✧ jannik sinner. liverpool f.c. the pitt. the thick of it. doctor who. game of thrones. interview with the vampire. one piece. jujutsu kaisen. hozier. hades/ii. lord of the rings. e.r. all for the game/the golden raven. dragon age.
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The Maekarlings in my Baelor Targaryen fic; Blood of Two, Joined As One
Also introducing my OC, Eleanora Targaryen. Twin sister of Aerion Targaryen, the so-called Radiant for her gentleness and ability to light up the room.
face claims;
Sam Spruell as Maekar Targaryen
Elizabeth Debicki as Dyanna Dayne
Henry Ashton as Daeron Targaryen
Finn Bennett as Aerion Targaryen
Elle Fanning as Eleanora Targaryen
Henrik Holm as Aemon Targaryen
Freya Allan as Daella Targaryen
Dexter Sol Ansell as Aegon 'Egg' Targaryen
Alyla Browne as Rhae Targaryen
(my headcanon is that daeron and rhae, their oldest and youngest, look so much like dyanna that maekar can barely stand to look at them.)
So, in Robby, we’ve got a character whose main plot point for two seasons now has been that he is not coping nearly as well as he wants everybody think he is. That he’s in a very dark place mentally, and desperately doesn’t want anybody to look closely enough to realise just how bad things are, who desperately wants to fix it himself so he doesn’t have to let anybody else see the damage that he is deeply ashamed of having in the first place.
In the past 6 years, he:
Has worked on the frontlines in the ED throughout the pandemic, and has had multiple PTSD flashbacks that we’ve seen from the trauma that that alone has caused him.
Had to make the call on turning off the life support of his mentor/father figure (canon btw, not conjecture)
Then had to be the one to physically turn off the machines that were keeping said mentor/father figure breathing.
Then had to watch the aforementioned mentor/father figure die in front of him as a direct result of the decision he was forced to make
Then, instead of taking time to grieve this massive personal loss, he instead had to step into the shoes of that very same mentor/father figure, in the middle of a pandemic, and take on an incredibly stressful job and huge amount of responsibility at the drop of a hat in incredibly traumatic circumstances (a position that he’s repeatedly told by the people in charge he is doing a poor job at in comparison to his predecessor, who he greatly admired, saw as a father figure, and watched die because he had to make the decision to take him off the ventilator, not because he was gone already, but because they needed the equipment).
Has, for the past 6 years, compounded this trauma by returning to the place it happened day in, day out, to carry on working an already immensely emotionally taxing job (even under the best circumstances).
Then, on the first anniversary of Adamson’s death that he’s attempted to work through, he got whacked over the head (along with everyone else) with the absolute shocker of a day that was season one, some of the highlights being:
Every single fucking patient death that happened that day, that he stored away in his little mental mausoleum along with who the hell knows how many other patient deaths he’s held on to over his career
Finding out Collins had been pregnant with his child, but the timing just wasn’t right.
His step-son being caught in the middle of a mass shooting (at an event that he had bought the tickets for and was supposed to be at with him)
His relationship with said step-son being damaged, potentially beyond repair, because he couldn’t conjure up a miracle and save Leah
Having his faith and trust in Langdon, his protege, shattered due to the drug stealing/hidden addiction (along with his faith in himself for having missed it completely).
Culminating in him stand on the edge of the roof, seriously considering stepping off of it (at his own hospital, when his own friends/team (that he clearly cares about) were working and would have had to work on him if he had. Seriously, can we just take a moment to comprehend how desperate and hopeless he must have been feeling in that moment for that to seem like the answer)
In the ensuing 10 months, he has now attempted therapy but, whether because he wasn’t ready for it yet or because they genuinely weren’t good fits (or a combination of the two), hasn’t gotten anything out of it beyond confirmation that it can’t help him.
If we’re taking Noelle’s gossip at face value, is so uncomfortable with his own thoughts and company that he has to have the TV playing in the background in order to relax enough to sleep.
Is exhibiting risk-taking behaviours and is currently, at best, passively suicidal, if not actively taking steps in preparation for an actual suicide attempt (yet to be determined).
Is being pursued by the aforementioned protege who is hoping for a reconciliation that he is not in a place to take part in right now (after he’d made plans to try to avoid said encounter, because he knew he was not in a place to be dealing with that right now), but due to circumstances, Langdon’s persistence, and the interference of outside parties, he keeps having that situation forced on him.
Not to even mention the stress of handing over the reins of the department to somebody he doesn’t know or trust yet, who is very eager to make big changes while he’s away and can’t do anything about it, so if he comes back - he doesn’t know what he’ll be coming back to; he’s potentially realising that he’s being pushed out of the job that’s killing him but is also his entire life/all he's got left, his last tie to Adamson, and something he did love once (if you subscribe to that interpretation of the admin-influence storyline); whatever the hell is going on with Duke’s appointment and why he’s not returning his calls; the incoming cyber-attack/Digital freeze; getting publicly side-lined by the CEO of the hospital; and whatever the hell else is about to go down in the, I’m sure, really rather chill next eight hours of his shift
Knowing that all of that has gone on, all of that crap is bubbling away unchecked under the surface (and that’s just the stuff we know about so far), is it any wonder at all that he’s a bit prickish, petty, fed up, defensive, burnt-the-fuck-out and lacking the emotional bandwidth to give the sort of grace someone in a better headspace might be able to? Not even all the time either! He’s still trying to be encouraging to the residents/med-students, still gets on fine with the team, still trying to do his job the best he can. But yeah, his temper is shorter, because he is at the absolute end of his rope (even then, the outbursts in question are about the level of a teacher/manager who’s having a particularly shit day and is just not putting up with anybody’s crap today).
Should he get help - hell yeah! Does it suck that others are copping it a bit because he's in such a bad place himself - yep. Would it be nice if he was a perfect victim and never lashed out, never got short with people, managed to maintain perfect patience and grace for everybody around him no matter what - your milage may vary there, but what doesn't is the fact that that wouldn't be realistic in the slightest.
Unfortunately, the maxim 'hurt people, hurt people' does ring true - and the whole reason that 'admitting that there's a problem' is such a huge step is because the denial and desperate hope that if you just ignore or refuse to put a name the problem for long enough, it'll sort itself out and won't actually be as bad as you know it actually is is so incredibly difficult to work your way through. You can't just click your fingers in the middle of all that and go 'right, time to put in the work and fix this' if you're not yet at the point to start putting in the work and fixing things.
I’m just so tired 😅 Empathy is not a finite resource. You can 100% feel for, or at least understand, multiple characters at the same time. You don’t need to tear other characters down and make them cartoon villains so you feel all the more justified in backing your fave (or to make your fave more sympathetic - they already are! Every character in this show is flawed, but every single one of them are still fundamentally good people who are trying their absolute best to do good in the world).
Coming out with stuff like:
Everyone in the Pitt should get a pass to punch Robby in the face tbh 😋
‘Manifesting Robby getting run over by a semi’
Do a flip!!
It’s actually really awful. We have such empathetic people in this fandom, it’s been so incredibly disheartening to see that get tossed out the window these past few months (I hope by a loud few, but it’s honestly hard to tell at times).
People will honestly watch Doctor Who, see the Doctor go "This is my wife, I flirt with her constantly, arrange the wildest, most romantic dates ever, and one day retire and settle down with her on the same planet for decades even though I know she will die one day and I keep a picture of her on my desk not to my granddaughter to remind me every day of those I have loved and lost" and say that "oh, he didn't love River and only married her because it was fixed point blah blah blah".