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𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑜𝑟𝑥𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠;
a private and highly selective elena gilbert from the vampire diaries. heavily canon divergent, so please read her carrd before interacting. 21+ only, please.
𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑑; 𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑠; 𝑤𝑖𝑠ℎ𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡;
my other muses; @queenxvixen, @sunshinexcarebear, @deviousxkitten, @silverxbeauty, @feistyxbadass, @blazingxfox, @prophecyxscreamer, @spunkyxgoddess
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100 days of stelena: day 1
back at it again with misc memes
❝ i’m used to people generally not giving a shit about me. doesn’t mean i can’t still choose to care regardless of whether not people will care back. ❞
❝ i’m not kind because i expect anything from it. i do it because i like how it feels. because people have not generally been kind to me and i don’t want to be that sort of person to someone else. ❞
❝ why didn’t you ever tell me you were dealing with so much? you didn’t have to keep this to yourself. ❞
❝ it’s okay. i don’t need you to help me…but if you wanna stick around while i fix it myself i wouldn’t mind the company. ❞
❝ i generally don’t like people as a rule. but i don’t mind you. so uh, don’t fuck that up for me alright? next time you’re in trouble just call me. ❞
❝ are you sure you don’t want me to stay? ❞
❝ you know i can tell when you’re lying. so you can either talk about what’s wrong or we can just sit here together. either way, i won’t let you do this alone. ❞
❝ no, i don’t need you. but i do want you. my life is fine without you, but it’s great when you’re in it. i don’t need to be dependent on you for this relationship to be important. ❞
❝ well, i already did the ‘kicking their ass for being a jerk’ part. now i’m doing the whole, showing up for you and making sure you’re okay now part. ❞
❝ i don’t want to be like this. i want to change but i don’t know where to start. ❞
❝ i see you. i just wanted you to know that. i always see you. ❞
❝ i haven’t really done the whole dating thing in a while but, do you want to? we could go to dinner—or coffee? ❞
❝ we’re having a spa night, okay? i already have a bath started and there are face masks on the counter. no arguments. we need this. ❞
❝ don’t start giving me the damn puppy eyes i was already gonna say ‘yes’ okay? ❞
❝ this is a bad idea but i’m already committed so i might as well not half-ass being a dumbass. ❞
❝ i always feel better when you’re here. ❞
❝ i’m going to give you a hug now but if you tell anyone about it i will have to kill you. ❞
❝ did you just flip off that old guy? ❞
❝ i know you’ll lie to me if i ask if you’re okay so i’m skipping past that part and telling you to go home and get some rest. ❞
❝ you know i’m not good for you right? there’s probably a hundred other people you could be going to right now instead of me. ❞
❝ can i say something here? or do you need another minute of rambling before i get to do the part where i say what you need to hear and you realize you’re freaking out over nothing? ❞
❝ don’t you get that i need you? you’re always going on about being fine and being able to manage on your own and i’m sure that’s true. but what if i’m not? what if i need you in my life. and i need you to let me help you with your life too? ❞
❝ i know you’ve been having a shit time so i brought some food. ❞
❝ hey— get your hands off my plate. i made you your own. ❞
❝ i know you like the rain, but it’s getting cold. you need to come in before you get sick. ❞
❝ i knew i’d find you here. ❞
❝ if i tell you my eyes are red from weed and not because i was crying will you do me the favor of pretending to believe me? ❞
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as all the memories seemed to be hitting his sister, jeremy's eyes watched elena come to the realization that stefan had died as well as herself. jeremy took a step back from the bed, "elena," he tried, watching the brunette coming undone rapidly. as she pushed herself off of the mattress and paced, his eyes widened once elena flipped the dresser with ease. it startled jeremy, his heart catching in his throat. "elena, hey!"
jeremy didn't want to think about a life without jenna or elena. it had been hard enough that his parents were gone, the two women his only saving graces now. he'd also felt empty since losing not only vicki but anna too. as jeremy tried to navigate his life with as much normalcy as he could muster, it felt like only horrible things continued to happen. tear stained face was wiped away with the back of his sweater sleeve. darkened eyes laid on his sister still, trying to analyze her so he could figure a way to ease or assist elena.
"elena, please," jeremy was nearly begging then. trying to reach out a palm towards the doppelganger, the younger brother hesitated but still took a cautious step towards the woman. "bonnie's already tried looking into it. okay? it's not... it's not good." he didn't want to force a heavy truth on his older sister just yet, but jeremy felt he had no choice. "but damon, he's out there somewhere looking with her. they aren't sure--" swallowing a large lump then, the younger man knew the rest of the information may pain elena more.
"...they aren't sure if there's even another way." the last of his words had fallen so softly, nearly inaudible. knowing she was in the transitioning state, jeremy had to convince her to stay now. "i need you though, elena. i need you no matter what the outcome of all of this is." tears stung in jeremy's eyes then, threatening to spill over his cheeks.
The feeling of suffocation washed over her entirely. Elena didn't want to think about a life without Stefan in it, she didn't want him to ever leave. And now? He'd sacrificed himself for her aunt so that Jenna could live and Elena wouldn't lose any more family. He'd always been selfless in that regard, but the price was too high. Never had Elena wanted to lose him or anyone for that matter and Stefan was supposed to still be here. Not to mention that Matt got bit by Tyler during the full moon, but they were lucky that Caroline had been there to save his life by feeding him her blood.
Elena didn't want to lose any more friends either, she'd lost too many people in general at such a young age. Jeremy's voice sounded so far away because Elena was in a trance that continuously kept her lingering on Stefan and how she'd never see him again - and she needed to. If anything, just to thank him for saving both her and Jenna. He didn't deserve to die this way, always being the hero and putting others before himself. It felt so wrong to her and how was she supposed to be a vampire and live forever without him?
Elena needed Bonnie to either send her back to the other side or bring Stefan over to this one because this current situation wasn't viable to her. The doppelganger suddenly whipped her body around at the mention of there not being an option of seeing Stefan again. All that did was make anger bubble up inside of her body - she couldn't accept that this was it, that this was her reality now. Her face felt sticky from the tears that had dried up and become cold against her skin, makeup messily running across her features. Elena loved her brother dearly, she didn't want him to be without his family, but he still had Jenna. Stefan had saved Jenna's life for this purpose and the brunette felt like he'd need their aunt more than her.
"No." she growled venomously, the mere thought of there being nothing else appalling every part of her. There was only one other option that Elena could think of, the only way out if Bonnie wouldn't or couldn't help... She had Stefan's blood in her system, that was true. But that was only half of the transition. In order to actually become a vampire, she'd have to drink human blood within the span of twenty four hours or she'd just be dead. "I can't complete the transition. I won't. Not like this."
the younger salvatore brother was caught off guard by elena's question at first. did she really care to know the details of a love life he had lived after she fell into her slumber? "it's not that long of a story, actually." stefan admitted, a sadder look crossing his face. caroline had deserved the world, stefan would always admit to such. he hadn't felt the fire in his soul around the forbes woman the way he had around elena. "basically," stefan began, uncertain if he should give more details or perhaps wait for another day to clue her in on how he really felt. however, his mind was screaming, internally emotions were flaring, ripping through stefan like a tidal wave as he peered at elena with deeply rooted feelings. letting out a small sigh, his shoulders slumped a fraction.
"i knew i could never love her the way that she deserved to be loved." and that notion alone, that thought of caroline being stuck to someone who could never adore her the way she yearned, stefan couldn't string her along. "it wasn't that caroline wasn't worth it or that she wasn't incredible." the blonde had singlehandedly kept him from losing it when damon left and she supported him through elena's initial time spent asleep.
"i think you and i both know how amazing caroline is." stefan's gaze tore from the doppelganger, eyes lost in a nothingness for a long, silent moment. "she's fearless, wears her heart on her sleeve, you know? and she's-- she's loyal and fun. she made me laugh during many moments i didn't think i could any longer." both his lips pressed thin then, stefan analyzing his thoughts before speaking, trying to navigate the complex feelings there. "but there wasn't that same feeling on my end. i could never get over you, elena." admittance brief and to the point, the vampire's eyes hesitated but swiveled back over to the brunette. "i knew i couldn't offer her what she offered me. and, caroline deserves that." his conclusion firm.
taking a sharp inhale, stefan nodded softly then. "maybe we should take a walk around town? get some fresh air?"
Elena's brows furrowed as Stefan started to answer her question. Her mouth hung agape slightly and she wanted to ask why he could never love the blonde the way that she deserved to be loved. Because Elena had always known Stefan to give his whole heart and being whenever he was with someone - he gave love so very selflessly, which was why the brunette wondered what had gone wrong with him and Caroline. With her, he'd loved her wholeheartedly. So what had held him back from doing the same with her best friend? But instead of inquiring about it, Elena stayed put and listened to his every word intently. She agreed with his statements about Caroline, the vampire was indeed incredible and the doppelganger didn't know a better person than Caroline Forbes. And when Stefan finished speaking and his last admission had left his lips, she now couldn't say anything.
It was the complete opposite of a minute ago - where she'd wanted to speak up and didn't, but now she couldn't speak up and wanted to. His revelation had caught her off guard too much, she'd only just woken up from her slumber after all and this was a lot to take in. Even back then, all those decades ago, Stefan hadn't ever gotten over her? When he'd been with Caroline and she'd been with Damon? What was she supposed to say after his declaration of love? The brunette hadn't even seen Damon yet and things with him were still unresolved. She couldn't just throw herself back into Stefan's arms - Elena knew that it wouldn't be fair to his brother, she owed him an equal chance for a reunion like she just had with Stefan. This was spinning her head though and now more than ever, she wanted to sort out her own feelings. "I-- I need to see Damon. I can't just-- It's not fair to him, Stefan. I have to see him. Now."
The laugh she let out was harsh, ugly in how bitter it was. "Safe?" Bonnie shook her head. "Mystic Falls was never safe, Elena. We just didn't know it." She flexed the fingers of her hand, trying to keep the anxiety and fear and upset at bay, trying to rein in her emotions. She doubted she could appeal to the part of Elena that had cared about the others, but Bonnie would not be Bonnie if she did not try. "Killing them won't make anyone safe. Because you'll keep justifying the ends, and keep moving your criteria. You do not get to play judge, jury and executioner." Magic had a way of reacting if it got too skewed one way or the other, had found a new normal with each change that had been wrought in the supernatural world. What Elena was proposing would throw it all into chaos.
"So we should just let the monsters make it even more unsafe for us? And our future families? Face it, our ancestors tried to rid the town of them and they came back. They're not our friends, just monsters wearing masks." Elena had disconnected herself from any and all emotions that she'd once felt towards her friends and even the men she'd loved. The doppelganger certainly wasn't the same person ever since she'd been brought back to life. The founders council had corrupted her to the point where only humans would be tolerated inside Elena's mind - she hated everyone else.
A small laugh tumbled over her lips at the witch's next remark, loosely crossing her arms over her chest. "Oh, but you get to play judge, jury and executioner? With your constant judging and use of magic to just do whatever you want? You've become weak. The Bonnie that I used to know would have been the first person wanting to return peace to Mystic Falls. I guess you're not that person anymore, are you?"
𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒
“ am i not good enough? ”
“ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ”
“ why did you help me? ”
“ who do you fight for? ”
“ why do you hate me? ”
“ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ”
“ you’re not dating anyone, are you? ”
“ i’ve got your back, okay? ”
“ where do you think you’re going? ”
“ how long have i been asleep? ”
“ are you going to kill me? ”
“ why can’t i come with you? ”
“ we all have secrets, don’t we? ”
“ did you want to be alone? ”
“ why should i trust you? ”
“ wait. did you hear that? ”
“ promise me? ”
“ why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again? ”
“ do you remember anything at all? ”
“ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ”
“ you wanna know what your problem is? ”
“ may i have this dance? ”
“ can i ask… what happened? ”
“ how many people have you killed? how many? ”
“ do you ever hear yourself? ”
“ would you run away with me? ”
“ could you be happy here with me? ”
“ you can’t or you won’t? ”
“ you slept with them, didn’t you? ”
“ well, how do i look? ”
“ after all you’ve done how can i possibly trust you? ”
“ why can’t you let me in? what are you so afraid of? ”
“ what did they do to you? ”
“ so why’s it so important anyway? ”
“ where have you been? ”
“ why are you looking at me like that? ”
“ why did you come? ”
“ what are you doing out here by yourself? ”
“ is… that my shirt you’re wearing? ”
“ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ”
“ why does it always have to be a fight with you? ”
“ why can’t you look me in the eye? ”
“ can you forgive me? ”
“ what if i never see you again? ”
“ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? ”
“ how about a little midnight snack? ”
“ are you… smelling me? ”
“ how did you get this scar? ”
“ what do you want in exchange for it? ”
“ what did you want to tell me? ”
BUFFY SUMMERS AND ANGEL “I just know that when you’re around, whether I see you or not, I feel you. Inside.” BTVS SEASON 4 || ATS SEASON 1
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( @warriorxprincess. ) elena gilbert, the vampire diaries. canon divergent. ( @queenxvixen. ) malia hale, teen wolf. canon divergent. (main blog) ( @sunshinexcarebear. ) caroline forbes, the vampire diaries. canon divergent. ( @deviousxkitten. ) katherine pierce, the vampire diaries. canon divergent. ( @silverxbeauty. ) allison argent, teen wolf. canon divergent. ( @feistyxbadass. ) camille o'connell, the originals. canon divergent. ( @blazingxfox. ) kira yukimura, teen wolf. canon divergent. ( @prophecyxscreamer. ) lydia martin, teen wolf. canon divergent. ( @spunkyxgoddess. ) alexia branson, the vampire diaries. canon divergent.
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lexi couldn't help laughing at the younger vampire, shaking her head at the drunk woman. it was nice to see her so silly, carefree and not just a bundle of angst anymore. it was beautiful to see beneath the mask that elena projected to everyone. there was a fun person beneath the sad girl exterior. "No, I didn't hide him this time —he's at home, while we get to play!" glancing down as an arm wrapped around her, she tried suppressing a laugh. "Mums the word, 'Lena." she promised, finally grinning. "Alright, let's do it. more drinks and dancing while the broody one is occupied for the night." while the Stefan is away, lexi and elena could play.
"If we call him, he'll put us in jail." Elena couldn't help but giggle. Had she been alone tonight, she'd surely be getting into some trouble that might end up horribly. She tended to attract disaster for some reason, probably because she was damned by being a doppelganger. But having Lexi with her was better and most likely also safer. The blonde was older and more experienced, Elena felt more comfortable having her around. Plus, she was Stefan's best friend of many years and that could end up being very fun too. After polishing off her drink, the brunette held out her hand so that she could lead Lexi to the dance floor. "Now tell me some embarrassing Stefan stories from back in the day. I need some dirt and ammo that I can use against him."
