i wonder what it’s like, to just give it all up and let myself sink with the whole ship in this ocean of bullshit you keep pouring out on me but i can’t seem to extinguish this fire you put my soul on such a long lost time ago and now i can’t recall so i think i just might go
but then i don’t know so i ask and there’s no god no gold in these golden ages and these empty pages i keep filling up with my words that sound like swords and hit you all though i had sworn i wouldn’t let what’s wrong belong unless it came along with love but where has it gone?
i’m desperate to find a cause and a reason why to this perfect lie which is commonly defined by everyone as “life", how come everything is so bright and yet i can’t seem to find where is it coming from, the light?
it may be for the sky is now covered with clouds and the doubts are storming around and stoning me about
there’s a voice in my head and a hole in my chest dug by those relentless tears i shed where, tell me where is it here, is it ever gonna be ok again or is it where is it when
and is it red, still my heart, i can’t feel it, is it alright? if i spill all of that will of mine like it’s the cheapest ol’ wine one could find and quite pretend it’s just fine for a while
i can’t stop holding onto this hope now i wanna call the pope and ask him what does he do when he feels lost
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this is from “Silences”, soon to be poem collection.
