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kay // writing sideblog where i dump inspo and my own stuff // main: paradi-siac // xlightless on ao3

[xlightless]

i called the doctor and i said my heart is wrong

Pairing(s): Li Shen | Zayne/Xia Yizhou | Caleb Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence Tags: Body Horror, Eye Trauma, Not Canon Compliant, Medical Torture, Blood and Gore Summary: In which Dawnbreaker finds an Abomination with accelerated regeneration and uses him for research. He insists his name is Caleb.

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[metamorphesque]

In the Mood for Love (2000, dir. Wong Kar-Wai)

[intuchorik]

tell me, what do you feel?

[OC]

[xlightless]

tfw i want to finish caught in the crossfade but ******* has tainted it i should just rewrite it i have to rewrite it now

[astray-as-a-cat]

Did you eat? (I love you) I bought the bread you like (I love you) I noticed you were upset so I brought you tea (I love you) I made this for you (I love you) I know you have a lot of work and can't talk now so I will leave this thing you like around (I love you) I did your chores (I love you) I will sit by in case you need anything (I love you. I love you. I love you)

[phoen1xr0se]

When I was seven I spilled glitter all over my bedroom floor. It was a glorious, sparkling chaos, and even as I got yelled at, I thought how beautiful it was, golden glimmers winking at me in the sun.

Despite multiple attempts to clean it up, every now and then I’d still catch a glint, now and again, in between the cracks in the floorboard, the bottom of a drawer or caught in the tread of my slippers. I am three decades older and have moved house six times since then, and the other day I opened a box containing bits and pieces from my childhood (old toys, diaries) and a small shower of glitter fell once more to the floor.

All these years later, and my beautiful mistake is still ingrained into my universe, impossible to extricate or forget.

Remember me, the glitter says, bright and bold and irrepressible. Remember how happy I made you for one brief moment before you spent your life trying to get rid of me.

[xlightless]

hold onto every ounce of sin 3/?

Pairing(s): Li Shen | Zayne/Xia Yizhou | Caleb Rating: Explicit Warnings: None Tags: Alternate Universe - Royalty, Bodyguard, Childhood Friends to Lovers, Arranged Marriage, Secret Relationship, Light Angst Summary: Caleb’s life revolves around the crown. His every waking moment is dedicated to Zayne. Unfortunately, the same cannot be said for the other.

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[sstrawbearri]

basically the best thing a story can have is a woman who is doomed. massive points if she destroys the people around her in response.

[cyberglittter]

kitty su by rielle oase

[cennet-ul-meva]

[iam-not-really-here]

[loveridden1999]

i miss my ex bestfriend & everyone else that i have ever loved but don't want any of them back either

[loveridden1999]

what the fuck man

[xlightless]

hold onto every ounce of sin 2/?

Pairing(s): Li Shen | Zayne/Xia Yizhou | Caleb Rating: Explicit Warnings: None Tags: Alternate Universe - Royalty, Bodyguard, Childhood Friends to Lovers, Arranged Marriage, Secret Relationship, Light Angst Summary: Caleb’s life revolves around the crown. His every waking moment is dedicated to Zayne. Unfortunately, the same cannot be said for the other.

read if here

[xlightless]

hold onto every ounce of sin 1/?

Pairing(s): Li Shen | Zayne/Xia Yizhou | Caleb Rating: Explicit Warnings: None Tags: Alternate Universe - Royalty, Bodyguard, Childhood Friends to Lovers, Arranged Marriage, Secret Relationship, Light Angst Summary: Caleb’s life revolves around the crown. His every waking moment is dedicated to Zayne. Unfortunately, the same cannot be said for the other.

read it here

[xlightless]

is a heavy heart too much to hold?

Pairing(s): Li Shen | Zayne/Xia Yizhou | Caleb Rating: Explicit Warnings: None Tags: Alternate Universe - Spider-Man Fusion, Blood and Injury, Emotional Constipation, Mild Hurt/Comfort Summary: Zayne is a little too good at compartmentalizing his thoughts. Caleb knows better, but he just chooses to ignore his better judgement. Especially when it comes to Zayne.

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[soracities]

“If someday the moon calls you by your name don’t be surprised, because every night I tell her about you.”

Shahrazad al-Khalij

[truantnotyrant]

[pencap]

“Please, let him be soft. I know you made him with gunmetal bones and wolf’s teeth. I know you made him to be a warrior a soldier a hero. But even gunmetal can warp and even wolf’s teeth can dull and I do not want to see him break the way old and worn and overused things do. I do not want to see him go up in flames the way all heroes end up martyrs. I know that you will tell me that the world needs him. The world needs his heart and his faith and his courage and his strength and his bones and his teeth and his blood and his voice and his– The world needs anything he will give them. Damn the world, and damn you too. Damn anyone that ever asked anything of him, damn anyone that ever took anything from him, damn anyone that ever prayed to his name. You know that he will give them everything until there is nothing left of him but the imprint of dust where his feet once trod. You know that he will bear the world like Atlas until his shoulders collapse and his knees buckle and he is crushed by all he used to carry. Dear God, you have already made an Atlas. You have already made an Achilles and an Icarus and a Hercules. You have already made so many heroes, and you can make another again. You can have your pick of heroes. So please, I beg you– he is all that I have, and you have so many heroes and the world has so many more. Let him be soft, and let him be mine.”

— Please, let him be happy ( j.p. )