I seriously, genuinely NEED yall to help me find people who have large amounts of money and can help a sister out.
There are people here ACTIVELY working to try to steal my kids from me. And they're doing it with smiles on their faces.
"Oh she can do her assignment here"
A little here, a little there. Tiny little things at a time making it where if I don't put my foot down, I'd NEVER see my kids.
This week. Just this week. If I had agreed to everything people were "offering", I would not have gotten to see my oldest daughter more than AN HOUR this entire week.
I'm at FUCKING WAR and the people fighting against me are trying to subtly turn my own children against me and they're smiling and pretending to be helpful while doing their best to keep my kids away from me and act like that's just normal.
It's fucking insidious and EVEN MY KIDS SEE THROUGH IT.
The main thing that makes them even ABLE to try shit like this is that I don't always have the money to afford everything on my own. And that I'm overworked because I have NO FUCKING HELP.
Would you like to take a peek into my daily responsibilities? I have to:
Clean the laundry, wash dishes, cook dinner, wash dishes again, fold laundry, clean downstairs bathroom, clean foyer, organize living room, organize dining room, clean and wash down table, clean and wash down kitchen counters, and water plants....
That's the FIRST floor of my house.
Before I head I upstairs I have to take a shower, so I clean myself, then i go up the stairs, blow dry my hair (takes forever), put on lotion, put on clothes, put on makeup
Go back downstairs, eat, wash dishes again, put food away, wipe down everything again, fill my water bottle, go back upstairs, organize my desk and my thoughts, try to write, get as much on the page as possible, make an announcement here about my writing because if I don't keep yall up to date you might not think I'm actually doing any work....
..... *another deep breath*
Go to discord, try to connect with my community there because they're the closest support system I have because as I mentioned THERE ARE PEOPLE HERE WORKING AGAINST ME,
Help Paige with her book, try to be lighthearted and fun with my server, come back here, make another post and reblog stuff, talk to people in DMs here, put my phone down and start cleaning and organizing my room.
........ when I finish that, I sit down and make art:
Come BACK here and show yall because literally I cannot survive without your support, so I've gotta show that I'm making progress on my universe.
I have to do ALL OF THIS ALONE
And THERE ARE PEOPLE FUCKING WORKING AGAINST ME
All I'm asking for is the means to handle some of this shit a little better.
I didn't even mention shipping books
I didn't mention coding my fucking website
I didn't mention all the meetings and the paperwork
I didn't mention all the wheeling and dealing I have to do in order to create business contacts locally
I didn't mention that most people I meet don't fucking use Tumblr so I can't even rely on my "fame" here to ease the process of getting any backing here or that I constantly have to pester people in order to get anything done
Or that I KEEP MEETING PEOPLE WHO ARE OBSESSED WITH GODDAMN DRUGS
Or that I keep meeting OVERTLY FUCKING RACIST AND TRANSPHOBIC PEOPLE
That these fucking people
Are trying to turn my kids against me
And they're doing it with SMILES ON THEIR RACIST FUCKING FACES
Because I have enough goddamn disadvantages
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