My thoughts on 3x04 The Devil's Road
My thought's from Threads:
Lestat spent most of the episode in a downward spiral of depression and anxiety. Daniel was borderline suicidal. Armand is sincerely trying to make amends for his codependency, but the other codependents in his life aren't in the same place (see above) and violently reject him. Louis is being Louis, God bless him. And everyone else is enabling Lestat, especially Gabriella, who came back when Lestat was probably making the healthiest choice for himself and then screwed that up.
Also, I saw someone say that when Daniel blamed Armand for all his screw-ups for his life, he really should have been blaming himself and needed to take responsibility for all that. (I don't know who or where that was said, so I'm putting this into the void.) So:
This is Daniel Molloy. Daniel Molloy had, for the most part, taken responsibility for all the fuckery in his life. He knew he was an addict. He knew he fucked up his marriages, screwed up his daughters, made a mess of his life and that all he managed to do was keep his job because of an encounter with a junkie in a drug den who turned out to be Louis. But he knew it was him and while he wished he could blame someone else, he got that the consistent factor present in everything was him.
This is the Vampire Daniel Molloy. He just a baby. Actually, he's a toddler in the throes of his terrible twos, but the point is, he's not doing well. He's got transformational trauma because he was abandoned by his maker and possible soulmate (although he doesn't seem to be aware of that, at this point) after his transformation and left to wing it on his own. And he's very, very, very, VERY unhappy about that.
Also, he's cracking, big time.
See, this picture of Lestat?
It's easy for us to see in this scene how Lestat is visibly cracking and going over the edge here. So's Daniel. Only, where Lestat's version of crashing out is flashy and wild and self-destructive in a loud way, Daniel's is angry, suicidal, and lashing out at someone who feels familiar and safe. He knows it's still his fault, but he's looking for someone else to blame, someone who can take his pain. Someone who can carry it.
Someone who's carried it before?