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[vlrieland]

About me and this blog…

hello all, my name’s valerie and im 20. my pronouns are she/her/hers. nothing special about this blog i am simply using this to vent or rant about my life. can get a bit nsfw. please do not judge me. no i do not need anyone to talk to so do not dm me either. my life is kinda theatrical so everyone is welcome to read if you find entertainment in it. i could come off as disrespectful, dismissive or wtvr adjective that is related, apologies in advance. take it as a warning. xo

[vlrieland]

doing some spy stalking work and im suspecting hes seeing a girl ive never felt so sick to my stomach even worse shes so much prettier than me too god i fucking hate myself im such stupid ugly hoe why would i even think i have a chance in the first place knew i shouldnt have gotten my hopes up that shit always never bring me anywhere

[vlrieland]

You’re so fine it’s sickening. I’ve found myself unable to divert my gaze from you. Truly there is no smile as sweet, no scent as addictive, no individuality just as strong, no charm as captivating as yours. Am I in trance? I haven’t felt this obsession since forever. I long for another night in your arms. You’ve consumed my heart and mind. My living moments are filled with memories of you. My five senses yearn for your entire being. I cannot go through a day without thinking of you. The lust I experience, the high I reach, the curiosity starvation I’m in, the ache I endure, all induced by you. And so I beg, I beg and I beg from God to guide your path back to me. Hurry and find your way to my embrace. Save me from the misery of pining for you. I’ve been tortured by your absence and there is no cure for this pain except your presence.

[vlrieland]

crushing so hard that wicked games reminds me of him (hes a certified manwhore)

[vlrieland]

everything reminds me of him

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omfg i been thinking abt him and missing him sm that i got a headache????

[vlrieland]

hes so sexy its driving me insane i wanna bounce on his dick so bad like the things i wanna do with him is unspeakable when my number one rule is to never crack. i wanna kiss his neck, lick his abs, bite his biceps, be manhandled into mean mating press, tied and cuffed, put in a headlock, filled up to the brim, pass out, do it all over again. i fucking hate how horny i get during period.

[vlrieland]

as much of an avoidant as i am, im so obsessed with this guy i just added(?) to my lineup. hes so sexy its sickening. i bit his biceps, we made out (havent crack). hes a breath of fresh air compared to prev (and ongoing) guys in my roster. hes adorable, reminds me of golden retriever. he has the sweetest smile ever and somehow that got me in trance. i hate that i cant get him out of my mind, he shouldnt be affecting me this much considering we only went out once (yea hes that fresh) and we dont really text. ik for a fact hes a manwhore from his followings and how half of our campus knows him, worse of all the fact that i immediately feel like we click and how everything just flows smoothly. not to mention hes out there. always at some house party, priv party, clubs, bars. i feel like ive been consumed by him. something tells me its just hormones, i mean i did meet him a few days before my period and now im nearing the end of it so im entering ovulation soon. i hate wtvr bs he did to have me this hooked.

[vlrieland]

yea im an avoidant, so what? ive warned you, dont get mad at me for it. had you not triggered it i wouldnt be acting up. like what do you expect after sending me 7 paragraphs when we had a mediocre first date? not to mention you did allat within 5 days of talking 💀 have some fucking self respect and restraint its such a turn off when someone be doing too much so early on in the stage