Hello, she/her, 27, INFP-T, I'm tired as hell this anxiety has taken over my life to the point where I no longer feel it. If you are a TERF or a MAP do not interact with this blog. I love to make friends so message me 🌺🌸 Background by: Chiara Bautista
i hope they never stop using floppy disk icons to indicate saving your file. doesn't matter how obsolete they are it's like honouring someone with a portrait on your currency
so youre telling me that some asshole can just throw together meaningless shit and get notes and attention yet when i put actual thought into the things i say nothing happens i am so fucking done with this bullshit god damn fuck
OC’s reaction to buck getting crushed by the fire truck.
OOF Anon craves violence! Hope this suits your needs!
Pairing: Evan "Buck" Buckley x OC, Evan "Buck" Buckley x Ali Martin
Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Original Female Character, Maddie Buckley, Captain Bobby Nash, Henrietta "Hen" Wilson, Howie "Chimney" Han, Eddie Diaz, Ali Martin, Athena Grant-Nash
Tags: Angst, Near death experiences, Traumatizing experiences, Mentions of bombs, Swearing, Hurt/Comfort, Love confessions, Unrequited love...or is it, Mentions of past abuse, Jealousy, Survivor's guilt, Slight character bashing
TW: Mentions of bombs, Mentions of past abuse
Notes: I had a lot of fun writing this and I may or may not include this in my S.O.S fic.
It's nearly twelve when Raven's phone rings, she's already in bed and not expecting anyone to call. She's especially not expecting Maddie to call her.
"Maddie, what's-" She groggily begins whilst rubbing at her eyes, a strangled sob immediately has her blood running cold. Wide awake now her instincts start working on overtime, "Hey, hey, hey. I'm here, talk to me. Are you okay? Are you having nightmares again, do you want me to come over?" She quickly asks although without waiting for an answer she's already out of bed.
"R-Raven it's not me- I..it's Buck. There was a bomb- it was on the truck-" Maddie explains through heartbroken sobs, it hits her hard. The wind feels knocked out of her as she steadies herself against her closet doors. She takes a few deep breaths as the weight of the situation came crashing down on her.
Right. The bombs. The bombs that had been going off all across the city. The bombs that had everyone worried. The bomb's that had been mostly targeting bureaucratic figures- so why the hell had the fucking 118 been targeted? None of this made sense but none of that mattered right now.
What mattered was that Buck had been caught in one of the bombings and now he was hurt- god was he even still alive? What if he- no. No thinking like that. She swallows back the vile and tears that threaten to consume her, she needs to be strong right now. "Is he still...?" She begins though the words die in her throat- is he still trapped?
"No, no they got him- he's okay. He's on the way to the hospital, I-I'm on my way there but I figured that someone should tell you- oh god Raven..what if he doesn't make it..what if-" Maddie begins to spiral in a panic.
"Maddie. Deep breathes okay? In and out." Raven instructs leading through example taking a few breaths herself hoping to calm herself down before continuing, "He's going to be alright, he's in good hands, he's Buck. He can get through this." Even as the words of encouragement leave her she's not really certain of who she's trying to convince.
It takes her awhile to get to the hospital- turns out a bomb blowing up a firetruck in the middle of the city creates a huge traffic jam. Who knew. As soon as she's through those emergency room doors Maddie practically tackles her into a hug, she's still crying and understandably upset her younger brother was just nearly killed. That thought terrifies Raven- Buck has been there for her so many times, with Julia and Mike, with her parents, and to think that she nearly lost him. To think that he could have died? Without telling him-
Ali catches her eye as she's trying to console Maddie and a wave of guilt washes over her, she's probably wondering why Raven's even here, she's not related nor are they dating so really she's just a concerned friend. Who doesn't belong here. Brushing those thoughts off she gets up to speed with the situation, apparently this all stemmed from a very old grudge and an old call that Bobby and Athena had both been involved in.
The serial bomber had sent a package to Athena's personal address and one had been placed on the ladder truck intended for Bobby with Buck becoming the unintentional target, his leg had been caught under the truck effectively crushing it. Thank fucking god that the 118 was okay and there to help. Thank fucking god that he's okay. Or at least she hopes that he's okay.
When the doctor comes the first person who goes back is Maddie, she's his only blood relative in the hospital. Next is Bobby and Athena, although they're not his real parents they certainly act like it, followed by Hen, Chimney, and Eddie. Every time someone comes back they all hold the same look: it should have been me instead.
Small talk has never been her strong suit but she tries her best as visitors come and go, she offers a shoulder to cry on, she listens and consoles those who are afraid, she doesn't mind -really it's the least she can do. In all honesty she's just biding her time, but for what? Practically everyone has visited Buck except for...her and Ali. It feels like a stalemate just waiting for that final snap of tensions- who's going to get up and see him first?
If Raven gets up first then here comes the shit-storm of non-stop bashing from Ali, but then again if Ali gets up first then Maddie's going to come over and offer her that look. Turns out telling your best-friend's sister how you feel is quite possibly the worst thing ever because she will often hold that over your head. As if sensing the tension between the two of them Athena clears her throat quirking up an eyebrow, she's not leaving it up to them anymore, the night has been long and the last thing anyone wants is a catfight.
Compromise it is.
They both stand simultaneously, eyeing the other with a deep sense of caution or distrust or something. The walk to Buck's room is tense and silent, it's not that Raven doesn't like Ali- although it certainly feels as though Ali doesn't like her- she just hasn't spent a lot of time to get to know her so she doesn't have much to go on....besides the strange amount of hostility from her. She gets that feeling of guilt again but manages to push it back once again.
Buck is deep asleep when they enter the room, not surprising given the amount of pain killing drugs the hospital has given him, and for that Raven is thankful. It makes the ache of seeing him, hurt and vulnerable, burn just a little bit less. Ali, on the other hand, just breaks when she sees him. She begins sobbing again, practically inconsolable- Raven does try, awkwardly putting a comforting hand on her shoulder, "He's going to be okay." She tries.
Wrong choice of words it seems as Ali shakes her head before she's backing out of the room and bolting down the hallway completely overwhelmed. Briefly she can see a flash of something on her face before she's out the door, this isn't something that she ever expected to see and she hadn't been ready for it. Raven sits in the chair by Buck's bedside and sighs quietly.
"So...I don't know if you can really hear me or not, not that you're in a coma or anything- wow I'm bad at this. Anyways um...I need you to be okay, alright? Tonight....it fucking sucks because you, you could have died and I don't know what I'd do without you Buck. You are so amazing, you're brave, you're sweet, you're a cocky-hard headed son of a bitch but god I-" Her voice breaks as the emotional toll weighs down on her, "I love that. I love you. So you have to be alright."
Russian Communists killed more people than Nazis only during the Stalin’s rule. Then we get into Mao and Pol Pot and every other crazy commie leader and it looks even more bleak.
But, u kno, dat’s no real gommunism, and all that…
communist leaders don’t define all communists nor communism as a whole lol whereas nazis want people dead and aim to do that and actually do do that, and this is all nazis not just fascist leaders that happened to be nazi
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I literally live in Russia.
A post-communist country.
My family has directly suffered from communism.
Please sit your Americacentric ass down and listen to people who actually experienced this shit.
And my family comes from Cuba a “PoC” country obliterated by communism. Not here about the other part of the post. Just here to agree that Commies have done damage
Please just tell me you are a troll or something because I am slowly losing all hope in humankind. What do they teach you in schools? What do you actually learn about WWII in high school? I was reading about communism crimes when I was nine years old for fucks sake! How much of an idiot can you be? How ignorant can you be?!
It seems that human stupidity knows no bounds so sit the fuck down. I will give you some history lesson since you must have fallen asleep during it as a kid.
Here are some communism crimes for you to learn about ( just remember that those data are not and never will be complete since ZSRR was a lot smarter than Third Reich and they never really bothered with keeping documentary about their crimes, on the contrary – they were fond of burning it):
- Ukrainian Femine – 15 mln people dead ( more or less) But I guess that starvision and cannibalism are not things that you consider dreadful or anything ~
- ASRR Femine – 2 mln people dead (a lot more for certain, but we are talking about Tatars here so no one gave a shit about them in Soviet Union J).
Take a look, lovely pics, wouldn’t you say?
- Great Terror – 1 mln dead, at least 3 mln send to gulags (which was worse than death).
- Katyń - 21 768 people dead, including 10 000 polish officers.
- Syberian deportation – 1 mln 350 000 people send to Syberia. Soviets were throwing 60 people into one car during -40C freezing cold , the journey took few weeks without any toilet or food. Not many survived to see their camps of prolonged death.
- Kazahstan deportation – 36 000 people – some of them were just thrown into grasslands to die ( no food, no clothes ) since they weren’t able to work.
Soviets didn’t like to bother themselves with building camps. They just mostly thrown people out of trains to die so they didn’t have to bury them, prove their identity, inform families.
But when they did build ones, oh boi, ooohhhh boiii. I’m not even going to talk about Gulags. Here, take this and read. Please read it. I beg you.
In case you are stubborn – 60 fucking mln people!
- The NKVD prisoner massacres – 100 000 dead.
- Cheka Red Terror – 250 000 dead – read about Cheka, they were such sweet buddies :3
- Polish Operation of the NKVD - 111 091 dead, 28 744 send to Gulags which (if you read the book you will know) was much worse.
- Bulgarian collectivization – 100 000 people dead.
- East Germany “repression” – 100 000 people dead.
- Augustów roundup – 7 000 people (mostly AK soldiers) tortured, send to prisons never to return.
- Justizmord – 1944 -1956 in Poland - 2 mln prisoners
- Rumunian collectivization – 300 000 people dead
- Hungary – just read about Államvédelmi Hatóság, have fun ;*
- Mao for the end – 65 mln people dead, read about Cultural Revolution, read about anything, please!!!
And please stop spreading this almost 70 years old propaganda that Soviets joined allies to fight Nazis. They joined allies to bring their regime to east Europe and West let them! Have you heard about the Molotov–Ribbentrop Pact? Yeah, they were actually sweet buddies before Hitler decided to cut it off. And when eastern immigrants were trying to tell the world what was happening West laughed at them.
Read about Warsaw Uprising – soviets help was literally invaluable.
Now here you have some quotes from The Black Book of Communism (please read this too):
Courtois considers Communism and Nazism to be distinct but comparable totalitarian systems. He says that Communist regimes have killed “approximately 100 million people in contrast to the approximately 25 million victims of the Nazis”. Courtois claims that Nazi Germany’s methods of mass extermination were adopted from Soviet methods. As an example, he cites the Nazi SS official Rudolf Höss who organized the infamous extermination camp, Auschwitz concentration camp. According to Höss:
The Reich Security Head Office issued to the commandants a full collection of reports concerning the Russian concentration camps. These described in great detail the conditions in, and organization of, the Russian camps, as supplied by former prisoners who had managed to escape. Great emphasis was placed on the fact that the Russians, by their massive employment of forced labor, had destroyed whole peoples.
Courtois argues that the Soviet crimes against peoples living in the Caucasus and of large social groups in the Soviet Union could be called “genocide”, and that they were not very much different from similar policies by Nazis. Both Communist and Nazi systems deemed “a part of humanity unworthy of existence. The difference is that the Communist model is based on the class system, the Nazi model on race and territory.” Courtois stated that:
The “genocide of a “class” may well be tantamount to the genocide of a “race"—the deliberate starvation of a child of a Ukrainian kulak as a result of the famine caused by Stalin’s regime “is equal to” the starvation of a Jewish child in the Warsaw ghetto as a result of the famine caused by the Nazi regime.
He added:
After 1945 the Jewish genocide became a byword for modern barbarism, the epitome of twentieth-century mass terror… more recently, a single-minded focus on the Jewish genocide in an attempt to characterize the Holocaust as a unique atrocity has also prevented the assessment of other episodes of comparable magnitude in the Communist world. After all, it seems scarcely plausible that the victors who had helped bring about the destruction of a genocidal apparatus might themselves have put the very same methods into practice. When faced with this paradox, people generally preferred to bury their heads in sand… Communist regimes have victimized approximately 100 million people in contrast to the approximately 25 million of the Nazis.
Thank you for your post ,it really sums up the horror of communism but there are a few things that I wanted to add. First of all these numbers are just estimated ones because we dont know true data cause the communists disposed of lots of documents so the family members couldnt ask for compensation. Lots of people gone missing or disappeared or never existed in the system because they killed them and destroyed the evidence.
Second women were treated like animals, rape, forced nudity, assult and torture was very common in the gulag but also for those women whose family tried to oppose the system or who were just unlucky. And the ideal communist women picture that people still use as to symbolize the empowerment of women (you guys know which one) actually represent a very unreal and impossible ideal. Women supposed to be the perfect work force, the perfect wife and it was obligatory for them to give birth. There was a saying: Giving birth as a youth was glory but as an adult woman it was obligatory. And I dont even speak about the children and their suffering…
Third lots of people who didnt die were tortured, abused and lots of them starved because the commies took away everything they had. (look up Holodomor where in just ukraine millions people died, but the commies starved others in every country).
People also lost the freedom of speech and thought because if they voiced their opinions they could risk to lose their jobs (whole living) or could endanger the lives of their children and their chances to study. And while education and healthcare was free it was pretty bad because the majority were communist followers on these fields, those who disagreed with them had to stay quite 8or in the majority of cases didnt even get in). Lots of time unprofessional teachers who couldnt count even 100 taught in university while doctors who had no idea what they were doing butchered up people.
Nations were forced to forget their history, their language, their cultures, their beliefs instead they had to embrace the soviet customs, lifestyle and fake propaganda.
Whenever countries tried to rebell they were beaten to the ground and no westerners or americans believed or helped us. Lots of russians still deny these facts and westerners and americans still turn a blind eye because it is probably easier that way. And the most horrible thing that communist countries still exist and people are still suffering but nobody cares.
If you are against nazis, you should also be against communists.
Bytheway I also talked about this before communists lots os times falsly accused people of nazism or fascism (unlike the west where they tried to find real nazis) to get their possessions and kill them. Later on they just switched to the state enemy narrative so they could send more people to gulag (ie: children).
“Thank you for your post ,it really sums up the horror of communism” - no, it does not. I didn’t even mention Korea or Cuba or Mongolia and I’m sorry for it. Maybe after my finals I will find another post about this “protect communism” shit so i will be able to include them :).
And I didn’t eleborate those issues I enumerated. But since we live in XXI century I believe that anyone can (and should) simply google it. And there is a lot to read and learn. You western guys have no idea :).
It was still a really good post and you are right lots of thing was left out but I think you still managed to shine some lights on the situation. :) I dont think we will ever be able to completly sum everything they did, especially because communism is still going on in some countries. And yes this whole praise communism is really got out of control. Also this whole nazi thing in the USA, for crying out loud they declared that Millo who is a gay, jew (that is seriously the most unazi thing I have ever heard) and his followers as nazis and that really remind me of what the commies did after the war… This was I was so afraid before. :(
Good luck for your exams! I also have finals. :D
“ lot to read and learn”- that is for sure even I could learn more and more about it, there is just too much stuff but the deeper you go with your research the worse it gets (there is just too much cruelty and horror and corruption).
For the record most Americans only learn about communism in HS and our school system sucks. We’re taught about the basic concept of communism which is that the government determines where u live and how much you make based on your needs and ability. This doesn’t sound bad at all, especially if you’re a poor black kid experiencing the worst parts of our lovely and not so free enterprise system and watching your parents struggle.
Then we learn a little about the cold war or, should I say, “Whose Spy Is It Anyway?” Because everything was made up and the points didn’t matter. As if it was just world leaders in a dick measuring contest.
We’re not taught too much about the world outside of the US and constantly bring hit over the head that WWII was bad, which it was but out of all my years of HS I learned about WWII damn near every year and some of it was conflicting info, sometimes they glossed over shit for the sake of time… it’s just bad.
But that’s beside the point, because when you meet someone who is ignorant if things you’ve experienced you shouldn’t berate them. We’re all ignorant of something… no one knows everything.
I took this from Twitter because it's no joke. A lot of witches tend to keep these lamps so I felt it would be worth bringing up. Please be careful and safe! Nobody wants to lose a fur baby.
Even if you aren't a witch, still please keep this in mind!!!!!
A major difference things like this don’t take into account is animation.
When the original pokemon were designed, they were just static six-bit colorless sprites. They had no clue what was to come in the next 20 years.
Over the next twenty years, pokemon has become insanely popular. Disney level popular. Each game has increased the animation until each one now has a fully animated CG model, rendered in far more detail than the first gen Gameboy sprites could ever dream of. It’s had thousands of cartoon episodes and around two dozen movies.
The newer designs are-
Much easier to animate, and more importantly,
Significantly easier for children to draw.
And that’s ultimately what this franchise boils down to: it has to be accessible to children.
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