vivimontsdoc

written documentary of my life lately

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I need a hater to call me fat every single day until a lose all my overweight and am looking like carrie bradshaw

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really bitchy that my tumbler keeps putting ads of fast food to me lol

what are trying to tell me tumbler?

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god, all i want for Christians is fran's body, tks 🙏🏻🙏🏻 I'll be waiting 💌

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this tumblr feels like such a distant life

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and as I lay in bed I see her

I watch her crumble and see her eyes; lifeless

and even though she is me and I'm her

I know all I can do is observe

as she sees the end of the little light in her eyes, I see it grow on mine

and i know all I can do is let her be me, so that I can now no longer be her

- the monster crying in my bed

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I just wanna be a sam jones girly💅💝💌👄

just using man, being super skinny and super successful, and alwayyys fabulous!!

[youlooklikearealbabetoday]

Fleabag (2019) // Derry Girls (2019)

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I'm not sure why I'm coming in here to say this, but I just feel so alone

I'm so tired of living this life, my life... I don't know what I did wrong but I'm stuck, I don't have any friends, my bf has his own life, I don't have people to talk to in my days... I just so tired of living this life alone

maybe I'm just tired of living at all

[lolita-lifeless]

the amount of calories in alcohol should be ILLEGAL

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so, my gw is 58kg, currently at 65kg. I have been at 58kg before so I know how I will look , and it is not how I want to.

I want to loose the fat in my tighs, have just a normal tigh with almost no fat in it, but 58 won't do it, I'm afraid not even 50 will... I'm too afraid of going to the gym, so what the fuck do I do?

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im such a fucking fraud!!! its been 10 days, im eating like theres no tomorrow

please, judge me on this post!! I need some motivation (since me looking like a caw ain't doing it)

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I have some real bad anxiety with people that I don't know, especially if it's people especial to someone that is special to me.

I'm on vacation on my bf aunt house, and it is so fucking uncomfortable, people either are always trying too much to make me comfortable or making some sort of joke about the fact that I barely speak, it's absolute hell for me.

but having an ed and being so fucking uncomfortable in a place is so weird, people think you're not eating because you're shy, but really youre just trying to not be a fat cow

what in the actual fuck did I had in my head when I accepted this????

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can't wait for this vacation to be over!! so tired of people acting as if I'm a stray cat that has never eaten!!!

[scarletts-thoughts]

where are my lazyrexics at ?!? aka those of us who don’t like exercising so we rely purely on st@rving to be thin lmaoo

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first day of vacation on the beach, I have to put on a bikini and at this moment I would rather kms

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had a near death experience last night, really not fun at all, but my sweet broken brain only kept thinking "well, good punishment from eating all that food today"

lol this might not be the place to be talking about this, but I will anyway

yesterday, my boyfriend and I were going to a place in his motorcycle, we were in the highway when suddenly it broke; not just stopped working, like there's in the chain in the tires that make it move, this thing got out of place and got stuck in the tire. there's was a huge truck coming right after us, and my bf was really fucking quick, he pulled the motorcycle to side, we jumped from it, them he pulled it out of the way (with huge strength, cause the tire was stuck and wouldn't move).

so, we were stuck in the middle of the road at almost midnight, no one around, and close to a dangerous neighborhood, I was scared to death, omg, I keep thinking "if the almost accident didn't kill me, a man surely will". we waited for his dad to come help us for like 30min and then my cousin picked me up while they fixed it.

man, craziest shit of my life and I didn't even totally panicked

just hope all of that adrenaline killed some calories lol

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been so fucking depressed these days i barely even feel hungry... guess one good thing comes from this need to kms everyday