nicole

heaven beside you (hell within)

[7wordswhatever]

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  ︓   Nicole ⭒ OSDD-1b sys

  ︓   they / them ⭒ she/they

  ︓   19 ⭒ 09/10/06

  ︓   status:  ⭒ taken

⊦   ⊂   ⁺ ⨳ - shit i like -

  ︓   music : ⭒ alice in chains, pixies, nirvana, the smiths, radiohead, elliott smith, evanescence, the cure, the smashing pumpkins, dead kennedys, my chemical romance, pierce the veil, slipknot, jack off jill, deftones, depeche mode, tv girl, soundgarden, mindless self indulgence, green day, bikini kill, le tigre, pink floyd, ashbury heights, snake river conspiracy, etc.

  ︓   other : ⭒ video games, writing, art, grunge, punk, goth

☆ ★   ˙   ✦ `e` - other info -

  ︓   AuDHD ⭒ OSDD-1b

  ︓   bpd ⭒ suspected* aspd/ocd

︓ black

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  ︓   i’m very unfiltered

about my shit on here

︓ i have ⭒ very low empathy

︓ tw: vents ⭒ rants

  ︓   dms ok ⭒ asks ok

︓   free block ⭒ dni: idgaf just be normal

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[1xsantana]

No one understands how suffocating it feels to have ASPD & feel so isolated no matter where you are or what you’re doing.

Theres a disconnect thats involuntarily, at times I wish I were able to deeply connect & be closer to people but I can’t. I can’t help but feel nothing but a suffocating boredom that consumes me whole, seeing people connect and have fun with one another will always be such a heavy isolating feeling that I don’t think anyone will ever understand.

[7wordswhatever]

Jack off jill fan ? Hell yeah

oh yeah dude i’ve fuckin loved jack off jill for years, lol

[teenoncrak]

[pc98-rom]

[7wordswhatever]

mixed desire of wanting to meet new people but hating the idea of people

then being like “ew why tf would i ever want to do that shit”

then saying “godd but everyone we already know fucking sucks i need to meet more people like me”

then it’s a fucking cycle

what’s wrong w me tf

[kosmogrl]

“I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy” I would, next

[syscultureis]

system culture is when empathy varies from alter to alter so you often have to deal with parts feeling a little too much or too little towards something. the cofronting part of this equation is even more fun /s

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[nudelakesideflorist]

Bruh staaaahp it

[stitch-away]

having aspd and/or npd and trying to comfort a friend is like trying to run a marathon without any training istg

[aspdfeels]

I’m so sick of someone tone policing me or whatever because they think I sound monotonous and dry and believe im seriously being an asshole on purpose when I said something as a joke but whatever.

[spark-bug]

Having a problematic source is so funny because it’s like people have perpetual one-sided beef with me?? For existing???

Like dude I haven’t had a single conversation with you and you’re already clenching your ass every time I speak oh my god 😭

[hyyl18]

TAG GAME GUYS

TAG YOUR MOOTS AND MAKE THEM EXPLAIN THEIR USERNAMES LORE

Starting with me:

Hyyl18 because when i was youngest i had a group in a random app with some friends and i didnt knew qhat username to use so i decided to create one with things i used to read since we were talking abt fanfic in this group so: Hot Yaoi Yuri Lemon +18 stuff (i was in my dirty era dont dare to judge me). Hyyl18 thats it. Now i use it everywhere yay

@patroclus-is-the-bigger-person @b4rty-r0s13r-w1ll-fck-y0ur-m0m @cuntyteardrop @glassesgirlies @leninthestarlight @bardorsomethinglikethat anyone else who wanna join tbh yay

[randomfandoms47]

Mine doesn’t really have lore, I just am in a bunch of different fandoms with no correlation, and I post about them all

@privygrid

My only mutual that posts

[privygrid]

Hehe hi

So mine comes from among us, specifically around the time they added the account feature and you could generate random names and at some point i got "privygrid" and it like immediately resonated with me so i use it everywhere now

tags with my questions/guesses below the cut

@chocymilkmilo (i mean ik but im still gonna tag) @viktorscuntywaist (i wonder) @ebulatheduck (why duck???) @boosterseat3 (random words?) @plutonium-17 (chemistry person) @cyxnmoon (i always fuck up ur name at first when im typing it) @kasane-poteto-chip (p o t e t o) + whoever wants to join

i need to make like a moot list cuz i know im forgetting people, sorry if i forgot you ily

[ebulatheduck]

my username is nebula without the first letter, and that's actually the name of basically an oc i have who's a duck, and she's a duck because i had (and still have) an obsession with ducks when i was maybe 9 years old. it's explained more here

tags below the cut (holy hell i have so many mutuals)

@thenumber1meower @chocymilkmilo @lavenderemo @hero-dualies-pog @nora-derschlit @rin-yaps @savi-shiji @quietrainflower @pandabunnycallmeeither @ryleequinn007 @sanguinechilli @duolc123125 @antigyro @waterlilyduckthro @thelilguysblog @klatikat @fflittermouse @robotswashingdishes @realmiyomiyolpm @jamwm @porridgeperson @sunnyponies @thetheaterkidwriter @sleepdeprivedcinnamonbun @theknightandhersteed @pluto1012 @super-ace @wszechmistrz @raccoon-go-bweh @png-peter-green @scaredycat132

[pandabunnycallmeeither]

mine’s just two nicknames I like loll

uh, for mutuals, imma tag those I see more often lol

@p0zzz3r @crazypieceog @dragonling248 @vamire-willows14 @amazinglei @nola-rourke @riverthefankid @lady-teaflower @angstyshitgalore @catwoman-is-my-mom

[crazypieceog]

So ehm... i just made up a name on the spot. It was originally meant to be crazypieceofcheese but i messed up and clicked g and sent it and i was like "close enough i guess" so yea...

Fun fact, while you can pronounce however you want, i like to pronounce "og" like in the word "hog"

@peasthedumb-reblogs (i'm really curious) @gone-crabbing (if you want) + open

[gone-crabbing]

Lowkey five seconds before I got my acc I went evicting crabs from their habitat (i put them back) with my dad so I just came up w that I was gonna go for crabinabucket but a person from 2009 already took that and disappeared into the void so what can you do ig

TAGS GO BRR @erasermic-enthusiast @goldenstrawberrytiger @b-does-arts @thendrinkyourkombucha @conservatives-worst-nightmare @iamachuchu @hylianscribe @gracefulgirl3 @everyarcatonce @mysteriouscoffee @like-dandelions-in-the-wind @juviaenochian @cinnabunnsky @technosqueek @selmietheseal @whiteraven-cosmere @the-bookgremlin @at-midnight @itsa-thing @eldest-daughter-syndrome @ho-ho-homosxual @mrseeker @lous-basement @trainautismgobrr @silly-sleepy-boy @goofballmaddy @afrozenbee @hyruledwarriorr @manyfandomfanatic @gimmeduckz @crystalline-cheeto @sleepyy-27 god I did not realise I had that many moots jeez

[goldenstrawberrytiger]

okay so I kinda just got my favorite color at the time and my favorite animal at the time and said "merge".

so then goldenstrawberrytiger was born.

but tbh I might change it.

MOOTS:

@ssugarcooki @girllovesbutterflies @booknerd2712 @bl3hhh-hh @cue-act6 @fairyecstatic @tehizel @yaqiure @nightmaremoon1983 + open tags because lowkey i forgot sorry

[fairyreblogger]

Okay for me it was just I loved fairies, and ecstatic feels good to me,so then fairyecstatic was born!! 🫶🏻💕

Moots :

@stellerfinn , @luesolar , @notzaya , @annalunamoon , @vulpyabby , @qlomellowtee , @28nightsaway , @mistmerro , @vvawlpe , @100gf-lover , @akitaart , @tar-maironthelordofgifts, @gooberdrawsshit , @enigmaoftheduchess , @blog-total , @ravenwood-chronicles , @lovelymoby , @hantai-suru , @jaytuga , @bellachow , @theyluvv-jada , @alexkingshe , @marshmellover , @karerukoeda , @penelopeoceane , @slowlydamagd

[vvawlpe]

so uhh... Vawlpe /vɔlpi/ kinda just came to me when I was like 12 cuz it sounding similar to my native language's word for "a fox" which is very similar to the latin vulpes, but none knows how to pronounce my username at first unfortunately lmao (hence the clickable IPA i included here)

oh and this blog is named vvawlpe because vawlpe was taken by some scam thing

Moots (oh god there's so many of u, i'm so sorry...):

@comorint , @almost-ari , @p0lary , @creaturecomforts22 , @princessgirlluver , @angelfies , @irisxyz , @hypercuck5000 (lmao what) , @korny-blu , @henrythemouse2026art , @kodabird , @alicestarkblog , @kyriod , @cominixo , @snake-torquoise , @petthepetra , @hazelarts098 , @sarawilson1 , @ooooggll , @lordsnek , @translesbianfoxgirl , @sharkiieeess , @umbrellalurantis , @vastvalleywatcher , @ten-tl-h , @chloeharrington010 , @forbiddenhunterspire , @marynathan090 , @bunnysdoodles , @evaarts098 , @anahazel098 , @sadlilyfly , @feetballer , @ryanjenny , @koipondx86 , @eightfoldwing , @lucksart

[korny-blu]

Korny cause I liked korn wayyy back in middleschool and blu cause. Blu

I dont have any moots that would reply @vlogkonn @vquyen uhhh hi art moots I totally have friends ttttrust

[vquyen]

Ahahaha my username is just short for my real name Van Quyen

i cant tag my moots because personal reasons or their usernames’ meaning is obvious (not that i have only like 3 people ik from here). Except @09galart… hi. Ehem

[09galart]

well the 09 in my username is because of class of 09 lol and gal is because im a gyaru. i had to add art because it wouldnt let me put 09gal only, and because this is my art acc

@an0nym0us-m0nster @wej3b @xanarchistxx

[xanarchistxx]

Idfk, xanarchist sounds cool af, also Im just uncreative and took it off some shitty co09 Nicole themed shirt tbh. Flame me all u want for that idfc

@girl-who-got-away @7wordswhatever @immissworldwblackeyeliner

[7wordswhatever]

uhh

7words comes from the deftones song cuz i wanted music in my username idfk lol

and i say whatever a lot so..7wordswhatever, easy.

@crime-npunishment @silkenshrine @totallyfriendlyloser

[drrwsy]

[7wordswhatever]

Let the waves cross the ancient trails to you

Far out beneath the sorrow clouds

Let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you

Let them cry out through your rusted scars

[7wordswhatever]

i hate when ppl talk to me like they know me like u don’t know shit about me faggot why are u acting like this lol

[7wordswhatever]

idk how ppl genuinely want/enjoy healthy relationships like..

..doesn’t that get super fucking boring?