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LPN/ Elder Tumblr User/ Fandom Lover Apparently Top Gun has taken over my life now. Hangster/Buddie/McDanno/ Stony  

[aaronsmith94]

I just woke up out of a dead sleep but tonight I had a dream of seeing my grandfather again and he’s been gone for almost 19 years now. And it was me my current age hugging him and it just was really that simple of a dream but it made so much sense.

I’ve felt like such a failure about a lot of things since he’s passed and I think he just wanted me to know that getting that confirmation of my ADHD diagnosis and everything else I’ve dealt with it’s all going to be okay and I just can’t tell you how peaceful and comforting that is.

[tommykinardbuckley]

TOMMY KINARD | 😍

[lesbianrozanov]

911 + taylor swift lyrics (1/?)

[aaronsmith94]

Life has been kind of funny. New therapist and new psychiatrist and they both felt and confirmed I’m inattentive ADHD. And I can’t really put into words how nice it is to actually have that diagnosis. How they took the time going over everything with me and reassuring me that those frustration episodes and mood swings are in fact related to ADHD and not Bipolar like I fear. (Note I don’t fear Bipolar Disorder and I know several amazing folks with it however my abusive father was Bipolar and I simply would have had to be committed if I did have it like him.)

And then it got me thinking about everything and how I struggled so hard in elementary but I was masking symptoms by age 5 because I was always performing trying to be perfect so my father didn’t beat me. So I simply slipped through I wasn’t disruptive. I struggled through high school way harder than I should have. University was horrible for me then my auto immune symptoms started showing up then so I was just trying to survive. But during that time I was put on Adipex cause shocker everyone thought my weight was an issue.

That Adipex made me go from struggling and nearly failing out of my expensive ass private LPN program to being the top of my class and passing my NCLEX with 85 questions. Stopped that after getting in with my rheumatologist and figured out I was RA and Lupus but I just kind of bumbled through my 20’s. Job jumping, spending habits that were so bad, executive disfunction so high.

So here I am 29 diagnosed with ADHD after going through 5 different antidepressants and a mood stabilizer and a benzo to try and function. The death of my father made me reach out to a therapist for better understanding of PTSD and how to work on it and we just discovered a lot about me. New psychiatrist is an absolute gem and I am thankful to have him also.

Saturday was the first day with meds and it was just nice for my brain to be calm and just have linear thoughts and just do things without an internal struggle. Didn’t fight with myself to do my bedtime routine. I’ve been so self critical of myself the last 3 years. I know I will have a grief response for me that has had to struggle this long but I feel like I’m on the right path now.

[shimamitsu]

some of my favorite replies to this tweet. happy lesbian visibility week!

[tomhoppusdelonge]

what is your favourite swear/vocal stim to say when you feel the need

Cunt

Bitch

Fuck

Damnit

Shit

Asshole

Bastard

Motherfucker

Dumbass

Something else?

I don’t swear (you’re a damned liar)

Voting ended onMay 2, 2024

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[thwipped]

uncle roy doodle page

[luckydiorxoxo]

[bedbugbiting]

My face is having uncontrollable spasms. Great. It hurts really, really, really bad.

I think part of why I have trouble explaining pain to the doctor is when they ask about the pain scale I always think “Well, if someone threw me down a flight of stairs right now or punched me a few times, it would definitely hurt a lot more” so I end up saying a low number. I was reading an article that said that “10” is the most commonly reported number and that is baffling to me. When I woke up from surgery with an 8" incision in my body and I could hardly even speak, I was in the most horrific pain of my life but I said “6” because I thought “Well, if you hit me in the stomach, it would be worse.”

[bomberqueen17]

I searched and searched for the post this graphic was from, and the OP deactivated, but I kept the graphic, because my BFF does the same thing, uses her imagination to come up with the worst pain she can imagine and pegs her “10″ there, and so is like, well, I’m conscious, so this must be a 5, and then the doctors don’t take her seriously. (And she then does things like driving herself to the hospital while in the process of giving birth. Probably should have called an ambulance for that one!)

So I found this and sent it to her. Because this is what they want to know: how badly is this pain affecting you? Not on a scale of “nothing” to “how I’d imagine it’d feel if bears were eating my still-living guts while I was on fire”. 

I hate reposting stuff, but I’ll never find that post again and OP is deactivated, so, here’s a repost. I can delete this later, i just wanted to get it to you and I can’t embed images in a chat or an ask. 

[derryderrydown]

This is possibly why it took several weeks to diagnose my fractured spine.

[petralemaitre]

Pain Scale transcription:

10 - I am in bed and I can’t move due to my pain. I need someone to take me to the emergency room because of my pain.

9 - My pain is all that I can think about. I can barely move or talk because of my pain.

8 - My pain is so severe that it is difficult to think of anything else. Talking and listening are difficult.

7 - I am in pain all the time. It keeps me from doing most activities.

6 - I think about my pain all of the time. I give up many activities because of my pain.

5 - I think about my pain most of the time. I cannot do some of the activities I need to do each day because of the pain.

4 - I am constantly aware of my pain but can continue most activities.

3 - My pain bothers me but I can ignore it most of the time.

2 - I have a low level of pain. I am aware of my pain only when I pay attention to it.

1 - My pain is hardly noticeable.

0 - I have no pain.

[airagorncharda]

It’s also really important to get this kind of scale to people who have chronic pain, because chronic pain drastically lowers your perception of how “bad” any kind of pain actually is, and yet something like this pain scale is extremely user friendly. 

For example, if someone asked me how much pain I’m in at any given time, I’d say hardly any, and yet I’m apparently at a chronic 2.5, and it only goes up from there depending on the day. 

There’s also a similarly useful “Fatigue Scale”

[jedijenkins]

I haven’t been below a 5 on this scale for 4 years 

[nerdgasrnz]

Here’s the fatigue scale

[sunny-day-sky]

Fatigue scale image desc:

10: can barely move; can’t talk

9: can barely move; can talk

8: can move, but can’t do much more than watch TV

7: can watch TV and play a game on my phone simultaneously

6: can do work on my computer lying in bed

5: can get around the house, but definitely couldn’t go out

4: can run a light errand

3: can get in my 10,000 steps, making my fitbit happy

2: can do three or more activities in a single day

1: going clubbing!

[eruvadhril]

See also the Mental Health Pain Scale by Graceful Patient:

Mental Health Pain Scale transcription:

MILD

1 - Everything is a-okay! There is absolutely nothing wrong. You’re probably cuddling a fluffy kitten right now. Enjoy!

2 - You’re a bit frustrated or disappointed, but you’re easily distracted and cheered up with a little effort.

3 - Things are bothering you, but you’re coping. You might be overtired or hungry. The emotional equivalent of a headache.

MODERATE

4 - Today is a bad day (or a few bad days). You still have the skills to get through it, but be gentle with yourself. Use self-care strategies.

5 - Your mental health is starting to impact on your everyday life. Easy things are becoming difficult. You should talk to your doctor.

6 - You can’t do things the way you usually do them due to your mental health. Impulsive and compulsive thoughts may be hard to cope with.

SEVERE

7 - You’re avoiding things that make you more distressed, but that will make it worse. You should definitely seek help. This is serious.

8 - You can’t hide your struggles any more. You may have issues sleeping, eating, having fun, socialising, and work/study. Your mental health is affecting almost all parts of your life.

9 - You’re at a critical point. You aren’t functioning any more. You need urgent help. You may be a risk to yourself or others if left untreated.

10 - The worst mental and emotional distress possible. You can no longer care for yourself. You can’t imagine things getting any worse. Contact a crisis line immediately.

[kingspadedying]

These are so important! SO SO IMPORTANT SHARE THIS AND SAVE IT TO SHOW YOUR DOCTORS!

[mrswhozeewhatsis]

This is the first time I’ve seen the fatigue scale, and HOLY MOLY that’s a revelation!!! These should be on all hospital and doctor office walls.

[thesaltofcarthage]

I’ve never seen the mental health one! or the fatigue one! I printed out the pain one and gave it to my GP. 

[911bts]

[aaronsmith94]

[aaronsmith94]

Leakers currently after she dropped part 2.

[thelasttime]

leakers will never have the last laugh

taylor swift said : oh if you're gonna leak the album i'll just have a second album ready!

[leninisms]

i couldn’t have found a normal artist to enjoy it just had to be this freak

[aaronsmith94]

The Black Dog 🤯

[taylorswift]

It’s a 2am surprise: The Tortured Poets Department is a secret DOUBLE album. ✌️ I’d written so much tortured poetry in the past 2 years and wanted to share it all with you, so here’s the second installment of TTPD: The Anthology. 15 extra songs. And now the story isn’t mine anymore… it’s all yours. 🤍 https://taylor.lnk.to/ttpd-theanthology

[aaronsmith94]

I Can Do It With A Broken Heart may be my favorite.