My Weightloss Journey

I created this blog to help keep me motivated and hopefully meet/follow new people who are on the same journey as me. Please feel free to message me about anything whether it has to do with weight loss or not. If your reading this I hope you stay successful and reach your goal❤️ 86 pounds down!

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Keto chicken nuggets 😄

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This was on July 4th 2016-2017.... 1 year and a 80 lb difference. I’ve changed so much for the better and even though I can see I’ve come far I still struggle. I’m not happy with where I am and I want to lose more. That’s the thing about weight loss. It’s like you’ll have motivation but you wake up one day and don’t. The thing is it’s your choice to push and unfortunately lately I’ve chosen not to push. It still blows my mind when I find a old picture of me and think omg and then I put a more recent picture next to it and my mind is blown. It’s like when I’m not losing I grow accustomed to the body I’m in and I start thinking like the old me. When I was losing weight I loved the changes but when I’m not eating right and stuck at the same weight or fluctuating 4-5 pounds I go back to being the girl on the left. The one with low self esteem and zero confidence. Even going through my old progress posts I seemed generally more happy than I am now. I have to find the motivation to keep pushing because I want to be able to use my “now” pictures as “before” pictures when I get to my goal weight. I started this journey for me and my health and I need to continue for the very same reason.

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I hate that I’ve lost the motivation I had a year ago. I busted my ass and lost 80 lbs in like 8 months and then in July I just stopped. I started drinking a lot, every single weekend and that led to eating crappy. I was doing good in the being of July and drank a little but still ate good mostly and went to the gym. Then after I had a really bad gallbladder attack got my gallbladder removed things went down hill. I don’t know why but I just lost my motivation. Even though I still want to lose like 50-60 more pounds it’s like I don’t have the will power I once had. I hate thinking that if I wouldn’t of fell off that I’d be probably 20 or 30 pounds from my goal. Every time I try to get back on it’s like I last a couple days and fall off again. I don’t want to do this. I want to lose the weight and be confident and happy in the way I look. I know it shouldn’t but my weight holds me back in life. I’m very reserved and I back out of fun opportunities because I let my insecurities about my weight hold me back. I know me bitching isn’t helping anything but it’s just it’s been so hard to find the motivation. I didn’t think this was where I was gonna be when I started. I thought I’d bust my ass and not go back to old ways and yet here I am. I’ve been back to my old ways for months now. I just really want to get out of this funk 😕

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People don't always tell you about the downs when it comes to weight loss. Lately or pretty much for the past month I've been eating like crap and not taking care of my body. It's like I lost the motivation to lose weight. I absolutely loved going to the gym and eating right and I loved losing over 80 pounds. I felt good about myself. But for a month now it's been a fight for me to try and get back on track. I really inside do want to lose more weight but its been a mental battle of just not caring. I've just kind of been in a depression and I do think the way I've been eating and not exercising contributed to that. I use to be really good at saying no to temptation, I couldgo through a fast food restaurant with someone and not get anything but lately I haven't had the will power I order of bunch of crap I don't need. I should be under 190 by now but instead I'm at 200, sure some is probably water weight but still. The scale is moving in the opposite direction than where I want it. So I have to put my foot down because at the end of the day it's about my health and I have to love myself enough to break this funk and push to where I wanna be!

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Shoutout

To everyone out there with a chronic illness that presents with symptoms people consider gross or ugly.

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Weight loss

As the months have gone by I’ve realized more and more that this is my life now. I’m not just going to lose the weight, get the body I want and eat like crap and never exercise and be fine, if I do that I’ll gain the weight back. So with that being said I’ve decided I’m not going to be extremely strict with myself and force goals. I am young, I am 18 I have a whole life a head of me. I’m not gonna restrict my self from eating what I want on holidays and events or honestly if I’m just really craving something because you know what? It’s okay. I can have days where I don’t eat the best and don’t exercise just like I’ll have days where I kick ass in the gym and eat great. I don’t want to be miserable, this is my life now, I can’t live constantly restricting myself from food that isn’t healthy. It didn’t take a day to gain all the weight so 1 meal isn’t going to ruin everything. So a more realistic goal I’m coming up with is to be 170-175 by Halloween. That 24 pounds in the next 3 ½ months. So around 2 pounds a week. That will be and 105-110 pound loss in 1 year and that is awesome to me.

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Stomach progress

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Question

Hey I have a question for people who have lost a significant amount of weight. I am 202 pounds (I've lost 80 pounds already) and still have at least another 50 to go and I just recently started adding strength training in along with my cardio. Yesterday it said I went up .2 pounds and then today I only went down that .2. I know I have a problem with weighing myself everyday and I need to stop but I am use to seeing bigger loses... so my question is when you first started did you have small gain/ small loses? Should I have tried to lose some more fat before incorporating strength training? I was just so excited to be getting into the hundreds and with how these few days have been I don't know when that'll happen. I've been working harder than usual and I know I have to keep going but its a little unmotivating 😕

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Onederland

Really hoping to be under 200 within the next few days. I haven't been under 200 in 6 or more years. So it'll definitely be an emotion moment.

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Workout

did an 8 mile bike ride today. It feels really good to be getting out exercising and pushing myself. Sure I did elliptical workouts at home but I feel more accomplished and like I’m doing more. I’ll probably do some arm and core workouts tonight too.

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Planet fitness

I finally got over my gym anxiety and went to the gym with my friend today. It was honestly a good experience I had so much fear that I was gonna be stared at or judged but honestly we just kept to ourselves and did our own thing. It definitely whooped my ass though. I did 3 miles on the elliptical and various arm, legs and core workouts. It you're reading this and you have gym anxiety my advice is to just go, it's all in your head. It's no where like how you think it'll be and that workout is definitely worth it.

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My mom wanted me to post this picture. She said that the other one doesn't do as much justice for the weight I've actually lost since the dress is looser fitting. There's about a 71 pounds difference between these 2 pictures. The picture on the right isn't even at my highest, I'm down 77 pounds from my highest weight of 281. It's definitely a struggle losing weight. There days I just want to eat a whole bag of chips and sit on my ass but I still eat my Greek yogurt and egg whites and get on the elliptical. I do it because that 'bag of chips and sitting on my ass' is what got me to what I look like on the right. It got me to 281 pounds. I was unhappy and miserable, I didn't want to take pictures or even go into public because I just didn't want anyone to see me, not even to mention how it made me physically feel, I was always tired and out of breath. Now I can go anywhere and not worry what people are thinking about me, I fell in love with bettering myself, with getting healthy. If your reading this and you want to start on a journey to a better, healthier you, my advice is to just do it. Do it right now, don't sit and say I'll start next week, start now because I promise you that you'll be glad you did. If you're reading this and you're already on your journey but you just don't know if you'll get there, you will, I felt the same way and I know I still have a while to go but I'll get there and so will you. We just gotta keep pushing, we got this!💪🏼

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Looking at this comparison I want to cry… for the first time I genuinely look at a picture of me and love it. I think I look pretty and that’s saying so much because for the longest time I was my own worst enemy. Nobody hurt me more than I hurt myself. All I felt was self hate, disgust and insecurity. I dreaded having pictures taken of me and even more, them being posted for the world to see. But that picture on the left? I love it just like I love almost every other picture from my graduation party last night. The person on the right doesn’t exist anymore. Sure I mean I still am the same but I’m not, I no longer hate seeing my reflection I anticipate it because I love how much smaller my stomach is and how much my face has thinned out and how my collar bones slightly poke out. Sure I still have some down moments but I pick my self right back up and this picture shows me that I’ve come so far and I NEED to keep going because it only gets better from here. The picture on the right is from July 2016 before I started my weight loss journey, I was around 275. In the picture on the left I’m 204, down 77 pounds from October. I still have a decent amount to lose but I know that I got this and to whoever is reading this, you got this. Keep pushing and just do it, I promise you that nothing feels better 💪🏼

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In the first picture it was December and I was around 250 and the second picture was April 21st and I was 217. I struggled a lot in December, January and part of February with eating right and constantly gaining then losing then gaining etc... and I'm so glad I pushed on. There's at least a 33 pound difference and my face alone is so much thinner. I actually have more of a jawline. Just a reminder to keep pushing on don't let slip ups stop you from achieving your goal! Starting weight:281 Current weight:209 Goal weight: 150(or really until I'm satisfied with my body) 72 pounds in 7 months, I got this! 💪🏼

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I didn't really realize how big a difference 62 pounds makes 😳

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A little update I got down to 221.2 Saturday, so that makes a 60 pound loss so far!! But after having a cheat day yesterday I am up to 224 but I am hoping to have dropped back down to 221 by Wednesday for sure. Which means that I'll pretty much for sure reach my goal of 220 by my birthday (April 21st) which is great considering I didn't meet my last goal of 235 by Valentine's Day but I got this! I would honestly love to be more around 215 by my birthday. I am hoping to lose a a little more than usual over the next few weeks since I haven't been exercising recently because I got sick and couldn't bring my self to do any exercise other than some cleaning and yard work. I also want to change some of my mini goals. Since I want to try and lose 3 pounds a week I want to make my next mini goal, Mini goal1: under 200 by vacation(June 9th) Mini goal 2: 185 by july 4th(we have a big party and I would love to be around this weight for it so I can wear something cute and feel comfortable) Mini goal 3: around 170 by august 11th ( my sisters due date) I want nothing more than to be a happy and healthy aunt that I didn't necessarily get to be for the niece and nephew that I have now. If I don't reach these goals I won't beat myself up but they sure would make me soooo happy.

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On Sunday I lost somebody very important to me. I lost my grandma Connie. She was the most kind, loving and stubborn woman I ever have known. Family was everything to her an I was more than blessed to have had her as my grandma for my almost 18 years of life. With family being important to her, that included their health. She always wanted me to lose the weight, not that it bothered her. She loved me no matter what size. She wanted me to lose the weight because she knew I wanted it and she knew that it needed to do it. She always told me that if I lost 50 pounds that she would give me $200 dollars. Well grandma, I've lost 49 and all the love and support you've give me over the years is absolutely price less. I want to continue this journey. Not only for me but also for you. I want to make you proud. Today was your funeral and this photo was taken before all the tears and sadness I endured today. I just wanted to post this because grandma not only has this almost 50 pound loss improved my health.. it's gained me more confidence. So thank you for pushing me to fight and continue and thank you for the loving support and comments that kept me going. I know you're still rooting for me up there. With that.. I just want to say that I love you grandma and I will miss you, and I WILL make you proud ❤️