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"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"
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AHAHAHAHAHHA I keep getting hit with wanderlust and I’m sure it’s some anxiety thing but at the same time I want to just test myself into a country with socialized medicine and cool food and I CANT because disabled and a homebody fiancé and I want to wander the world but with him and he’s not about that life and ahahahahaha
Sharing because I didn’t know this was a thing:
YOU CAN BE INVESTIGATED BY THE FEDERAL GOVERNMENT FOR BEING POOR, DISABLED AND A COLLEGE STUDENT.
I’m currently trying to get financial aid for COMMUNITY COLLEGE and because I was poor (and didn’t die) and disabled (causing me to drop out of my last two universities) and got COVID- I had to fill out a bunch of forms explaining why I didn’t die from poverty (luck and a dead grandma). I also had to write a letter explaining how this time was going to be different (the CC has already agreed to go above and beyond to help me succeed while being disabled and I moved states to one with expanded Medicaid and magically started getting health care)
Jill Biden is constantly raving about community colleges but the only one even trying to give us free education is Bernie Sanders. The Biden’s want me dead just as much as trump did. They aren’t giving us free healthcare and education, or a UBI. Hell Biden’s even lied during his time office just like Trump. What now libs? Leftists still too scary for you?
In the event I’m denied financial aid I’ll post a go fund me and I expect everyone who told me Bernie was never going to win or I’m too far left to donate. (Medicaid also refused to cover some of my meds so 🖕)
That moment when you realize that your doctor has fueled your self loathing and caused you to develop more psychological issues and diseases.
i don’t know how to say these things in a nice way because my nerves have been fried for quite some time and i’m basically running on empty right now but i wanted to write about anti-asian sentiment, and more specifically, how people can address it.
there are a lot of posts with a lot of notes going around coming from very well-meaning people about how we can combat anti-asian sentiment by fighting cultural appropriation or stopping insults about food and whatnot, and i understand the impulse, but the fact is this: anti-asian sentiment is rooted in white supremacy, in colonialism, and in imperialism, and those things cannot be stopped by simply teaching people to say our names correctly.
if you want to end anti-asian sentiment, we must end white supremacy and imperialism. if you want to end white supremacy and imperialism, you must learn about the histories of white supremacy and imperialism— not only in asia, but across the world. it is crucial that we, as asians, unite ourselves with other colonized people to fight these systems. i invite others to move past the badge of allyship and truly learn what it means to commit yourself to the fight against white supremacy and imperialism, and then do it.
now, more specifically: when we think about the 8 people who were killed in atlanta this week, we understand that they were targeted because of their asianness, yes, even knowing that all who died were not asian— but they were targeted also because of their class, the line of work they were in, their migration status, their gender. the women who were murdered were at particular risk because they were working-class migrant women who worked in a massage parlor, and who may have been s*x w*rk*rs. this is absolutely crucial to understand! you cannot understand their deaths as being separate from war crimes committed by the united states in vietnam, or from the sex tourism industry in southeast asia.
even when we think about the spate of attacks on asians on the street, or at the train station, or on public transit, who is being targeted? the majority of these attacks are on working-class, low-income migrant elders. there are other attacks, still, that i have heard that have targeted asian women specifically. these, too, are acts of violence tied to white supremacy and imperialism. so understanding this– if a white man approaches me, or my sister, or my migrant neighbors with intent to harm us, what good does it do if he is educated about how to pronounce my name, or if he knows how to use chopsticks respectfully?
these are just some thoughts i am having that i think are missing from the conversation, at least on this website. thank you for reading if you have gotten this far. i hope this makes sense. i truly pray for the downfall of imperialism every single day.
if you are looking for places to learn more, or to donate, please check out the following organizations. i am in new york, so some of these orgs will be local to me, but i have tried to include national orgs i know of that are doing good work. thank you.
Nodutdol – donation link for NYC-based community organization of Koreans in the US against war and militarism
Desis Rising Up and Moving (DRUM) – donation link for NYC-based org of South Asian and Indo-Caribbean working class people fighting for economic justice
BAYAN USA – USA-based alliance of grassroots organizations working towards national democracy in the Philippines. there is a donation link on their website. this is the overseas chapter– the main organization is in the Philippines.
Red Canary Song – donation link for US-based grassroots collective of Asian migrant s/x w/rk/rs
Butterfly – donation link for Toronto-based Asian and migrant s/x w/rk/rs network
Atlanta-area spa shootings fundraisers – GoFundMe donation links for families affected by the Mar 16 murders
Hear me out: An app that works like tinder but instead of dates you match with someone wanting to learn your language that knows the language you want to know.
Set the language you know and what you want to know. Set the level you currently know and what levels you’re willing to match with. (So an advanced speaker could match with a beginner or two beginners etc.)
Lists interests in your bio that are auto translated to the language you want to learn. Want to discuss anime? Religion? History? Art? Etc.
Set age and ranges and preferred genders (including agender,gender fluid, intersex, and indigenous genders) like tinder to help people connect and feel comfortable with their options.
Set times you’re okay chatting and it auto shows it in the other persons time zone.
Just an idea to help learners who need to actively communicate to learn since a lot online classes and Duolingo don’t offer that. Also helps when a language has multiple sets of writing formats like Kanji so you’re exposed to more of the language. Could have an option for video chatting or internet calls (or people once comfortable, could move to discord etc.)
I’m trying to learn Japanese and would like to have more practice typing, writing, and speaking than I’m currently getting. I’m not very good but I’m willing to help with English!
Pain.
Or “we see this one test is high but without another test being unusual we don’t know what’s wrong”- my life story.
Let’s talk PTSD Nightmares
Keeping in mind- this just applies to me. I have PTSD from childhood abuse. Yes it’s real. Yes it’s debilitating.
So I am having a horrible time rn so I feel like sharing what my nightmares function like. TW for mental health issues, abuse, aggression etc.
Everyone experiences ptsd differently. Triggers, reactions, dreams. All of it can and will be different from case to case. I can only speak for myself.
Post continues after a cute penguin gif because I’m on mobile and don’t know how to make the “Read more” button.
Alright let’s get into this. Last warning that TW content is gonna happen. My background and what happened to “justify” the dream will happen in each category.
Let’s talk about the Kinda Weird category:
These are the ones I have that are obviously trauma related-but I’m not in danger or too horribly upset or uncomfortable. For instance last night I screamed at my step mom in my dream. Felt therapeutic in the moment- triggering upon waking.
This woman hated me. She lies daily to my siblings that I don’t love them. I was disowned at 19 for reporting my dads abuse towards them. Clearly I love them a hell of a lot.
But when I woke up i was momentarily proud I chewed out my abuser and won the argument. Then it faded to wondering if she was right to hate me (obviously a result of manipulation and gas lighting), I couldn’t even stop it or try my coping mechanisms because it was basically my first thought of full consciousness this morning- once full panic or self hate kicks in for me I basically have to just let it run it’s course and distract myself so I don’t relapse.
Could be stress, but more vivid
This category is kind of the grey area. I’ve had nightmares since I was a kid. They change as I get older.
In this category (and spills into the next) are things like monsters, school nightmares, etc.
I have two examples for this category- one much more likely to be ptsd than stress and the other more grey area. 
1) from a young age I would have nightmares about a giant robot destroying everything. This would go on and on and eventually I would find the magic weapon that defeated it right before it killed me. I would defeat it at the last second. This always took place in the first neighborhood I remember. Clearly ptsd, the house went to my abuser in the divorce, the robot is obviously representative of my abuser, the weapon a desire to defeat abuse and succeeding. At the same time I had just been exposed to Iron Giant and Wizard of Oz (I always melted the robot with the garden hose) when they started and those tones are common in this.
2) In middle school I started having a nightmare about the school nurse turning into the swamp monster and chasing me and my friends through the school. This is a gray area because I have ALOT of dreams about being chased and unable to escape. But I was also in middle school and isn’t that just a rough time for everyone?
OPE:
This category is the really bad ones- the ones people who dream rarely etc might get freaked out by.
These are the dreams where I’m in immediate danger or die. I won’t describe details because I’ll probably get banned or something. A lot have me failing at saving myself or others. Stands up for myself and get attacked. Most recently dreamt: I flipped off a driver for almost hitting me (as a pedestrian). Felt good, tried to get in my car and he blocked me in. The locks on the doors failed. Another driver joined in the attack. I forced myself awake as things turned violent. Before my current therapist I would not have been able to escape that dream. I have a sleep disorders that makes it hard to wake up fully a lot of the time. I’m able to change the topic of dream better now and at least end one nightmare most of the time. I’ve been injured in these dreams. Bad shit happens in these dreams. And they’re all about me failing. (Imagine how much of a stink my abuser gave me over Cs in school)
Through good therapy and self practice I’ve been able to start to manage my nightmares more. I’m starting to recognizing when I’m dreaming-meaning I sometimes have control over if I can wake up enough to end it or change it. Sometimes I can’t but it’s slowly easier to move forward from them. Sometimes I know I’m dreaming and I can’t wake up at all. I wake up and scream for help through dream-ception™️ until I get to the last level and wake up with my whole body rigid and sweaty and shaking. My Apple Watch loves watchingy heart rate spike during this. Honestly these are my least favorite (hey you gotta rank it when you have as many dreams as I do)
I do have “normal” dreams too. Some favs include anything based in a fandom, my partner and I, blissful witch things lol
These are just my ptsd dreams. Everyone is different and sources of trauma and reactions to it vary greatly. Remember ptsd can show up in everything from severe anxiety to specifically doing everything the anxious person would cry to even think about. It can be openness to talk to everyone about the trauma, or it can be refusal to discuss it.
About Star Wars - The last Jedi.
“As an actor, I never want to be worried about what I look like; I want to be in the moment. I want to be so honest with you that if I fail, that’s fine—sometimes the most beautiful things come out of failure and what’s unplanned.”
Happy birthday, Kelly Marie Tran! 🌹🎉
The LEGO Star Wars Holiday Special (2020)
I LAUGHED TOO HARD
not to talk about doctor who but remember being a lonely depressed teenager and hearing him say '900 years of time and space and i've never met anyone who wasn't important'
When I tell you I snorted!
BLEASE
Eomer:
Boromir:
Elrond:
This post is like getting pelted with marshmallows shot out of a tennis ball launcher
bless this
Please keep the homeless population of DC in your thoughts, and donate to the dccfh. Right now due to the curfew many of them are going to be unfairly detained. DC does not do cash bail. Any website saying they are a DC bail fund is a scam. Do not donate to them.
This is a neutral post
Feel free to stop here and rest before journeying to the posts below.
spreading these occasionally would be nice…
As someone with major anxiety who can’t fucking stop themself from scrolling, i appreciate posts like this
Statement regarding DC, personal past and present mistakes, and book recommendations. Please click "public release" ^ to listen.
Please listen/read this post as it is The Theoi Called’s statement regarding the actions in DC on January 6th 2021.
I am sick so please be patient and kind in me replying to people.
In short we must deny hate a space in our circles. We must be willing to acknowledge our own mistakes and to remedy them to the best of our abilities. It’s okay to change you opinion from one of hate to one of love. But as we know the internet doesn’t hide things well- better to own and acknowledge them in my opinion.
I’m sending love, thoughts, prayers to those of us struggling right now. If you’re outside the US- we need thoughts and prayers.
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