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If we don’t microdose delusion we won’t make it through this reality babe….
So I remember reading about this study in grad school where they have a bunch of clinically depressed people and a bunch of non-clinically-depressed people a game that was partially chance and partially skill, and asked them to estimate how much control they had over the outcome.
The depressed people were far more accurate in estimating how much influence their actions had on the outcome of the game compared to their nondepressed counterparts, who consistently overestimated the effects of their own choices on their chances of winning.
Then I remember this other study (CW animal testing) where they put rats in a bucket of water that they couldn’t get out of, so they’d have to swim. There was a fairly consistent point at which the swimming rat would falter, and stop swimming, fated to drown.
Except that that’s when the researchers would pull the rat out of the bucket, give it a nice rest warmth and a meal.
When those SAME rats who had been rescued before were put in the same situation again, they swam much LONGER than they had before.
Why? The risk was the same either way- drowning. You’d have thought that the fear of drowning would keep them swimming to their maximum length no matter what.
The researchers conclusion was that the rescued rats had something they hadn’t had the first time- they had more hope. A miraculous rescue could come, and that let them swim for longer, just in case.
I think we do microdose delusion because sometimes that little overestimation of our chances, of our luck, keeps us swimming that little bit longer, just in case something good happens. And sometimes, that little margin really does make the difference.
“All right," said Susan. "I'm not stupid. You're saying humans need... fantasies to make life bearable."
REALLY? AS IF IT WAS SOME KIND OF PINK PILL? NO. HUMANS NEED FANTASY TO BE HUMAN. TO BE THE PLACE WHERE THE FALLING ANGEL MEETS THE RISING APE.
"Tooth fairies? Hogfathers? Little—"
YES. AS PRACTICE. YOU HAVE TO START OUT LEARNING TO BELIEVE THE LITTLE LIES.
"So we can believe the big ones?"
YES. JUSTICE. MERCY. DUTY. THAT SORT OF THING.
"They're not the same at all!"
YOU THINK SO? THEN TAKE THE UNIVERSE AND GRIND IT DOWN TO THE FINEST POWDER AND SIEVE IT THROUGH THE FINEST SIEVE AND THEN SHOW ME ONE ATOM OF JUSTICE, ONE MOLECULE OF MERCY. AND YET—Death waved a hand. AND YET YOU ACT AS IF THERE IS SOME IDEAL ORDER IN THE WORLD, AS IF THERE IS SOME...SOME RIGHTNESS IN THE UNIVERSE BY WHICH IT MAY BE JUDGED.
"Yes, but people have got to believe that, or what's the point—"
MY POINT EXACTLY.”
-Terry Pratchett, Hogfather.
hey, don't just leave the quote there! the last line is what MAKES it!
"YOU NEED TO BELIEVE IN THINGS THAT AREN’T TRUE. HOW ELSE CAN THEY BECOME?"
maybe not everyone hates me and wants me dead… woah
I think my 👀 brain is 👀 rotting 👀 in places 👀 I think my 👀 heart is ready to die 👀 I think my 👀 body is falling 👀 in pieces 👀 i thinj my blood is passing me by 👀
maybe if i isolate myself enough my desire for intimacy will go away
need a hat that says I WONT SPEAK UNLESS SPOKEN TO AND ITS NOT BECAUSE IM DISINTERESTED AND DONT LIKE YOU I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND SOCIAL INTERACTION AS WELL AS MOST PEOPLE AND ASSUME BY DEFAULT MY PRESENCE IS UNWELCOME AS A PRECAUTIONARY MEASURE SO I KEEP TO MYSELF BUT I DONT MIND IF YOU INITIATE so i can wear it to work
The regular, everyday folk indulges themselves in the narcissistic act of picking and choosing, understanding whatever it is they want to understand for their own gratification. Behavior which, quite frankly, is perfectly represented by the male audience of any complex piece of media ever created since the beginning of time.
David Fincher’s Fight Club is possibly the first thing that comes to mind, overrated as it is misunderstood, its media-illiterate fans cannot take away its genius. From Fincher’s portrayal of mental illness, to the way he approaches anti-consumerism, romance and its turbulences, community and death; all of these aspects of life are presented in such a grotesque light, so disgustingly human that it becomes rather endearing.
Yet everything is implied, and to the crypto-currency-enthusiasts-antisocial-women-hating individuals that adore the movie, the subliminal messages go flying right over their heads as they are way too focused on how cool Brad Pitt looks fighting. The very clearly implied problem that is presented in the movie though Pitt’s character coming to life through his fanboys, Tyler Durden’s flashing outfits and virile discourses and one-liners completely blinding its male viewers, desperate for even an ounce of validation.
Validation which is also desperately sought after in the movie itself, the young men that join Fight Club seeing nothing wrong in the borderline terrorist actions that Durden makes them commit, as long as he gives them a sense of community, makes them feel special, and more importantly, allows them to showcase their masculinity, therefore their worth. The same way insecurity is showcased in the movie it is in real life, the blur between reality and fiction inexistent given that the director is criticizing a specific type of person, ironically the viewer themselves. The individual watching being way too distracted by Tyler’s Gucci loafers and red sunglasses to understand that they are being ironized, the character they idolize being the villain of the story.
Yes, the narrator’s mental illness and split personality disorder give the movie a clear moral ambiguity therefore allowing warrying interpretations. Yet the degree to which Fincher’s satirical thriller has been misunderstood transcends just subjectivity in art, the idolization of Tyler Durden being condemned by the director himself as he stated that he “is not responsible for how people interpret the film”.
As much as the cult classic is a plague through the prism of the insecure men that quote it like the Bible, it does justice to plenty of subjects, through its nuance and raunchy, dark comedy, amazing representation of humanity and its deeper meaning (for whoever chooses to understand it).
But the problem doesn’t just cease to exist, the indirect normalization of violence, misogyny and narcissism through misinterpretation of media being arguably one of the main reasons for the lack of empathy in men of our generation. Men, who in the search for a way to validate their egos and horrible personalities, actively try to resemble fictional characters, who amusingly so, are evidently put on screen to critique the worst there is in our society.
From American Psycho to Dexter to the movie that started my whole rant, the one thing the protagonists have in common is how absolutely obvious it is that they are a means of satirical commentary. Yet the same traits that are meant to be criticized, have become a gold mine for men that want to justify their inhumanity and lack of basic education. Diminishing characters like Patrick Bateman, who is a serial killer, to a role model just because he’s shown working out in the movie.
All being said, the ignorance of picking and choosing takes nothing away from these movies and series, if anything, it consolidates their meaning and the message they try to convey. But the cinematography, acting, imagery, not even the music, can repair the damage the fans have done to the reputations of these titles. So do not be surprised if you get a few stares when you say you like Fight Club, as until proven otherwise you’re doomed to be stereotyped as a Tyler Durden wannabe.
May I draw attention to just how cursed Agnes Tachyon and Taiki Shuttle's valentines day "chocolates" are
Mihono Bourbon is also on a different level:
girl thats literally Parts
in this day and age if you offer me RAM on valentine s day the panties hit the floor
when life gives you lemons you squeeze them into your open wounds
this is my contribution to the deltarune fandom and why i shouldnt be allowed to wake up at 5am
Having your interests mocked as a kid and general low self esteem will have you insulting the things you like even when they're generally considered very good. Because you like it, and historically when you like something it's stupid and not worth anyone's time. So you will say nonsense like "I recommend this book/game/film, but it's okay if you hate it, it sucks, I really enjoyed it but that's because I'm an idiot" and you are recommending them the Citizen fucking Kane of that particular media type. And importantly: you need to stop doing this it is killing you
singing house of the rising sun at the pub last night and when the song ended the musicians just kept playing while people ad-libbed more verses about various pubs they knew
(with ominous hurdy-gurdy accompaniment): "there is a pub in walthamstow, it's called the fox and mole, but we don't go there (long pause) any more. Because the manager is an arsehole."
being told by (note: neglectful, abusive) family that am "so smart", "so strong", have "so much potential!", all based on a few splinter skills while ignore all things that cannot do, so family can have "good reason" to ignore problems.
looked smart (in childhood, specifically in school) to family and teachers because had splinter skills in specific areas. those splinter skills used to treat us like shit when not able good grades. was place in honors classes because "do so well in class!", but always get Fs or Ds anyway, even in classes that were splinter skills. only got higher grades in classes where could lean primarily on other students, or got direct help & guidance from teachers, or where was nearly impossible for us to fail (eg, piano class, only had to show up and perform 1 new song of own choice every 2 weeks. eg, choir, only had to show up and sing. not even have to sing good, just have to sing with group, and was able to sing on-key so long as could hear others--did not matter that could not sight-read music when sing, teacher not have to know that, teacher just knew that we sung with our group). barely manage to get out of high school, still not get job, not understand how to make resume even with hands-on help. lucky because have excuse ("oh, have to take care of grandparents! only person unemployed in family, so can be on call 24/7. would be bad bad bad to leave them alone! put off job-getting"), but what happens when no excuse?
other skills in gutter. cannot fully clean self, not in shower, not after toileting. cannot always brush teeth. cannot brush hair (only comb, only when very short, but that ruins curls, and like curls, so not even comb). cannot clean living space. struggle with cooking anything new, and even things that not new, struggle with cooking them alone unless have done it many many many times before (is why only make 3 full meals alone consistently, and only 2 of them not cause lots of stress). even little bit of prolonged stress cause daily meltdowns. forget things constantly, struggle to understand things. terrified of idea of driving, because sure, maybe could memorize enough for 1-time test--but in high stress environment like on road, know will forget everything. (know will forget everything even out of high stress, for that matter.) know will have meltdown, or shutdown, and will get in accident. nevermind physical problems (astigmatism creates giant light butterflies in vision that block out all sight when see lights in the dark or in rain, other poor eyesight, involuntary jerks, etc)
but. neglect. constant neglect. no doctors visits, basically ever, unless acute illness (SO many ear infections in childhood, several of them back-to-back) or absolutely insist upon it for years on end (like for gender care). family point at splinter skills as proof of "oh so smart, no need to help, no need to support!"
not even technically know if have IDD, only know have autism that cause cognitive problems, suspect is borderline if do have IDD... but so tired. so, so tired of insistence that must be smart, must have "potential", with hidden implication that if not, then not worth caring about. so tired of splinter skills being used as "proof" of being smart, and "proof" of being smart used to deny giving help. want to be allowed to not be smart. want to be allowed not have "potential". is not that am forced to be/have these things, because don't. is that these things are assumed of us because of 2 or 3 skills, and used as excuse to ignore us. is so so so frustrating.
This is anti-IDD! We experienced a lot of this ourselves, though in our case we were diagnosed. Neglect is awful, I hope one day maybe your needs can be met.
sorry man im new to fleeting moments of clarity
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