Are there any specific examples where you are not sure if you feel dysphoria or euphoria?
I can’t answer it with a simple yes or no. You explained three categories, and I can now see how that makes sense in my case. Let me explain more about myself.
I don’t have any issues with it or with any of my organs to the extent that I would want to make changes through surgery. Also, there isn’t much variety in options, and even if there were, it’s not currently very easy process. If I could “buy” changes the way we buy wardrobes, watches, shoes, etc., I would have bought a lot of variety. I don’t know if that makes sense lol, but I’ll continue anyway.
Sometimes I do feel like adding or subtracting certain parts, but I can live with that, I guess.
is where I feel heavily uncomfortable and irritated. If people assume I’m X gender, I feel irritated. If they assume Y gender, I feel even more irritated. If they assume some Z gender, I still feel irritated. If they don’t assume and instead ask (which never happened), then I don’t know what to say because I am just “me.” That’s the only word I’ve ever felt like home. Even “I” doesn’t feel like the right word for me.
Additionally, being a “human” makes logical sense to me, but internally I don’t fully understand or connect with it, so I’m kind of just getting used to it. When I talk to myself, I usually use “we,” not “I” or “you.” That feels right.
But socially, things feel pretty messed up. I probably wouldn’t have explored this area of life if it weren’t for the stereotypes and assumptions that fall on every human. I can’t really avoid it. It starts with people calling me something, using pronouns, titles, they way they behave with me, etc. If I remove all of that, language almost fails. I don’t feel anything about my name even. I know I use it, and the good part is that it’s unisex, but that doesn’t bring me any joy or disappointment. There are also factors like patriarchy that influence how I navigate these (external) things, but it isn’t coming from any internal drive.
Even clothing, I just go with whatever is comfortable, which usually happens to be from the “men’s section.” That doesn’t mean I dislike typically feminine clothing or don't wear it; I just find it uncomfortable for everyday wear. So it’s not really about gender, it’s mostly about comfort.
3.And the last part: my voice.
Again, I would prefer it to be more neutral because people make assumptions based on it. If that weren’t the case, I wouldn’t care. And again, if I could buy voice options, I would definitely buy a variety and use whichever one I felt like each day.
I hope this helps your analysis and answers your question somehow. Let me know if you need more information.
Also, I’ve read many people online say they “feel” a certain gender inside them if misgendered. I wonder what being a man, a woman, or other identities actually feels like. Is it the stereotypes they relate to, or is it some kind of internal feeling? When I see the term “gender identity,” I can’t help but only see stereotypes.
I suggest looking into these identities
These next two are connected
And this isnt a identity but i suggest looking into it as well
