NEP-MAN

23, writer, russian jew

[zinamerz]

The irony of being offered free food at a literal vanity fair

[zinamerz]

Talking to (non-tankie) pro-Russian Americans IRL is such a trip. Right wing business guy “working undercover” kept telling me that (((they))) ban Tchaikovsky and Dostoevsky.

[lakevida]

I was born in 2003 is that normal

literally no

[themodernartists]

Alexandra Exter (Russian, 1882-1949), Classical Landscape, undated. Oil on panel.

[lepoinconneurdeslilas]

Visit Original Link

[i12bent]

Alice Coltrane: Blue Nile - from Ptah, The El Daoud, 1970

Personnel: Alice Coltrane — harp, piano; Joe Henderson — alto flute, tenor saxophone; Pharoah Sanders — alto flute, tenor saxophone, bells; Ron Carter — bass; Ben Riley — drums

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Tsumori Chisato

¥7,000

[zinamerz]

People tend to brush it off when you tell them that C-PTSD causes neurological & other physical issues. I don’t even know what triggered me personally se. Maybe something went wrong with my brain processing medication. I don’t think I was triggered or anything

[zinamerz]

It’s so frightening to lose control of your legs & eye movement. I feel okay now.

Mostly just touched by everyone taking care of me, again. Last time it happened to me (March, I think, and less severe), it was like this, also. I’m so afraid of being a burden, it’s like this constant shame of not having a ‘normal’ type of psychophysiology. Even though since the beginning of this year, my brain has shown me great possibilities of neuroplasticity. I have experienced healing that has never been accessible to me.

It’s so surreal that my colleagues treat me with such kindness I’ve never received from my own family. If I were to tell this whole event to my father, for example, he would’ve made it his own problem, leaving me alone emotionally.

[zinamerz]

People tend to brush it off when you tell them that C-PTSD causes neurological & other physical issues. I don’t even know what triggered me personally se. Maybe something went wrong with my brain processing medication. I don’t think I was triggered or anything

[zinamerz]

I work as a correspondent at a very important (boring) event for the next few days and I feel like I’m getting sick. Hope it’s hypochondria again 🙏

[zinamerz]

Immediately experienced double vision & my legs started to buckle as soon as I entered the subway. I’ve fallen numerous times. Scared a lot of people. A very kind man, I think, guided by my guardian angel, found me on the floor and helped me to stand up. Held my arm to help me walking, bought me strawberry water & a snickers bar. Kept looking after me outside as I was sitting on the curb & crying & only left when my colleague arrived. Genuinely just genuinely touched. I will probably never see him again. Thank you Anton

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[zinamerz]

I work as a correspondent at a very important (boring) event for the next few days and I feel like I’m getting sick. Hope it’s hypochondria again 🙏

[zinamerz]

It never ceases to amaze me how people who smoke vape and/or iqos make fun of people who smoke cigarettes. You ruin your lungs in an under-researched field

[zinamerz]

It’s even sadder knowing that quite a number of people consciously or unconsciously want me to connect them to ‘famous’ people who are just my friends. Witnessing their life-long objectification & realizing it probably awaits me too makes me not miserable per se, I just feel sadness

[zinamerz]

At the point of my life where I’m somewhat a little famous/well-known in certain circles for the first time. Instead of being proud or anything I just realized how dehumanizing it is.

[gliklofhameln]

Aniela Preston

Self Portrait at 24 (I), 2023

Acrylic on canvas

81 x 61 cm

[comparativetarot]

The High Priestess. Art by Eliza Kingsbury, from The Star String Tarot.

[frostedmagnolias]

Pair of Stockings

c. 1900

Embroidered and machine-knitted silk with sequins and beads

France

Victoria and Albert Museum