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I swear, I really am your archon! šŖ½
Furina // Abyss
22 // he/her
BPD // HPD // auDHD // DID // schizophrenia // cPTSD
information below the cut is triggering, but gives a better idea of what triggers will show up on this blog
i can genuinely think of one person whoād notice if I was gone
- Jinx
delusions are horrible. I know Iām slipping into one, but I canāt stop it happening.
Remember! If I don't reply, it's because I'm asleep. If you don't reply, it means you're with somebody else, and now I have to kill them.
going to style some jirai kei - inspired outfits to see if i feel like buying proper pieces would be worth it or not <3
iām on a āthe only way to solve my problems is to kill myselfā type beat
I hope I die in the most gruesome way possible by my own hand.
Do you ever wanna just do the most violent things to yourself? Like have you ever hated yourself SO much that you could physically and mentally torture yourself willingly until your body just gave out from the pure exhaustion of it all?
me: I wasnāt sexually abused, I canāt have been that just dosent happen
also me: hypersexual at 15 and posting āthirst trapsā on tiktok pretending to be 19 because I just wanted men to give me attention because that was all I knew
why canāt I just EXIST???
why must they all hate me now? why must I be the one no-one wants to be around?
- Furina
am i actually real? is anything real? i donāt know who i am anymore
Iām so tired of this, I was tormented by her in source and Iāve discovered I canāt escape her here, either. Canāt I just be at peace finally? No longer an archon, just a regular person without her looming over me.
- Furina
I renamed this blog. I feel corroded. Damaged. Eaten away at. In a way nothing can fix.
Iām tired. I miss home all the time, but home isnāt real. Iām longing for a place and life I canāt go back to. I miss being myself. It hurts.
- Furina
i get why it breaks his boundaries
but i just want to be me and not hide behind everyone else
especially when i want to go out and have fun
and i canāt
because iām not trusted to go out alone
but if i go out to do what i want i have to with him
and when iām with him i have to hide behind all the other alters so i donāt upset him
because someone tried to say he couldnāt be himself before
and it hurt him
because he existed first
it was meant to just be me not using my own name around him
now iām not allowed to wear pink
or identify with my source
or do anything that makes me feel like myself
heās doing the same things they did to him to me
instead of trying to get better from it
and itās not like i asked to split
itās not like i chose to be me
he thinks iām going to say iām the only me because the body has some similar trauma and experiences to my source
i just want to go see my friends
and dress up pretty
and have cute things
and drink
and get high
and forget everything thats wrong with us
but i canāt be myself while i do that
and that doesnāt feel fair to me
- Angel
Sometimes I think it wouldāve been kinder of them to just kill me.
Iām tired of being seen as a bad person for something I canāt control.
