My Chemical Panic!

Music saved my life and now I blog about it. she/her 

[fall-out-phil]

i honestly prefer listening to music through headphones bc it feels so much more private and like your own personal music room that you can just seal yourself away in

[greendaygiggles]

That moment when you need to restart your Billie Joe.

[welcometomychemicalpanic]

Honestly my favorite part of every Green Day show though

[newbootgoof]

this is what greets you when you enter heaven

[let-it-go-and-live-again]

Me: *showing pictures of myself meeting Andy to my grandpa* This is the man I met. His name is Andy and he’s in a band I really like. Grandpa: Is that your boyfriend? Me: *snorts* No, no. He’s married Poppy. Grandpa: Wait, you got married??? Me: *laughs* No Poppy, he’s- Grandpa: He better make you happy, and treat you right. I love you with all my heart and hope he can too. Me: *doesn’t have the heart to try and explain to my grandpa that this is a man I’ve only met twice and he’s married to another famous artist* Thanks Poppy, and he does make me happy. You could say he’s helped me a lot. Grandpa: Good, as long as he makes you happy, then I’m happy.

Bless him.😭💕

[welcometomychemicalpanic]

It’s May 19th and I’m still alive. That’s a win for me and I’m going to keep being alive. Thank you and here’s to surviving another year. 

[welcometomychemicalpanic]

Throwback to the Panic! At The Disco show and the Our Last Night show. Pretty much the only two times that I can recall truly feeling loved. 

What I wouldn’t give to have that feeling back.

[welcometomychemicalpanic]

I have a habit of falling for people I can’t have... I don’t think that will ever end so I’m just going to continue going to concerts until I die alone in my studio apartment and rot there until my cat gets mad that its food dish isn’t being filled and meows loud enough to freak out the neighbors. 

[welcometomychemicalpanic]

The sky is so pretty and honestly that is so much more important than I ever thought it was.

[welcometomychemicalpanic]

So I have laryngitis... I’m blaming it on Brendon...

[patdsnaps]

photo by 3l_cubanito

[sapphicsinthecloset]

girls wearing suits

reblog if u agree

[welcometomychemicalpanic]

Hey, guys! Check out my new blog?!

www.csmusicmediathings.wordpress.com 

I started a new blog on wordpress to start writing in a way that was more informal than the writing I do for the newspaper but more formal than the nonsense i post here.

I write about nothing but the music scene! Bandom and pop punk and alternative and all that fun stuff! 

Check it out pretty please and tell me what you think!

www.csmusicmediathings.wordpress.com 

[welcometomychemicalpanic]

Ever have that one person where you look at them and think “Wow how can you exist?” and it’s not that they’re perfect because you can see that they have flaws but they’re still just so beautiful. And then you think for a second “maybe they’re into me too” but then that second passes and you think “but they would never come close to feeling this way about me.” But there’s always that tiny little hope in the back of your mind.

[welcometomychemicalpanic]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDON URIE!

I wanted to say a few things before your 30th birthday ended and I don’t know how to put it into words but I’ll take a shot in the dark.

You mean more to me than I think even I fully understand. You’ve always been there to pick me up or help me calm down. Your drive has inspired me to push myself creatively every day of my life, but the way you take care of yourself reminds me that I have to do what’s best for me in order to keep being the best version of me I can.

I remember the first time I heard my first Panic! At The Disco song in seventh grade. It was Ballad of Mona Lisa and I remember thinking to myself “Wow that guy is so weird.” And I loved it. I loved the music, the energy, the theatrics, the sheer amount of personality you packed into three and a half minutes. 

I remember the first time I heard Girls/Girls/Boys and thinking maybe my sexuality wasn’t something I just had to accept but maybe it was something I could embrace and love. 

I remember the first time I saw you live years later. I remember you coming on stage and my first thought being “Holy shit, he’s 3D” because for the first time in my life you were physically there. Your voice, your music, and your silly personality had always been there for me, but for the first time (during a particularly bad week in my life) there you were: there for me in person.

Seeing you in March was beyond anything I ever hoped for. Once again you were there for me at a trying time. You have a habit of that, Brendon, showing up at exactly the right time. You took my flag during Girls/Girls/Boys with a “Thank you, darling” and got it back to me signed at the end of the night. That night was everything to me. I had never cried such genuine tears of joy before. Within a week I had come out to my family. That flag is now hanging in my room and it’s a reminder to me of everything that is good in my life and everything that will get better.

Because that’s what you are to me, Brendon. You are an inspiration. You are a symbol of everything that is good and a symbol that tells me everything will get better. You are a reminder to love life and love myself and love music. You are such a huge part of the reason I am throwing myself into music and giving it everything I have. 

So Happy 30th Birthday, Brendon Urie. Because you deserve to have a day that is as incredible as you are. 

Thank you, Brendon. 

[zxckmerrick]

He’s always so happy to be on stage [x]

[thatlowlife]

me too

[snailtattoo-deactivated20210605]

Brendon’s birthday surprise (via @radio1057)