☥~My Bleeding Dark Heart~☥

Confessions of a Transmasc Goth

[louisegluckpdf]

thr funniest part of therapy to me is when you first come in and you're exchanging niceties and they say "hello! how are you" and you say "im fine how are you :)" and then 30 seconds later they put on their therapist voice and say "so how are you doing?" and you go well lisa. believe it or not im doing Bad

[rave-lord-nito]

Hat

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Item: Big Wizard Hat

[laziestgirlintown]

@imaginationshow care to, ah, toss your hat into the ring? ;)

[imaginationshow]

Cute baby hat you’ve got there!

[rave-lord-nito]

Holy shit yeah that’s a hat

[varney-sioux]

POV I'm telling you something I learned about rocks:

[nerdygaymormon]

[varney-sioux]

So Steven Universe has become my new special interest since I binge-watched both series and the movie during my recovery. I hadn't finished it beforehand, and it maybe wasn't the best choice while on pain meds, coming off anesthesia, and feeling pretty abandoned by friends and family, especially since I watched all of future in one day (aside from the episodes missing from Hulu and in the wrong order, which didn't help). But now it's literally most of what I think and talk about, I quote it constantly, and I made my ACNH island SU themed, and have been painting/drawing allot of SU themed art. I also bought save the light, Beach-a-Palooza card game from Cryptozoic, and have been adding everything SU themed to wishlists on online shopping apps.

I'm really sad though that since it's over, every official SU thing has been discontinued pretty much, and as such, everything is severely expensive 😭😭😭 I wish I didn't feel like I needed everything SU related now, because I probably won't ever be able to afford it before it's all gone. It really sucks having a special interest that is so expensive 😞

[bludmd23]

Hessonite vs Hessonite!! Tw blood

[diamondstripe1]

hm i want to start a gay camp not a conversion camp because that’s ick, but like a safe space for queer people there can be stuff like Gender Euphoria Week, Frog Searching, things like that

[varney-sioux]

So I have officially had top surgery. Tomorrow will be the start of my forth week since top surgery and final week of wearing the compression vest.

I was wondering if anyone had tips on getting moving and active (slowly, within restrictions) to gently get moving again? Like physical therapy exercises I can do at home, if anyone has ever had any. My surgeon is unfortunately new to top surgery and doesn't have allot of resources for that stuff. They certainly seem to know what they're doing surgically, but just haven't been at it long enough to I guess develop knowledge of this type of stuff to recommend. I'm definitely going to request to go to physical therapy as soon as I'm able to get ahold of my pain doctor. But I just was wondering if anyone knew things to get me started at home, because I feel like there has to be someone with resources out there that I'm not finding.

[songsofanangel]

Gabriel's Top Surgery Fund!, organized by Gabriel Kanka

Hello! My name is Gabriel. I'm a transgender man who's into art, music, animals, and good f… Gabriel Kanka needs your support for Gabriel's

https://gofund.me/34349fcc

Hi, everyone! I'm raising money to get top surgery. I've been trying to get it covered by insurance, with no luck. My savings has been nuked, and I don't make enough money to be able to save up for it again.

This surgery would allow me to go out in public without fear of being "clocked" and hurt. I'd be able to exercise and work without excruciating back pain. My body would start to match who I know I am, and the relief would be immense.

Your help would change my life. Please consider donating at the link on this post. Thank you!

[natalieironside]

[daughter-of-sapph0]

"kids are detransitioning"

no. actually, children now feel comfortable and accepted enough to experiment with their gender, pronouns, name, and presentation. and while some of them end up realizing they were cis the entire time, they now have a new understanding and appreciation for one of the most marginalized and abused groups of people in the world.

there, I fixed your shitty headline.

[umbrella-hr-department]

Also quite honestly, if kids are detransitioning- so what? Honestly, good for them.

Nobody is doing surgery on trans kids. Nobody is doing anything more than MAYBE puberty blockers (which are clinically proven to be safe and are also the go to treatment for cis kids going through precocious puberty). If they decide that actually they're not the gender they thought they were, GOOD.

I want kids to feel safe trying things out. I want kids to experiment with their self expression, be it clothes or hair or gender. If it turns out to be "just a phase" I would far rather it be a phase that they are loved and supported through rather than something they feel is shameful and that they have to hide. I want them to feel like there's no pressure to go one way or the other, just to feel safe to figure themselves out in whatever way makes them comfortable.

Protect trans kids. Protect detrans kids. Protect questioning kids. Full fucking stop.

[headspace-hotel]

Investing in something that turned out to be not what you wanted, but nonetheless left you with insight into who you want to be? That's being alive for ya

[jewishvitya-movingblogs]

Posted this on Twitter: I'm tired of the fear over trans kids. My son thought he's trans. Lived a year with different clothes, name and pronouns. Came back and said "I think I'm not a girl after all." We switched things back. Poof!

Side effects: he knows he'll have support in journeys of self discovery.

There's literally no harm. None. Years later and he's so open with me about his feelings and his needs. He knows I'll take him seriously and stand by him. He was never in danger just existing for a while as a trans kid, even though he didn't turn out to be one.

[beowulf22121]

"But what if I identify A and wind up B?"

Then you did some exploring followed by some learning, and that is more than some people ever do.

[thatdisasterauthor]

Twitter jut banned mentioning any of your other social media platforms on Twitter. Which is fucking hilarious.

But they didn't include Tumblr.

Tumblr is now one of the only social media platforms you are allowed to talk about on Twitter.

This is fucking hilarious.

[angelinelitalady]

All I'm thinking about is how this would suck for artists. Like artists who do commissions. Elon's about to lose a quarter of his user base

[thatdisasterauthor]

Oh yeah, it would suck for artists. But this only lasted about 24 hours before all trace of the policy vanished because it is in fact illegal, apparently.

[varney-sioux]

37 days until my top surgery... And... Oof... My anxiety is overwhelming. How does one cope with this anxiety? I've been looking for apps and resources. I was recommended actually to start looking on Tumblr, which I'm not sure why I hadn't thought of, but I decided to come on here again. In other news, I'm in gender affirming group therapy now, my parents still don't really support my transition at all and kind of ignore that it's happening in hopes that it'll go away. I'm a little concerned about my dad's reaction to me coming to visit with something missing is going to be, because they're bound to notice sometime. I stay there allot when I can't be home alone while my bf is at work. They have the ability to see. Even if I slowly work down like I'm planning (I've been binding when I'm over there, and I'm maybe going to wear padding after? Idk and then get slowly flatter). He's just been a little irrational lately and I'm not exactly sure it would be the safest thing to just jump right into atm. But also I'm not about to wait even longer for top surgery just because my dad's being an asshole. Also I'm 2 years on T as of August. I forget if I posted. My brain is a little scrambled lately. But if anyone has resources on pre top surgery or recommendations for things for anxiety, apps, etc. Any recovery tips too. Really anything top surgery related that can help me feel less anxious. Send them my way. It would be greatly appreciated.

[transbloke]

Sometimes I need the reminder.

[varney-sioux]

I finally got the date...

Top Surgery

01/13/23

[vaulted-ceiling-painted-sky]

🏴‍☠️ Alice and the Pirates coord for a Christmas tea meetup.  Everyone was dressing pretty OTT, so I thought it would be a great opportunity to wear the fancy new hat I special ordered.

Everything is AatP, except the Black Peace Now pants, Killstar skull necklace, Lipton Cunningham brooch, Kreepsville 666 skeleton hand clips, and offbrand rings.

[matticus-nightshade]

My Little Bear’s Cafe Replica Coordinate for Nekocon 2016!  I really loved wearing this look!  I’ve never worn brown in a lolita/boystyle look before and I really like it!?