isipan @un-tangled-thoughts - Tumblr Blog

To be honest, I’m loving the company of being alone.

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I've been feeling uneasy lately and I know to myself that there is something inside of me that needs to go out but I just can't! I just really can't.

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Lately, I've been feeling unmotivated. I feel like my life is all over the place and I don't have control over it anymore. I think I'm starting to fade. I am fading.

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Have you ever thought that maybe one day you might actually hurt someone you love because of your selfishness, impulsivity, and stupidity?

Lately, I was thinking of breaking up with my boyfriend because I feel like I'm no good to him. He's so good, kind, and has a pure heart, and looking at him, staring at his innocent eyes, sometimes I question myself if I even deserve this. I have done many awful things while I am in this relationship and he did nothing but love me in the best way he can. I cheated and yet he's here. He truly loves me and I can feel that but I'm starting to doubt myself. Why can't I reciprocate the same level and amount of love he is giving? Why can't I just stop doing stupid things that hurt him? Don't get me wrong, I love my boyfriend more than anything else in the world but have you ever felt like sometimes your soul just goes out in your body then you are all blank and suddenly you don't have control over your actions? I know I'm not making sense right now but sometimes even though I know it's a bad thing I still do it. Why? I think because I'm selfish. To be honest, writing this and posting this on Tumblr makes me wanna cry. It's giving me chills.

I'm sorry if I'm making this post long but I just really have to do this to ease the burden I am feeling. Just recently I was diagnosed with Hepatitis B because I've had multiple partners with whom I had one nightstand before. And now I am afraid that my boyfriend might catch it too so I was thinking of breaking up with him to protect him and to distance myself from someone who deserves way more better than I am. I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I am sharing this secret to this platform as this is the only place I think these thoughts should be said.