Thoughts and Emotions

Sideblog of Robin ( @ask-themaraudersmap | @nymphali-dae)

[whenmoonrises]

I'm so fed up with those comments.

Finally I feel comfortable in my body by wearing a binder. And then there is her, telling me she dislikes it and she would rather see my breasts. I'm so sick of it. And I'm actually crying right now because it's not the first time.

Last time I cosplayed she also reduced me to my breast and I feel so horrible right now. Even worse than back then...

I'm so scared to tell her she should call me by a different name since I already know she will "forget" it or can't accept it or doesn't believe me...

[whenmoonrises]

"Show me some more respect," he said when I was complaining about him constantly touching me.

...This still creeps me out. And I have to think about it a lot more than I want to. It makes me feel dysphoric and... so uncomfortable in my body.

[whenmoonrises]

Feeling so horrible body dysphoric.

And I don't know how to deal with that. It becomes worse with every day.

[nymphali-dae]

This feeling when you get to know someone online. And you get along very well.

And then you find out you’re living on the same continent. And even in the same country.

…and the same city.

And you’re like ‘this is too good to be true’.

[whenmoonrises]

w-aldgeister replied to your post “i wish i was any good in making friends.”

I'm really happy and thankful to be your friend..<3

♥ Thank you, love ♥

[anxietyproblem]

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[whenmoonrises]

i wish i was any good in making friends.

[whenmoonrises]

and keeping them.

and being a good friend at all.

[whenmoonrises]

i wish i was any good in making friends.

[softgloom]

me: im not gonna let anyone know how im feeling me, three seconds later: hey guys im sad and want your attention

[longlivetheweirdones-deactivate]

Me, three seconds after venting: wow, I regret that so much wtf is wrong with me? Something bad is going to happen now watch.

[whenmoonrises]

Can't deal with emotional stress. Again. I pretend to be so cold. But I'm not. I'm in pain. And I feel like I can't breathe anymore.

[whenmoonrises]

This is not the life I want to live.

[whenmoonrises]

It's eating me up.

Making me unhappy.

I can feel it more. Day by day.

But I have no choice

[nymphali-dae]

I just want to quit right now.

[whenmoonrises]

My new binder arrived. Makes me so happy❤

[nymphali-dae]

So starting in January I will only use natural cleaning supplies for skin and hair. I got myself almond oil for the skin, argan oil for the hair, some natural soap as a shampoo base and rosemary oil to add it to the soap.

I really hope it works out. That would be amazing!

[whenmoonrises]

Bad life decisions are my thing.

[nymphali-dae]

Day 4

Still no proper water.

A little bit in the bathroom.

Dirty, brown soup in the kitchen.

This is so fun. Not. 

We have to get water at our neighbours.

Like… wtaf?