He wasn't trying to start a relationship with anyone, his goal is to be king of the pirates.
But that doesn't stop you're relationship from starting
He didn't know he'd like you so much
When he first invited you to the crew he thought you were tough and strong enough to hold your own weight, unlike his other crewmates which he assumed would at times rely on his strength
It was only when on a certain night he noticed you by yourself
It was around two in the morning and the rest of the crew was asleep in there rooms, aside from Zoro who had agreed to keep watch
Like he did most nights, he planned on sneaking into the fridge and eating all the contents before Sanji would wake up.
However, he was distracted by a loud slam on the dock.
When he went to go check it out he noticed you, sweaty and tired, dressed in lounge gear.
Both of your hands were swollen and bloody and several different kinds of gym equipment were scattered next to you
"Heyyyy (n/n)...what're ya doing up?" His playful voice startled you and you looked to you're right to find your captain standing nearly inches away from you're face.
You dropped the hand grip that was previously in your hands and gave him your full attention
He was dressed in his same old red tank top but he wore pants that had resembled sweats instead of his usual jean shorts.
"Ahh..i was just working out. Nothing to worry about captain." Your sincere expression eased him and he wasn't as wary as he initially was.
"You don't need to always call me captaiiinnnn. Also its pretty early for training. Donch'a think?"
You gave him a soft smile and slowly sat yourself down, your back resting on the railings of the ship
You looked so at peace, so tranquil
Luffy may not have been the brightest but it didn't take a genius to know you were attractive
Especially when you had big soft eyes and it looked like all of your facial features lined up perfectly on your face
"I really want to help out the crew cap-..Luffy. Everyone is so strong, so determined. I really want to earn my place here. I need to be strong for you and the crew."
And at that moment you stopped being just another crewmate to him.
You understood him.
You understood how much pressure he had with being strong and you noticed it so you took it upon yourself to get stronger for him.
That moment helped your relationship bloom to what it was now.
You both silently agreed that you wouldn't make it known to the crew that you were dating, or even interested in each other. There were small signs though.
Robin seemed to be the only one who noticed the change.
She noticed it once at dinner.
Normally Luffy would scarf down whatever was in his field of vision, but he didn't. He left a small portion of his bread to the side of his plate.
And when everyone was absorbed in more conversation he grinned at you and placed it on your plate.
Robin decided to keep this small moment to herself and not mention it to the crew, even Nami.
Even when you both don't make it clear your in a relationship he still looks out for you.
He invites you to join in on the games that he and Ussop would play.
And on rare occasions he'll peck your lips quickly before anyone of the crew can notice.
You love when its colder out because Luffy will use his rubber abilities to wrap his arms around you tightly.
Summary: When you decided to work with Butcher and his merry band of supe hunters to take down Homelander, you never expected to be saddled with a sullen, grumpy, jerk like Soldier Boy when the job was done. The more youâre around him the more you hate him, but you canât help but wonder, is he really as big a jerk as you think? Reader is a supe with plant powers. This takes place in an AU about a month after the end of The Boys Season 3, in which Butcher has let Soldier Boy continue to work with him on his team. (I'm real bad at summaries, please forgive me!)
Tropes: Enemies to Lovers (Eventual), Little bit of Grumpy vs. Sunshine, Age Difference (Reader is in her 20s), Protective Ben/ Soldier Boy
Chapter 1: Are You Always Like This?
Chapter 2: What A Great Freakin' Way To Start The Day
Chapter 3: Please Remember To Take Your Happy Pills
"You're safe now, I'm here." - Soldier Boy Prompt Response
Summary: Soldier Boy has been on a ton of dangerous missions in his time, fought a lot of battles, but never did he imagine he would be undertaking the one you had just tasked him with. Shit.
A/N: This is a prompt from @sydnee-kom-spacekru. A sort of sequel to the prompt response for "Sleep. I'll keep you safe." Been working on this since January 3rd. I had way too much fun with this one.
Happy Mother's Day to all of the mothers out there, all of the fur baby mamas, and all those who celebrate!
@deans-spinster-witch this is what popped into my head when you said "dangerous mission" lol. Once it was in there, I couldn't get it out. I hope it's decent and that you like it.
Unbeta'd so all mistakes are mine.
Warnings: Soldier Boy being himself; some misogyny; some homophobic language; some antiquated thinking (SB); angst; a lot of mentions of shit (yes, literal shit); language (I guess?); some smut; mention of breeding kink; a bit of a lactation kink (I know they did the Coke and milk thing in the show but you can't tell me he wouldn't have at least been on the verge of this kink if the opportunity arose)
SDV Leah version âš Russell Shaw version 1 & 2 âš
Ben let out an aggravated sigh for what felt like the fortieth time and turned back to the table, his nose wrinkled. He glanced down and saw his daughterâs wide eyes watching him as she kicked her little legs, slobbering all over the fingers of one hand she had in her mouth. He made a face and shook his head, remembering when he told her âYouâre lucky youâre cute, kidâ, when sheâd done the same thing about an hour before. He didnât know what was so tasty about those fingers especially when there were other tastier options available.Â
Speaking of which, you just had to pick the fucking perfect time to do your pumping shit so he would be stuck doing this shit, in the literal sense of the word. Ben thought heâd been on dangerous missions before but nothing ever made him want to retreat in the other direction more than the one he was about to embark on. The smell wafted up to him once more as the baby kicked her legs again.
âChrist, this kid fucking stinks.â
âLanguage!â
He rolled his eyes and glanced back over his shoulder, though he couldnât see you. âItâs not like she understands what the fuck Iâm saying!â
âBen! We talked about this!â
âYeah, yeah,â he grumbled, turning back to his little girl. âNo cursing around the baby,â he mocked you in a high voice, smirking when a small smile formed on her face.
Another wave hit him and he held a hand up to his nose. âAre you almost done in there?â He complained.
âNo! I still have a little more to go.â He knew that; he could hear the machine still making its weird noises almost as if it was next to his ear. He hated and loved that thing. Hated it because it was so damn loud to his ears and it ruined a perfectly sexy image in his head when he first saw you doing it. Loved it because it was helping your body do one of the natural things it was designed to do and it also allowed him to get some one on one time with you out of the house for the occasional few hours if you could get Elena or Queen Lesbo to babysit. As a matter of fact, as harsh as the sounds were and how unsexy it was, it got him downright hard sometimes when he thought of either scenario because both brought it all back to sex for him. Either he was daydreaming about fucking another baby into you while watching you or he was thinking about how he was going to be fucking you later that evening when the two of you were alone. This time, though, it was going to be neither.Â
You were getting ready to go out to have lunch with Elena, have some girl time or some shit. Whatever the fuck that meant. It certainly wasnât what heâd been thinking the first time you mentioned it, which to him was a complete fucking wasted opportunity. He wasnât into Elena at all or The One-Eyed Bitch Queen but he was definitely into seeing you get off. Just as long as it wasnât another guy, he was good with it. But instead, his hopes had been dashed when your expression of disgust transformed into you pinching the bridge of your nose and explaining what girl time for you actually meant. His annoyance grew (and his nerves skyrocketed though he would never tell you that) when you mentioned he would be the one babysitting this time. He wasnât happy but neither were you and when it came down to it, you were the victor of that argument. Â
And now he had this shit on top of it, pun very much fucking intended. Needless to say, Ben was beyond done at this point.   Â
âJust change the diaper already,â you urged, your tone strained with the last threads of patience. âThe longer she stays in her own mess, the more likely she is to get a rash and possible infection. Then she will be in pain and sheâll have to see the doctor. We donât want that to happen. Iâve told you this time and time again and Iâve shown you how to do it. No more excuses, Ben. Just change it.â
Ben could feel his ire rising. âSo you want me to do what you should be doing? Iâm not the goddamn woman here!â He regretted it as soon as he said it. He heard you turn the machine off and he knew he was in for it now.
âWhat did you just say?â He heard you ask menacingly from the other room. Oh fuck. He knew he had about ten seconds to turn this around or the rest of the day and night were going to be shit. Worse than the actual shit he was smelling. Heâd be lucky if heâd be able to sit next to you at the table later at dinner, never mind touch you again for the next few days.
âNothing,â he grumbled, pulling a new diaper from the open package next to him and glancing down at the squirming baby in front of him. He was relieved when he heard the machine start up again and leaned over the table to lay down the law to his daughter. âAlright, look, kid, we gotta make some sort of deal here. You canât be shitting up a storm and stinking up the place while your mother is out. Piss I can deal with. Puke, bad but doable. ShitâŠno fucking way.â He began to unbutton her onesie, screwing up his face in disgust as the smell slapped him in the face. âSo if you really care about your old man and you want him to be happy, youâll stop shitting all over the goddamn place. Got it?â
The baby gurgled back at him and he saw more drool coming out of her little mouth.Â
Ben shook his head, giving her a sharp look. The least she could do was not look so happy about him having to do this for her. He gently pulled her legs out of the onesie as youâd shown him how to do (he ripped one too many the first week she was home) and he frowned when he saw a damp brown stain, the smell becoming even worse. He lifted her legs and as heâd suspected, the shit was fucking everywhere, having catapulted past the edge of the diaper and down her back. He briefly shut his eyes and looked away, groaning loudly, âYouâve gotta be fucking kidding me.â He attempted to take a breath that didnât smell like he was wading around in the worst shit someone ever took. Like he was that little bastard Termite and heâd shot too far off the mark.Â
âNow what?â You yelled back.
âShe shit everywhere! Itâs all up and down her back.â He looked back down at his daughter. âReally?â Another gurgle. âChrist.â
âYeah, because sheâs been sitting in a full diaper for the last thirty minutes while youâve been non-stop complaining about it, thatâs why! Just get her cleaned up and into a new diaper, some new clothes, and then put her in her bouncy chair so you can clean the table. Or if youâre feeling adventurous, give her a bath. A bath is probably better.â
âWhy donât you come in here and fucking handle it then? Iâve told you, my sense of smell is about ten times what yours is!â
You huffed out an aggravated breath. âBecause you have to learn how to take care of her, Ben! Youâre her father for Godâs sake. You should be able to handle one damn diaper change without being a child about it! What if I wasnât here anymore? Youâd be the one doing it all then.â
He straightened up at that, glaring back in your direction. âWhat do you mean if you werenât here? Where the fuck would you go?â
âLanguage, Ben! Jesus!â
His jaw clenched and he turned back to grab a fresh wipe or five. He bunched them up in his hand and lifted the babyâs legs and began to wipe. There was so much shit, the wipes were filled instantly and it got onto his hand. âFucking hell!â His daughterâs smile faded and she began to look as if she were about to cry.Â
âWhat now?â You snapped.Â
âItâs all over my goddamn hand, thatâs what!â He bellowed.
âWell, wipe it off, get her cleaned up, then wash your hands.â There was no compassion in your tone, only irritation.
Ben should have shut the fuck up right then and there, and just done what youâd tasked him with. But, he was fucking done and livid at your obvious lack of sympathy. âThis isnât my fucking job! Itâs yours! You should be doing this! Real men donât change their kidâs shitty diaper! Women do!âÂ
The machine shut off again but this time, Ben didnât give a fuck. Heâd had it. He knew youâd be pissed at what heâd just said but too fucking bad. It was true, whether you liked it or not. No matter what todayâs society had to say or not. Women were the caregivers, the nurturers or whatever the fuck heâd heard on that bald-headed doctorâs show the other day, the givers of life or some shit. Real men did their job in making the kid, being the father, and putting food on the table for his family while also providing a roof over their heads. Thatâs how it always worked and thatâs how it should still be today. Heâd done his job: heâd protected you, knocked you up with his kid, and stuck around to be its father, even after finding out it wasnât going to be the son heâd initially hoped for. And here you were, trying to get him to fucking play Mr. Mom so you could go out for a few hours and get some girl time that wasnât even going to reap any benefits for him after youâd left the kid with him all afternoon? No fucking way. His jaw tightened as he heard you approaching quickly. He didnât care how pissed you were; he wasnât backing down.Â
But just then, the baby began to cry, having been scared by him yelling angrily (and probably because she was wet and uncomfortable and had been for some time now). He glanced down at her, his jaw unclenching and his features softening slightly. Fuck no. Ben could withstand a lot of shit (minus actual shit), and not a lot affected him, but his daughterâs cries? And because of him? That was his kryptonite. âNo, no, no. Donât cry, Princess. Daddyâs sorry he yelled, okay? He didnât mean to scare you,â he quietly soothed. He went to pick her up to hold her, forgetting that she had shit all over her, and he only realized it when it dripped all down the front of his shirt and his hands and arms were covered with it as he balanced her against his chest. âAhhh shit!â The baby began to cry louder.
You appeared, the top of your dress fixed and buttoned, a furious expression on your face. You held out your hands. âYouâre safe now, Iâm here,â you spat. âGive her to me.âÂ
Ben glared down at you. He had been spoiling for a fight a moment ago but after the baby started to cry, some of the fury went out of him, and apparently right into you it looked like. âListen, donât get all pissy becauseââ
âI said,â you snapped. âGive her to me.â
Ben shot you a look but did as you said. He watched as you got shit all over you but you didnât even flinch. Instead, you snatched the fresh diaper from the table and unfolded it to place behind your daughterâs poop chute before grabbing the canister of fresh wipes and a towel. You didnât even look at him as you passed by him to head into the bathroom. Fuck, he was definitely in trouble.
He grimaced down at his messy shirt and removed it, balling it up and throwing it into the babyâs laundry basket. He made his way to the open door of the bathroom, stepping in to wash his hands and forearms at the sink as he watched you in the mirror, sitting on the edge of the tub and filling it with water, the babyâs own tub inside it. You were cooing at your daughter who wasnât crying anymore but letting out little whines that threatened to extend back into a crying jag if need be. The baby was unhappy and from the looks of it, so were you.
He dried his hands as you began to use the fresh wipes to clean your daughter. âThere we go, Ellie,â you murmured. âWeâre going to get you all nice and clean, okay?â
Hearing your soft-toned reassurances to the baby, Ben figured now might be as good a time as any to try to start melting away some of your anger with him. He cleared his throat. âIf you want, you donât have to use that thing. I can get in the tub with her. I have to clean up anyway.â He gestured to his bare chest but you didnât even look up.
âI think youâve done quite enough today, thank you,â you answered, your tone full of ice. Yeah, he was in fucking trouble. Fuck.
âDonât be like that. Iâve told you, my sense of smell is ten times more powerful than yours. I tried and it just didnât work out.â He crossed his arms, his jaw tight. Why would you be fucking pissed at him? He tried his best. He got shit all over for him as a result for Christâs sake. And he only spoke the truth.
âAnd what the fuck do you think this is? Chocolate? Paint?â You gestured to the shitty fresh wipes sitting in the diaper and to your ruined dress. That wasnât what stopped him short; you never cursed in front of your daughter.Â
You continued to carefully clean the baby in your lap. âI told you when I found out I was pregnant that I would do it myself. You could take off and go do whatever you wanted to do after you held up your end of the deal. You could go get high, get drunk, fuck a ton of women, play at being a superhero â whatever. But no, you said you wanted to stay. Insisted on it, actually. I told you then.â You threw another freshwipe into the diaper and grabbed a clean one. âIf you stay, if you really want this, then you need to be all in. Do you remember that?â
âWhat the fuck are you talking about? I am all in.â
âYou call this all in?â You gestured towards the messy baby who had her hands in her mouth, watching her mother, tears still dotting her eyes.Â
Ben started to feel uncomfortable, something almost like shame itching at his skin, and he didnât care for it. He dropped his gaze to the ground. âSo I didnât change one shitty diaper. You donât need to make a big fucking deal over it.â
âBen,â you seethed. âLook at me.â
He reluctantly glanced up at you, still annoyed.Â
âSheâs your daughter and she canât do these things for herself right now. Sometimes itâs going to be messy and sometimes itâs going to smell so bad you gag. And yeah, sometimes itâs going to make you uncomfortable, but you push through all of that because youâre her father and you love her no matter what. Because you want to take care of her, to make sure she is healthy and happy every single day. Sheâs our responsibility for the rest of our lives. Itâs no longer about you, me, or anyone else. Itâs about her. Just her. Thatâs it.â
He unclenched his jaw, hearing the seriousness of what you were saying, the truth he didnât want to think about underlying your very words. It wasnât that he didnât love his daughter, he did, but why were you so insistent on giving him the dirty work? You knew how he felt about doing this type of shit. Not to mention, it felt like you were trying to shame him for not wanting to change one fucking diaper, like you were implying that he wasnât a good father if he didnât waltz into the nursery, smiling and eager to do it. He was a good father and a damn good provider. If it wasnât for him, you wouldnât even have this place to call home. He was the one who sacrificed and played nice with the old bitch and Butcher. Hell, If it wasnât for him, neither of you would even be here right now!Â
Ben hated himself when he had that thought. What the fuck was wrong with him? But since he didnât want to look at that too closely, instead he turned it back on you.Â
âI donât need you lecturing me on how to be a father. I am a good father, goddammit! Hell, Iâm a better father than my old man ever was. I provide for her and you every single day. I gave up everything to protect you, be with you, and be there to take care of my kid. Which is a lot fucking more than some of the other dames Iâve knocked up over the years can say. I put my life on the line for you both! And this is the thanks I get? Because I didnât change one shitty fucking diaper?â He scoffed. âYou are one ungrateful bitch.â
Your eyes widened slightly and Ben regretted his words the moment they flew out of his mouth. He hadnât meant to say those things, not to you.
Your eyes dropped to your daughter in your lap who was staring back up at you. You nodded and after a moment, you scowled up at him. âWell, since weâre such a burden and keeping you from your great lifeâŠdonât let the door hit you on your misogynistic and spoiled ass on the way out.â He could see your eyes shimmering but he could also see the absolute fury and ice daggers you were shooting him with, too. He knew then just how badly he had fucked up.Â
âY/N, Iââ
âI mean it. Get your shit and leave. Iâll do this alone just like I planned to all along anyway. There you go, youâre free. No more nagging from this ungrateful bitch, no more having to act like you give a shit about either of us, no more being weighed down. Youâre free to go and get fucked up and drink all you want, Soldier Boy. Go knock up some more dames and then leave them to raise those kids all on their own, too. You know, like a real man does.â If your glare could kill alone, Ben would be six feet under right now, the one thing that could end him that the Ivans never found out about.Â
You placed your daughter in her little tub and stormed over to him, shoving him out the door. You couldnât really move him but he was so caught off guard at your outburst, your words, that he moved where you pushed him. âAnd best of all, no more shitty fucking diapers!â You slammed the bathroom door in his face and locked the door, knowing it wouldnât keep him out if he wanted in, but the message was clear. You were done and you were willing to go it alone; you didnât need him and you had enough of his bullshit. Heâd not only heard it in your voice, your words, but heâd also seen it in your eyes. That hurt way more than he ever thought it would.
He stood there staring at the door, stunned. His daughter began to cry and he heard you soothe her with âShhh, itâs okay, sweetness. Mommyâs here. Weâre going to get you all cleaned up and feeling better in no time. Donât you worry, Ellie.â You began to coo to her as you bathed her and before long, she was making happy noises again. Youâd even made her laugh once.
Ben stood there, not feeling right about what just happened or that his family was on the other side of the door. He could break it down if he wanted to, you both knew that, but he wouldnât. Nor would he break the lock to get in. He knew he had let his irritation get the best of him and heâd said some things that he couldnât take back, no matter how he might try to apologize now. Why the fuck had he said those things, anyway?Â
He loved the life you had now (minus the shitty diapers obviously) and the family youâd started to build. Hell, he loved you, something he hadnât ever really felt before for a woman other than his mother. He thought heâd felt it once with Crimson Countess but heâd been wrong. What he thought he felt for her paled in comparison to what he actually felt for you. Not just for having his kid but also for loving him and not the suit. Yes, youâd gone to him for protection and yes, heâd done his best to take advantage of that fact, but something genuine formed between the two of you. Before long, he wasnât just protecting you to hold up his end of the deal, he was also protecting you because he couldnât bear to lose you. He was over a century old and he had never come across someone like you before, someone who actually saw worth in him as something more than a quick lay or a celebrity or a supe. Someone who worried for him when he left your sight or took on one of your would-be assailants. Someone who actually wanted to build a life with him â with him, not Soldier Boy.Â
So why the fuck had he said those things? He knew why. You had made him feel ashamed that he hadnât gotten the job done, that he hadnât completed the one mission youâd given him and you hadnât even left the house yet. Youâd had to come in and rescue him, do the task instead, and you hadnât balked or even thought twice about it.
You were softly singing to Ellie and he could hear a couple of breaks in your voice, betraying how upset you really were though you were trying to hide it for your daughterâs sake.Â
Ben hung his head in shame when he heard you get choked up and stop for a moment, sniffling, before you started back up again. He threw on a fresh shirt and got to work cleaning the shit from the changing pad and this time, he didnât complain.
Ben watched as you carried the baby into the room, still not looking at him. You saw that the table was clean and moved over to place your daughter on it, grabbing the clean onesie heâd set aside and began to dress her. âYouâre still here?â You bit out though he could detect a hint of genuine surprise there, too.Â
âStill here,â he murmured, hoping you would hear how sorry he was without him having to say it.
You finished buttoning up the onesie and popped the pacifier into Ellieâs mouth that heâd left out for you. âThink you can manage to watch her while I take a ten minute shower?â
âSince when do you take ten minute showers?â Heâd meant it as a teasing question, to try to lighten the mood a little, but you turned a glare onto him, beginning to unbutton the top of your dress.Â
âForget it. Iâll put her in her bouncy seat and bring her in with me. You can go.â You went to pick up the baby when he held his hands out.
âI can watch her. Go take your shower.â
He could see the clear distrust in your eyes but you handed him your daughter nonetheless but not before you kissed her head. âMommy will be right back, Ellie,â you whispered, stroking her back. You glanced up at him, unsure, but then turned to make your way to the bathroom, continuing to undo the fastenings on your dress. He let out a huge sigh when he heard the door snick closed and the shower start up.
âDaddyâs in big trouble, Princess,â he murmured to Ellie. She gazed up at him, going to town on her pacifier, her brows drawing together slightly from the effort. He smiled and dropped a kiss down on her little forehead. âThatâs one thing you have in common with your old man. We love the nipples.â He chuckled under his breath, imagining just how hard you would roll your eyes and swat at his shoulder if you heard that. But instead, he heard a much more heartbreaking sound from you. You were cryingâŠin the shower. Fuck.Â
At that moment, he heard a car slowing down and pulling into the driveway. One glance out the window confirmed it was Elena. In the midst of all this, heâd forgotten you had plans for the day. Just then, he got an idea and hurried towards the front door. He had just reached it by the time Elena was about to push the doorbell. He whipped it open, making her jump in surprise. After she saw it was Ben with the baby in tow, she recovered quickly. âOh, hey Ben. Is Y/N ready yet? Hi, Ellie.â She gave a tiny wave to your daughter, smiling.
âUh, not yet. Sheâs in the shower. Hey, can you watch Ellie for a few? Iâve got something I need to do and I canât take her with me.â
Elena seemed uncertain for a moment, studying him as if she were wondering what he was about to do, but then relented with a shrug. âSure.â He opened the door wider for her to come in and once she had put her coat and purse on a chair, he handed Ellie over to her.Â
âThanks. Be right back, Princess.â He stroked the back of the babyâs head with his fingers before hurrying out of the room, intent on doing whatever he had to in order to make things right.
Ben quietly slipped into the bathroom, undressed, and snuck into the shower behind you. You had stopped crying after the doorbell sounded so you most likely knew Elena was here and waiting. You were rubbing suds-covered hands all over the front of your body.Â
While you cleaned your front, Benâs eyes roamed over your back. He was already predictably hard, just seeing you naked. You had the perfect ass and even though you still had some baby weight that you were trying to lose, in his eyes, you were fucking gorgeous. You had mournfully admitted a couple of weeks ago that your stomach was soft and you were embarrassed by the visible stretch marks and your wider hips, not to mention the few pounds sticking around. Your breasts were bigger (something he didnât see as a problem), the areolas darker than ever before, and you were feeling a bit insecure about your new shape. He loved the new you, which he made sure to tell you over and over as he fucked you that night. You were the mother of his kid, youâd given birth to her, nourished her from your body, and you could give him even more. It endlessly fascinated him that his seed had taken root in you and a healthy child grew from it, one that was half you and half him. Heâd literally fucked a baby into you and every time he saw you like this, he wanted to do it again (though youâd told him your body needed at least a year or two to recuperate before you could even entertain the idea of another pregnancy). You looked so fucking gorgeous carrying his kid and now, you were even more beautiful if that was possible. It was pure beauty that he saw when you breastfed his daughter, when you smiled down at her, talked to her, and rocked her to sleep. There wasnât a day that went by that he didnât want you, on your back (or your hands and knees, he wasnât picky), taking load after load from him until he knocked you up once more.Â
So he had been dumbfounded and almost incredulous when you nervously admitted all of this to him, implying that maybe he didnât find you attractive anymore and maybe heâd prefer a flat-stomached, tighter, younger, free-to-bang-all-day woman instead. That or some old lady. Heâd fucked that notion right out of your head.
But now as he stepped toward you, not only was he incredibly turned on by you and how beautiful he still thought you were, but he also realized right then, just like he had many times before this moment, you were the only one he wanted. He wrapped his arms around you and pressed a kiss to your wet shoulder.
You let out a small gasp in surprise. âWhereâs Ellie?â
âElenaâs got her.âÂ
âWell, Iâm not doing anything with you in this shower so you might as well get out,â you snapped and attempted to wriggle out of his embrace. When you couldnât, you huffed out an aggravated breath and went back to rubbing soap over your skin.Â
He nosed your wet hair out of the way to get closer to your ear. âIâm sorry,â he whispered. âI never shouldâve said that shit.â
âNo, you shouldnât have,â you muttered, gliding soap down your arms.Â
âI love you,â he murmured to the skin of your neck before dropping a kiss. âI love my little princess.â Another kiss. âIâm not going anywhere.â
âReally? Because it sounds like you want to be somewhere else.â
âNo, I donât,â he assured. âI told you when I knocked you up. You two are it for me.â
You slowed down your movements and he took the opportunity to hug you a little tighter, burying his nose underneath your jaw. âI mean it, doll. This is right where I want to be.â He slowly ground his erection into the small of your back to also illustrate his point. He meant every fucking word; with you, around you, in you â there was no other place heâd rather be.Â
You attempted to turn around in his arms and he loosened his grip so you could. He nearly let out a soft groan at the feel of your soap-slicked skin sliding against his dick. You stared up into his eyes and the smirk that formed on his face was beyond dirty, thinking you two were about to get to the fun part, your argument a thing of the past when you cupped his bearded cheeks in your suds-covered hands.Â
âBen,â you whispered. âI need to know that if something happens to meâŠthat youâve got this with Ellie.â
Benâs grin morphed into a frown and his brows furrowed. âWhat the fuck are you talking about? What do you mean if something happens to you?â
Your eyes began to glisten and his heart dropped inside his chest. What the fuck hadnât you told him?
âDid some cocksucker threaten you?â He growled menacingly, the rage he worked so hard to tamp down for yours and Ellieâs sakes was attempting to breach the surface at the thought of someone even thinking about hurting you. Mallory had said youâd be safe here; had the old bitch lied?
You shook your head and that only helped to quell the fire burning deep within slightly. A light appeared on your face and you glanced down as it got brighter, eyes wide in fear. âYour chest is glowing. Ben, stop! You need to calm down.âÂ
He took deep breaths as heâd learned to do, telling himself that you were here in his arms, right now, and you were safe. You were not in any danger. Hearing the sounds of his daughter a few rooms away helped him to get this fucking thing inside of him under control. He hated it, hated what the Reds had done to him, but it was now forever a part of him. He would do whatever it took to keep you both safe, even from this goddamn weapon inside his chest.
When you met his eyes again, there was no more light, no more glow lighting up your face from below. You lifted yourself up on your toes and brushed your lips against his. âThank you,â you whispered.Â
Ben nodded and wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you up against him. He nuzzled you, feeling much calmer than he had a few moments before, but he still saw the same worry in your gaze that heâd seen before his inner nuke started to fire up. âTalk to me,â he implored.
You pressed your lips together and briefly looked away and he knew you didnât really want to say what you were about to. It made him incredibly nervous. While you two had argued before and youâd told him to go when he was being an assâŠwhat if what you meant was that you wanted out of this? Fear immediately took hold of him â fear of losing you, fear of losing Ellie, and all because heâd been a stupid fuck who couldnât keep his mouth shut. You both were the two best things that had ever happened to him since being injected with Compound V. He didnât want to go back to before. He only wanted now and the two of you. Hell, he wanted to keep creating a family with you, the family heâd always desired but never had. What had seemed within his grasp just hours ago now seemed to be getting further and further away.Â
That thought had him speaking â no, downright begging. Soldier Boy beggingâŠonly for you. âLook, I know Iâve been a dick and I said some really fucked up shit earlier but I didnâtââ
You gently placed your fingers against his lips, effectively stopping him. You stared up at him sadly and that fear kicked into high gear. Fuck, he was losing you. And all because he hadnât been able to keep his goddamn mouth shut or change one fucking dirty diaper. Heâd fucking failed and now he was going to lose you and that dream he wanted to realize with you all in one swoop. All because he really was Americaâs Asshole.
But when you finally spoke, you said the last thing he expected. âI spent months running from Voughtâs death squads before I found you. Even with you protecting me, even after I got pregnant, I was still in danger because they wanted me dead.â Your voice broke on the last word, betraying the tears that were imminent, along with the shimmering in your eyes getting worse.
His brows drew together in concern but he gently grasped your chin, making sure that you not only continued looking at him but that you heard every word he was about to say. âBut youâre safe now,â he murmured. âVoughtâs gone, Edgar and Homelander are deadâŠI would never let anything happen to you.â
Tears began to roll down your cheeks. âI know, but I keep thinking what if something goes wrong? What if one of the supes out there finds us? What if they get wind that Iâm still alive? What if the surviving board members decide that Iâm still a liability?â
He shook his head, moving his thumb up to stroke your cheek reassuringly. âNo one survived. I made sure of it.â He placed his forehead down onto yours. âI promised Iâd keep you safe, you both safe, and I did.â Ben tenderly rubbed his nose along yours. âStill do.âÂ
He was slightly relieved that you werenât thinking of leaving him but also unhappy that you had still been worrying about this all of this time and he hadnât had a clue. He was going to do whatever it took to reassure you, to remind you that you were safe and that you no longer needed to worry about any of those pricks that youâd had to run from before. He still remembered the nightmares youâd had, the jumps and startles in the middle of the night at the slightest sound. Eventually, it prompted him to hold you when you went to bed, promising to keep you safe so you could get some sleep while he kept watch. You would finally relax in his arms and close your eyes, content to listen to his strong heartbeat underneath your ear, knowing you were indeed protected.  Â
Sure, youâd kept your end of the deal and let him fuck you once youâd gotten some rest from running nonstop, but instead of getting bored like he usually did after hitting the same pussy a couple of different times, heâd actually started to like you. So heâd kept you close while he turned the hunt around to make Onehander, Edgar, and all of those assholes the prey instead. When he found out you were carrying his kid, he decided heâd do whatever it took to make you both safe and even ended up teaming up with the Brit and his team again, though he still didnât trust them. Hell, heâd even made a deal with them to settle in this area and get you this house when youâd told him you wanted a home for your child to grow safely up in, to put down roots. Heâd put up with your nearby neighbors, with having to see the One-Eyed-WonderBitch again, and shifting from the Supe life to suburban life (which was not an easy transition for him by any means). He did it all for youâŠfor you and Ellie and the family you had chosen to have with him.
So to see now that after everything, you still didnât feel completely safe, wellâŠthat bothered him. What kind of man had he been for you to keep feeling scared that Vought might come back at any moment to haunt you? Heâd never given you details of the day that heâd annihilated them all for you because he knew you didnât want them, but maybe he should have. If he had, maybe that wouldâve helped to allay your fears of any possible reprisals.  Â
âI know you do,â you broke into his thoughts. âButâŠwhat if something else happens? What if I get sick or get hit by a car or I have an accident and fall or I have a medical emergency that could be fatal orââ
âHey,â he interrupted your rambling. âYouâre spiraling.â Something youâd done quite a bit when you first met. His heart sunk at the thought; this had gotten to that point and he hadnât had one goddamn clue. Heâd been so wrapped up in you and Ellie and the life you were building that he hadnât even seen it. Maybe his father had been right; he was a fuck up. An assertion by the old man that youâd unknowingly been dismantling every single day with how much you loved and believed in Ben, but nowâŠnow he felt as if he didnât deserve you. He watched more tears spill down your cheeks and he knew he definitely didnât; here was the proof.
âI know,â you sobbed. âIâm sorry. I justâŠâ You took in a ragged breath and looked into his eyes, your bottom lip starting to wobble. âI need to know that if something happens to me, that youâll take care of Ellie the way she needs to be taken care of. If Iâm gone, sheâs going to need you and I need to know that sheâll be okay.â
He tried his best not to be insulted, not to show it for your sake so he wouldnât upset you anymore than you already were, but it stung his ego a bit. âOf course, she would be okay. Iâve kept her safe this long, havenât I?â
âIâm not just talking about safety, Ben. Iâm talking about you actually taking care of her. Not just providing for her, but actually being there for her whenever she needs you. Like the diaper change I asked you to do today. Is it disgusting? Sure. No one likes dealing with it, smelling shit, getting it all over youâŠbut sheâs your daughter and she needed you to take care of it for her. What if I had gone for breakfast with Elena instead? Would she have sat in her own crap until I came back home because you feel as a man that itâs beneath you to change your own daughterâs diaper?â More tears appeared. âWhat if something had happened to me while I was out? Would you just push Ellie onto Elena and Maggie to take care of her so you could go back to your old life? All so you wouldnât have to do any of the messy or hard stuff? Would you abandon her just like that?â
âOf course not,â he snapped, his consideration for you now forgotten in the face of what youâd said. âHow the fuck could you even think I would do something like that? Havenât I been here through everything like I fucking said I would be?â
âYes, but Iâve been doing everything!â The words burst out of you. âAt first, you didnât want to feed her, burp her, bathe her â any of it! And I did it all! Why? Because that was supposed to be the womanâs job youâd said!â
Ben could feel his temper flaring at you bringing that up. You were also intimating that he didnât do anything for your daughter. Were you blind to all of the effort he had put in to help you raise Ellie since that fight youâd had a couple of weeks after sheâd been born? Didnât you realize that most mornings you woke up well rested was because heâd gotten up with the baby in the middle of the night so you wouldnât have to? And you were still holding that shit over his head? What the fuck was wrong with you? âThat was the way it was back then,â he growled out. âI told you that! And Iâve been doing all of that shit you just mentioned since then! So I didnât change one shitty diaper today! I said I was sorry! When are you going to fucking let it go?â
Instead of responding, you exploded into more sobs and shame churned in his gut. He really fucking hated seeing either of his girls cry. It made him want to beat the ever loving shit out of some son of a bitch. Even if he happened to be said son of a bitch sometimes.Â
âChrist,â he muttered. âCâmere.â He pulled you to him and you held onto him tightly, crying into his neck. His hand slid down your back in a tender caress and he pressed his lips to your hair. âIâm sorry,â he whispered to you.
He kept you in his arms, hoisted you up so you could wrap your legs around his waist, and let you get it all out. He even shut the water off, knowing the temperature had vastly cooled in the amount of time heâd been in there with you so far. He vaguely recalled his plan from earlier to join you, apologize for what heâd said during your argument, and begin making up with you. That obviously had gone to shit; there would be no making up happening now, that was for sure. And if anything would get his dick to go soft with you naked against him, it was the sound of you crying.Â
Once your sobs quieted down and turned into ragged inhales and a few sniffles here and there, he moved your hair out of the way so he could see you. âBetter?â
You nodded, sniffling as you looked up at him. âYeah.â
âOkay, letâs get you out of this tub then and get you dried off.â He placed a kiss on your forehead and went to open the shower curtain.
âBen?â
He froze and turned to look at you.Â
You lifted your head, letting out another sniffle. âIâm sorry, too.â Before he could say anything, you continued. âI know youâve been trying and youâve been doing everything I asked you to with Ellie. I justâŠI freaked out about the diaper thing.â You wiped at your face. âBecause it just brought back that worry, that fear I have of what would happen to her if I wasnât here.â Your voice wobbled slightly but you forged ahead anyway. âYou know, I wasnât scared like this when I was being hunted down. I mean, I was, but not like this. Back then, I only had myself to worry about. And then when I got pregnant, sure, I was a little more scared but I also knew youâd keep us safe.â You took another ragged breath in. âBut ever since sheâs been born, I have been absolutely terrified. That something might happen to her, to meâŠto her if something does happen to me. Iâm so fucking scared, Ben.â Your voice broke then, prompting fresh tears to roll down your cheeks.
Ben had been insulted before, almost as if you hadnât believed in him or his ability to keep either of you safe, but now as he listened to your heartfelt explanation, he realized it wasnât really about any of that. It didnât really have anything to do with him, except that you wanted him to be ready to care for your daughter if something ever happened to you. That unpleasant tug inside his gut happened once more when you finally confessed just how scared you were. He thought back over the last few months since Ellie had been born. Your push for him to be more involved; your fighting with him over his antiquated mindset as youâd called it over his ideas of what fatherhood entailed; your rushing him during your sexual escapades the few times heâd managed to get you away from the house while Elena watched the baby no matter how much it pissed him off that he couldnât take his time with you like he wanted; your insistence that he watch Ellie while you go to lunch with your friend; your anger today at his refusal to deal with the shitty diaper situation â all of it suddenly clicked into place for him and made sense. Fuck, he didnât think it was possible for him to feel any worse. He had completely failed you on all fronts. He had been the blind one; heâd never seen what was going on with you when it was right in front of him this whole time. Christ on a cross.
He gripped your chin gently. âLook at me.â You reluctantly met his gaze, yours glistening with fresh tears, and he could see the fear there plain as day. Fuck, how had he missed it all of this time? But instead of focusing on that, he sought to reassure you. âYou and Ellie are safe. Nothing is going to happen. I would never let anyone hurt you. Either of you. I love you both too fucking much.â He grazed the pad of his thumb over your cheek to catch a stray tear that had escaped at his words. âAnd if itâs something thatâs going to make you feel better, then letâs sit down and make a plan in case anything were to happen to you. Or even if I bit it. I want both of my girls to be taken care of, even if I canât be here to do it myself.â You gave him a tearful smile. âSo, letâs do that and kick this fear in its fucking ass. Sound good, doll?â
You nodded and leaned in, kissing him and making him smile. Heâd been able to make you feel better after all and he felt damn proud of himself for being able to do so. âI love you,â you whispered.
He fucking loved hearing those three words from you every single time you said them; he knew you fucking meant it. And so did he. âI love you, too, baby.â When you beamed at him, another tugging sensation happened in his chest but this time, it was a far more pleasant one. He pecked your lips and opened the curtain. âAlright, letâs get you out of here.â
Before he could take a step out of the tub, you reached up and yanked the curtain closed, making his brows furrow. Your smile suddenly transformed into a devilish smirk. Immediately, he could feel his dick hardening again. He knew what that smirk meant. âWe didnât make up yet,â you murmured, starting to rub your body against his. âAnd we always make up after we fight.âÂ
Ben felt the stiff peaks of your nipples gliding across his skin and his mouth practically watered at the thought of sucking on them while he rammed into you repeatedly. Fuck, he loved your tits. There had been a time after Ellie was born where youâd pushed his head away anytime he tried to get his mouth on them while he was fucking you, complaining that they were too sensitive due to all of the feedings. But recently, heâd been able to start that up again without causing you discomfort and once, he had even gotten a tiny amount of milk squirted into his mouth by accident. It had been surprising for him, embarrassing for you, but it had turned out to be a major turn on. He found he didnât mind the taste and the idea of him drinking you down, you shooting something into his mouth for once and him needing to be the one to swallow, that made him hornier than heâd ever been in his life. Heâd fucked a lot of women in his time, sometimes high, sometimes sober; heâd done things that made most people blush to hear about or uncomfortable to imagine, some things which you flat out refused to do. Heâd founded Herogasm and had marathon fucks that were legendary. Heâd hosted orgies where he would be the only one left standing, having never tired out and still raring to go when everyone else was down for the count. And yet, when youâd unintentionally squirted the smallest bit of milk into his mouth, his dick had gotten so hard, he was shocked it hadnât exploded right there. WellâŠit did, but not the way heâd originally been thinking. Heâd greedily swallowed you down and kept sucking, even through the first load of cum heâd shot into you in reaction to that fucking hot as hell moment. From that point on, while he knew your breastmilk was Ellieâs main food source and he loved that, his daughter had to learn to fucking share.Â
That was another reason why he had such a love/hate relationship with the breast pump machine you had. When he would watch the milk fill the bottle, he didnât know whether to cry, jerk off, fuck you, or just watch. Sometimes he even wished youâd get rid of the contraption and just let him help you; it could be a rewarding experience for you both while you made sure Ellie had plenty to eat.Â
Your smirk grew, almost as if you knew where his thoughts had gone, and you ghosted your lips over his. âBen,â you called to him in a teasing singsong voice. âI said, we always make up after fighting.â
He could feel something wet moving against his abdomen as you attempted to roll your hips, knowing it had nothing to do with your recent shower, and he ground out, âYeah, we fucking doâ before he slammed his mouth against yours in a bruising kiss that was all tongue and teeth. He turned around and carefully pushed you up against the tiled wall, making sure not to break it or you. It wasnât long before he was inside you, his hips pushing into you at a steady pace, his mouth suckling at you and your fingers in his hair, tugging roughly, as you muffled your moans with your other hand. Neither of you had forgotten that Elena was within earshot; Ben just didnât give a fuck. He snatched your hand away from your mouth, gruffed out a command of âLet me fucking hear youâ, and he didnât give two shits who heard the fucking hot soundtrack of your making up. Instead, as you cried out your pleasure for the world to hear, he went back to your incredible rack, focusing on filling up on you while he worked towards filling you up. The thought of any fear or resentment from your earlier argument was long gone as you both chased your highs at lightning speed. The only words said between you were dirty or full of love. And even when you both had been forced to take a mostly cold shower afterwards to clean up once you both had caught your breath, only smiles, tender touches, and kisses had been exchanged along with a few laughs, both of you completely sated. Well, you were; Ben would never get enough of you and he planned to try to fuck you again later after the baby had fallen asleep.
But as for right now, seeing the bright smile on your face as he carefully wrapped a towel around you, the weight visibly lighter on your shoulders since you confessed your fears to him, he was determined to do whatever it took to not only make you feel safe but also to keep you feeling this way and being this happy.Â
When youâd laughed at something heâd said, darted forward to kiss him, and wrapped your arms around his neck, his embrace tightened around you and he kissed the juncture in between your neck and shoulder, making you that silent promise. Whatever it took to make you feel safe again, heâd do it.
Elena glanced up to see you and Ben stepping into the living room, both dressed and looking refreshed. You had been missing in action for at least an hour and forty-five minutes. Elena already had an idea what you two had been doing considering everything sheâd heard. Maggie had even heard when she called to check in and see when Elena would be returning home, beyond disgusted at the sounds Soldier Boy was making as he railed you in the shower. Sheâd told Elena to call her when she was done babysitting so the archaic asshole could get laid and promptly hung up. But even if Elena hadnât heard what youâd been up to, she would have immediately known after seeing you both. Benâs hair was still damp and yours was freshly blown out. Both of you were touching, unable to keep your hands off of each other and sporting matching grins, looking like practical newlyweds. Benâs hand moved to the small of your back and both of you suddenly smiled wide upon seeing your daughter.
âThank you for watching her and for waiting.â Your cheeks turned a shade of pink but you held out your arms. Elena was only too happy to hand you your baby back. âThere she is,â you cooed, pressing a loud kiss to Ellieâs cheek. âWere you a good girl for your Aunt Elena?â
âShe was a very good girl,â Elena confirmed, watching as Ben strode over and stopped next to you, wrapping an arm around your waist and pulling you against him, his eyes centered on both of his girls with an affectionate smile to match. Sometimes Maggie still had trouble believing it, that Soldier Boy had been domesticated as she put it, but Elena never doubted how important you and Ellie were to him. She could see it every time he looked at you, at your little girl, and she actually thought it was beyond sweet. She had even said as much to which Maggie had rolled her eyes, muttered âWhatever, Iâm going to vomitâ, and walked away from the door while Elena waited to greet the three of you after she had extended a dinner invitation to your family one night. As expected Ben and Maggie didnât get along too well, especially given their history, but the former seemed to be okay with Elena and she was okay with him because she knew how much he meant to you. And Maggie didnât seem to mind you all that much, either. So you all somehow made the nearby neighbor thing work; for yours, Elenaâs, and Ellieâs sakes if for nothing else.Â
âShe did get a little fussy, though, so I fed her one of the bottles you had in the fridge.â
You nodded and pressed a kiss to the babyâs forehead, briefly glancing at the clock on the mantle. âItâs about that time. Thank you so much for doing that. Iâm sorry that we missed lunch.â You blushed once more when Ben let out a quiet chuckle.
âNo problem,â Elena dismissed with a smile and a wave of her hand. âIâm glad everything seems to be okay. Ben looked a little worried when I got here.â
You glanced up at him, your brows arching in surprise. Ben shrugged, seeming unbothered at this observation.
âWe can maybe shoot for next week if youâre game,â Elena offered.Â
You went to answer when Ben cut you off. âActually, why donât you guys still go and grab a late lunch or something? Elenaâs already here and you both are dressed to the nines.â
Your eyes widened when you looked over at your husband, worry lining your expression for a moment. âNo, thatâsâitâs too late. By the time weâd get home, it would probably be dinner time.â You let out a nervous sounding laugh. âBesides, Ellieâs going to need to feed before then and Iââ
âYou pumped earlier, right? I can feed her.â
You seemed unsure, biting your lip. âI did, but Iâm not sureââ
Ben released you and held out his hands, smiling reassuringly at you. âItâs settled. You go. Ellie and I have got this. Donât we, Princess?â The baby had her fingers in her mouth, drooling everywhere. Elena saw Ben shake his head, seeming amused.
You glanced down at your daughter, the happiness from before replaced by uncertainty. Elena knew you struggled to leave Ellie the first few times sheâd babysat for you both to have some time to yourselves. It wasnât surprising; you were a new mother after all. But this time, you seemed even more reluctant than usual.Â
âHey,â Ben softly called to you, prompting you to meet his gaze. âRemember what we talked about. Weâre going to be fine. Iâve got her.â
It was moments like this that convinced Elena of your importance to him. If Maggie ever witnessed them, she was sure her girlfriend would reluctantly agree. Never had Elena ever heard him speak that gently to anyone, even his own daughter. Not when she and Maggie were in earshot anyway.Â
Ben gave you a meaningful look and after glancing down at Ellie one more time, you eventually handed your daughter over to her father. âThereâs my girl.â He leaned down to kiss the babyâs forehead.Â
You watched, anxiety still apparent in your expression.âBen, are you suââ
He immediately darted forward to kiss you, cutting you off. Elena had the grace to look away and give you two a moment.
âWeâll be fine,â she heard Ben murmur to you. âIâve got this. I promise, baby. Go have your girl time and then come home. Weâll be here when you get back.â
âYouâre absolutely sure?â You checked one last time.
âOf course I fucking am.â
âLanguage,â you chided.
Elena glanced over and found Ben smirking down at you, leaning closer. âYou didnât seem to mind my language earlier.â As expected, your cheeks reddened and he barked out a laugh, kissing one of them. âAlright, go have fun and weâll see you later.â Then he leaned in to whisper something to you that couldnât be heard and your jaw dropped, gently swatting at his hip since he was holding Ellie in both arms. He laughed and moved away, his gaze a little darker than before as it stayed fixed on you.
You kissed Ellieâs head and stroked her cheek, smiling. âIâll see you soon, sweetheart. Be good for your daddy, okay? I love you.â Ellie gurgled and you smiled wider, leaning up to kiss Ben goodbye who immediately deepened it.
Elena was on the verge of looking away again when you pulled back, panting, and glared up at the smirking man in front of you. âYou know, for someone whoâs trying to get me to leave, youâre doing a miserable job.â
âJust giving you a little preview for later.â The stare between you two was so intense that it felt as if any unfortunate bystanders would suddenly burst into flames just from being too close. This time, Elena was the one nearly blushing. She would have never believed you two had just been having sex if she hadnât heard it for herself. You both looked hungry and not for any late lunch.Â
You leaned in, as if to kiss him again, when you reached up and planted a kiss on his brow instead, smirking as you backed away. âUntil then, Benjamin,â you snarked, turning to leave. âLove you.â You let out a yelp a moment later when Ben swatted your ass with a free hand as you passed.Â
You shot another glare at him and he simply smirked. âLove you, too, doll.âÂ
Elena gently pulled you towards the door, thinking if she didnât get you out of the house soon, you definitely werenât going to leave at all. Or more like Soldier Boy wasnât going to let you leave. Not with the way his eyes were unashamedly glued to your ass.
You waved one last time in your familyâs direction. âBye, Ellie. See you soon, babygirl.â
Ben picked up Ellieâs little hand and simulated a wave, making you smile.Â
Once Elena had you in the car and backed out of your driveway, she could see the earlier uncertainty returning. âSo, whatâs going on? First, Ben looked worried and now you. Something I should know about?â
You bit your lip and seemed to be mulling over whether to tell her or not. Elena gave you a moment to yourself to decide. Eventually you turned to look at her and sighed. âOkay.â You then proceeded to fill Elena in on everything youâd been feeling since your daughter had been born, everything youâd just told Ben.
Ben watched as you and Elena got into the car and left. He knew you would be worried but he was determined not to give you any reason to be. He meant it when he told you he had this. He wanted you to know that he could look after Ellie the way she needed looking after, which is why he insisted that you still go out to eat with Elena. He was going to make damn sure he passed this test and he was keeping his promise to you, that he would make you feel safe again. And if that meant he had to play Mr. Mom and change a few shitty diapers while you were gone, then so be it.Â
Once the car disappeared, he let out a sigh and turned to look down at his daughter. She was staring up at him with those beautiful eyes that reminded him so often of his motherâs, though absent of any of the heartbreak she had endured in her life with his father. That was why when you asked about possible names for your daughter after youâd given birth, heâd mentioned Eleanor to bestow upon her. Youâd loved it, especially after Ben had explained the significance of the name to you, and so your daughter was named after her grandmother, though you both had ended up calling her Ellie for short most of the time.Â
He gave his little girl a smile. âWeâve got the place to ourselves, kiddo. We can do whatever we want. What does my princess want to do, hmm?â
Ellie gurgled and he nodded as if he understood.
âYeah, thatâs what I was thinking. Let your old man show you his movies so you can see when he was a star. Good thinking, babygirl.â He chuckled when she gurgled again and turned to head into the living room.Â
Just then, he heard the sounds he had been hoping like hell that he wouldnât hear until you were back. Ellie began to grunt, a few short farts sounded, and an almost undetectable thud was heard as shit landed in her diaper. Sure enough, a moment later, the smell wafted up and smacked him in the face. The smell was beyond terrible, something you had told him previously couldnât be the case since it was known that the poop of breastfed babies didnât smell as bad as other poop. Heâd looked at you then with disbelief; how the hell did you not smell it when you were wiping the kidâs ass? Then again, thanks to his super-powered nose, you wouldnât detect what he would. Like right now. It was fucking awful, like sour milk mixed with shit. Christ.
âUgh.â He extended his arms and held Ellie out, away from him. He shouldâve known this would fucking happen. It was just his luck. âYou know, kid, for such a small thing, you sure shit a lot.â Ellie continued to make happy noises as if she hadnât just taken a massive shit that was rapidly stinking up the room. Ben pulled her closer, his face screwed up in disgust as the smell got closer, too. âYou are way too happy for someone who just shit their pants for the second time today.âÂ
He glanced around, almost as if you would somehow come flying around the corner to help, or Queen Lesbo might show up out of the blue or something. Nope, this was all on him. He remembered your words from earlier, how he needed to know how to care for Ellie which included shitty diaper changes, and he let out a huge defeated sigh. âFuck.â
Ben cradled Ellie in the crook of his arm, relieved there were no damp spots on her back this time, and turned to make his way to her nursery. âYou know something, kid, if the day should ever come that Iâm in diapers, you better fucking change âem without any complaints. I donât want to hear a damn word out of you then, got it?â
Ellie made more happy noises and he rolled his eyes. âYeah, yeah.â A small smile slipped onto his face and he lifted her up to his shoulder, kissing her cheek. âYouâre lucky Daddy loves you, Princess.â
Almost as if sheâd understood his words, she gave him a wide toothless smile, drooling onto his shirt. Instead of being disgusted, he chuckled and continued his trek. Sheâd unknowingly just given him a perfect excuse to change when you got home and entice you to get another shower in later. Thinking along that same line, feeling proud that this was now something he could do for you and for his daughter, something that would help you to feel better overallâŠwell, he found now that he didnât mind the idea of any shitty diaper changes all that much.
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Could you do the Ericson kids or TWDG S2 Characters interacting with Saiki K and stuff like that?!
I think it would be cool to see Sarita or Carlos React to Saikis powers because Carlos is a doctor and thinks logically and stuff like that.
this is gonna be fun hehehehehđ
Saiki k. X TWDG S2
so I kinda wrote this w bullet points but dw itâs still a story
also this story kinda cooked me but yeahđ
It was an irregular day for Saiki, not exactly like any other
Unlike most days where he had to spend the priority of his time fighting off Nendo, Kaido and all his other nuisances, Saiki was free
No mom or dad to bother him either, both busy attending a wedding in South America for some foreign friend they had
Today he was going to eat as much coffee as jelly as he wanted and watch any television program that would be airing
He sat down comfortably on his bed as his tv flashed several different channels that he could view
He tried to find a tv show that wouldnât be as predictable as every other and would maybe, for once, peek his interest
That was until he heard it..
Saiki had several abilities; psychokinesis, teleportation, mind control although his ability of heightened senses was used most daily
He looked down slowly peeking his head underneath his bed
There it was.
The cockroach.
Just like Nendo, he couldnât read this tiny beasts mind, leading him to have a strong dislike of any bug
What a disgusting creature..
So he did exactly what he did when he saw Nendo, he teleported
His body shifted from his bed to a new random location
The place he had teleported, however was very different than any other U. S state or country he had visited
The smell of rotting meat and flesh flooded Saikis nose
He was placed in a seemingly so barren forest
The trees and vines had taken over the forests grounds
Nature filled the vicinity of his vision
Saiki heard the grass shake beneath him, making him look to his right to find a decaying corpse trembling over the ground
His eyes widened slightly, he wasnât exactly scared but more confused then anything
What the hell was going on? And what is that thing walking towards him?
The decaying figure could only tremble a couple of feet closer before it was eradicated by Saiki, who had used his psychic powers to explode this creatures brain
Again Saiki teleported, not wanting to experience any strange creatures anymore
Instead of meeting his room, he was met by the front of a cabin. Several people ranging in age stood in front of him.
âWhat the hell..â mumbled a heavily pregnant African woman who had glared daggers into Saikiâs eyes
She looked very intimidating, although nothing intimidated Saiki excluding cockroachâs and bugs
A man who looked to be around his mid twenties spoke up soon after the woman
âPete are you seeing what Iâm seeing right now?â He wore a hat that had covered his forehead. He was also quite tall.
Saiki looked around, addressing the people who stood frightened in front of him
âMehâ, Saiki thought. âWhoâd care if these randos find out Iâm psychic? Theyâre obviously not the brightest considering I teleported in front of them and they havenât had heart attacks yet.â
âIâm psychic.â Were the first words he spoke. This was the first time Saiki openly admitted to being Saiki to anyone. The feeling felt off. The psychics words drifted to everyoneâs ears.
âUhh..excuse me?â The country manâs head looked like it was gonna explode, his fingers gripping onto the pockets of his linen shirt.
âI teleported. Iâm psychic.â
âWhat. The. FuckâŠâ the man with the hat muttered. He was more star struck than the country man.
Everyone stood quiet, addressing what the pink haired teenage boy had said.
âYouâre a what?â Asked the younger tan girl, wearing a hat lettered with âdâ on her head. Her eyes darted to Saiki. She was incredibly confused.
âWho the hell is this lunatic?â Yelled the man with the hat, already ready to shoot a gun at the teen
Saiki listened to the several people who started to talk over each other, not quite understanding who he was
âA psychic my ass this guys fucking crazy!â
âOh god weâre all gonna die..he must be a fucking mutation or something..â
âUse your brain idiot this guys obviously messing with us, heâs a fucking kid.â
Another girl who looked to be a few years younger then the psychic teemed closer.
Everyone went quiet yet again, slowly watching her footsteps.
âSarah get back here.â Scolded an elder man, with a Spanish accent. His tone was firm and he looked relatively like the teen girl.
âY-you..you have pink hair..â she stuttered, finger pointing to the psychics hair.
Before Saiki could answer the teen the Spanish man spoke up.
âListen weâre all obviously confused about..him..but crowding him wonât give us answers. Everyone head inside for the night. Iâll deal with him.â The crowd of unknown people began to slowly drift inside, some muttering prayers for the Spanish manâs safety.
However the young Spanish girl stayed in place, eyes not looking away from the unknown boy.
âDad..please..can I stay?..â she pleaded to her father.
âSarah I canât risk you getting hurt..please head-â
âPlease. Iâm not a little girl anymore..â her tone matched her fatherâs previous one. Carlos was suprised at his daughterâs sudden interest in the stranger.
He nodded and tilted his head, ushering she stand behind him. With a small smile the girl did as told.
The man faced Saiki yet again.
âWhatâs your name?â
âSaiki. Kusuo Saiki.â The psychic was always stoic when talking to people he deemed inferior. This man didnât scare him. Nobody did.
âAnd about you being..psychic..â the manâs face contorted into a small frown.
âI am.â He voiced.
âOkay.â Carlos said sarcastically, not believing a word from the teen âpsychicâ boy.
âI am.â Saiki looked around the ground for anything durable. His eyes shifted towards a black rock. He gripped the rock in his hand before clenching his fingers down. The rock shattered in his hand.
Carlos and Sarahs eyes widened. Carlos immediately pushed his daughter slightly back not wanting the pieces of the rock to hit her.
âThatâs..so cool.â Sarah smiled having never seen such strength.
âNot exactly enough to prove youâre..psychic..â Carlos snarled.
Saiki let out a huff. âGood grief.â Why must he have to prove anything to these nuisances?
He pressed his hands together. His eyes lit up for a split second. Slowly yet shortly a fire brewed in his palms.
Yet again both strangers were impressed by the strange boy.
What an interesting boy indeed.
Maybe just maybe this âpsychicâ was the answer to the worlds problems.
And with such strength maybe the walkers wouldnât be an issue.
This boy could be the answer.
The answer to everyoneâs problems.
The end of there suffering.
And they both said âoh wowâ bcs I wrote this and itâs a canon eventđŒ
Luffy x reader! He's learning how to be a good boyfriend but it's a mess (a cute mess) that's it!
okay so this is actually the cutest fricking idea I love it. Sorry this is super duper short I have vacation tomorrow so just wanted to squeeze this in! :)
Living and Learning Luffy x Reader
The sun slowly drept down the sky as the smell of pastryâs lingered through the air. The cool breeze glided against my skin, pushing my hair ever so lightly as my body was pressed against the railing of our dock. This was the perfect afternoon for a great day. The crew had been docked at this island that, if Iâd have to describe as the perfect vacation spot. My thoughts were interrupted by Sanji who had dreamingly called my name, beckoning me to the kitchen for dinner.
â(Y/N)-CHWAAANNN, dinners ready my love!â He swooned. I grumpily pulled my body off the railing, not exactly thrilled that my relaxation had been interrupted.
As much as I was annoyed at Sanji for interrupting my peace I couldnât tolerate being rude to him or any of my crew mates. My mother had always raised me with an emphasis on manners, although ever since I met the crew my manners werenât as apparent.
âAhh..thank you Sanji..I must have lost track of time. My apologies.â My voice was naturally soft which had caused to him to swoon even more mumbling several compliments my way.
I slowly walked towards the door of the kitchen, still taking in the beauty of the view before entering. There sat all my friends already digging into the several pastries and food Sanji had prepared. I sat down between Luffy and Zoro. I was prepared to wait for my food as I had done so before. It was a daily occurrence.
Suddenly I felt a poke to my right shoulder. I looked to the direction of the sudden finger tugging at my shoulder. It was Zoro. His left hand held his plate barely off the table.
âIâm not that hungry tonight. Here.â He grumbled, clearly embarrassed and not exactly used to being so kind.
Before I could answer my boyfriend of two weeks reached over me and lightly pushed Zoroâs arm away. I noticed a slight glare being sent at Zoro.
âNo (Y/N) eat some of my food! Here! Here!â I could barely understand him with all the food in his mouth. He moved my empty plate over and placed his own in between the two of us. I hadnât even noticed that Luffyâs âlittleâ shove sent Zoro to the ground.
âLuffy. He was just being nice. No need to shove him.â I stated calmly.
âYeah! What the hells wrong with you idiot!â Zoro groaned, his arm pumped up in the air.
Despite both Zoro and Iâs protests Luffy just kept digging in on his side of his plate, leaving around a quarter for me. Although I didnât need to eat from his plate as Sanji gently placed down my own.
âSorry my dear! Looks like your plate and Usopps got mixed up. I sincerely apo-â
Sanji is suddenly cut off by a kick to the shin. He lets out a harrowing yelp and his hands immediately go to his shin, holding his limb in pain. Everyone goes quiet suddenly, looking at the scene.
âLuffy..you bastard..my..leg..urg..â he muttered out curses.
I stood up abruptly, looking down to my captain and lover. I grabbed onto the fabric of his shirt and pulled him out of his chair. His face depicting confusion, not understanding what he had done wrong. I led him through the doors of the kitchen, hearing the crews voices grow louder as we both left the scene.
âLuffy..â I gave him a soft yet scolding look as pulled his straw hat over his face covering him.
âI..just..I dunno..when Zoro tried to give you his food for some reason I felt really angry. So angry I wanted to punch em. And when Sanji was talking to you it felt really wrong. Youâre not his love. Youâre my love. I done wanna share you..your mine.â He admitted.
I slowly gave a sigh as I walked closer towards him, pressing my body against his chest. âI know you werenât trying to hurt them but..thatâs not excuse. I understand that sometimes you get jealous but trust me I am yours. And no one elseâs. You got it? So you donât have to knock out the crews men.â
He lowers his head onto my shoulder, burying it softly. â(N/N)..?â
I softly stroked his back as his embrace gets tighter. âYes?â My hands rub up and down his back comfortably. I can feel the shame and guilt exceeding from his body.
âAm I a bad boyfriend? Am I bad?â He asks, with a tone filled with sorrow.
âNo. No youâre not. Youâre learning and thatâs perfectly okay. Itâs okay to get angry but itâs not okay to act on it. Me and you are gonna work hard. Not just on ourselves but on us.â A small smile pressed against my lips.
My words must have been important to him, as he had taken his very trust hat off and plopped it onto my head. He leaned in and captured my lips in his. Not a possessive or angry kiss but a passionate yet soft one.
He smiled into our connected lips and his eyes drifted to mine. His hand pressed against my cheek as his smile widened.
âOkay, as much as I really do love this moment we should probably finish dinner. And you have some apologies to make.â He didnât grumble but let out a toothy chuckle.
Twdg Season 4 Characters reacting to reader that has unnatural colored hair!
Characters included are MARLON, LOUIS, CLEMENTINE, AASIM AND VIOLET!!!
Marlon
When he first saw you stumbling across the border of the safe zone your hair was the first thing he noticed
Having pink or purple hair normally wouldnât be weird but in the apocalypse it really did stand out
I mean where are you finding the hair dye???
The entire first week youâd stayed at the school he longingly just stared at it
From somebody elseâs standpoint he might of looked like a total pervert but no he was just really interested in your hair
He doesnât have an issue with it although he is pushing for you to dye it natural
Not because he doesnât like it but because he doesnât want you standing out
He couldnât handle letting you get captured by raiders
He cares about you too much to lose you (fuck minnie and sophie though lmao)
Despite him being cautious, he really does like your hair
It kind of gives off punk vibes and he definitely digs that (not in that way sillies)
Bonus points if itâs red!
Louis
Louis LOVES your hair and I mean loves it
Itâs so colorful and different!
If your hair has several colors heâll trace his fingers through your hair and try to separate the colors (he doesnât even notice)
On occasions you say something stupid in front of him heâll joke about how the hair dye is seeping into your brain
Heâd recommend other colors and hair styles that heâd think youâd rock
Once you do eventually run out of hair dye⊠(crazy how you managed to get so much in the apocalypse) he might secretly go past the safe zone
He knows that thereâs around a .5 percent chance any hair dye expired or not is nearby but he just loves you sooo much!
If Marlon catches him heâs definitely getting watch duty for the next two weeks
Clementine
She thinks itâs awesome
Like really fricking awesome
Sheâs been cutting her hair ever since Lee told her too and your hair kinda makes her miss how long her own used to be before she was forced to cut it
She likes doing tiny braids in it
When she was younger she used to watch superhero cartoons a lot and your hair kinda reminds her of the female characters (which gives her a strong sense of nostalgia)
Itâs not just her that likes it though
AJ is mind blown
He loves it so much
Heâs never seen anyone with hair that wasnât natural
If you stop dying it he definitely wonât talk to you for a couple days
Aasim
When you first met Aasim he was sorta cautious of you
Aasim doesnât try to stand out
Heâs okay with observing and watching his environment
While your hair has the opposite effect
You are most definitely going to stand out
At first he didnât talk to you and just watched you silently
That was until you were both assigned hunting duty so you had to make small talk and you ended up having a lot in common
Since then youâve been close
He likes your hair but like Marlon he does push you to dye it back to your natural hair color
He thinks itâs kinda dumb how you dyed it in the first place
Heâs just concerned for your safety and doesnât want you getting hurt
Violet
Violet tried so hard not to like it
She had to make herself focus to try to not look at it whenever you too conversed
She isnât the type to give compliments okay?
Once she subtly talks about how much she really does like it you offer to do hers
She was really excited
Like really excited
So excited that Louis had asked what youâd done to her
You both talked about different colors and styles that you could do to her hair and even your own
You joke about dying it the color violet and surprise surprise she wasnât amused