Benny Wilk ❤️

[skatesslut]

ma baby

[maddawg4-20]

Can u do a Benny wilk imagine where y/n r filming a q&a video and she calls him daddy and everybody freaks out and some call them mom and dad and say they ship it?

Just like most everyday, I am currently at Sam’s house. Sam and I have been friends for years. We met at one of Skate’s parties and clicked instantly, but it’s not what you think. There is nothing but friendship between us whatsoever. I know he’s cute and sweet..but i’ve just had my eyes on someone else. His brother.

Damn his brother.. his smile, his eyes, his hair..everything about him is perfect to me. Speaking of Ben, once he gets home we’re doing a Q&A on Younow. I was going to do it with Sam but he has things to do at the studio so Benny offered to fill in for him.

I was sitting on my bed getting the Younow set up while waiting on Ben to get home when all of a sudden i felt two strong arms wrap around my waist “Hi” Ben says and pulls me onto his lap… One more pretty important thing I forgot to mention; me and Ben have been lowkey hooking up for about a month and a half. it’s AMAZING. He’s amazing…

“Hi” I smile and look at him. He smiles back and kisses my lips softly, before deepening the kiss. As much as i want him to rip my clothes off and take me right here, we have things to do,“Hey now we have a Q&A to do like now” I chuckle and turn my face away from his lips. He leans his head back against the wall and sighs exasperatedly “finnne”. I laugh and kiss his cheek “Quit your whining, i’ll make it up to you later”. He smirks at me and wiggles his brows suggestively which causes me to laugh and smack his chest before climbing off him.

I scoot back into the wall next to him and pull my laptop closer so we’re both in view, “ready?”. He shrugs “let’s do it”. I start the Younow after i send a tweet out telling everyone to come watch, ‘Hey everyone!” I smile and wave,”I know you were expecting to see Sammy boy with me, but some things came up so Benny here decided he’d come hang with us” I can’t help the big smile i have when i look over at him, “Hello everyone” He says and smiles his perfect smile.

I look back at the screen and say, “So basically just ask us any questions at all”, He nods and adds on, “They can be random, serious, dirty, embarrassing, anything you can think of.”

For the first 10 minutes things were pretty simple. Just your typical: “what’s your favorite color?” “who’s your favorite singer” “what’s your favorite movie?”, questions like that, but now we both started noticing more interesting questions. “ooo I like this one” Ben points to it ,”r/f/a says ‘you don’t have to name an names, but was the last hook up you had good?” Ben reads with a knowing smirk. I instantly blush at the question, “Um I mean you could say it was good…”, He raises his eyebrows and tilts his head a little “Really? Cause I can say my last hook up was pretty fuckin’ great.” He says with that stupid grin on his face. My heart starts to beat a little faster and I reply, “She must be one lucky girl then”, He shakes his head “No I think i’m the lucky one”, he says making my heart swell.

Further into the Younow I get more and more comfortable with answering more..personal i guess you could say..questions and we somehow got on the topic of kinks we had. “hmm.. honestly I don’t have any weird things that I like in bed. I just like a guy who can rough me up a little and maybe bend me over his knee if he thinks i’ve been bad”, I bite my lip a little and look over at Ben and chuckle a little when I see his stunned face “u-um well..” he coughs a little trying to get his cool back, “I guess you could say the daddy kink really does run in the family..” he says and winks at the screen knowing the fans are gonna lose their minds. I grin and check the time on my phone, “well, daddy” I say slyly, “I think it’s time for us to sign off. Thank you so much for hangin out with us today! We love you all” I blow a kiss and grin while reading the comments: “OMFG I SHIP IT SO MUCH” ‘Y/N JUST CALLED HIM DADDY NO FUCKING WAY” “mom and dad jfc” “ahhhhh! #shipname” “bennyandy/narefuckingtonight”, “Byeeee” he laughs and signs off before closing my laptop.

“you know..” he mumbles while trailing his hand up my thigh and bringing his lips closer so i can feel his hot breath on my neck, giving me chills, “that one fan wasn’t wrong.. y/n and ben are definitely fucking tonight” he groans before capturing my lips in a passionate kiss.

a/n: sorry it took so long! It’s actually really awful so i’m sorry about that too ugh

[skatesbabymama]

That's My Best Friend//N.M

I’m now sitting in my best friends room in nothing but my underwear and bra. I have no memory of what happened. All I know is that Nate is laying next to me and Nate isn’t Johnson so I’m in a hell of a lot trouble. This is all I remember. “Aye, turn up!“ I scream. “Aye.” They repeat back. Rupp couldn’t be at the party so I’m on Dj duty. “Aye G.” I yell. “Huh?” He says, walking over to me. “Can you go check on my best friend for me?” I ask while batting my eyelashes.“ Man I don’t know, I’m kind of in the middle of something.” He says, smiling at a pretty blonde standing at the top of the stairs. Waiting for Jack I’m guessing. “Ohh you’re cheating on your precious Madison.” I say while grabbing my chest. “Oh shit I forgot….She’ll never know.” He says while smiling at me. “You have my word if you go check on Nate for me. I can’t leave here.” I beg. “Fine.” He says while walking off. “Take my boyfriend with you, he is more dependable.” I say. G rolls his eyes and tells Jack J as they both walk to the kitchen. They burst out laughing and pointing. I look at them while throwing my hands up. G rushes over to me. “Come look at your best friend.” He smirks. “Ugh.” I groan while being dragged to the kitchen. As soon as we turn the corner I see Nate with some girl. “Oh lord.” I say while running my hands through my hair. “I’m going in.” I say. The Jacks just laugh. “Hey Nate.” I say while putting my arm on his shoulder. “Hey Y/N.” He says. “And who are you?” The random girl asks me. “Who are you?” I ask back. “I’m Jordan….now as you can see, we were in the middle of something so bye.” She says, fanning me off. I look around then at Nate. “I don’t give a fuck. I’m his best friend, I have to make sure he doesn’t fuck up his life and he obviously isn’t sober because he wouldn’t be talking to your ugly ass.” I say while flipping my hair. Nate chuckles. “Whatever. Like I said, walk away hoe.” She says and pushes me. I just laugh. The Jacks rush over to me. I put my drink down on the counter, getting ready to hit her. “Aye, we good over here?” Jack asks while grabbing my hand. “Yeah, except this dumb ass bitch won’t leave me and my baby alone.” She says while grabbing Nate’s arm. Nate kind of sobers up when he hears the word baby. “Walk away Jack.” I say. “No.” He groans. “Jack.” I glare and they both walk away in a hurry. “Nate you better get your girl, she’s about to get her ass beat.” I say. She chuckles and grabs Nate’s arm again but he takes his arm back. “Come on Y/N, let’s leave before we get into some trouble.” He says while grabbing my hand. “You’re not good enough for my best friend to even think about fucking you.” I smirk. “Nate call me.” she winks at him. “He won’t.” I say and she slaps me. I just remember blacking out and then I came back and saw her on the floor and then my vision left again. The last thing I remember is holding on to Nate’s body while crying. “Morning best friend.” Nate says while turning over. “Hey. What happened last night?” I ask. “What do you mean?” He laughs. “Well…” I say while gesturing to our bodies. “Oh nothing. When you blacked out you kind of went crazy and you had blood on you so I just took your clothes off. Jack was also blackout drunk so I brought you up here. "Whew.” I say while exhaling. We both laugh. “Sorry for not letting you ever get any pussy, like never.” I giggle. “It’s cool, I’m sure one day you’ll be there when I find Mrs. Maloley.” He smiles. “Pinky promise?” I giggle. “Pinky promise.” He says while linking our pinkies. I pull out my phone and start to snapchat. “Morning, just laying in bed with Nate. No I didn’t cheat on Johnson, I just drank too much and I blacked out.” I smile.“ Nahh, she beat the shit out of a girl.” Nate laughs. “Shh.” I say. “How about we go look out your window and see who had to take the walk of shame?” I smirk. “That’s why you’re my best friend.” He says while getting out of bed and looking through the window. “We have one short blonde hair, black skirt and red crop top.” He says. “Oh, Gilinsky fucked her.” I laugh. “Hoe.” He smirks. “Aye, put some respeck on her name.” I yell.

[letspackbagsandrunaway]

Omaha AU: Being on Nates Younow

You and Nate have been officially together for quite some time now and the fans already know about you. A lot of them actually ship you since you look so happy together. You’ve basically moved in with him, spending the nights at his place. One morning after both of you were out partying, you wake up to him already being in the living room, talking to his fans on younow. 

(NOT A REQUEST - But I just had to)

Next AU will be a requested one again, promise :)

Hope you enjoyed anyways <3

MASTERLIST

[h00d-lumx1996-deactivated201712]

OMAHA AU (requested by anonymous): au where Nate likes you and you’re sammy’s neighbor so he gets over protective like a brother // I hope you don’t mind that I made Nate & Y/N secretly date. 

REQUEST HERE || MASTERLIST 

[keepdrinkingthatskaterade]

Let's talk about some stuff.

Nate (in regards to his snapchat with Ana): * If they are sleeping together or dating oh well. I don’t really care as long as they’re both happy. * No I don’t know anything about Ana so if she was apart of a prostitution ring or not, I don’t know and frankly don’t care. Who am I to judge her? If y'all wanna talk shit please block me. * Even if she was, you have no place to talk shit about that.

Sam & Stassie: * I don’t ‘ship’ them but if they are happy so be it. * I feel bad for Stassie because I don’t think Sammy is with her because he cares about her. She’s famous he’s gained fame from being friends with her. Stassie deserves someone who’s as into her as she is to them. * I’m not really a big fan of Sammy anymore cause I’ve seen how much he’s changed. * Sammy isn’t as genuinely passionate to the music as like Skate and Derek are. * He seems like he’s only in it for the fame.

G and Madison: * If they are still together that’s more than great. * If they aren’t that’s sad but i want them to be happy. * I’m waiting for one of them to publicly acknowledge it and keep up that statement. * If G is really gay I support him. * If G is straight I support him. * As for the 'pictures’ they are very photoshopped and you can figure that out for yourself. * Madison smoking doesn’t bother me. Yes smoking isn’t good for you but she could be doing worse. Many people smoke. As for the whole 'she’s underage’ those same people arguing that are the same teenagers drinking hard liquor every other night until they are passed out. * You’re not Madison’s parents so keep your comments about her health to yourself. * As for the ig page people are using as a reference, stop being dumb that’s run by a 13 year old who shames anyone they can.

I’m sick of people slamming Ana and Madison. I’m sick of people supporting others who are totally okay with slut shaming Ana and Mad but post about how wrong it is to slut shame other girls. Ana and Madison are other girls. Just cause they’re in the spotlight doesn’t make them any different.

[skatesslut]

FRE$H

[e-writee]

“Are you going to be gone for good?” //D.Hale//

It took her minutes just to make her heart race a little slowly than it was when she found out.

Of course she understands why,but she’ll never have a say in anything he does,she doesn’t have any power over him,she’ll never be anything to him.

All the efforts are gone when her fist hit on the loft door,her stomach cramping,bile rising up her throat,her head swirling of the images of what it’s going to be like once he’s gone.

“Hey.”

This is the best he could get after 3 weeks of absolutely craziness that wrapped around Beacon hills,with all the people dying,with their packmates dying,he looked tired and in desperate need of a sleep,and now,he looked healthy,wuth sometime to catch up with sleeping and being at peace.

He looks happy.

Who wouldn’t be?

Happy to leave another hell called Beacon hills.

Leave her.

“Are you all packed?”

Out of all the questions she should’ve asked him,it was this,it was like pushing him out of the way,out of this town and out of her life,probably for a long time,if she is lucky.

And she hopes to God that she is.

She hasn’t even thought of what it’s going to be like with him a thousand of miles away,who is she going to call when she ends u being kidnapped by another supernatural being of beacon hills? Who is going to tear down walls just to get inside and save her? Who is going to look for her with the sun up and down,lose sleep for her? Just to make sure she’s safe?

Who’s going to be him when he’s gone?

Who’s going to patch her up when she ends up blood all over her body with gashes marking inches of her skin? Who’s going to cook her breakfast or dinner just so she won’t faint while training? Who’s going to give her pizza after risking her life for another just to celebrate?

Who’s going to love her beside herself?

“I’m finished,Cora on the other half isn’t”

He smiled,the one when it doesn’t reach his eyes.

He doesn’t smile that full so often,most of the times it happens off guard,winning against an enemy or just losing himself into her but she may never know.

Because he’s going to leave Beacon hills and she’s letting her.

Why would she not let him?

He is free as a bird,he doesn’t own anyone and anyone doesn’t own him,not until he found out Cora was alive,just when he wanted her.

And now he’s going to be gone and there’s a big chance that they’re never going to see each other again,but the hole in his chest,the one she managed to chase away and clear him from,but there it is yest again,difference is she’s the one that caused it,her presence alone makes his chest tightened and a lump to form in his throat,making him stutter and for his breath to catch.

She usually has that power over him,squeezing his heart to no and and he still gives more and more and he doesn’t know how but when it comes to her he can do it,may be just because he knows all the pain and suffering she went through and he knows why you became this broken and you managed to live,but the same as him,in the shadows,just looking at the gray world,never really recovering the sight you have for the beauty of your life.

And then she came.

And then he met her.

And he was close into making her his,he was close into having somebody.

And now she’s here ready to say goodbye,ready to send him away,ready to say goodbye and not let her tears cascade down her cheeks.

She’s letting him go and leave,with her heart in his hands and it’s going to be miles away.

“Are you going to be gone for good?”

He couldn’t help but stare at how her lips moved,how she fought hard for it to quiver,so she bit it,almost drawing blood and he can’t think anything else right at that moment that he should have done that before all of this mess happened.

He needs to touch her,kiss her or just feel her again,as if he’s going to another life and he’s not going to meet another her.

Her mix is nothing that he has seen before,nothing he has ever felt,as if she holds universe,as if she holds everything,variety of what a person could be and he wants to hold it and make it his but now it’s late and he doesn’t know what to do.

How to keep her.

How to be hers.

Not just when they’re tangled on the bed,or sitting on the couch or eating the morning after or checking each other after a fight.

He wants her and it took him everything he has not to pounce on her and make her feel what he is feeling,just so he wouldn’t make leaving any harder than it already is.

“I think so,I can’t go back to old habits,I can’t drop everything and leave,I have Cora now and I can’t leave her.”

It was stupid,how it hit like a punch in a gut.

He’s right.

He can’t drop Cora to go for you.

He can’t drop everything and go to nothing.

She thought he was being unfair.

They were both alone in the world until they found each other,and he can’t just leave her,not after all the promises of protection and company,not after spending years being drunk of each other,not after everything.

Not after all the scars and wounds they rend on each other,not after all of the whispers and secrets that they kept in their own world,where all that heard them was themselves,with sheets in between and the light is shimmering through the only window at the loft.

She’s loosing all what she thought she is going to have forever and she doesn’t know how to hold on to it.

“Be careful on your way there.” She smiled,a sad smile,it was the first time he saw her breaking piece by piece and he can’t keep up with the falling pieces anymore,how could he? He broke her and he won’t be there to fix her.

If she stays,

If she just look on his eyes or his lips or him,

She wouldn’t be able to stop herself from breaking in and out.

“Goodbye.”

Her lips touched his cheek and he doesn’t know what to do,he doesn’t know what to feel and he doesn’t know what to say.

All he knows,after all he knows love and he was saying goodbye.

She was there standing before him and tearing herself piece by piece,trying to say goodbye to him.

“I didn’t say that you couldn’t come with me,did I?”

She was half way out of the loft when he proposed her to go with him.

She wasn’t looking at him enough to notice that his eyes are filled too,not much like her but she can see something she knows he hasn’t ever felt before.

Then after what feel like a million years he even himself felt like he isn’t alone anymore.

I have been gone for months.

A lot of shit happened,that I think it deserves another new post,because it’s not going to be enough to just lay it all out in here.

I hope you enjoyed.

WRITINGS // Still filling some requests.

[gilinskyxskatee]

“Is that my shirt?”-Jswazz

Part 2

Tonight was the final game in the basketball championship, and of course you and John were in a dumb fight. It started when you brought up life after highschool. He started fidgeting and tried to change the subject. “John, why do you not wanna talk about this? What’s going on?”,you asked. “Nothing, why do we have to talk about this right now”,he said turning onto another road. “When you win tonight, things will change”,you said looking out the window. “Nothing is going to change baby, I got us”,he said chuckling and squeezing your leg. You gave him a soft smile and looked out the window again. You arrived at school and walked into the locker room area. “Good luck, kick some ass”,you said kissing his cheek. “I love you”,he said. “Forever”,you said. You walked into where the girls were and you began to stretch. 

“Good evening ladies and gentlemen, tonight is the basketball state championship. Tonights game is between the Monarchs vs the Jaguars, but before we start the game our let’s give a big welcome to our cheerleaders”, the speaker announced. You walked out to the very front and waited for the music to begin. You started the routine and lets just say you were killing it.

The big finally was about to come up, the big flip. You looked over at your best friend and she nodded making you feel better. You stepped up and then the girls lifted you into a extension. You both perfectly did a successful flip and landed in the basket. You did the final pose and notice John’s huge smile. 

The crowd started cheering and you ran to the sideline holding the run through banner. You looked over and saw John and Nate talking. Nate was pretty much getting on to John about something. “Here they are the Monarches!”,the speaker shouted. The boys then ran out and started the first half of the game. Throughout the whole game, you knew John wasn’t playing his best. The scouts in the stands were looking very confused and don’t ask about Couch Dunham. The first quarter ended and the score was 21-28. We were winning but John wasn’t impressing the scouts. You ran over to him and bent down in front of him on the bench. “Baby, what’s wrong. What are you thinking about”,you asked him lifting his head. “Look, theres something you need to know”,he said. “Tell me”,you said looking into his soft eyes. “The reason I don’t want to talk about our future is-”. “Hey pom poms, you’ve got to go perform again”,Nate said looking you up and down in your uniform. “You’re distusting”,you scoffed and walked toward the squad. You got into position and winked at John. He looked down and didn’t smile and blow you a kiss. Something was seriously bothering him. 

The routine began and you couldn’t focus on it at all. You started worrying and overthinking now, the thing you were best at. You tried to shake all your thoughts out and focus. You kept looking at John on the bench instead of counting your steps. You went to be lifted, when they went to extend you you tried to flip out. You didn’t stick your landing and landed on your back knocking the air out of you.

Everyone started crowding you, Mrs.Tammy ran out on to the floor. John pushed everyone out of the way. He picked you up and went over to the bleachers. He held you in his arms while Tammy check everything out. Once she got to your ankle you cringed in pain. She took your shoe off and noticed your ankle was turning purple fast.

“Is it broken”,you asked wincing in pain. “You need to call your parents and get to a doctor if you still want to continue cheering”,Tammy said handing you your bag. John picked you up and started walking out of the gym. “John, what are you doing? You need to get back to your game”,you said looking up at him. He didn’t say anything, he just kept walking. “Dude, what the fuck are you doing? Remember the fucking game?”,Nate said from the gym doors. John placed you in the passenger seat and got his phone out. “Hey Mrs. y/l/n, you need to meet us at the hospital she landed on the ankle and we need to get x-rays”,John said speeding on to the highway. “We’re like 10 minutes away. Okay meet you there, bye”,he said hanging up the phone. “John, you need to get back to your game. Your throwing away everything you’ve been working for”,you said. “I’m not throwing anything away”,he said. You pulled into the hospital and you saw your mom. You sat in the X-ray room with John while your mom filled out paperwork. “So what were you saying at the game”,you said killing the silence. “Well umm, I have some good news”,he said monotoned. “You don’t sound very happy”,you said. “Baby, I love you. But an opportunity came up”,he said putting his hand on your leg. “Like a scholarship or job opportunity”,you said confused. “Yea a job, I’m gonna go work for Nate”,he said. “Why was that bothering you”,you giggled. “Listen, the job is going to work for him on his Tours and music label. I’d have to leave and live with him in Cali”,he said. “So, when were you planning to tell me”,you said finally taking in the news. “Nate told me tonight is was 100%”,he said. “Did you even think about ‘us’ at all”,you asked with tears forming. “John, I love you fuck it i’m in love with you. Did you even think about me or our future. You told me you wanted to get married in a couple of years”,you said finally letting the tears falling. “Do you want to come with me”,he said quietly. “You know I can’t do that, not with my mom like this. She just lost my dad and she’s having to work double just to put a roof over our heads. I can’t leave her here, i’ve got to help her. I just applied for my second job just to pay for college classes”,you said shaking your head. “This is a chance for me to get into the music industry. I’ll come back for you. We can be together, i’ll come home every chance I get”,he said kissing you. “Please don’t leave me”,you said crying. “Do you want to me go for my dreams and finally be happy”,he said raising his voice. “Of course I do! Thats what I care about most”,you said getting angry. “Then why can’t you just be happy for me and support me”,he said. “I support you through everything, even this. But I am going to be so heartbroken when you find someone better and forget what loving me is like”,you say looking into his eyes. 

You heard a knock at the door and the doctor came in the show you the x-rays. “Well, you have a lateral malleolus fracture. You’re not done with cheer but you’re done for the season”,he said. “Bye bye scholarship”,you said laughing sarcastically. “It’s alright honey you’re so smart you’ll get into college don’t worry”,mom said and smiled. “Yea but this is my senior year and this was my chance”,you said. You smiled at her and got your cast on. They gave you crutches and you began heading toward the parking lot. You opened the door to John’s truck and got your bag. You then went to your mom’s car and opened the door and got in. “Honey, don’t you want to go hangout with John at the after party since the Monarchs won”,she said clapping and hugging John. “I just want to sleep and not wake up”,you said in a hushed tone. “John, you can come hangout at the house with us. Tonight is scary movie and popcorn night”,mom said opening her door. “He’s fine, he has more important things to do”,you said to your mom. Your mom scrunched her eyebrows in confusion and looked at you. “Maybe another time John, thank you for bringing her here”,you mom said. “No problem have a good night”,he said. “Goodnight Baby, I love you”,he said. You just sat there and waited for your mom to start the car. “What is your problem, you always wanna hangout with him. And you always say forever”,she said. “He’s leaving and told me tonight. He wanted me to come but we know that’s not an option”,you said looking out of the window. “I’m sorry honey”,she said. “Me too”.

You got home and crutched upstairs and took off your makeup and changed. You unpacked your cheer bag and put it all away since you were done for the rest of the season. You noticed something white in the bag. You pulled it out and noticed John put his shirt than smelt like his cologne. You eyes began to tear and you became sad at the fact you were about to loose him. 

Some people might think you’re being selfish on how your acting. That you’re not letting him live his dream and you’re being controlling. Yea thats true but if he was the only thing that made you happy and get out of bed, would you want him to leave too? John found me when I saw a sad girl, he brought me to light and filled me with it. And now all that darkness is going to come back into my life. 

You put on the shirt and a pair of spandex and gently got into bed, propping your leg with a pillow. The smell brought back tears to the first day in Chem class to your first date to the formals to your first time making love to him comforting you about your dad. He always wore this cologne and it meant so much to you. You finally fell asleep with hot cheeks and a stuffy nose.

You kept hearing this ringing in your dream. It kept ringing and ringing. You finally wokeup and realized it was the doorbell. “Mom, can you get that please”,you shouted. No answer. You checked the time and noticed it was 8:30, she probably went in for a early morning shift. You got your crutches and went down the small hallway and opened the door. You were shocked by who it was. “Nate? What are you doing here?”,you asked. “Look John is rethinking everything now. He really wants this and now he’s thinking about staying for you or some shit. So if you want him to be happy then tell him he needs to go”,he said. “He really wants this?”,you asked. “Of course he does”,he said. “Okay, i’ll convinced him”,you say regretting it. “Thank lil ma, you legs sure do look good”,Nate said looking you up and down. “Bye Maloley”,you said shutting your door.

You called John and he said he would be over any minute. You brushed your fingers threw your hair and tried to look presentable. You heard a knock at the door and you opened it. “Hey, come in”,you said smiling. He walked in and kissed your cheek. “So i was thinking and I think you should go for it”,you said breathing out. “W-What?”,he said shocked. “If this is what you want, I should support you. Your happiness is everything to me baby”,you said kissing his cheek. “I-is that my shirt ma?”,he asked. “Oh yea, it was in my cheer bag. Guess you threw it in there yesterday at the game. You can have it back”,you said. “No,no keep it please. You look so good in it”,he said wrapping his arms around you. “And the cast is super sexy”,he said making you laugh. “So you’re okay with this? What made you have a change in heart?”,he said pulling you into his lap. “Nate came by and told me it was your dream. I should’ve listened and supported you from the beginning. I’m sorry”,you said playing with his hair. “Nate? Why the fuck was he here?”,John said furrowing his eyebrows. “He told me that you were going to stay for me and that I was pretty much ruining your dreams”,you said running your nails throughout his hair. “You’re not baby”,he said kissing you. “So when do you leave”,you said resting your head on his chest. “Week after graduation”,he said. You felt tears forming in your eyes and realized you were about to loose the light again. “I’ll come visit every chance I get, I promise baby”,he said kissing your head. “I know you will”,you said lifting your head to kiss him. “Don’t cry, this is not goodbye. I love you”,he said. “Forever”,you said wiping your eyes.

[gilinskyxskatee]

“Is that my shirt”-Jswazz pt.3

part 1 part 2

You woke up by smelling bacon and the light shinning through your white curtains. You laid there examining your charm bracelet. You shook the memories and got out of bed. You walked in to the kitchen area to see your mom drinking coffee and making breakfast. “I don’t remember the last time we’ve had breakfast. You’ve always opened the diner. You didn’t go in today?”,she asked cracking some eggs. “Maggie didn’t ask me, I’m guessing someone else took it”,you said getting a coffee cup filling it with coffee. “Well I’m glad you didn’t go in, I miss my little girl”,she said poking your dimple. “So, tell me about the party”,she said with excitement. “Nothing really happened”,you said buttering the toast. “Really, so you didn’t come in last night all mad and blazing hell”,she said raising her eyebrows. “I hate thin these walls are”,you said quietly. “So, are you going to tell me, or do I need to hear it from someone else who’s twisted the story”,she said making the plates. “Fine”,you said taking your plate and sitting down. She sat down with her plate and look at you, waiting for you to talk. “I was at work yesterday and John and the boys came in and John invited me to a party. I asked Maggie if she would close and she said sure. So as you know I came home and got ready. John got me a california charm and an envelope filled with 3,000 dollars worth of cash. I got ready, went to the party, and now totally regret it”,you said drinking your coffee. “What happened at the party”,she said taking in the gossip. “I got there and saw Lainey. She told me about her Sorority and I was trying not to be jealous”,you said giving a little chuckle. Your mom gave you a sad look. “Honey, you know if i could afford it I would-”. “Mom, I know. It’s fine. Don’t feel guilty”,you said. “And then I went to the backyard and saw John. And he was playing beer pong with this girl that was really pretty mom, like god she was pretty”,you voice cracked. You took a deep breath and continued the story. “And so I tried getting away from that, but he saw me before I could escape. So he convinced me to play, and it looked like he was rubbing it my face that he had other girls wanting him. So Nate and I kinda pissed him off, Nate was pretending to be flirty with me and John got mad. Then all of your true feelings came out then”,you said. “I doubt she was that pretty”,she said. “Mom, its Heather. Heather Chandler (lol if you get the name ref than I LOVE YOU) remember her mom is the head plastic surgery in the state. And let’s just say she practiced on her daughter if you know what I mean. I bet she’ll get into med school easily, unlike some people”,you said raising your eyebrows. “You deserve so much, I’m really sorry I can’t provide for you like I used to”,your mom said wiping her eyes. “Mom, its okay. I’m glad you don’t provide me with everything, it makes me independent and not depend on people”,you said smiling at her. “I raised a beautiful, responsible, independent woman”,she said. “So what happened between you and John”,she said. “Well he tried to make me jealous and he succeeded. I told him i still had feelings for him and he asked why I ended things. I told him I didn’t want to tie him down, that there would be beautiful girls there. He’d meet someone better. I told him waiting for him is like waiting for rain in a drought. I told him I didn’t want him to leave and I didn’t want to wait. I gave him his money back and told her I didn’t depend on anyone for anything. I told him if you care about something, it always goes away”,you said looking down at your food. “Then he said ‘You’ve become a real bitch since your dad died. That that was the real reason he left me for california”,you said with your eyes watering. “Then I told him the reason I became that way was so I didn’t get heart broken again. He then got mad and said I told him to go. The only reason I told him to go was because I thought about him first, that I didn’t want to hold him back. He told he I wished I did. And then I said at least one of us deserves to be happy and I walked about from him. I came home, threw a tantrum, put on his shirt, and went to sleep. Happy?”,you said getting up from the table and walking out of the kitchen. “Hey, look you don’t have to take this out me okay. I am and will always be here for you. I am your best friend. So here’s my advice, you go back to bed, eat nothing but gallons of ice cream and tons of pizza. Don’t think about work or school and go watch a ton of Nicholas Sparks movies. Now while you do that, I’m going to go pay a visit to the police station and get the guys to go kick John’s ass”,she said grabbing her purse. “Mom, just let it go. It’ll be okay, come watch the movies with me”,you said taking her hand and going to your bedroom. “Alright”,she said putting her purse down. 

You two were laying your bed under your big white down comforter. “Mom, how could she just left Noah and not came back or thought about him? If you love someone and you break up, where does the love go?”,you asked looking up at her. “Well, you might not in love with them honey, but you never stop loving or caring for them. They’ll always be in your heart”,she said playing with your hair. 

Just then you heard a knock at the door. “Must be the pizza guy, I’ll be right back”,you said getting your wallet. “Honey, want me to pause it”,your mom said. “Mom, we’ve both seen this 10 times each”,you said chuckling. You walked down the hall to the front door. You look in the little mirror by the front door, and you looked like hell. You tried making your hair better, but nothing helped, whatever. You opened the door to see no pizza, but there was instead a dickhead. “Can I help you”,you said. “Look, can we talk”,John said. “About”,you said putting your hand on your hip. “Oh gosh sorry was that ‘too bitchy’,you said putting your hand over your mouth. “Look, I came here to apologize”,he said. “It’s fine, I’m fine”,you said crossing your arms. “Is that my shirt?”,he raised his eyebrow. “Yea it is, and here take it back. It means nothing anymore”,you said taking the shirt off to reveal your victoria secret bra. You threw the shirt at him and he caught it. “So, is there anything else you need”,you said crossing your arms again. “You”,he said. “You were happy with me once”,he said with his voice cracking. “I’m so sorry for what I said last night, I didn’t mean it. I was just upset”,he said stepping toward you. “Looks like we both regret saying something we didn’t mean”,you said looking down. “I’m sorry I left you, I should’ve just took you hostage and brought you with me”,he said laughing trying to make the situation less awkward. “Wish I was selfish and told you to stay”,you said looking at him with glossy eyes. “Wish I never broke your heart like I did”,he said wiping a tear before it fell. “You didn’t break my heart, nobody breaks my heart”,you said drying up the tears. “Would you stop with the steel heart thing. Let me in and let me love you again”,he said. 

“No, I’m finally over you”,you lied. “No, no you’re not. You told me last night you had feelings for me still. Deep down you and I both know we still love each other”,he said raising his voice. “YOU SAID I WAS A BITCH EVER SINCE MY DAD DIED AND THAT’S THE MAIN REASON YOU LEFT ME! BECAUSE YOU COULDN’T TAKE ME ANYMORE! YOU KNEW WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH, YOU LAID WITH ME WHILE I CRIED FOR WEEKS. SO I’M SO SORRY I LOST MY BESTFRIEND AND SHOWED A LITTLE BIT OF SADNESS THE WHOLE TIME WE DATE JOHN, I’M SO SO FUCKING SORRY!”,you said pushing his chest and letting all the tears flow. Your mom came out of your room and saw that you were finally letting it all out. She took off her sweater and put it around you. “Let’s get inside, honey”,she said. “I-i’m so sorry baby, I should’ve been there for you more”,John said trying to get to you. “John honey, just go home. She needs some time. I’ll call you when she’s better, but if you ever call her a bitch or bring her father into a stupid argument like this one again. I do have some good friends at the police station who would anything for us”,your mom said shutting the door on John. She took you into your bedroom and laid there with you. “Mom I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to turn this into a drama show. I was never ready for him to leave”,you said crying into her chest. “It’s okay honey, i’m here”,she said smoothing your hair.

You wokeup hours later and noticed your mom fell asleep holding you. You wiggled out of her arms and went to drive dressed. “Do you want to go out for dinner? My treat”,your mom said stretching from sleeping. “No thanks, Maggie texted me and said she had extra hours tonight and I took them”,you said putting on work uniform. “Why? You need to stay home and cry and eat pizza”,she said. “I’m tired of crying. I need to stop thinking about him”,you said putting your hair in a ponytail. “I’ll see you whenever I get home”,you said walking out to your car. You pulled up and walked inside to see Maggie cleaning plates. “How’s my favorite girl doing? How was that party you went to”,you said smiling. “I’m fine, and nothing special”,you said grabbing the broom. “That’s not what I heard”,she said raising her eyebrows. “Well, what did you hear my dear?”,you said putting a hand on your hip. “Well, John did come in here looking for you earlier today, and you know my famous pie makes people’s troubles come out”,she said drying her hands. “Is it me Maggie? Am I reason people always leave?”,you asked looking into her soft blue eyes. “I mean first my dad who had a heart attack on scene, then my brother who I haven’t spoken to since my freshman year of high school, and now for the first boy I ever truly love”,you said looking down. 

“You are definitely not the reason baby. They just don’t know what of an amazing they lost on their own. And you know your daddy loved you, you and him were inseparable. It was just his time and he’s always looking over you. He is always with you, and he will always protect you”,she said hugging you. “He’ll even protect you from stupid guys like me”,you heard a voice say. You turned around to see John standing there. “How much of that did you hear?”,you asked. “Enough of it to hear that I broke you, again. I did it once when I left and I knew you didn’t want me to. Then I do it again by saying something that first wasn’t true, and second something that I knew would break you. Baby, I came back to be with you. I’m still in love with you and I can’t stand to not be with you. I miss you being next to me, kissing you, and holding you. I want to be here. I want to have everything with you. I want it all, I want us”,he said. 

“Well, I’ll be counting the money in cash register”,Maggie said walking out of the kitchen. She winked at you and knew she had something to do with this surprise encounter. “Did you really mean the things you just said”,you voice cracked. “Every last word, I’m here”,John said hugging you. “I missed you so much it hurt”,you said holding on to him tight. “I’m sorry for what I said to you. I was a total douchebag and you didn’t deserve that”,he said tucking some hair behind your ear. “I forgive you, just don’t leave me ever again”,you said. John then gave you a passionate kiss. “I love you”,he said rubbing your cheek. “Forever”,you said kissing him again.

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Masterlist

Hey guys:) okay alot of people have been asking for a masterlist, but I also just started writing imagines. So these are some i’ve already done, and everytime I upload I’ll add it on here :) I love you guys. Don’t forget to request <3

Nate Maloley Imagines

You’re hurting me

You’re hurting me Pt.2

Don’t you dare say you love me

Don’t you dare say you love me Pt.2

Don’t you dare say you love me Pt.3

Did they hurt you?

It Kills me to see you with her

It kills me to see you with her pt.2

Insercurity

Theres no way in hell i’d fall in love with someone like you

Are you cheating on me (ft. Sammy Wilk)

Are you cheating on me pt.2 (ft.Sammy Wilk

Are you cheating on me pt.3 (ft.Sammy)

Please don’t hurt her

Please stay

Dancers (ft. Sammy)

Jsazz Imagines

Overprotective boyfriend

Mommy and Daddy

Jack Gilinsky Imagines

I’m Pregnant

I wanted you to fight for me

You said you loved me

You said you loved me pt.2 (ft.Nate)

Derek Luh Imagines

Everyone Always Leaves

Jack Johnson Imagines

Did I just say that out loud?

Sammy Wilk Imagines

Babygirl

Please stop you’re scaring me

Dancers (Nate)

Are you cheating on me (ft.Nate)

Are you cheating on me pt.2 (ft.Nate)

Are you cheating on me pt.3 (ft.Nate)

Opening Act Series- Omaha Boys

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

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“Is that my shirt”-Jswazz pt.2

Part 1

*one year later*

You know in those movies where they show couples in long distance relationships? Its nothing like that, they don’t last. John and you finally decided to split after 6 months of trying. Neither of you had time for each other sadly. He started tour with Nate, while you had two full time jobs trying to pay for school. You made the decision really, he didn’t want to end it. He wanted to keep trying, but you couldn’t tie him down while you 1,500 miles away.

“Bye mom, i’ll be home by 8″,you said kissing her cheek and tying your apron. “Another shift at the diner? Honey you need to stop working so much. You should be having at least some fun”,she said putting hair behind your ear. “See you tonight, don’t wait up”,you said grabbing your keys and getting in your car. You got to work and notice it was crowed more than usual. You put your purse in the back and grabbed the notepad. You walked to your section and noticed a booth full of boys. “Hi, my name is y/n and ill be your waitress today. What would you like to drink?”,you said looking down trying to get a pen out of one of the pockets. “Long time no see huh”,someone said. You looked up to see Nate, Sammy, Skeez, and John. You were shocked and also excited to see them. “Hey guys”,you smiled. “You look good, really good. You still wear your bracelet/”,John said smiling at you. You couldn’t help but blush. “Yea. So, what can I get you guys”? “4 waters”. “Alright, i’ll be right back”. You walked to the kitchen and got 4 waters. On the way back there was another table filled with men in there early 30s in your section. You were carrying the waters while walking by the men. All of a sudden, you felt a sharp pain on your upper thigh and lower butt. “Aye sweetheart, come take my order”,he said looking you up and down. “Aye, man what the fuck is your problem? Treat her with some respect”,John said jumping up. “John, its okay. I can take care of myself”,you said. You grabbed the water and poured them over the perverts head. “Get the hell out of here you disgusting perv. I have some very good friends at the police station and the would do anything for the Captain’s daughter”,you said getting in the guys face. The guys got up and hit your shoulder very knocking you into John’s chest. John the stepped in front of you.“They might be able to help you, but your daddy can’t”,he said walking out the door. You got the towel off the counter and started to wipe the floor. You didn’t want to cry in front of everyone, so you tried to dry up the tears forming in your eyes. “Here, let me help you”,John said squatting down next to you. “No, please just let me take care of it. My boss would get mad, and I really need this job”,you said looking up at John. A single tear rolled down your cheek and you quickly wiped it. “Why are you putting yourself through this?”,John asked worried. You got up and collected the cups to get them refilled. John followed you into the kitchen. “y/n, what’s going on? You look like you haven’t sleep in days.”,John said turning your head. “Nothing, just working”,you said shrugging. “Bullshit, what’s really going on?”,John asked. You turned to look at John again and he was crossing his arms like a two year old. “Fine you really want to know. I have been working my ass off to pay for school and for me and my mom. After dad died, we had nothing. Mom has to pay for the house and food so I didn’t expect her to pay for my college. I work 8 hours in the day, then go to night classes, and if the diner offers some night hours, I take them. If I meet the minimal amount of what I have to pay for the loan this month, I give the rest to her”,you said. “Look, if you need some help I would be glad to help you”,John said putting his hand on your arm. “I don’t want your sympathy. I want to do this for myself, okay?”,you said walking out of the kitchen and giving the table their waters. “You okay”,Nate said. “I’ve grown a backbone over the past year. I can take care of myself”,you said giving the guys a soft smile. John then came back to the table and sat down. The boys ordered and you gave them their food. “Are you guys done?”,you asked. They nodded and you took their plates. You came back to table to say your final goodbyes. “Hey, wheres the check?”,Nate said confused. “It’s on me, I mean yall had to put up with all the bullshit drama”,you said. “No, here let me pay”,Nate said handing you cash. “No, it’s cool. I got y’all”,you said tearing the check. “Thanks ma”,Nate said. They all got up and hugged you, except John. “It was nice seeing y’all”,you said wiping the table. “Hey, do you want to hangout tonight? We’re having a party since we’re in town for the week”,John asked. “I don’t know if I can, I signed up for more hours. I closing tonight”,you said. “How about you come after? Do you have classes?”,John asked. “No, not on Saturday nights. I’ll think about it”,you said smiling. “Okay, well it’s at my parents lake house. I really hope you can come so we can catch up”,he said winking at you and walking out of the diner. You went back to the kitchen and thought about the idea of going to a party. You haven’t been to a party in over a year. You deserved to see your friends and have some fun. “Hey Maggie, can I close at 7 instead of 8?”,you asked batting your eyelashes at her. She loved you because she said you reminded her of her own daughter. “Sure honey, go have some fun for once. I’ll close tonight”,she said smiling at you, while counting up the money in the register.

You headed home and walked through the door and immediately ran to your bedroom. “Honey? What are you doing home so early? I thought you were closing tonight?”,she said surprised. “Oh, I decided I wanted to finally have some fun and go catch up with some friends”,you said. “A party?!”,she said getting excited. “yes mama, a party”,you said chuckling. “Any people you want to mention being there?”,she said raising her eyebrow. “Seems like you already know”,you said cocking your head to the side. “Well I mean someone did stop by and leave you something in your room”,she said. “John”,you said quietly while shaking your head. “Well go see what it is”,she said. “Are you okay with me going”? “I’m more than okay with it”,she said. You smile at her and went down the hall to your bedroom. On the bed you saw a little box on your bed, followed by a envelope. You opened the velvet box and noticed a little charm. It was the shape of the state California. John got the bracelet when you two were freshman on y’alls first christmas. There’s an angel, a pom pom, a heart, a basketball, a music note, and now a california charm. You then looked at the envelope. You opened it and noticed there was about three thousand dollars in it. You rolled your eyes and closed it. You put it in your bag and went to get ready. 

You finally got ready and grabbed your bag. You walked down the hall to see your mom in her pajamas with a face mask eating cheetos. “Mom, you’re so cute”,you said giggling. “Honey, you look great. What did he get you?”,she asked. “A cali charm and something else but I’m giving it back”,you said showing her the bracelet. “Honey, that’s rude. You never return a gift”,she said furrowing her eyebrows. “Well, I don’t need it”,you said. “I’ll be home, don’t wait up for me”,you said kissing her cheek and walking out to your car. Before you pulled out of the driveway, you sent John a text saying you’d see him soon. You drove to his parents lake house. You two went here every summer with his family. You and his sisters played so many jokes on John. It was probably best part of your summer every year. You parked and walked up the pebbled driveway and walked into the kitchen. You walked around and look for someone you knew. You spotted Lainey, one John’s sister. “Hey Lain”,you said. “Oh My Goodness, I haven’t seen you in forever!”,she said gasping and hugging you. “Yea, you know work and school. How’s your sorority?”,you asked secretly jealous. You two caught up and you went to look for John. You walked outside to see him and the guys playing beer pong. John was on a team with a absolute beautiful girl. She was flirting and hugging all over him. You couldn’t be mad, I mean you did let me him go. You didn’t want to interrupt him and his game. You turned around and thought about going home and spending some time with your mom. “y/n, hey”,you heard someone behind you. You turned around and saw John. “I thought that was you, what are you doing? Come hangout with me”,he said taking your hand. “It’s okay, It looks like your busy. I’ll go hang with Lainey”,you said smiling. “You jealous or something? She’s just a friend”,he said. “I’m not jealous”,you said giving a fake chuckle. “If your not jealous, then come play with us”,he said cocking his head to the side. “Fine, whos team am I on”,you said walking over the table. “You and Nate, and Me and Heather”,John said. Throughout the game John was purposely trying to make you mad. He would hug her and whisper in her ear every now and then. You scoffed and tried to focus on making it in the cup. You made it in and felt someone tap your shoulder. You looked over to see Nate. “Hey, look he’s just trying to make you jealous. If you want, I can help you get back at him”,he said raising an eyebrow. “Sounds like a plan Maloley”,you said grinning. “Lets have some fun pom poms”,he said. It was John’s turn and while he was aiming, Nate grabbed you close and whispered something random in your ear, but John didn’t know that. You looked at John’s way and noticed he was fuming with anger. John made it in the cup, which meant they’re team won. “Yay, we won”,Heather exclaimed hugging John. You smiled at John and Nate and walked back toward the house. “Hey, hey what was that back there”,John said catching up to you. “What was what? Beer pong? Its a game where you throw a ball in-”. “Not the fucking game, you and Nate?”,John interrupted. “I don’t know, what was with you and Heather? Were you trying to make me jealous? Because it worked”,you laughed and rolled your eyes. “Theres nothing between me and Heather! You’re jealous?”,he smirked. “Yes I’m fucking jealous! You don’t think I still have feelings for you”,you said shaking your head. “Then why did you end things”,he said taking your hand. “Because I didn’t want to tie you down. You know there are beautiful girls out there. You’d be on tour and I knew you’d meet someone better. Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought. I didn’t want you to leave, and I didn’t want to wait”,you said looking in his eyes. 

“And here, I told you I didn’t want any help”,you said pushing the envelope in his chest. “Did you get even more stubborn when I left”,he said getting annoyed. “No, just learned I don’t need to depend on anyone for anything. I’ve learned that if you care about something, it always goes away.”,you said walking toward the house. “You know, ever since your dad died, you’ve become a real bitch. That’s the real reason I left you here for california”,he yelled behind you. “You’re right, I did. But I had to to make a shield around my heart so I didn’t get heart broken again”,you said back to him. Everyone at the party was now starring at you. “You told me to go!”,he said putting his hands in his hair. “Because John, I thought about what you wanted first! I didn’t want to hold you back”,you said with a tears streaming down your face. “I wish you did”,he said looking down. “Well I’m glad I let you go, one of us deserved to be happy in life”,you said wiping your tears. You turned around and walked in the house. You then walked out to your car and drove home. You walked in to the house and noticed your mom had already went back to bed. You locked the door and went to your bedroom. You put your hair in the weirdest bun ever and put on some shorts. You pulled a shirt out of drawer and noticed it was John’s from that night you broke your ankle. You put it on and crawled in bed. A little of the smell still lingered. You started to cry. “Forever”,you whispered falling asleep. 

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I Love My Girls~ Nate Maloley

Request: Can you do one with Nate where he and y/n are together but Nate wants to break up with her, while he’s with the guys his phone calls her while he’s talking to the guys about how and when to breakup with her and she upset/angry cause she just found out she is 2 months pregnant. She decides to act like she doesn’t know and when he breakups wit her she cuts all ties with all them and maybe a few months later Sammy see her but she runs/hides from him but he doesn’t give up til he knows if it’s nates

a:n// so sorry for the delay of this imagine, I just found the time to do it now. hope you like it!!

Being in a relationship with Nate was great. He did everything for me, provided me with what I wanted, I couldn’t ask for a better boyfriend.

Except lately, he’s been so distant. He hasn’t been around much lately, but I know he’s at the studio those times. But I’m going to tell him some big news, and hopefully that will help us become together again. What’s the big news? Well, I’m pregnant.

I found out about 1 and a half months ago or so. My bump isn’t that big, thankfully, so I wanted to keep it a surprise for Nate. I was going to wait until he gets home to share the news.

Although Nate and I are only 22, I still feel like we can make this work. We both try to do anything to make each other happy, and this baby will only help us love each other even more. I still don’t know what the gender is, I wanted to wait until I tell Nate. And that is tonight.

I was waiting for Nate to come home, and as I was waiting I got a phone call from Nate. I smiled and picked it up, waiting for him to say something, since he always said hi to me first. And I heard his voice, but not what I wanted to hear.

“What are you gonna do?"I heard someone ask.

"I don’t know. I mean I love Y/N and everything but I just don’t feel the same about her anymore"he said. What the hell was he talking about?

"It’s like, I really thought she was the one. But I saw Gianna and I just, I don’t feel the same about Y/N. I don’t know how to break it to her though"he said. I hung up immediately, tears stinging my eyes.

"Well, you don’t have to. Because I’m already gone"I said to myself. I took myself, my 2 month year old baby, and all of my stuff out of the apartment and into my car, without of course leaving a note as to why I’m gone. The note I left wasn’t like "fuck you your such a dick” or anything like that. Instead, this was my note:

Dear Nate/Daddy, As you walk into the apartment, you are probably thinking, “where the hell is Y/N”. Or at least I hope you are. Anyways, I left.

You may not know this, but you accidentally butt dialed me when you were talking to the boys, telling them how you want to break up with me. Of course, I was sad, and let along angry. Especially since you left me for a girl who you saw and instantly fell in love with.

But not only that, I’m hurt. You’ve been saying you love me for god knows how long, when really, you didn’t. You loved someone else. And I’m not gonna sugarcoat anything for you, so here’s how I feel right now: you’re a dickhead.

However, after taking a good 20 minute break from writing this, I now feel differently.

Although I’m mad, I now feel differently about the whole situation. All I wanted was to make you happy. That’s all I ever really wanted. And if you’re happy, even without me, then I’ll be fine. Because I know as long as you’re happy, I’ll be too.

I wish you the best of luck for the next years and so on. I hope everything you wish to happen happens soon. I’ll always be your #1 supporter.

One last time, I love you.

With all my love, Y/N

After leaving the note, I took once last look at this apartment. Remembering all the great memories that I had here and were to come, I wiped the tear falling down my face and left.

Getting into my car, I took a deep breath and looked down at my stomach.

“It’s just gonna be us. And we’re gonna be ok"I reassured ourselves, mostly me, as I pulled out of the driveway, about to start a new chapter of my life.

**1 year later**

"Come here Autumn"I said, chasing my 1 year old around the kitchen. Even though she’s 1, she sure as hell is fast. Finally catching her, I picked her up and tickled her, making her show her adorable dimples.

Which of course, she got from Nate. She also got her big green eyes from Nate as well.

You’re probably wondering, what happened between you and Nate? Well, after he found the letter (I’m assuming) he tried to contact me. He called me, texted me, dmed me, tweeted me, snapchatted me, everything you could imagine. But I ignored him. I cut off all ties. I knew he wasn’t going to care that I was pregnant, considering his motto was "smoke weed, perform, sleep, repeat.” Even though he had the right to see his daughter, he didn’t try to make any effort to see her. So why would I put my daughter, who I raised by myself, out to him. I wouldn’t.

But I needed to get some coffee, considering Autumn woke me up at 4 and didn’t stop crying until 6. So I buckled her in her car seat and drove to Starbucks. I took her out and held her, walking into Starbucks.

“Mommies I wal"she said, tugging on my hair.

"You what?” I asked, getting on the line.

“I walth"she said again. Since I understand her baby language, she was trying to say "I walk”.

“Ok, but you have to stay by my side, ok?"I asked, letting her down.

She walked around my legs as I ordered.

"Hi, can I have a-"I started ordering, but Autumn started tugging on my leg.

"Momma"she said.

"One second baby"I said, trying to order again. But she kept on tugging on my leg.

"Wha-"I started saying, before I realized why she met calling my name. There was a man standing over her. But it wasn’t just any man, it was Sam.

"Y/N?"he asked. I excused myself off the line and swept Autumn into my arms.

"Hi Sam"I said.

"How are you?"he asked, embracing me in a hug. I turned my body to avoid Autumn hitting him.

"I’m good. I haven’t seen you in forever"I said.

"Yeah, who is this?"he asked, referring to Autumn.

"Um, this is Autumn"I said, making her visible to him.

"Hi"he said, crouching down a little to look into her eyes. She giggled before looking away over my shoulder.

"How old is she?"he asked.

"A little over 1 year"I said. He didn’t say anything for a minute, instead he was thinking.

"Weren’t you with Nate a year ago?"he asked. God damn, I knew something like this would happen.

"Look, I’m sorry I really gotta go"I said, walking past him.

"Y/N wait!"he said, starting to rush to me. "Is that his baby?"he asked.

I ignored him and pushed my way out of Starbucks into the parking lot, where he lost track of me.

"Mommy, who was that?"Autumn asked as I buckled her into her car seat.

"That was just mommy’s friend"I said, driving home. I can never get a break can I? _________________________________________________

"Hello?"I asked, answering my phone as I watched Autumn in the corner of my eyes, making sure she doesn’t try to ride our dog Duke like he’s a horse.

"Hey, Y/N? Is that you?"a voice asked on the other line. I almost passed out on the spot, hearing the voice for the 1st time in a year.

"Nate?"I asked.

"Yeah, look. Sam told me that he ran into you today and you had a baby in your hand. And, I just, I want to meet up with you and talk about it"he said. I sighed.

"I don’t know"I said, looking at Autumn. She was smiling and Duke licked her face.

"Please Y/N. I deserve to know"he pleaded. I finally gave in.

"Fine. But how are you going to see me? Aren’t you in LA?"I asked. I moved back to my hometown in NY when Nate decided he didn’t love me anymore.

"I was on tour and the last stop was NY. So I’m here now"he said.

"Ok. Meet me by the coffee place on (whatever street) in 10 minutes"I said and hung up.

"Autumn, we have to go to the coffee shop"I said, walking over to her.

"No, I want to thay wit duke!"she yelled. (I want to play with Duke!) I tried to think of a way to make her come until I got the perfect way.

"Autumn, what if I told you, you were going to meet your daddy?"I asked.

She stopped playing with Duke and looked up. "Daddy?"she asked, her eyes lighting up.

"Yes!"I exclaimed. She screamed in excitement and started running around, and Duke started running with her.

"Mommy, go!"she said, running into my arms. I laughed and locked the apartment door, heading out to see Nate.

As we drove to the coffee shop, Autumn would not stop talking (or babbling) about Nate. The reason why Autumn was so excited was because she never met her dad. She always asked, and I always had to tell her he was too busy to see her. It killed me to tell her that, as her green eyes dimmed. But the sight of her getting so excited and kicking her little legs in excitement made me smile.

As I walked in the coffee shop, Autumn asked where her daddy was. I looked around and saw Nate. He looked different then when I last saw him, but in a good way. I pointed him out and Autumn ran out of my grip to him. Her little legs wobbled to Nate.

"Daddy!"she yelled, as he swept her up in his arms.

"Hi princess"he said, as he gave her a kiss on her head. She giggled and threw her little arms on his head, petting his somewhat long hair.

I smiled and walked over to them. Nate saw me and smiled, embracing me in a hug.

"Hi Nate"I said.

"Hi Y/N"Nate said as well.

"Hi mommy and daddy"Autumn said. Nate and I both laughed.

"So, this is my daughter"he said. I nodded.

"Sorry you haven’t seen her in so long, it’s just-”

“No Y/N, don’t even try to apologize. Because I know really this is all my fault. I’m the one who should be sorry. I was so, so stupid that I let go of something I cared about the most, you. And I would do anything to go back and make sure you never left my side. But it’s too late, because it already did"he said with sad eyes, giving Autumn back to me. He looked down at the floor and I pushed his chin up with my free hand so he would look at me.

"Who said it was too late?"I asked. He raised his eyebrows almost to the roof.

"Are you serious right now?"he asked. I nodded. And suddenly, I felt his lips on mine, his hands locking my face. I pulled back and he smiled, embracing all 3 of us in a hug.

"I love my girls so much"he said.

Autumn, just now paying attention, suddenly yelled, "GROUP HUG!” and threw her tiny little arms around us both.

I can’t wait for the future, because I know these 2 people will always stay by my side.

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Late Last Night

You feel your feet lift off of the ground as arms wrap around you from behind. Pressure in your gut. You let out a laugh as you start to spin. “Nate put me down” you say continuing to giggle. Nate was always so playful. You loved your relationship with him, two long years of pure joy.

Finally he puts you down. You turn around and your eyes meet. He gives you a small kiss on your lips and then pulls back. He grabs your hand and leads you to your bed. You lay down. “I’ll be right back” he whispers heading into the bathroom. You watch him as he washes his face. You think to yourself, ‘How in the world did I get so lucky?’

You hear a loud ring go off. Your eyes shoot open while your heart rate rises. You look to your right to see your phone alarm is ringing. You slide your finger across the screen and lay back down. You didn’t have to go to work this week and forgot to turn your alarms off. Relieved, you close your eyes and feel yourself drifting into sleep. Before it hits you, you realize something is missing. Without opening your eyes, your hand examines the empty sheets next to you. When nothing is found you decide to open your eyes. The only thing beside you was bed spreads. Where was Nate? He was here when you went to bed. You check your phone and the time reads 5:30am. He was off of work just as you were. Worried, you get up and put on your robe.

You walk out into the kitchen area of your house. “Nate?” You call out. Silence replied. You ring his phone but no answer. Again, sent to voicemail. Nervous, you stay up and wait. You call Johnson, Sammy, Gilinsky, but no answers. You’re sitting on the couch with your thumbs tapping the screen waiting for it to buzz. Staring at a blank screen. Anticipation getting the best of you.

6:00am and you hear a loud bang outside your door. You quickly stand up, first instinct is someone trying to break in. You walk towards the hall leading to the door. You hear the key lock start to turn. “Nate?” You question as the door opens. No response but a body tumbling into your home. You get closer and you notice Nate. You quickly run to him and grab his arms to try and pull him up. “I’ve been worried about you.” you say struggling to get him off of the ground. “Get off of me!” He yelled in a serious tone. You release and step back, shocked at what you just heard. “Where have you been are you okay?” You ask as he stands up. He turns away with no contact. He puts both hands on the door until it’s closed. Locking it before turning around.

“Don’t worry about it.” he whispers looking you dead in the eye as he walks past you to the kitchen. The smell of liquor burns your nose. Your stomach drops and your chest tightens. You follow behind him. You get to the kitchen and see his head in the fridge door. “Do you need anything?” You ask politely trying not to upset him. “I need you to shut the fuck up.” He slurs as he takes a swig of beer. Slamming the refrigerator door closed. Your body gets hot as your heart starts racing in anger. “What the fuck is your problem Nate!?” You scream back. You weren’t looking for a fight but the way he was acting was unacceptable.

He rushes over to you. Your back slams against the counter, eyes opened wide, fear takes over you. He’s on top of you. Both hands on the counter behind, holding you in. “Want to try and say that shit again? Huh?” He says. Nose touching yours. The scent of alcohol suffocating you. “Where have you been?” You say standing your ground. “Want to know where I’ve been? Hanging out with girls who let me have a little fun every once in a while unlike you.” He screams. Eyes drooping. His words cut like knifes. “You cheated on me?” You ask quietly. Eyes beginning to sting from tears. He smiles and let’s out a small laugh before nodding his head yes, his eyes looking deep into yours. You push him forward. Running into your room. You grab a suitcase from your closet, throw it on your bed and start filling it with necessities. “Where the hell do you think you’re going?” Nate asks as he forcefully grabs your arm and pulls you away from the luggage. “Get off!” You scream trying to pull his hand from your arm. The grip was too tight. You feel the burn of a bruise appearing.

A familiar voice appears. “What is going on in here?” John asks from the doorway. He notices the scene and swiftly pulls Nate off of you. “Dude chill out” John says. Nate trying to push from behind him. “You can’t leave me! I’m all you have!” He yells. You stop and your breathing gets heavy. He was right. He is all you have. You shake the thought from your mind and continue packing. You keep looking back to make sure John has him held back. Both boys now on the ground basically wrestling.

You finish packing the last two items, zip up the case as fast as possible, unlock the window and run out to your car. Cold tears now falling onto your skin. You throw the baggage into the passenger seat and reverse, not even looking for cars. Hyperventilating, you put the car in drive and hit the gas. You see Nate run out of the front door. He grabs a large rock and throws it at your car. You let out a slight squeal thinking it would break your window. Your body jerks to the right to get away from it. After realizing it did no damage, you hit the gas as hard as you could. You can barley see the road through all of your tears. Your body ached. You didn’t know where you were going, but you knew you had to go somewhere.

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Sammy kills me.

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I’m definitely bringing this back