Edgy depresbian™

She/they Taken Honestly, I'm just an edgy teen who has HELLA anxiety (I see you, Virgil) Capricorn ♑ Super cool 🕶 (The sarcasm tho)

[nuocmamboi]

Reblog if you're shorter than 5'8.

[world-of-tazcraft]

If you don’t reblog this, you are on duty to get the cookies off the top shelf. You have been notified.

sleepycub34 lookin at you here

[skarrin-deactivated20160415]

I iz tiny. 5'6

[thomas4th-deactivated20200823]

5′6.

[gothiccharmschool]

5′4, which means I am never the person to get things off of the top shelf.

[snowmorte]

5′3…I’ll…get the stuff on the bottom shelf for all you tall people.

[eto-nani-blog]

5'2 ;o; we just keep getting shorter.

[dlazaru]

5′1… wtf I’m a dwarf  (╥_╥)

[junyui]

I… I’m 4′8 🥲

[antifirework-archived]

im 5'6 which is tall for my age but….still not 5'8….

[localvoidcat]

5’4…really hope I end up taller.

[im-a-natural-gloom-boi]

5'3…….. 😔

[as-the-stars-foretold]

5′ 7″ >:)

[smilesygalore-deactivated202409]

im 5’3 so uh no cookies for me—

[lucifers-golden-bitch-apparently]

5'6 gang gang

[nabavababa]

5'2

[xoackxo]

5'5" I still got years to grow. Everyone in my family is tall so...

[spitfirecommittee]

October 20th, which is why I am the Lampent Chick.

[weird-questions-from-an-infp-t]

Grass psychic type

And the only ones are…

[9-punk]

Normal dark type

This is fine

[pocketkris]

Ground Flying ??????? are there any?????

[nabavababa]

Alolan geodude

[xoackxo]

Ice fighting type. Literally the only one is Crabominable. Also I would like to add that this is absolutely Frosta.

[itwashotwestayedinthewater]

bungus

[itwashotwestayedinthewater]

welcome to ‘no note bungus’. reblog and you will feel a sense of accomplishment and goodwill wash over you

[chunkecheeks]

type “i am” in the tags and whatever comes up first is your new mandatory kin

[floatygirlii]

I am best girl🌸

[xoackxo]

I mean- yeah.

[xoackxo]

My grade has a discord thats filled with popular kids and a few days ago my friend and I joined. My friend put a rainbow in her bio and the owner (who is a homophobic dick) said to not do any gay shit. I proceded to be super passive aggressive. This other girl was like "He's just trying to get us to not fight". Ofc I said "If he wanted us to not fight then he should discourage being a jerk, not being yourself". Later someone asked what happened and she was like "-insert owner's name- didn't want us to fight and it turned into an argument". I then said "He said nothing about fighting. That was all you trying to cover his homophobia." The owner joined a few hours later and banned both me and my friend.

[snackwizard]

a fools guide to not wanting to die anymore

by me, a fool who doesnt wanna die anymore 

never make a suicide joke again. yes this includes “i wanna die” as a figure of speech. swear off of it. actually make an effort to change how you think about things.

find something to compliment someone for at least 4 times a day. notice the little things about the world that make you happy, and use that to make other people happy.

talk to people. initiate conversation as often as you possibly can. keep your mind busy and you wont have to worry anymore

picture the bad intrusive thoughts in youe head as an edgy 13 year old and tell them to go be emo somewhere else

if someone makes you feel bad most of the time, stop talking to them. making yourself hang out with people who drain you is self harm. stop it.

[wildlyannoyingdoofus]

… 8|

That’s some pretty good advice. I don’t know what’s left of my humor after ‘guess I’ll just die’ jokes but it’s worth a shot.

[snackwizard]

Personally i went from “guess I’ll die” jokes to “IF I HAVE TO BE HERE FOR 5 MORE MINUTES I PROMISE YOU I WILL BUY JUST, AN ARRAY OF CLOTHES.” and other wild hyperbolic stuff. Just replace the death part with something ridiculous and off topic. Its very entertaining

[808lien]

This also works with calling myself things like stupid, worthless, trash, etc. Even if you do this jokingly to yourself, your brain still believes it, and keeps up the cycle. Seriously, I found that when I stopped saying these things about myself, even jokingly, it made a massive difference.

[maramahan]

Here’s a tip I picked up from a friend that’s helped me a lot — replace self deprecating jokes with ironically self aggrandizing jokes

Like every time I trip and fall, instead of saying “l’m just a disaster human” I say “I’m the epitome of grace and beauty”

Or like, when I draw a picture I’m not 100% happy with, instead of saying “my art is trash” I say something like “you know I think it’s time we replaced the Mona Lisa”

When you do that you get to make a joke, but you’re ALSO getting practice building yourself up, y’know?

And eventually it becomes a reflex and you get so used to it that you can say nice stuff about yourself even when you AREN’T joking

[jkl-fff]

[scottjate]

This is so important

[driftingdeviant]

Reblogging this for anyone who might benefit from reading it. It’s a very good post. 

[fandomrecycling]

Honestly can get behind this. My go to phrase is something like “I WILL FINISH THIS TO SPITE GOD!”

[arsonistblue]

And when you make the self-appreciative jokes, it also helps other people become more confident. I know, it sounds like bullshit, but it really works. A few months ago I decided “you know what, no more suicide jokes.” 

If someone says “I love how we all hate ourselves,” even if I do feel like I hate myself, I say something like “No I’m cool and sexy as hell actually,” and it has done wonders for my mental health.

[complete-nonsense]

this isssss excellent advice.

To my approximately three (3) followers, if you ever feel like this. Follow these steps, connect with any support networks you may have and know that you are remarkable and have a beautiful future to fight for.

You are lovely and you are loved 💛

[elibeeline]

Also! I can’t remember who I heard this from but whenever I’m feeling like bad about myself, I remind myself of the quote:

“In order to have self-esteem, you have to do esteemable things. You have to do things that make you proud of yourself.”

Like YES, my confidence was rock bottom when I was too ashamed of my voice to even speak to my friends. Slowly but surely, I would start adding small things to conversations, and I would be proud of myself! I built my esteem by doing things I didn’t think I could do, and now here I am: able to talk on the phone, add to conversations with new people, i’m not scared to speak anymore

You’re not gonna have a good self esteem when you constantly doubt your abilities

[xoackxo]

Okay, this is really important.

But...

I am an edgy 13 yo so all of my thoughts are from edgy 13 yos being emo all the dang time. Guess I'll just think of them as my cousin who excuses her rudeness for "sassiness". Now I have someone to argue with who isnt me! Therefore I'll think that they're wrong and will not accept otherwise.

[aripotat]

Okay. Its rant time my boi. Prepare yourselves! My friend, one of my best friends (not saying who cuz that would be wrong) decided that, she was going to be a bitch to our other friend; i called her out on it cuz it was not the first time it had happened, she then proceeded to play victim (hardcore) with all these excuses which shouldn't have been excuses cuz she was just being really rude; so unnecessary. And guess what? She left for a week without telling US but told social media. Way to make us feel like dirt. She came back yesterday...and to the same friend..corrected her. Just flat out corrected her after we both explained it, still corrected her, which in my opinion was an absolute dick move. That's all for now.

(I still love her. A friend is a friend no matter how upset i may get ❤)

[xoackxo]

I talked to our other friend about it because I'm not ready to have that conversation with you yet. The main reason I left was for my mental health. I needed a break. Part of the reason I posted it on here is because I knew our other friend (and maybe you) would see it. I already told you I was joking abt what I said. But seriously, I needed a break for my mental health. Btw I wasnt playing victim, I was expressing how I was hurting and why I was saying the things I was saying. I understand I was being a bitch. I'm sorry for that. I was really stressed, though. School work was piling up, there was something big I needed (and need) to talk to you about (I'm not ready to rn but soon (hopefully)), and my mental health was dying in general. I'm not trying to attack you with this, this is more of an explanation.

[xoackxo]

Me: *puts my spotify genres in a random generator*

Me: *gets Musicals* Aww, nice. Something upbeat to start readibg with.

Spotify: Shine a Light (Reprise)

Me:

Spotify:

Me:

Spotify:

Me: ... Oh well, I love this song

[xoackxo]

Okay, Sharpay is gonna have to wait. I have more school work and my mental health is plummeting.

[xoackxo]

TW: Most of the problems in Heathers: The Musical.

I'm watching A High School production of Heathers and the amount of pure joy that I feel in this 7-11 scene right before Freeze Your Brain is too much. I desperately need to audition for Heathers just for the shot at being J.D.. Yeah, I'm a girl, but ive played guys in the past. Like the envy I feel for anyone who gets to play this broken, sad, miserable kid who just wants to be loved but even that fails because he did it wrong is too extreme. I want to experience being someone who opens up in a 7-11 about his trauma and coping mechanisms. I want to be the guy who falls into love way too hard, making it toxic. I want to be the guy who will do anything in hooes that the person he loves will be slightly more happy. I want to be the desperate guy in Meant to be Yours that is dependent on someone. I want to be the guy who blows himself up because he realizes that he's damaging to the world. I want to play that guy, and at the end of the day, the real me won't get criticism. The real me won't be blamed for this. I want that outlet without the consequences. I want to be able to go over the edge without actually hurting someone. I want to be J.D.. That doesn't mean I want to do the things that J.D. did. J.D. is fictional. I want to be that fictional J.D. with no real world problems. I want to express my brokenness as a different person. A person who people won't judge in the real world. A person who people enjoy watching. A person who gets to be broken.

I want to be J.D.

[xoackxo]

Just sang Freeze Your Brain for the first time outside of the shower and I'm being showered with serotonin. This is the real high. Omg I love this feeling. I'm happy with myself. Did you read that?! IM HAPPY WITH MYSELF! IM HAPPY WITH MY SINGING! IM HAPPY THAT I DID THAT! IM HAPPY!!!

[xoackxo]

TW: Most of the problems in Heathers: The Musical.

I'm watching A High School production of Heathers and the amount of pure joy that I feel in this 7-11 scene right before Freeze Your Brain is too much. I desperately need to audition for Heathers just for the shot at being J.D.. Yeah, I'm a girl, but ive played guys in the past. Like the envy I feel for anyone who gets to play this broken, sad, miserable kid who just wants to be loved but even that fails because he did it wrong is too extreme. I want to experience being someone who opens up in a 7-11 about his trauma and coping mechanisms. I want to be the guy who falls into love way too hard, making it toxic. I want to be the guy who will do anything in hooes that the person he loves will be slightly more happy. I want to be the desperate guy in Meant to be Yours that is dependent on someone. I want to be the guy who blows himself up because he realizes that he's damaging to the world. I want to play that guy, and at the end of the day, the real me won't get criticism. The real me won't be blamed for this. I want that outlet without the consequences. I want to be able to go over the edge without actually hurting someone. I want to be J.D.. That doesn't mean I want to do the things that J.D. did. J.D. is fictional. I want to be that fictional J.D. with no real world problems. I want to express my brokenness as a different person. A person who people won't judge in the real world. A person who people enjoy watching. A person who gets to be broken.

I want to be J.D.

[xoackxo]

I dont believe in God but omg the universe is cool. I'm taking a break from my friends because being around someone for too long is draining, but the day after I started by break my partner texted me saying they have their phone (which their mom took away months ago so we've been talking through spotify playlists) and we've been actually hanging out. Again, I usually don't tend to be super spiritual but that's cool. I guess the saying "If you close one door another one opens" is true.

Two in one post!

Update on the Sharpay thing:

I need to finish my online school work today, then I'll probably be playing on my switch. I will, however, start watching the High School Musical franchise and taking notes tomorrow. You probably expect the post on Sunday or Monday. (If I continue to not have a life then maybe Saturday). Aight, thats all.

[xoackxo]

I could reek havoc. But I choose not too. Because I am a coward

[xoackxo]

This wasn't me. Just imagine this as a @deeeerply post because that's who posted it. Aight, bye.

[xoackxo]

I'm thinking about writing about how Sharpay was done dirty in the High School Musical franchise. She was the best character with the most redeeming traits. Literally everyone else (Except Zeke in High School Musical 2), including her own brother were absolute d*ck heads. The post will probably be this weekend since that's when I'll have time to watch the whole franchise (yes, I will include Sharpay's Fabulous Adventure because obviously).

[xoackxo]

I could reek havoc. But I choose not too. Because I am a coward

[gay-irl]

Trans🚨irl

[iamjustverypassionateaboutbees]

It’s SB289 and it says that medical professionals (doctors, nurses, therapists/counselors, physical therapists, surgeons, etc.) can refuse treatment, testing, and a lot of other stuff due to their “ Conscience.” This includes prescribing hormone medication for trans people, prescribing contraceptives for people who need that, treating a person based on their sexuality, and withholding testing for HIV among other things based on their personal beliefs. They can refuse to treat, see, test, diagnose, prescribe, and counsel. The bill is currently on Governor Hutchinson’s desk awaiting signature

(X)

[j1sheath]

The trans sports ban passed, the healthcare refusal has passed. The last item is the extreme healthcare ban. Please continue to advocate against that. Chase Strangio is an ACLU rep who has been collecting info about all of these bills and how to fight against them. All photos are tweets that are on their timeline.

It is trans week of action & there are still more states you can help fight these bills in like South Dakota & Alabama.

protect trans lives

[xoackxo]

I get emotionally invested in fandoms and shows that I emotionally connect with, which is probably because a fear of rejection. Funnily enough, a lot of people/characters I relate to also have a fear of rejection. For example, Catra from She-Ra and the princess of power. Or possibly Dan from Dan and Phil. Maybe even Casey from Atypical. These are just a few people who I relate to, and only one example of something that I relate to them with, but it's crazy how the more in common (like personality, interests, flaws. Not looks) I have with someone the more invested I am, and the higher the likelyhood of me liking them. This isn't just "Oh, I really like this person", it's "I will die of happiness if they smile".