Someday this pain will be useful to you.

Two-Spirit Ojibwe Currently lost, but I'm trying to find my way back. I iced to march Winterguard and Drum Corps.

[olearypoetry]

[art--felt]

I remember first learning that you can cry from any emotion, that emotions are chemical levels in your brain and your body is constantly trying to maintain equilibrium. so if one emotion sky rockets, that chemical becomes flagged and signals the tear duct to open as an exit to release that emotion packaged neatly within a tear. Everything made sense after learning that. That sudden stability of your emotions after crying. How crying is often accompanied by the inability to feel any other emotion in that precise moment. And it is especially beautiful knowing that it is even possible to experience so much beauty or love or happiness that your body literally can’t hold on to all of it. So what I’ve learned is that crying signifies that you are feeling as much as humanely possible and that is living to the fullest extent. So keep feeling and cry often and as much as needed

[wishyroses]

SHIT WHAT

[teal-deer]

Also let yourself cry. It really is a biochemical release valve to dump out all the chemicals that make you feel stuff.

I honestly think one reason men in western culture have so many problems is that we don’t let them cry, and literally their brains get stuffed with all this crap that doesn’t have a release valve. Men, please cry. You’ll feel better. It’s ok. You are not lesser for taking care of your health.

[freewillandphysics]

This is why tears from different emotions look different under an electron microscope. They’re literally made up of different things. 

Happy tears are structurally different than sad tears than angry tears than overwhelmed tears etc.

[samthe-onion-nigga]

I looked it up, cuz that tidbit was dope to me and..

[vintar]

i’m watching a british youtuber’s birthday stream and an aussie viewer sent in a comment saying “why was he born so beautiful, why was he born at all? because he had no say in it, no say in it at all” which was received with confused existential horror, and this is how i just discovered that australian happy birthday songs are not universal

[argumate]

oops

[languageoclock]

do you not sing this in other countries?!?!??

[stele3]

NO we do not sing a lament for someone’s personal beauty wishing they’d never been born. That is some weird Greek tragedy shit.

[depresseddisneyprincess]

here’s to those who didn’t make it to 2019 and here’s to those who didn’t think they’d make it to 2019

[sugarmoonaki]

It wasn’t until 1951 that Canada removed the ban on Indigenous ceremonial practices with the amending of the Indian Act.

The US also finally removed their ban on Indigenous religion with the creation of American Indian Religious Freedom Act in 1978.

These years are not so far away from our current reality. We are still feeling the effects of genocide.

We, Indigenous people, are strong. We will revive. We will reflect. We will carry our culture in our hearts.

Those who came from a traditional family despite the scrutiny from lateral violence and white people… It is definitely a blessing to have that knowledge of traditions.

Those who didn’t grow up in a traditional family, it’s okay. Colonialism tried their hardest to take away something from you, but it was imbedded in you that can never be stripped. Hold your heart, that is where your ancestors are.

[stylishjunkdrawer]

has this been done yet

[slavery]

I feel unlovable and it breaks my heart daily 

[diaryofandnwoman]

[nativenews]

[usamilovelove-deactivated202005]

wtf

[usamilovelove-deactivated202005]

this post is just calling anti feminists racist

[geekandmisandry]

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[voidambassador]

Would you look at that, the shoe fits

[drhds]

Which one of you Gays photoshopped the glass slipper into a Louboutin 

[batfangzz]

omfg first off WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK and second @drhds it’s LOUIS VUITTON NOT LOUBOUTIN 

[oppa-homeless-style]

give me your fucking wig

[kama-aina-killmyself]

Theres discorse here but im not sure what kind

[futureblackwakandan-deactivated]

Did they think Louis Vuitton and Louboutins were the same thing?

[goth-aunt]

Yes they did

[kontrollsysteme]

wow

[997]

this post deleted tumblr from the app store

[mmmbuttery]

The 2019 ACA (Affordable Care Act) enrollment period has been shortened from 90 days to 45 days (November 1-December 15, 2018) and the advertising budget to promote open enrollment has been slashed in an effort to sabotage the program. You’re probably not seeing a lot of advertising (read: zero) about the enrollment window online or on TV. 

https://www.healthcare.gov/

[miamistax]

ACA OPEN ENROLLMENT HAS BEGUN

Reblog because Trump doesn’t want you to know.

[alexander]

Gays on their way to get iced coffee in the morning

[diaryofandnwoman]

[lemonaades]

[mhmm-honeybee]

daily reminders from beyoncè.

[filmtrash]

Why you don't answer your messages?

because i am in a permanent state of breakdown

[audreyii-fic]

[source]

[allthecanadianpolitics]

Aboriginal women say they were sterilized against their will in hospital

An aboriginal woman in Saskatoon alleges she experienced forced sterilization at a local hospital. And she's not alone. Today, we hear those stories and how they are part of a too-common pattern in our country's history.

“I’m laying there, scared enough, not wanting this done, telling her I didn’t want it done. All of a sudden I smell something burning. If I could’ve moved my legs I probably would’ve kicked her.”- Brenda Pelletier on being sterilized against her will

Brenda Pelletier checked in to Royal University Hospital in Saskatoon five years ago to give birth to her baby girl. She left, with her tubes tied. The tubal ligation procedure happened, she says, after she was pressured into it by hospital staff, while she was in a vulnerable state.

And as a Métis woman, Brenda Pelletier’s experience appears not to be an isolated case.

At least three other aboriginal women have come forward to say that they too were pressured to be sterilized at the Saskatoon hospital in recent years.

Continue Reading.

[happily-morgan]

Ok but this is true!!! I was 19 years old when i went into the hospital to give birth to my first child and while i was laying in bed reading and signing consent forms i came across one that woukd give them.permission to tie my tubes. The nurse kept telling me i didnt have to read them all that they were all about my stay in the hospital and intake forms and when i began to read that particular form the nurse came to me laughed nervously and said well we put that in there just in case you wanted to get your rubes tied. I then asked if they always gave them to woman giving birth she said no, the doctor had asked for thematic be put in there “just in case” I didnt want any future children. The nurse then went on to ask me about my future and if i was really sure i wanted to have more children or not. Until my mom came intimate room to check up on me and the nurse then took all the papers from me and left. For the rest of my delivery the nurses refused to give me medication for the pain or an epidural saying it was too early for that and it might stop my labour. I honestly think they withheld pain medication and the epidural to show me how hard child birth can be. Afterwards when they were releasing me the nurse asked me again if i was sure i didnt want to get ny tubes tied. Which i said no to. She then went on and explained thaf if i did i woukd just have to make an appointment with my doctor and i would be in and out in no time at all. That is my experience with the Canadian healthcare system and being a native woman. It is wrong that anyone would try and force something like that on a 19 year old. Please share. Let it be known what is happening to native woman. We have rights just like any other woman and shouldn’t be pushed into suxh decision at such a young age.

[rosslynpaladin]

Hey white folks with uteruses who do not want or should not have kids, 

you know how you’re outraged about how hard it is to get a Doctor to agree to sterilize you even to save your life? 

Guess what else they do? Double your outrage.

[twodotsknowwhy]

And those two issues are not unrelated. White supremacy pushes an idea of who should be having kids and who shouldnt. White, abled women are prioritized especially ones who arent poor, they should have many kids, to further white supremacy, while those deemed “undesireable” (people who arent white, people who are disabled, people who are poor and uneducated and especially people who are more than one of those things) should be kept from having children for the good of society.

So when doctors refuse to sterilize white, educated women who want it, they are functioning within the same thought process as when doctors sterilize non-white women against their will.

[feltelures]

Since this article came out in 2016, a class action lawsuit has been filed by two of the victims.

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2017/oct/27/canada-indigenous-women-sterilisation-lawsuit

The Aboriginal Peoples Television Network (APTN) has reported on the results of the internal review of the Royal University Hospital.

http://aptnnews.ca/2017/07/27/long-awaited-review-into-forced-sterilization-of-indigenous-women-at-saskatoon-hospital-finds-covert-and-overt-racism-among-staff/

APTN has also done an investigation focusing on a few of the stories of the women who were sterilised against their will.

http://aptnnews.ca/2017/01/27/aptn-investigates-against-their-will/

[allthecanadianpolitics]

Update in 2018: STILL HAPPENING:

Indigenous women still being coerced into sterilizations across Canada, Ontario senator says

[awkward-teabag]

The history of birth control in Canada is riddled with this racism and white supremacy. Some of the first women to get birth control? People of colour and poor white people, because non-white babies were a threat and if you were poor and white you were considered bad stock.

If you were reasonably well off and white, you couldn’t get birth control because it was considered your duty to pump out white babies of good stock.

So it shouldn’t be a surprise it’s going on to this day. Canada and women’s rights in Canada are founded on racism and genocide.

[justavpdthings]

I once said to my therapist after a particularly hard week, “I wish I could just fix all of my problems and move on to live a normal life” And he looked at me and said, “There is no finish line”.

Those words felt like a stab in my heart, but they were words that I desperately needed to hear. There is no finish line to my problems. It’s not possible to get through a certain point in life and have my problems simply disappear. And it’s unhealthy to think that way. Up to that point in my life, that’s what I though recovery was. I thought it was like working your way forward until it seems like your problems never existed in the first place.

The finish line does not exist. Instead, everyone has a capacity for recovery. You may never completely rid yourself of whatever causes you pain, but you will move miles from where you started. Don’t set your expectations too high and create that theoretical finish line in your life, or you will only end up chasing it. Instead, focus on your own capacity for recovery, and be proud of yourself for every step you take.

[justavpdthings]

Just saw Eighth Grade and reblogging the heck out of this bc wow it gets so much better if you just take it one step at a time

[mintedwitcher]

Okay but I cant help but hear “there is no finish line” and immediately respond with “then why am i running the race?” What is the point*? Where is the benefit of putting in the effort if its not going to ever end? If i am always going to battle I would rather just give up the fight.

*(Im not saying recovery is bad or whatever ppl wanna reach for, this is my personal view)

[dalniente]

That’s the thing, though: it’s not a race. It’s a garden.

No matter what your garden looks like in the beginning, you have to weed it before it can grow into what you want it to be. And when your flowers are planted and growing, you still have to keep up with the weeding. You have to keep up with the weeding even after your flowers are tall. A garden can’t survive on its own. There will always be weeds.

But there will be flowers, too, if you give them space to grow. Give them room, give them time, and keep checking in to make sure the weeds don’t get too tall. You will always have weeds, but you will also have flowers.

And maybe your garden doesn’t look exactly like you imagined it would. Maybe you aren’t sure how to get rid of that one big thistle in the corner. Maybe you’ve got bindweed and nutgrass (which will always, always come back). Either way, you’ve got flowers now, and it’s a nice place to sit and look around, and it looks nicer than it did before, and it’s yours. Keep going with it. If you miss a few days, or months, or years, that’s okay. Pull up the weeds when you’re ready, uncover your old flowers and plant some new ones, and keep going.

Gardening is a process, not a project or a problem that can be solved. The same is true for your mental health. Weeds will grow, but you’ll get better and better at pulling them, and you’ll grow flowers, too.