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You’re always haunted by the idea you’re wasting your life.

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Chuck Palahniuk, Diary (via books-n-quotes)

Self Conversation

lei, how many years have passed since you broke up with her. how many months passed since your last communication. you told her you can never be friends. when she told you nagkabalikan na sila, what did you feel? hurt. betrayed. left out. again. yes, you were unable to pursue her that time around because she came back AGAIN, when you're already starting to feel something else for someone, and yet you asked her to wait for you, you told her you will sort your life first, before pursuing her again, since you were in debt, and you owe jec your 2nd chance at happiness. pero ano? what happened? hindi ka rin nya hinintay. wala syang ginawang paraan to get you back. it was you all along. isang sabi lang nya, isang paramdam, para ka ng asong sunod ng sunod sa knya except for the last time she came back and you hesitated, because of jec. hindi ba? isa isa hin natin mga dahilan kung bakit dapat mo na syang kalimutan.

1. she did not choose you, kahit ano gawin mo, hindi ka nya makuhang piliin 2. pinaasa ka lang nya, made you feel special, but she cannot commit to you 3. she called you names, humiliated you 4. she demanded things from you. remember? paskong pasko, hindi mo lan nasunod ung gusto nya, kinelangan mo bumalik sa globe to have her number changed. 5. for months she cheated on you. kahit ano pang sugar coat ang sabihin nya, it's still cheating. 6. she used you, and you were ok with it. she cheated with you and you justified it as "taking her back" when she's not yours. 7. she made you think it's your fault. when you were breaking up, sinong sinisi nya? ikaw pa rin. you made her a monster, sabi nya. it's your fault, you didn’t try hard enough.

so why is it that you still think about her? dream about her? let her go. forget her.

your birthday passed, hindi na gaya dati, hindi na sya nagparamdam. end this. end your madness. be happy.

#caseoftheex #forgiveandletgo #move on

I have already accepted the fact that I might grow old alone someday, despite having you with me now.

I might grow old alone someday, but I definitely won’t get old and lonely.

#perks of knowing you #perks of loving #growing old #getting old #musings #what's eating lei #yuck tibo

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Book of the day: All The Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr

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Book of the day: The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman

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…I can write the saddest poem of all tonight. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Pablo Neruda, “The Saddest Poem” (via wordsnquotes)

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Book of the day: The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman

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Fact: Sometimes people start out identifying as bisexual, then realize they are gay or lesbian. This does not mean that bisexuality is a stepping-stone identity.

Sometimes people begin thinking they are gay or lesbian, then come out as bisexual. This is not responsible for people not believing gay or lesbian people.

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tbh, though I definitely identify as lesbian, I am still attracted to guys (however rare that maybe) I just think it’s harder to change again and that is the main reason why I keep this life.

Of Growing Old Alone

I’m just a year shy of 30, and this got me thinking of an older me, after 30 more years of living. What would happen to me? I don’t want to depend on my family like what they’re doing now. I want to still be able to have enough money on my own for me to live comfortably.

I need a retirement plan, a savings account, an investment. I hope to finish school soon and get started with this.

#growing old #plans #retirement

On Books and Such

Spending my days off, nights off, hours off re-reading Harry Potter and Stephen King’s The Stand. Such is life.

#When The Stand gets too scary #Baby Can You Dig Your Man #Harry Potter and the Walking Dude #Harry Potter with Larry #Captain Trips on Quidditch #Flagg & Voldemort

Of Weddings and Family

This is one of the things that really makes me wish I’m a guy. Falling inlove with a girl, made me think of marriage and of starting a family with her. It’s as if Beyonce is singing “If I were a Boy” all over again, because if I could change gender, if I could become the man I would want to be, then I’d be able to marry the girl I love.

Mahal, sa tinagal tagal ko sa mundong ito, sa dami ng mga taong nakilala at naging parte ng buhay ko, ngayon ko lang nalaman kung bakit naranasan ko ang sakit at pait sa piling ng iba. Dahil sa tinagal tagal ng buhay ko, kailangan ko palang maramdaman at pagdaanan yun, para hindi kita masaktan, at lagi lang kita pasayahin.

to be continued...