the moment her back hit the sheets, something inside her snapped. not because he had overpowered her. not because his body caged hers so easily, cold and heavy above her, as if the underworld itself had decided to take a shape and press her into the dark. fear would have been easier. fear would have made sense. fear was clean. but this was not fear. it was rage, burning so violently through her chest that for one breath she thought she might split open beneath it. his hands at her waist, his blood still staining the space between them, his voice in her ear like smoke, like temptation ⸻ like another chain.
her breath came hard, uneven, violet flickering beneath the red still poisoning her gaze. she could feel it. gods, she could feel every bit of it. the hatred, the heat, the darkness trying to curl itself around the softest parts of her and squeeze until nothing bloomed there anymore. and that was what terrified her most. not him. not his strength. not the blade tossed aside as if her attempt at freedom had been nothing more than a child’s tantrum. it was the part of her that had wanted to sink the dagger deeper. the part of her that had wanted him gone so badly it had forgotten, for one horrible second, what her hands were meant to bring into the world. life. warmth. spring. not this.
persephone stared up at him, lips parted, breath trembling, but she did not look away. even pinned beneath him, even with his body trapping hers against the dark sheets, forcing her thighs apart, welcoming himself in between them, but she did not shrink. if anything, the hatred made her braver. made her chin lift. made a warmth she had not known until know creep up within her core. made her eyes burn brighter through the corruption ⸻ still staining them red at the edges. her hair had spilled around her, amber tangled across the pillows, across his arm, across the blood smeared between them. she looked ruined and divine all at once, ⸻ spring dragged into death’s bed and still somehow blooming there out of spite.
« don’t. » her voice came low, breathless, but not weak. never weak. « don’t you dare make this sound like something i chose because it was already waiting inside me. you turned me into this ⸻ you and your darkness. »
her hands moved between them, not to push him away this time, not yet, but to press against his chest where the wound had already begun to mean nothing. her palms met cold skin, blood slick beneath her fingers, and still she held him there with all the fury her body could not contain. « you do not get to lock me in darkness for years and then act surprised when something in me starts to rot. » her voice shook harder now, but it was anger that did it, not fear. « you left me in the dark long enough for something to go wrong, hades. that does not make it my nature. that is your nature. not mine. »
the fates whispered still, faint and delighted at the edges of her mind, urging her toward cruelty, toward surrender, toward the easy shape of hatred. and gods, hatred was easy. hatred was warm. hatred filled the places where sunlight used to live and made her feel less hollow ⸻ for a moment. but beneath it, something softer still clawed for air. something green. something golden. her fingers curled against his chest, nails biting into pale skin, and the movement brought her closer rather than away. she hated that too. no she hated the way she did not hate it. it made her feel warmth in places she should not. she hated the way her heart hammered as if it did not understand the difference between danger and desire. « all you had to do was let me go. » the words slipped out quieter, almost too soft for the violence between them, and that softness made them worse. « that is all. one merciful thing. one decent thing. »
then her eyes hardened again, the red flaring violently through violet. « but you could not, could you? » her hand slid higher blood streaking beneath her touch, and she smiled then. nothing spring-like in the shape of it, except perhaps the promise that even beautiful things could poison. « because you are selfish. » her voice dropped into something sharper, something intimate enough to cut.
she shifted beneath him, not trying to escape his hold, not giving him the satisfaction of seeing her struggle blindly against it. instead, her thighs tightened around him with unconscious defiance, her body arching just enough to make the space between them even more dangerous. her breath caught at the contact, but she turned the sound into a laugh, bitter ⸻ and beautiful. « how desperate you must be to mistake survival for desire. » but the lie tasted sharp in her mouth, because it was not only survival. and the knowledge of that made her angrier still, made the light inside her flare so violently it almost hurt. flowers had thorns. spring had storms. life itself tore the earth open before it bloomed, and perhaps he had forgotten that. perhaps everyone had. perhaps they had all looked at softness and thought of it as harmless.
« i hate you. » this time, the words did not break. they burned clean. « i hate you so deeply it scares me. i hate that i think of your death and something inside me answers yes before i can stop it. i hate that they found that part of me because of you. because you made my world smaller and smaller until ⸻ the only thing left to reach for was a blade. »
« but that hatred is not proof that i am like you. it is proof that you have taken too much. » her breathing trembled again, but her gaze did not. the violet was still there beneath the red, flickering, wounded, fighting. « spring needs light, hades. not cages. not punishment ⸻ not you. » the softness in her did not disappear when she said it. her face lifted closer to his, close enough that her breath brushed his mouth, close enough that the hatred between them felt like another body in the bed. « and if you think you can break me, » she whispered, voice soft enough to be mistaken for tenderness by someone foolish, « then you are even more foolish than i already thought you were. king of the dead you are, but you do not have the power to ruin me. »