Soos brainrot intensifies
Krs traced the barely there wrinkles on his skin, the aging marks spanning over his entire body just as record starts playing on loop. Unbeknownst to him, the frown on his face eases up when his hyungs' smiling faces appear before his eyes. They looked young.
He had finally grown older than them.
Finally happy now, are you?
Though I'm the same old me
I feel like I've lost everything"
His vision spins just as the memory of the monster attack resurfaces and he manages to suppress the nausea that came with it. It had become easier to do so after doing the same thing for a decade.
His attention reverts back to the wrinkle he found on his hand. It was inconspicuous but it was there. He was getting old.
He rarely took any days off and it was even rarer for him to pay attention to his body. Perhaps that was why he never noticed all those aging marks. He goes over each and every one of them, steadfastly ignoring all the scars he got from using Instant. These scars weren't important. It didn't have anything to do with them.
"He didn't have laugh lines despite how much he liked to laugh," krs muttered dazedly, looking at cjs' picture hanging on the wall.
Cjs' smile used to light up the entire room, especially when it was directed at him and their hyung.
The same smile which he will never get to see again.
Cjs was smiling so brightly, looking more youthful than krs had felt in the entire decade. After staring for a brief moment, comparing the Choi Jung Soo in his memories with the one in the picture, his gaze shifted to the other end, completely skipping over his self - sandwiched unwillingly between both of them- to his hyung Team Leader nim.
The man was older than them when he was alive.
Kim Rok Soo had finally outgrown his hyung.
"Farewell's a warning (I could hear it calling)
Gone by the morning (I wake up to longing for you)"
'His age had begun to catch up with him,' Rok soo spied on the crow's feet creeping up on the edge of lsh's eyes, making him appear much more softer, quite unbefitting of a man of his authority (yet it made him appear more approachable- a feat Rok Soo could only hope to dream about after a decade of acting as his successor)
"I know it takes eternity, but I believe I'll see you again"
Krs didn't have laugh lines or crow's feet- he rarely smiled. His face seemed to be set in stone as his colleagues liked to quote.
The increasingly apathetic look in his eyes and sunken eye bags were probably the only thing which indicated his age (his wounds took longer and longer to heal now. Perhaps, one day he might just bleed to death, giving up his life to save another soul. One who wouldn't be as miserable as himself. One who would have something, someone, to look forward to in their life. Not like Rok Soo who was barely hanging on to his life by a thread - the promise he made to his hyung. The last promise he ever made)
"I remember someone once told me that memories stay till the end
Even the small passing moments forever etched in my hands
Though it's been a while since we parted"
Unwittingly, he was once again in the battle field, standing above their corpses. He remembered holding them, remembered yelling at them to wake up, remembered blanking out when their increasingly cold hands fell out of his grasp. Sometimes he felt like he never woke up again after that.
"Being alive is the best Rok Soo-yah"
Shaking his head to dispel the unwanted memories away, he looked at the picture again. To his muted relief they looked much happier, hardly resembling the corpses which still haunted him on particularly bad days. He could see their eyes shining with vitality, their bodies robust and so alive.
"I'll see you again, forever in our memories
Once upon a time Rok Soo had secretly wished to grow old with them, to share the small joys of life with each other, to live their life to the best - as best as the world allowed them, to retire after some years and slack farm at cjs' ancestral house.
Who knew his wish would remain just a wish while he spent years yearning for something that was never meant to be his?
"If this is but a nightmare, don't wake me up, I'll stay here"
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