limit yourself to one person to have those experiences with? i watched friends get into relationships and completely disregarded other opportunities that the people around them offered.
3. laugh with every opportunity available. this past year has been difficult with us trying to figure out what we wanted to do that i forgot to live a lot. i hadn’t laughed as much until i realized it over a joke i made about milk to my mother.
4. friendships come and go. i have met some of the most amazing people during these four years. a lot of them being in my later years as well. but i also let go of a lot of old friends as well. i value my experiences with everyone i’ve ever had a friendship with and i do not regret one second of any of them.
5. do not let others opinions affect you. in the beginning i let what others think hold me back. sometimes this still occurs and it is still something i’m working on to this day. this is one of the most challenging things i’ve had to learn. those that are closest to us may have an opinion as well but it is your opinion that matters the most. you must ask yourself if you are doing the right thing? are you going to regret 5 years from now? big decisions and small decisions affect every aspect of your life from your mental to physical state.
6. you are beautiful no matter what. everybody has compared themselves to another at some point in their life and it’s important to remember that we are all different mentally and physically based on the way we grew up and every memory since then. so watch when you call someone ugly or fat or too skinny or make any comments on their appearance including when you make those comments to yourself. you do not judge others before you know them and you do not get to comment on what someone looks like and try to make them insecure.
7. do not let anybody degrade another. the things i’ve heard through high school have been atrocious. the slut shaming and not respecting those who others have been with. i’m guilty of not speaking up when necessary but i also never spoke up for myself. i have been called multiple things like “slut” “bitch” “flat ass” and have watched my friends been called that too. i’ve watched as guys said “girls like to be degraded like that” and watched girls say “he’s just a stupid fuckboy”. it goes both ways and we are not being sensitive when we put a stop to it we are changing the course of history we want to go through as this has been happening for millennia’s.
i am moving on to college this next year and these are some things i will carry on with me for the rest of my life. i don’t regret a single thing from my high school experience. i have come to value every person i’ve come across learning a lesson from each one even if i haven’t held a conversation with them.
so remember this. things may seem rough now but life gets better. it teaches you with every negative and positive person you meet. take things as they come and do not stress as much over the little things.
i try to be myself but it feels like i can’t. not 100% because i feel like i’ll scare them all away. my head drowns itself in thoughts that make no sense and make me feel crazy and i feel like i can’t talk to anyone about it. it feels lonely.
Why won’t they notice how sad I am?
I wouldn't wish on my greatest enemy the feeling of your chest collapsing, your breath being taken away, and the feeling of emptiness.
We accept the love we think we deserve.
the perks of being a wallflower
but how can i love someone when i don’t know how to love myself
depression
The defenition of depression is; feelings of severe despondency and dejection. Although you do feel these emotions while in depression there are a lot of other factors. Depression is a bunch of negative feelings wrapped into one. Anger, self-hatered, uselessness. Depression is the big elephant in the room that nobody wants to talk about. 20% of teenagers are depressed before the reach adulthood and only 30% of that gets reported and treated. Depression needs to be discussed and those people have a right to be heard. But other times people do not want to discuss it, and that’s understandable because you feel as though your alone in the world. But your not. You have people who care, never forget that.