4aem thoughst
you know I might actually be stupid but after a talk with a friend I might actually not want to be anything and this may be a stupid decision on my part but I don't want to label myself as anything
I've accepted my place in reality as the hunter between predator and prey. No matter the animal, I will another trophy atop my fireplace, I will have their skin as a rug and their meat on my plate.
I hold the gun, I am holding a gun, I will wander and I will hunt and I will eat what I am given by nature. Safety is not guaranteed, I will always be here to remind them of their mortality, I am always the threat that looms over everyone. I have become the gun. I have become death.
In a less poetical sense, I think chronically online mentally ill gay people should not label or diagnose me with anything ever again and discord servers kind of suck sometimes cause I've been trying so hard to be someone else I'm not. Either I'm the "prey" being slaughtered by imaginary threats or the predator enacting these thoughtforms, I am neither because I hate both.
I don't want to be a therian if it means only quad jumping and constantly shifting or risk being ostracized, I don't want to be queer if it means i have to have 50 pronouns, "dress enby" and a big fat label to be gnc, I don't want to be in mental health spaces if all they do is want me to be a quirky little adhd boy fuck that. I'm gonna go back to my cabin and guns again, at least those made me feel safe again for once.
















