It Be Like That Sometimes

26 | she/her | aro-ace bipolar | trying to cope I'm unstable as fuck but at least I know it. I cry while watching Naruto and while playing Kingdom Hearts what more do you want in a person?

[xxtrashsenpai]

I was hoping I’d lose some weight when I cut down drinking (10 days alcohol-free from drinking 5-7 days a week most weeks!), but I wound up just replacing alcohol with popcorn chicken. 

I haven’t lost weight, but I haven’t gained either so at least there’s that. 

But now I basically need a popcorn chicken intervention.

[xxtrashsenpai]

Idk if it's just me, but I always feel like if I'm just an afterthought to you and it's blatantly obvious, don't even bother. It somehow makes me feel worse.

[yukiriin]

“Good boy, Akamaru!”

[xxtrashsenpai]

Sometimes my veins hurt and there's only one way to relieve the pressure and I hate it but sometimes it's the only way

[xxtrashsenpai]

My level of depression directly correlates with how many episodes of Naruto I binge watch and for how long.

[toastpotent-deactivated20250619]

honestly can we talk about that scene in death note where L sends out a death row criminal to impersonate him on live TV, and Light responds by killing him and going “haha, i just killed your smartest detective, police!”, only for the real L to come on air and be like “hi yeah that wasn’t me….. that was a no-name criminal that you couldn’t have heard about in the news….. also this isn’t actually an international broadcast it’s only in the kanto region in japan…. so you must live there…. also now i know that you need a face and name to kill somebody… so you can’t kill me……. k bye” absolutely legendary. what a goddamn moment

[celtic-pyro-deactivated20230725]

Imagine scalping your enemy before you even know their name.

[toastpotent-deactivated20250619]

light:

[xxtrashsenpai]

I haven't had internet in almost a week because I can't afford the bill and I wanna scream.

I thought it would help me be more productive but lmao nope.

[craspysav]

@people who dont draw

you should draw bc ‘bad’ art makes me happy

[craspysav]

this is what im talking about. its raw. unfiltered. no ulterior motives clouded by the desire to be ‘artsy’ or ‘deep’. it is what it is and it makes me smile

[xenosaga]

yall ever be losing your fucking mind but chilling at the same time

[patrickat]

Me, using PC: There’s nothing interesting on the big Internet.

Me, picking up phone: Let’s see what’s on the tiny Internet.

[xxtrashsenpai]

For the first time in a long time I have people directly in front of my face, holding out their hands to try to steady me while I attempt to get back on my feet. Practically begging me to reach out and grab on, saying they don't want to lose me.

And some days I want to.

But most days I wish I'd never said a word.

Most days I want them to just let me go.

I'm tired.

I'm so, so tired.

And I don't want to do this anymore.

Or ever again.

[egberts]

me playing any video game: *does not touch the block button at all throughout the game*

[zireaells]

#no block button we lose like men

[nerdgasrnz]

#dodge or die #there is no block

[hobgoblinhero]

what the fuck is this dodge nonsense? You hit them harder and faster than they hit you and That Is How You Play Video Game

[shockingsuper]

You cant take damage if the enemy is dead

[cryoverkiltmilk]

Don’t talk to me about buffing or debuffing stats either. The only stat that matters is the enemy’s HP, and I am going to debuff it all the way to zero.

[zevbutt]

Next some loser is gonna tell me to use the brake button in a racing game. No I hold accelerate the whole time and either drift or die

[thadeeliv]

drift? in this house, we ram straight into every wall

[anxietyproblem]

[xxtrashsenpai]

honestly i just think i’m dead already and everything has been some sort of purgatory or alternate reality or some shit like nothing is real, shit maybe i’m not real like i look in the mirror and some days it just looks...blank and when i hear my name” i get so stressed because i don’t even know who that is like shut the fuck up and leave me alone everything just seems like it’s on repeat day after day week after week month after month year after year like things aren’t EXACTLY the same every single time but the situations are so similar that it’s like going through a constant state of deja vu and even when things start to seem like it’s alright suddenly it’s reverted all the way to the beginning where it’s all shit again like i’m stuck in this constant loop that there’s no way out of until i fully acknowledge that i’m dead and let go 

it’s fucking ridiculous how hard it is to sleep most of the time and how no matter how many times i almost die i never do, and i think that’s because you can’t really die if you’re already dead i figure it’s just part of that insane loop like some days i feel like i could walk out into traffic and be perfectly fine because i’ve done so many stuuuuupid things where i should have died but nothing has seemed real since 2012 so sometimes it makes me feel like i DID die when i overdosed on allllll those pills i swallowed and stuffed up my nose that night and i’m just stuck in the same state for the rest of eternity 

it’s like hitting a brick wall after a certain point even when i tryyyy to change but then i wake back up at square one 

i feel like i should be able to pass through walls and i don’t know why i can’t  

i don’t know what’s going on anymore

[egg-tampon]

back in my day we didn’t call it “shitposting”, we called it “nightblogging” and blamed the australians

[mycatstail]

I’ve been on this god forsaken website for too long.

[randomslasher]

I literally had the sensation of being slammed back in time just now

[big-ovipositor-energy]

nowadays we make bad content all day

[lohver]

shout out to anyone who’s struggling with their mental health and doesn’t think they can live like this for much longer; if you’re reading this, please stay alive, you’re still here and you’re so strong and i’m proud of you.

[xxtrashsenpai]

Bless my most beloved child.