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they/he

[abortedexecution]

maybe its better to do it now and make the new year a real improvement for everyone. maybe it's time to stop being such a burden and stop being selfish.

[abortedexecution]

how do you name this feeling when youre not suicidal you dont wanna die youre getting out of depression but your life is getting just too awful and you literally dont know what to do anymore and you reconsider slitting your wrists everytime you remind yourself what a piece od shit you are and how much you fucked up your own life.

[abortedexecution]

ate kebab and an energy drink and thats all i ate today and i feel fatass 😍

[abortedexecution]

i hate being trans sometimes i wish i could take my skin off i wish i wasnt born like this i feel like a one big mistake imagine you have to suffer and live through all this just because your parents were horny once

[abortedexecution]

im gonna either vomit or hang myself guys or you know what why not both

[abortedexecution]

every psychologist on my national helpline is taken and its been like that for the last 30 minutes thats sick

[thoughtlessmnd]

it's a lot harder to "get better" when you're trying to get better alone

[abortedexecution]

forgot where i have left my pack of razor blades and im having urges so strong what do i do guys 🥀

[abortedexecution]

i havent been taking my antipsychotics for months now and i feel how im getting worse and worse but i dont want to come back to them.

[abortedexecution]

i wish there was anyone i could say my last goodbye to. but there's nobody who would care if i ever disappeared. it makes me even more miserable that soon one day i will be dying and it won't make me feel any less alone any less invisible and any more loved. i crave for the feeling of being important to anyone. but I don't deserve and it won't ever happen.

[borderlinesanctuary]

I don't even hate other people anymore. It's far past just disappointment in humanity, it's closer to genuine hopelessness. I know there are good people but man is it hard not to just say all humans suck, including me. I'm not a saint but I'm aware and trying to fix myself.

[bpderanged]

It's a beautiful day to deep throat the barrel of a gun

[abortedexecution]

Are u dead (pls say no)

no dont worry im still here i just dont use tumblr that much!!!

[everyonelikeshim]

Okay thats good!!! Staying off tumblr is deffo a good idea for the mentally ill im happy 4 u :]

[abortedexecution]

i mean its not intentionally, i dont post that much anymore but sometimes i still open tumblr and look through some posts so it's not really a big change for my mental health 😭

[abortedexecution]

Are u dead (pls say no)

no dont worry im still here i just dont use tumblr that much!!!

[abortedexecution]

guys the urges are HUGE.

[abortedexecution]

i cant be around people that makes my heart shatter i cry everytime someone doesnt seem to be interested in talking to me or anything a small change in behavior makes me want to die like just please dont leave me ill do anything just to make you stay i would oh my god i cant write this no longer

[chell-rry]

🫶🏻

[tinytacofrog]

Emailing this to my nutritionist