I've have really tried to focus on my tonglen practice as of late due to the great amount of suffering that is enfolding in our world. I broke down and cried as I sat and felt the pain of those who are suffering overseas. What is your experience with tonglen and do you have any suggestions? The pain almost felt unbearable for me to handle. I felt so useless and vulnerable as I sent all my love and compassion to those around the world. But it didn't feel enough....
Too much Everything and not enough Emptiness. It is important to remember that Tonglen has two elements: Ultimate and Relative.
Ultimately there is no suffering, only openness and freedom. The basic nature of existence is that of stainless and radiant bliss. Daily meditation is an important practice that introduces you to this infinite and eternal aspect of your existence.
You cannot give others peace if you have none within yourself. Daily meditation helps you to recognize and meet your primordial and ultimate nature as that limitless space of peace.
This has nothing to do with the happenings of the world or even your own life. It is a rediscovery of the reality behind consciousness itself.
At the same time, as you say, there is much pain and suffering occurring all over the world. It is a privilege to have the opportunity to sit and meditate. Not only should that encourage us to persist in our daily meditation practices, but it should also encourage us to make room for others to do so as well.
The relative aspect of Tonglen recognizes that although our basic and changeless nature is perfect and free, others like ourselves still experience suffering and its causes. Therefore we can help others and even grow ourselves by embracing that suffering and transforming it.
The practice of Tonglen is simple: You inhale suffering and you exhale compassion. You inhale the fear, stuckness, and confusion, and you exhale spaciousness, love, and ease.
This is impossible to do if you are not in touch with your empty and limitless essence. That is why every Tonglen session begins and ends with emptiness meditation. A Tonglen session goes as follows:
1. Emptiness/Openness. You take a moment to forget the world and forget your personality. You sit in radiant open communion with existence. You meditate on emptiness, as emptiness.
Visualization can help you here. Sometimes I imagine the feeling I get when standing on a beach shore looking out at the ocean. It is expansive and open but loving and happy. Let this feeling become strong in you.
2. Tonglen Breathing. Start the inhaling/exhaling process. When you inhale, visualize suffering as best suits you. I visualize it as a tar-like and disease-ridden smog. I inhale it into myself, into that endless and infinite field of radiance. It dissipates into nothingness. Then I exhale the love, peace, and compassion of that ocean-like emptiness from within. I visualize this as silvery and soothing mist.
3. The Work. Once you’ve gotten the hang of remaining in touch with your boundless nature while inhaling suffering and exhaling compassion, you then actively visualize the subject of your Tonglen meditation. This can be a circumstance for yourself or for others. In your example, you can think on the attacks and atrocities committed out of ignorance around the world.
When you inhale, visualize yourself taking in some of their suffering. When you exhale, visualize your exhalation nourishing and caring for them.
As you grow more confident and capable in your Tonglen practice, you can extend this even to the murderers themselves. You will inhale their suffering and exhale your compassion. You will remember that if they too did not suffer from illusion, such acts would not have been committed.
4. Close. Once you have had enough of the session, return your breathing to normal and let go of your visualizations. Come back in touch with your essence as the empty and infinite field of peace. Sit and let everything else go.
All of this is very different from the type of breathing meditation taught in yoga classes in which we inhale happiness and exhale suffering. Tonglen is a very brave and difficult practice that challenges us to face the things that make us cringe and grow beyond them.
The point of Tonglen is for you to discover how much space you have within to take on and dissipate the suffering around you, as well as how much compassion and love you have to give. It also cultivates a more fearless form of compassion in which you are not directed by fear or sadness but awareness and love.
Take heart and keep at it, but don’t forget the balance between Ultimate and Relative.