Waiting

Mom to an angel, 5/23/15. Miracle baby due 3/4/16 23

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I feel like I can't win. Now I'm not alone when I fall, I have a baby who depends on me.

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Induction. 40w3d

Going in Wednesday night to start my induction. I'm not dilated so they are going to use cervidil that night and pitocin Thursday morning. I'm fucking terrified. I really and truly don't want to be induced. I just know it will end in a c-section. I'm trying so hard to think positively but it's hard. I really want to birth my baby naturally. :(

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Could this be early- early labor? 40 weeks tomorrow.

I doubt this means anything, but I've had small aggravating cramping in my lower abdomen/lady business throughout the night and this morning. They don't hurt very much, just a sore tender kind of seizing feeling. The baby also beat my ass(I call it that because she legit kicks me like I owe her money lol) for an hour before bed. I worked my ass off scrubbing the kitchen floor yesterday so I'm sure it could just be my aggravated body. I really don't know anymore. Nothing has been predictable these last few weeks. Any stories/opinions tumblr Mamas?

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Have I mentioned

That I am nearly 39 weeks and am not dilated the slightest bit? I've had one 'labor pain' episode, according to the ob, but I'm not sure if thats what it really was. It's not that I'm in any hurry to go through the pain of labor, but I'm ready to hold her in my arms instead of my aching, stretched, bloated, body. ;)

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She's the size of a watermelon. I remember stressing out in the blueberry size days. Wondering how our story would unfold. I've held my little girl for 38 weeks and 3 days. I've felt every kick, punch, turn and wiggle she's made. I remember a handful of weeks before her conception crying in that old parking lot with her Daddy after leaving the hospital after our miscarriage. Screaming at God about how badly I wanted our baby. We both completely dissolved that evening, just going through the motions. I stayed in bed for 2 days wondering what I did wrong before the real world sucked me back up. But God had a surprise for me, just a few weeks later I learned that I was pregnant again with my miracle baby. Who is somehow the size of a watermelon now. (: How blessed I am.

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38 weeks!

We made it! Ivy's room is ready. Bags are packed. Just waiting on babygirl.

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35 weeks

Well... Growth scan measured Ivy at 6lbs 5oz. So I guess she's gonna be a chunky butt just like Mama. 3-5 weeks to go depending on how much longer she prefers to cook. I feel like she could come at any moment. Cramping and uncomfortable 24/7. I'm proud of how far my little baby has come. ♡

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Excuse my language.

Waiting for the dentist to call me back. I have an abscess or something. Migraine, ear ache, nose bleeds on that side, basically the worst fucking dental pain of my life. Being almost 8 months pregnant with a migraine induced by a tooth ache is hell on fucking earth. Vomited my brains up since 3 am. Begged Jarren to pull my tooth out or kill me. Don't care which.

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30w5d

Haven't posted in forever. The baby has a name! Ivy Katherine! She's growing fast, I can constantly feel her rolling and elbowing me. (:

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This is the timeline expressions of my day to day life decisions

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Can't stop crying.

Waited too late to book the 3d ultrasound appointment for my birthday, so now no ultrasound. I'm so disappointed. It's all just pregnancy hormone snowballed from there. Now I'm crying because it seems like I'm the only one motivated the slightest bit to get ready for this baby. I've begged him to clean his junk out of the baby's room for months so I could get ready. Has he? No. So it looks like I'll be moving it myself and painting it myself and cleaning the rest of the house myself too. Ugh.

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I am so depressed and angry today. I just want to get back in bed. I can't stop crying. I just feel like dying.

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Sewing some hair bows for Ivy. A nice excuse for sitting on the couch. ;)

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Ugh

I got SO SICK last night. I don't know if it was too many sweets or what.. but damn. Broke my 1 month no vomiting streak. My last day off this week and I'm trying to motivate myself to work on Ivy's room. I really just want to sleep.

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Recipe: Chocolate Covered Cherries Recipe

Source: Cincy Shopper

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