Spoon theory was a concept thought up by Christine Miserandino, who came up with the idea when attempting to explain how chronic illness affects her daily capabilities to a friend who was otherwise well meaning, but who really didnât âgetâ why Miserandino always had to cancel plans. You can google the full story, but in short and to paraphrase:
Miserandino and her friend were standing in a kitchen space discussing Miserandinoâs disabling chronic illness, and in an attempt to explain to her friend why she had limited energy, she grabbed a handful of spoons and handed them to her friend and said âimagine each spoon represents a task, and every time you want to complete something you need to hand me a spoonâ which her friend thought, okay, easy, this will be a fun game! Which was when Miserandino began to break things down for her.
Getting up required one spoon. So her friend handed over one spoon. Showering cost two spoons, so her friend handed over two spoons. Cooking was one spoon, and eating cost another so she was forced to hand over another two spoons. Getting outside to go to work cost a spoon, driving to work cost a spoon, getting out the car, walking into the office, work itself took multiple spoons, leaving work cost a spoon⊠all the while her friend is suddenly starting to realize this isnât a fun game anymore, and that sheâs running out of spoons.
Eventually they reach the end of the day, and thereâs one spoon left. âYou can either feed yourself and go to bed, or hang out with friends, which one do you pick?â
âBut I want to do both!â
âWell you canât, you used up all your spoons and now you need to choose. For the rest of your life you will only ever have a limited amount of spoons to spend. Some days you will wake up with all of them, other days youâll wake up and find sleep didnât restore all of them and youâre starting from a loss. But you still need to choose what to spend them on, which is why I often have to cancel social events. Because I have to choose between being able to feed myself that day, or hanging out with friends.â
At which point her friend realized what it meant to have severely limited energy due to illness/disability, and thus the Spoon Theory was born, forming a community primarily of people who are chronically ill who refer to ourselves as âspooniesâ which has since branched out to include other disabilities and is gradually working itâs way into mainstream understanding as being a good way to express personal limitations and capacity for coping.
âI have run out of spoonsâ is a common phrase we use to let others know âIâve run out of energyâ, which may seem ludicrous to anyone able bodied and neurotypical, but thatâs because they are coming from a place of physical and mental privilege and didnât respect our personal boundaries and limitations when we told them weâd run out of energy, so the analogy of spoons had to be used to quite literally spoon feed it to them.
If itâs easier, think of it as spell slots in a game. You start each day with a limited amount of slots, but due to a severe debuff they donât regenerate for 24 hours once youâve used themâexcept every action you do, getting up, eating, showering, going to class, taking to people, working, etc, etc requires a spell slot. Sometimes potions (medicine) might give you a temporary buff, but itâs not guaranteed and in itself requires a spell slot to use.
Another good analogy is that of a cell phone battery that is never quite able to charge all the way up to full, and every time you use it, it drains the battery. Doesnât matter if you leave it plugged in overnight, itâll still only charge to 80% by next morning, and youâre not allowed to bring a charger with you. So you have to choose carefully what you use it for, all the while the battery is steadily draining simply because youâre not plugged in (asleep/resting).