“Oh my, how are you so skinny?”
But when I look in the mirror you ask me,
“Why are you so fat and ugly?”
“Do you enjoy looking unattractive?”
All of these voices around me,
Yet your voice is the loudest, the most unnerving.
Every moment I catch my reflection I can see you there,
Hanging over me, watching my every move,
Calculating my calorie intake;
Your eyes always on that scale I step onto.
And every time I ask, “Why?”
But you simply smile and say, “Because you must.”
I hear those words in my mind the moment I take a bite of food,
The moment I look at the label on a drink,
That moment I look in my mirror,
That moment I step on that scale, your scale.
All I repeat is “Because you must, because you must, because you must.”
But those are your words, not mine.
Like myself, my body, my mind.
You control them, monitor them, take them over,
Because you want to measure what makes me beautiful,
What makes me attractive.
Yet it’s never enough, your voice never falters,
Never ceases to repeat those words.
So I doubt myself, and as time passed by I stopped asking you why,
I stopped questioning you,
Because I always knew the answer would be, “Because you must....”
And in your own twisted way it turned into, “Because I must...because I must...”
Your own obsession became my own,
So when I looked into that favorite mirror of yours and saw bones,
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