What If Sisyphus Had A Tumblr Blog

Well, this is that blog. I am pushing this boulder up the hill and it SUCKS but also it’s honest work and I’m finding ways to keep going in the flowers that grow alongside the mountain path I must climb every day. I know I can create a life that’s livable in time. I am not doomed. But it’s very hard and i like to put some of those hard thoughts and feelings here. Anyways, if you’d want anything tagged (triggers especially) please let me know. If you send me a message or ask I won’t post it or mention it, I’ll just start tagging that trigger.

[storm-of-feathers]

tumblr is great bc its like a diary where I can take other peoples diary entries and glue them into my own diary

[hussyknee]

The most basic, intractable fact about mental illnesses is that you simply cannot willpower your way out of them. The only exceptions to this rule are the ones I have, which continue to disable me due to lack of determination and other grave personal flaws

[sosashawtyy]

I lowkey do be having obsessions and compulsions

[solarmorrigan]

*hitting my brain with a rolled up newspaper* I am allowed to be annoying! I am allowed to be wrong! I am allowed to take up space! Not! Everyone! Has! To! Like! Me!

[romancenjoyer]

i’m doing really well for someone who goes through the five stages of grief every day

[meanbuddhist]

just identified a behavioral pattern within myself

[mamiaztec]

[confessionsdiaz]

*through gritted teeth* the world is GOOD. people are kind. Humans are NOT inherently selfish. you will make it through this year. recovery is possible. people you don't know yet will love you. You are going to do things you can't even imagine right now. You are going to read a rlly good book. You are going to eat some rlly good food. You are going to experience joy again. Things can get better. Situations can change. You can choose to be kinder. The world can change for the better.

[octoberloved]

[despazito]

[corantus]

locked the fuck in get my money up

[skoomabong]

[sparklingspirals]

all the roads lead back to the loneliness ive felt ever since i was a child

[ruinedchildhood-deactivated3138]

[tlirsgender]

Crazy thing about #healing #recovery Small Victories is when you'll have some shit going on that's like, saying this would involve admitting how you used to be doing. You know? Like hey guys good news I'm gonna change my bedsheets this year

[tlirsgender]

That's the thing about Doing Really Bad you kinda keep it to yourself. And then you start doing a little better & when you try to tell people this the vibe is like "what do you mean you were living in the sewer this whole time are you good?" while you're standing there like Yeah that's not the important part never mind that. I'm literally out of the sewer

[greelin]

did perfectionism ever truly protect you from harm or neglect as a child though. ultimately. Lol

[greelin]

[REALLY NORMAL AND WELL-ADJUSTED VOICE] well you never know maybe it COULD have saved me. if i ever actually achieved perfection. it could have happened then. if i was actually ever enough. Which i was not

[animusbell]

you can't come to my birthday party? aw dang, (remembers it's bad to guilt trip people) this doesn't matter to me at all (remembers to demonstrate that i am affected by you to affirm your positive presence in my life) but while you're away i will die (remembers not to guilt trip again) unpreventably. unrelated to you. don't worry about it. (remembers to express care through actions and not just words) you're in the will.

[infectiouspiss]

it's so sick and twisted that you have to forge the life you deserve from the molten scraps of the life you were forced to have