Past thoughts
Pain is unbearable
when you feel alone;
when all you feel is your lungs burning from all the crying in your dark room, so quietly yet so hurtful.
When you shut down your mind to everybody.
Can anybody save me from this blue monster inside my soul or am I already over the edge?
I'm stuck in this void,
please
release me from my demons, give me a hand.
I yell and scream at my walls as I get more hollow each time they don't get back at me.
Am I losing my sanity? Probably so.
Every time I close my eyes, I see black. A dreamless mind, completely turned off.
Will I be able to open this cage?
Because I'm about to break down searching for a way out this hell.
-Claudia
*Note*
I wrote this while remembering how I used to feel a couple of years ago when I touched the bottom. I’ve been there and although it did took some time, in the end I walked out from my mental prison. Right now I’m happy and healthy. I enjoy writing about my saddest days because I want to remember them and see how far I made from there and because I want people to feel what is like suffering alone. If you notice your friend has not been feeling fine in a while, doesn’t matter if they push you away, hold onto them tighter. Also, English is not my first language so all grammar mistakes are mine.