vee

screaming into the abyss - hi this acc is just for me to maybe vent and reblog a ton of stuff so jus ignore little ol’me

[vizybs]

something something time travel and loving your past self flawed and all

[vizybs]

/vent

woah! so its been a reaallllyyy hot minute since ive used tumblr… let alone this account…

Not to say my life has been a pocket full of sunshine i guess i just have been coping better??

Anyways tonight has been shit and its cus of my close friends so i cant rlly complain to them.

Basically im asian and all my friends are hispanic so i dont really talk about my culture much to them. Honestly im really understanding of how they are sometimes cus thats just how it is in their culture but one of the guys said something that really pissed me off.

So one of my guy friends said like i guess a racist joke abt asians but it wasnt even rlly a joke it was just like those middle schools saying like ching chong or smth stupid like that—honestly he seems really apologetic about it so i dont mind

However, my other guy friends really pissed me off because after i was like ‘yea thats actually like racist’ and my best friend was telling them off my other guy friend tried defending it. It was some super racist bs like ‘oh well factually asians have smaller eyes’ and legit i just hung up cus. Are you f-ing serious? Like we’re about to go to college and you’re saying this stupid shit.

Like the racist joke was one thing cus like yea i get it you probably didnt think it was that serious and have actually genuinely apologized like its cool. On the other hand trying to fully defend it by being like absurdly racist like?? Genuinely the hell? Like if this is a topic of debate thats another thing but I personally told you ‘hey thats actually not cool’ and you try to argue like???

Honestly im just really mad right now and he seems sorta apologetic but its like he doesnt understand why im so upset. Im gonna deal with this in the morning cause this isnt really culture difference to me its just being ignorant and stupid.

[bunmellos]

woah😳…

[soaked-doors]

pirates and their unconventional weddings (marines crashed it seven times)

[kizkataz]

when a ship involves one character being so utterly devoted to the other that its borderline religious????? when the devoted character is written to be seen as a sinner, or damned, or a non believer??? and the other character an angel or god-like???? i simply eat that shit UP how can you not??

[vizybs]

how do it explain to my family and friends that i dont wanna hang out with them.. not bc like i hate them or watever but if i dont have 40hrs of straight nothing on the weekends i get so tired like i dont wanna talk to anyone on the weekends leave me alone its not u it me. Like my friend is like getting used to being alone or whatever so she kinda fails to understand that like me having my alone time is like my favorite thing 100% of the time like i actively like having alone time.

[tenderwatches]

sometimes you need dialogue tags and don't want to use the same four

[stories-by-hails]

For anyone who needs this

[writing-prompt-s]

!!!!

[vizybs]

being left on read by like 5 friends KILL ME.

[vizybs]

Confusing colds

Vent//

I was scrolling on insta and I realized that my sorta family friend cousin unfollowed me and had me unfollow her. I dont really like to go down that spiral and think about what i did wrong, what happened, whatever. But like I never really talked to her much so its more just, confusion? Ive never really interacted with her aside from some positive comments so i guess it just feels a bit bewildering to me. So i guess she doesnt mess with me for some reason? Dunno, i wanted to leave it at that but ive started thinking of asking my cousin whose closer with her if there was any particular reason or anything? If i had done something hurtful to her i would wanna correct it but im just genuinely really confused??

[vizybs]

would it b weird if i jus... popped into a vc... idk how discord etiquette is i juswanna talk abt sonic art TT

[vizybs]

dming for a thing and jus found out this guy in the dm circle is the rando thats been freaking me out 🫤 not great…

[goofballproximitysurveyor-deact]

when people put "trigger warning" on their content without specifying what the trigger warning is for

[ohtehnoeszombies]

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[zeesqueere]

does it?

does it though?

[pileofknives]

Fuck is going on here

[liina-puff]

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[therustyskull]

Son of no notes ghost post.

[nim-lock]

obsessed with how tumblr just sometimes Does This 

[maryland-officially]

oh shi

[veryspecificanon]

may i add that it shows up on 'top post' like this

[vizybs]

no me miras con esos ojosss

[vizybs]

[vent bc tday sucked]

everyone in my family is fucking crazy idk why i get surprised then batshit shit happens

context! my father pushed my sister but also my sister took the car out 6-7+ hrs than she was supposed to and i hate my life

like i feel so melodramatic and that im complaining about nothinga nd that the shit that happens rlly isnt that bad but it is actually bad my sister getting hurt and maybe kicked out is bad my parents are awful my sisters awful i wanna lie down for awhile

sometimes im like man whyd i try 2 ov myself in middleschool life is so great then stuff like this happens an im like oh yea

its crazy to think how horrible i felt for my family bc i felt likes I was the one ruining it for everyone THAT I was the odd one out and fucking crazy but i realize now that I WASNT CRAZY my family is haha

and i hate and love my friends too. i love them so much but i cant rlly feel attached anymroe because i know deep in my mind that if some shit were to happen to me that they would not help me. they might love me but theyd never give me like a place to stay for awhile yknow?

[vizybs]

WHAT TO DO WHEN UR FAV ARTIST REVLOGS AN OLD DRAWING YOU DONT LIKEEEEE AUAGAHHHHHHH

[vizybs]

there was this hard asf quote from a minecraft fanfiction ill never read again but i remember this word for word

“The words change, we dont change”

i think abg it too much. The ‘we’ refers to a higher being and it goes so freakin hard

[vizybs]

Hiya, vee’s talkin again

I had hit a slump in writing, i guess i dont really know how i kept pushing stuff out, while the laptop (which is now broken) must be a key part of it due to the convenience it provided to write, there was still something else that was missing.

Ive been revisiting my old fanfictions, a few years ago i was super duper into minecraft and the whole dsmp and i used to kinda cringe at myself for it but wow i loved it so much. These stories are so much cooler than the stuff im writing today, they were so big and full of life i cant believe ive been ignoring them all this time. I think i was embarrassed that i had cared so much about this but here i am having barely written anything and its reminding me of the passion i had and the reason i loved writing fics in the first place. Dc is my new home ive settled into over the years but despite the controversy it doesnt negate the impact the minecraft fandom had on my as a whole and ill always be greatful for it :]