Harris voters scolding third party voters about hypothetical blood on our hands that may or may not come as if they didn't walk to the polls drenched in the gore of Palestinian children should kill themselves. you sold your soul to the worst campaign in a generation in exchange for nothing, not even empty promises of progress, and couldn't even accomplish a hollow symbolic victory against senile overt fascists you're going to hell when you die.
i love love love when artists put a bunch of effort into like human anatomy and facial features and light rendering and drawing fabric folds and shadows and texture and then when they draw a gun they do this
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â[tw abuse, incest, csa] Abused children sometimes interpret their victimization within a religious framework of divine purpose. They embrace the identity of the saint chosen for martyrdom as a way of preserving a sense of value. Eleanore Hill, an incest survivor, describes her stereotypical role as the virgin chosen for sacrifice, a role that gave her an identity and a feeling of specialness: âIn the family myth I am the one to play the âbeauty and the sympathetic one.â The one who had to hold [my father] together. In primitive tribes, young virgins are sacrificed to angry male gods. In families it is the same.ââ
when i read this zine some time ago i was struggling to accept my sexuality. i never had sex ed in school growing up in south america, so all i had was the cultural knowledge that i was an object for the penis to go in. when the penis goes in, i was told at age 9, it will hurt so much you wont be able to think about anything else but the excruciating pain and im telling you this so you can prepare yourself, so you don't make any noises of pain to distract the man from his pleasure. when i read romance and erotica novels as a teen i'd think the orgasm the women characters described were a fantasy. yeah as in i didn't believe in the existence of (female) orgasm. no joke. so when i started questioning that i might be a lesbian... well. how the fuck was i supposed to pleasure a woman if they're unpleasurable??? i was panicking. like really, a lot. i mean as an adult i had found out about the clit and i had found out the female orgasm was in fact a real thing, but i could never fuck women the way a man would. i didn't know then that was a good thing, that that's sort of included in the "desire for women" part of lesbianism. that i had to relearn everything i thought i knew about sex, gender roles and sexual organs. but at the time i just thought every woman id fuck would wish i had a penis, and resent me bc i didn't. i thought theyd find me lacking and that i wouldn't be able to pleasure them without it. and then i read this zine. jesus fucking christ. Mira Bellwether tells us how she prefers to fuck her gfs with dildos instead of her real life penis right around the same page she reveals shes a lesbian. i felt like crying. i think i actually did. heres a woman with a penis, here's what i thought i had to be all this time to fuck women properly and she didn't even use the damn thing. she used her penis as a clit fuck me. do you even get it. she talks about how a real penis doesn't have the range a dildo does bc its softer. i think i will never forget what i felt when i read that. the drawing of a woman using a strap on with her penis hanging on top like a giant clit is gonna be branded on the inside of my brain until i die. my entire understanding of my sexuality is tied to this zine. my understanding of what turns me on and what doesn't, of what sex could be like, my acceptance of myself, of my body, of my desire for women. it turned my whole world upside down. without the trans perspective id never come to terms with my lesbianism and id never learn to define my sexuality in a way that works for me
Mira Bellwether passed last year. A legend of transfeminine and lesbian sexuality, and she died, and so many have yet to mourn her.
Few people have done more to transform how we understand women's sexuality than Mira Bellwether.
Please, read her zine. Learn how to please (and be pleased by) trans women. And when we tell you that we're lesbians, believe us. We literally wrote the book on this shit.
Judas Iscariot, âHeaven On Their Mindsâ-âJudasâ Deathâ Costume (Patrik Martinsson) Göta Lejon Jesus Christ Superstar Production 2012-13 (œ)
Production Notes: This version later went on tour which was the 2014 Arena Tour with Peter Johansson as Judas. From this version in Stockholm to the tour there is very little change. The only change aside from costume is Jesusâs face. As you may have noticed in one of the photos Jesus has red stars on his face, while they do not stay the whole show they stay for a bit of the first act. This was removed later on in the run and for the tour, but was probably a continuation from the 2008 Malmö Opera version where Jesus had a single red circle painted on his forehead.
The 2014 arena tour of this version is available on Peter Johanssonâs YouTube channel (act 1, 2). For Martinsson as Judas, his âHeaven on Their Mindsâ is available in full on YouTube and parts of his âSuperstarâ is available in the trailer for this production (bts video available as well).
please drop the essay length analysis Judas and Jesus (extra gay Swedish edition), O great and knowledgeable monarch of our times
alright, you ask i deliver! please excuse any typos, my eyes aren't exactly working rn
welcome to my probably super subjective but correct analysis, aka
Judas Was Right and Jesus Was A Victim (At Least, In Swedish)
Before we get started, a couple points: iâll try to avoid comparisons to other specific productions, iâve only seen the other recorded 2012 british version which i didnât like for reasons including but not limited to the amount of white people with dreadlocks. Also, my understanding of swedish is limited to a couple words and phrases, so most of the lyrics i reference will be english subtitles from Ola Saloâs swedish translation and therefore might not be the most accurate !
Thereâs so much i could cover in this, but for now iâm going to focus on how jesus and judas are portrayed in the 2014 swedish arena tour of Jesus Christ Superstar (JCS) starring Ola Salo as Jesus and Peter Johansson as Judas, along with how this production more implicitly views god.Â
From the opening number, translated into swedish as En Dimmig Himmelsdröm (A Foggy Heavenâs Dream), Peter Johanssonâs acting and semantic differences in the lyrics present us with a deeply sympathetic portrayal of Judas. Looking purely at language, the english equivalent Heaven On Their Minds instantly paints Judas as much more of a faithless doubter- lyrics exclusive to the english version like âall your followers have gone blind / too much heaven on their mindsâ and âthey think youâre the new messiah / and theyâll hurt you when they find theyâre wrongâ strongly enforce Judasâ main motivation for his actions being that he has less belief in Jesus and Godâs plan than any of the other disciples with strong statements judging the other disciples for following him and claiming that Jesus ISNâT the messiah. The swedish translation doesnât paint exactly the same picture- the focus of Judasâ number becomes his fear for Jesusâ wellbeing, not because he isnât the messiah (the production remains fairly ambiguous on this point), but because Jesus canât cope. The root of Judasâ concern comes from fear for Jesusâ wellbeing, and the disciples are referenced as regularly misunderstanding and wilfully twisting Jesusâ words. The swedish equivalent lyrics for the above examples are âthey say, âjesus is godâs sonâ / but you know how people can changeâ (judas isnât concerned with truth, just the danger that jesus will be in if the tide turns), and âthe kingdom of heaven is within us, thatâs what you said / bu they sew it, stitch by stich into some kind of foggy heavenâs dreamâ. Judas is showing that he HAS been listening and cares for Jesusâ teachings, but âtheyâ [his disciples] are turning them into something else entirely, and Judasâ worries that the support of the masses is fragile at best- the lines âand everything you say gets twisted by your lackeys / it will be anything but what youâve saidâ and âyou are being used by people who want you in their battleâ reinforces this again. When combined with Peter Johanssonâs tough but tender performance, in which he dances between disdain for Jesus, the institution, and affection for Jesus, the man (an important distinction), Judas is the harsh realist doing his best to look out for the man he loves. The way he takes Jesus hands and looks at him with love and urgency straight away establishes that his motivations are pure- Judas is doing what he thinks is best, even though it feels like no one will listen to him.Â
That was long, but En Dimmig Himmelsdröm is the perfect character introduction for Judas. Heâs not totally unrecognisable, still delivering digs about âJesus, the little carpenterâs sonâ, his manner is still rough and at this point weâre not sure whether or not the claims he makes about the disciples have any truth to them, BUT we can also see how much Jesus means to him, an important point that give context to the intensity of their future arguments and really makes the whole story much more heartbreaking.
This brings me to Ola Saloâs Jesus. Delightfully camp and queercoded, Judas describes him as being caught up in his own magic and mystery and buckling under the pressure, and heâs not entirely wrong. Throughout the first act, Jesus basks in the luxuries that being messiah can give him (the oils Mary paid for using disciple funds that were supposed to go towards helping the poor, him absolutely thriving in the shopping cart in Whatâs the Buzz?), and is shown actively avoiding any reminders of the seriousness of his position. Heâs sick of the disciples asking him for a plan, he chooses the comforting Mary, whoâs theme consists of telling Jesus everything is okay and he doesnât need to think about anything, over Judas, who is less perhaps âcosyâ but is actively trying to warn and protect Jesus from an awful fate. During The Temple, he starts to crack as heâs overcome by the followers begging him to make him well, fear in his eyes as he raises his arms while frozen on the spot trying to avoid being devoured by the frenzy in desperate need of a messiah. Judasâ point about Jesus buckling under the pressure is starting to look more and more reasonable, and the dashes of showbiz campness add to the sense that much of Jesus is a persona constructed for the masses to give himself enough distance to prevent him from being crushed by the weight of God entirely. Jesus, the institution, prances around, lays his hands on his followers, and projects an air of easygoing calm. Jesus, the man, is scared and alone, and Jesus, the man, really comes out in Last Supper, but before we get there, I want to circle back to the Jesus/Mary/Judas thing.
Jesus, Mary, and Judas are presented as a love triangle: so much so, that Judas seeing Mary sing of her love for Jesus (I Donât Know How To Love Him) is actually played as the inciting incident that sends him to the pharisees. Judas, the picture of the jealous lover, storms onto the scene, breaking them up and attempting to kiss Jesus, who instead shoves him to the ground in disdain. Judas, who is perhaps a little controlling, realises that any influence he had over Jesus has gone, and itâs likely a combination of jealousy and the knowledge that Jesus wonât stop that prompts him to head to the pharisees. In his meeting with the pharisees (known in english as Damned For All Time, although that phrase doesnât appear once in the swedish), Judasâ expresses outright that âIâm the one who sees / Jesus, he canât handle it anymoreâ âthe truth is that this hysteria is making him lose controlâ, once he can get past explaining how much this plan of action feels like a last resort. He never even verbally or physically accept the phariseesâ offer of money, he denies it twice before it is eventually thrown over him after he reluctantly gives them the date and time to find Jesus- we never even see him pick it up, unlike other productions which show Judas grabbing for the cash and place a higher emphasis on Judas making sure he âwonât be damned for all timeâ, painting Judas as far more self serving. When it comes to Jesus, Judas is active- heâs running around trying to help, caressing him, embracing him, grabbing his hand, kissing him. They share countless moment of intimacy, especially at the start, establishing the fondness between them instead of instantly jumping to their conflict. When it comes to Mary (and admittedly, this is partially because sheâs a secondary character- donât get me wrong I still love her and Gunilla Backman does a brilliant job), sheâs much more passive. Other than the much more gentle kisses in I Donât Know How To Love Him and her penchant for dabbing Jesusâ forehead, sheâs mostly just âthereâ. She cares for Jesus after the fact, and even when performing acts of intimacy like the oil and the kiss, she maintains a lot of physical distance- her songs touch on this as, much like Jesus (admittedly for different reasons), she actively distances herself from feelings to protect herself, so naturally she literally places distance between herself and the object of her love.
This brings me back to Last Supper, Gethsemane ( I Only Want to Say), and the kiss of death that broke all of our hearts. Throughout this segment, this is when Jesus, the man, really comes through, and itâs devastating. In Last Supper, he properly expresses the sheer amount of loneliness he feels, reiterating how he feels everyone will forget about him once heâs gone, and doesnât really care about him as a man (âfor you, my blood is not worth more than wine / for you, my body is not worth more than breadâ âyou will have forgotten me as soon as i give up my lifeâ). This devolves into the disciples fighting each other and, you guessed it, ignoring him. For the first time, Jesus meaningfully lets out his anger, and as it turns to Judas, Judas does the same. Because of the set up of their complicated romantic relationship and the stakes involved, the amount of personal attacks and anger that comes out of Jesus and Judasâ repeated fights (which get physical) make complete sense- Jesusâ frustrations come from the fact that his entire fate has been predetermined and to him, Judas is just another instrument in the ways heâs been controlled (both with Judas being his betrayer, but also the way that Judasâ constant advice and interference with Jesusâ life (most obviously, the mary thing) are acted by Ola Salo as becoming increasingly frustrating to Jesus)- these frustrations are directed at their real cause, God, in Gethsemane. Judasâ frustrations come from the fact that no matter how hard he tries to help Jesus and keep him safe, Jesus keeps rejecting his efforts resulting in âall that weâve built up [being] destroyedâ- Judasâ heart hasnât just been broken by Jesus rejecting him romantically, but on every level. Here, heâs actually shown to be the disciple most passionate about helping people practically and long term, being the only one concerned about Mary taking money which was supposed to help people, manipulated by the pharisees with the promise of doing good for the masses, and criticising Jesus for how they could be doing so much for people, ending his part of Last Supper with âevery time i look at you i ask myself why you let all your things go so wrong? / all i ever wanted was to help youâ.Â
This is also the point where Judasâ claims about the disciples are essentially confirmed, and this productions intent to portray Judas as more of a tragic hero become absolutely clear. In the english version, the disciples chorus remains virtually the same each time it appears, generally being far too calm considering their leader is about to die, revealing their aspirations to be apostles, and their intent to write the gospels to be remembered. the swedish translation still achieve this, but with variations from chorus to chorus it becomes much more poignant. iâm just going to stick to ttwo, which are choruses 1 and 3. In chorus 1, lines roughly translate to âiâve always wanted to be an apostle / life is so nice when youâre saved/ then when weâve got time weâll write the gospels / then everything will be the way we wantâ- the apostles declaring that life is so good when youâre saved supports Judasâ opening statement that they care more about some idea of heaven than anything else, not to mention ignoring the absolute horrors that Jesus will have to go through to be saved, while the final line about the gospels introduces their intent to change whichever details they need to make âeverything the way we wantâ: once again, exactly what Judas warned us of in En Dimmig Himmelsdröm. In chorus 3, taking place after Judas storms out for the last time, these lines change to ânever really liked that judas / never saw what jesus saw in him / then, when weâve got time weâll write the gospels / and weâll angle it so he gets all the blameâ. Judas as a sympathetic character is confirmed here, as the disciples straight up admit how they donât like Judas anyways and intend to write him as a villain (also inadvertently admitting that, since they have to write the gospels to make it look like only Judasâ fault, Judas isnât really the sole one responsible for everything that is to come). Itâs deeply unsettling, and for me was the point where I really began to question how good any of these disciples were, and by extension, how good is this productionâs God if his truly sanctified followers are acting like this?
Jesus vents out all of his anger and desperation in Gethsemane. He acknowledges his own powerlessness and begs him to change the plan, but with the dark stage and no response (along with Ola Saloâs spectacular acting) it becomes clear that if anyone is there, theyâre certainly not listening (âyou, who have all the power / can you please change the plan / for i can already feel the pain burning in meâ). Itâs worth mentioning that a lot of the imagery in this swedish version is much more intense than the english, both in this song and the production as a whole. Jesus plainly calls god âthoughtlessâ, begging to understand, and itâs that this point we realise that he agrees with much more of what Judas has been saying than heâs been letting on- Jesusâ faith appears to be the only thing keeping him from listening to Judas and running away. Judasâ messages about people misunderstanding Jesusâ words also come out (âyou care that everyone sees / but not that anyone understandsâ), and his eventual agreeing to die is played less as an inspiring act of faith, and more an act of desperation as he realises, he realise has no other choice. In this song, we see just how much of Judas Jesus has valued and taken on board, and that his air of carefree aloofness which frustrated Judas was, as weâve already touched on, a complete act. The line âmight as well finish what iâve... what YOUâVE startedâ is absolutely miserable, reinforcing one of the major themes of this production: the idea that Jesus and Judas were both just ordinary men tormented by futures defined by forces out of their control. Just as Jesus has absorbed Judasâ logic, as an audience so we have, and itâs difficult to view the rest of the playâs events as anything other than an immense and unnecessary act of cruelty.
weâre almost done i promise!
Even knowing what Judas has/will do, Jesus still greets him with love. Judas, still under the impression that Jesus will be okay and that heâs doing whatâs best, approaches him with the utmost tenderness, and the kiss is a beautiful signifier of two things. For Jesus, the return of his love for Judas shows his realisation in Gethsemane that Judas isnât the one whoâs sealed his fate and has only being trying to help, itâs god himself who has decided Jesusâ future. For Judas, the kiss shows that despite all of the anger and frustration that has been pouring out of him, he truly does love Jesus, and the way he cradles the scared and alone Jesus to his chest afterwards shows just how much he wishes he could be the one to help him and keep him close. Even with all their arguments and dysfunction, here Jesus and Judas find comfort in each other, and it almost seems like everything will end up alright. Itâs in this moment that Judas and Jesus are most identifiable not as enemies, or as villain and hero, but as archetypal lovers from a Shakespearean tragedy. Neither of them set out to hurt each other, but through miscommunications, their own flaws, and external forces (both natural and supernatural), their love is simply never to be. Furthermore, in the following torture and spectacle, everything that Judas predicted for Jesus is about to come true. Another detail I find interesting is the way that Jesus and Judas both sport black nail polish, leather pants, and similar length hair: along with just looking cool as hell, the similarities really reinforce how close they are and how much they influence each other- it feels like a contemporary version of carrying a cameo or a lock of your lover's hair with you, a way for 'star crossed lovers' to keep a piece of their beloved no matter what.
The disaffected persona of Jesus, the institution, comes back as heâs taken by the authorities and subsequently insulted, degraded, and whipped. Also the swedish version of The Arrest, when the chorus starts singing questions, contains this dick joke and I think we all deserve it:Â âwhy were you dating a whore? / talk about a huge magic wand!â
Skipping forward to Judasâ Death, this is where both his character and the productionâs conception of god beautifully (and miserably) align. When Judas runs to the pharisees, minor semantic changes (along with the genuine concern and great acting from Peter Johansson) reinforce that this Judas genuinely didnât know that Jesus would be beaten and sentenced to death the way he has been, and Judasâ concern regarding how things look is played less as âoh no people will hate ME!â, but how having sentenced the man you love to death is one nightmarish thing, but for everyone to think you did it knowingly and willingly and then congratulate you for it is unthinkable. Where the english shows Judasâ attempting to evade responsibility for Jesus death, the swedish is more focused on Judasâ guilt, horror, and regret. The english âIâd save him all the suffering if I could / donât believe our good / save him if I couldâ is swapped in swedish for âIf anyone should die here I should / donât say Iâm good / better if I diedâ. While the english statements are somewhat empty (sure, Judas says heâd save Jesusâ suffering if he could, but he canât so weâll never truly know) and are still focused on Judasâ attempt to construct himself as a good guy, the swedish translation has Judas admit his guilt (even if itâs not really his fault), and make the promise of âbetter if i diedâ which, given the name of this sequence, he later delivers on. When english Judas sings âChrist, Iâd sell out the nation / For I have been saddled with the murder of youâ, swedish Judas sings âJesus, Iâve been deceived / because of my act your bloodâs now being spiltâ, and instead of ending this first section with âI should be dragged through the slime and the mudâ, swedish jesus returns to the theme of character assasination with âi will be cursed as the one behind your murderâ.Â
The swedish translation of the next rework of I Donât Know How to Love Him also places much more emphasis on Judasâ genuine romantic love for Jesus- weâd be here for hours if i listed everything but here are a few key contrasts. The english has Judas sing âI donât know how to love him / I donât know why he moves meâ, whereas the swedish has Judas crying while singing âhow do I show my love / all I want is to be close to youâ. Along with acknowledging Judas already loves Jesus, the entirety of this segment is shifted from Judas singing about Jesus in the third person âheâ, to a direct address. Judas isnât performing his sadness, or venting his emotions, heâs emitting one last desperate cry to the man he loves as he sobs on a stage completely shrouded in darkness, and itâs devastating. Peter Johansson lets his voice run raw as heâs belting, and interrupts lines with sobs, and this Judas answers the question of âdo you love me too? do you care for me?â with a quiet ânoâ- Judas is about to go to his death convinced Jesus must hate him, just as Jesus will face his knowing his love inadvertently put him there.
We finally reach Judasâ actual death, and the productionâs far more ambiguous (if not negatively geared) depiction of god comes to a head. Judasâ screaming at god the moment he realises that his god essentially forced Judas to be the one to kill Jesus (an act of ultimate cruelty given their love) comes across as horrifying in itâs validity, unlike in other english language productions where it follows the more common characterisation of Judas being an unbeliever who canât take responsibility for his own actions. When he spits on the ground, screaming âyou have murdered me!â, we canât help but agree- Judas was trying everything he could to stop Jesus from dying, and yet here he is. Most notably, Judas doesnât set up his own suicide- a noose literally descends from the heavens, already tied, and Judas is literally trapped between the edge of the stage, and the symbol of death behind him. Much like he didnât choose to kill Jesus, Judas has no choice in his own suicide- itâs suggested to merely be another part of the plan god has for him, and Judas raising his arms to form a crucifixion pose before he finally turns and jumps, disappearing into the depths of the theatre as the rope trails down (somewhat evocative of a leap to hell), highlight the sick joke. Much like Jesus begging in Gethsemane, a plea with god that in anyway implies fault or cruelty is met with silence followed by a death sentence.Â
When Judas reappears to the broken and bloodied Jesus in Superstar, he appears as more of a twisted hallucination than the literal spirit of Judas. Heâs the opposite of everything he was in life, draped in colour, surrounded by red lighting instead of the signature blue, his hair quite literally let down, joking and dancing. Despite singing about him, Judas virtually ignores Jesus for the whole song except when heâs taunting him, snatching his hand away after a broken and desperate Jesus reaches out for the image of his beloved (refuting Judasâ belief that Jesus would die hating him), along with the swedish additions of Judas repeatedly addressing him as âlittle Jesusâ. Where the living Judas was serious, sometimes harsh but always well intention, often paying more attention to Jesus than he received, this Judas is the opposite: light hearted but cruel, not caring about Jesus one bit. Itâs somewhat an inversion of the beginning of JCS, where the tormented Judas was constantly reaching out to Jesus, and often met with scorn and insult (see: most of their arguments, this line from Everythingâs Alright: âthe thought is beautiful but quite unrealistic / yes, even quite stupidâ). As the song goes on, and even as Jesus is crucified, the victorious scoring of the Superstar theme ends up reinforcing the cruelty and questioning of god distinctive of this production: Ola Saloâs Jesus is one of the bloodiest Jesusâs (Jesii?) Iâve been able to find, with blood covering his torso, his arms, and all over his face, not in passive dribbles, but violent âswooshesâ spreading out from his eyes, emphasising the fear and pain contained within them. As the music suggests how great and wonderful Jesusâ death is, the images straight out of a horror movie before us donât seem to match up: as both Judas and Jesus question, if no one is understanding what Jesus is saying, why kill him? instead of making a point, youâre ensuring that the falsehoods continue to circulate, unless spreading the true message isnât really the intent at all. or, simply that Jesus was wrong: his interpretation and teachings of god were far too kind and practical, and the true god really is the one that he briefly saw in the garden of Gethsemane, and that Judas saw before his death- a cruel and vindictive god using them for his own sick purposes. If you're a strong Christian, I'm sure you could watch this production and still believe that God was right (although I think Jesus and Judas being in love counts as blasphemy), but I think in doing so you'd lose part of what makes this production so hard hitting and, as i keep saying, devastating.
thatâs pretty much it for this one! i feel like jesus and judas as a queer couple is less significant to this production than the fact that itâs specifically jesus and judas that are in love - they donât face explicit homophobia as such, although i do think the paratextual and historical associations of queerness (both with them each looking visibly queer, and them as a couple) adds a beautiful dimension by subverting the standard christian teaching of Jesusâ sacrifice as âa love that changed the worldâ and making the love that truly could have been transformative (and was, to a degree) the love between Jesus and another man, not to mention the way in which queerness is often viewed as radical perfectly upholding the âradicalâ views of god and the story of Jesus shown in the production. Why wouldnât the love between two men be the love which has us questioning god, faith, and that which many of us have been taught since birth? Ola Salo has talked about how heâs able to be positive and negative towards christianity, along with how he wanted Jesus and Judas to really represent two sides of the same coin (âfaith and intelligenceâ), and being bisexual along with having alluded to being raised christian (not to mention Breaking Up With God, a song by his band The Ark), itâs not surprising heâs managed to present such a nuanced and layered interpretation of Jesus Christ Superstar that even me, a trans exvangelical, can fall in love with.
UPDATE: @bands-and-hobbits has just let me know that Ola's dad was a priest! Apparently he's said that he liked the organs and the music, but that was all when it comes to christianity, which (when combined with Ola stating in interviews that the JCS soundtrack has been one of his favourite albums since he was 14) makes a lot of sense about the level of familiarity he had with the text giving him confidence to go in and make changes to really capitalised off of some of the themes that are hinted at in the english version- you have enough information to understand how everything works together, but aren't so dedicated to preserving belief that you feel you can't improve/change things (and my god are we glad he did)