Tired

Matthew || 16 || Venting I don’t know what I’m doing || Feel free to reblog Mobile Header by @sylvanaurora! || Icon by @melancholiccake || Follow back from @ebonytails, that’s the primary blog of this tumblr account we share.

[hsjdoeejrnflsishkdoxhdksso-deac]

the time for games is over . disorders ... activate

[iheartliquor]

[meltyparfait]

@gracelily0703

[plushieanimals]

aurora miyoni lop eared bunnies source

[weirdorangeglasses]

i guess dormancy does feel like a “long sleep”.. i dont know why im awake right now, but its been almost 2 years…. Its too jarring

[weirdorangeglasses]

I've never been dormant (to my knowledge at least) but another alter describes it like sleeping for some time. If you do go dormant then you wont disappear, you'll just be resting for a period of time. It's also alright to retreat back into the innerworld and to not front for a while without going dormant

I… I hope so.. I mean… I guess I’ve been doing that.. retreating and just not fronting at all?

I’m just.. I’m such a crybaby but I can’t help but cry about it I guess haha..

I like the sound of it sounding like sleeping for a while.. I hope it feels like that if I do go dormant..

I guess I kinda just went from… fronting almost everyday to suddenly no being able to properly for maybe 3 months until now.. maybe I just need to let it sink in.. idk…

[weirdorangeglasses]

So like..... the anon was right but idk how else to describe it other than sleep

It just.. happened and i got so so depressed and hurt that i just.. it happened?

And now that im back all my same feelings are back and its months later and i just. Im. I [dont know if i like being back??? But i am

[weirdorangeglasses]

Im awake and sufferrinng

[weirdorangeglasses]

It HURTS. It hurts. It hurts so much.

[pathologising]

[hatefuckingunconditional]

not to flex but watch this

*dissociates*

[weirdorangeglasses]

Can’t sleep can’t sleep can’t SLEEP

[screenshotsofdespair]

[hotboyproblems]

me: *starts screaming*

somebody: whoa there buddy whats that all about?

me: sorry i just remembered my whole entire life

[namakte]

You have permission to eat. Even if you:

haven’t exercised

eaten too much yesterday

eaten too much today

don’t know the exact nutritional value of the meal

have gained weight

aren’t feeling hungry ‘enough’

feel like you don’t deserve it 

[gojibury]

i definitely needed this.

[halfdevilstill]

Not to be like “lol triggered!!!!1!!” But I’m actually suffering lately getting set off by the smallest things

[kid-puke]

Fingerprints

I can’t get his hands of me. I’m covered in all his fingerprints, I scrub at my skin till it bleeds but I can still feel his hands on me. I want to vomit

[dudepositivity]

You are safe. You are clean. He can’t touch you any more. She can’t hurt you any more. Time has passed and you are healing. They aren’t going to come back for you. You are safe. Breathe. Rest. Everything is gonna be okay, most things already are.