A word about sam, dean and John.
There is this amazing moment when Azazel is wearing John, trying to kill Dean, and Dean begs for his dad not to kill him–and he stops. But I never hear anything about the other side of the scene.
Sam, staring down the Colt at his dad. Being told by his Dad to kill the Demon-to kill him. And you can see him considering it. His dad has absolved him, the same way he absolved his brother of the ones he killed. His hand is steady, and he is just looking down at him.
It’s Dean that tells him not to. It’s Dean that finally realizes that they are stronger together. And that yes, sometimes there is a sacrifice play, but not like this. Even John doesn’t get it, not right then.
Because he goes and does the expedient thing, he makes a deal for Dean. After everything, he makes a deal for dean.
Do you know why this is important? Because that moment, that moment where Sam, the one who was always railing against him and his ‘cause’ realized that family was more important than anything (As he tells his dad in the car.) I think this is the thing that keeps John from breaking on the rack. That his Son believed so strongly that the three of them were stronger together he was willing to defy his father’s order, and common sense, to save his family.
John, of course then responds by being an idiot, he’s a father, they do stupid things. But in the one moment, on the other side of the colt, Sam got two things he thought he always wanted. Azazel dead, and out from under his father, away from the 'crusade’ from the 'madness’ that his father had inflicted on him. But he realized that he was just doing what he thought was right. He was just trying to protect his boys from the thing that killed their mom. The thing he was Terrified would come back and kill his sons too.
I think John had always considered himself a dead man. That was why he didn’t even think about it, he made the sacrifice play. He would rather die and go to hell, never seeing mary again, than admit he can’t protect his boys anymore than he could protect his wife.
In the end it was all three of them who killed Azazel. Family.











