Adora in Etheria

◇Living with ASD, ADD, DID, Fibromyalgia among other chronic mental and physical illnesses.◇ ☆Egalitarian activist, advocating for Father's, Children's, and Men's rights.☆ ■Speaking against CPS/DHS, Family Court, and Child Support Enforcement for its sexist, ableist, classist and ageist biases.■ ○Alienated Daughter, reunited with Dad 1•18•2021○ ♡Learning how to be human, loved, happy, and safe again♡ ●Child Trafficking, Religious Ritualistic Abuse, Narcissistic Abuse survivor● ¤Advocating for the kids I once knew who kept trudging through hell in hopes to see their daddy again, but didn't make it through to the other side.¤ ♡Adora Kenway♡ {"I saw it different, I must admit. I caught a glimpse, I'm going after it. They say "People never change" but that's bullshit-they do. Yes, I'm changing, cant stop it now, and even if I wanted I would not know how. Another version of myself I think I found, at last."} -Tame Impala "Yes I'm Changing"

[adorainetheria]

Adora In Etheria (AKA The Utero System) is now active and taking a slightly new direction.

So this blog has shown a little bit of my struggles as a traumatized neurodivergent person but or was inky started a few months ago. Since then I've found my dad, which has been the most healing experience ever.

I now want to hee posting about my family, this transition, what I'm learning, how I'm healing, things like that. So it will be a lot more wholesome but a lot of talk about my family.

I adore my family, and I wouldn't be here without them. They have healed so many wounds I was unaware were even there. Or how badly they were hurting me. My dad has help ke remember so so much.

I really dont want to share much about my life previously. I know I only left that all behind not even 2 months ago, and I still have constant reminders of it around me, but I'm already to call it my previous life. Adjusting to my new life and normal life in general has been such a culture shock. And there's so much I'm learning everyday.

As far as my system goes, we had a transformation recently. We still have the main fronters; Phoenix, Alexandrite, Damien, Luciana, Ruby, Jade, Emerald, Starfall, Carnelian, Jupiter, Jasper, Sapphire, Garnet, Onyx, Alina, Opal, Citrine "Citzy", Tourmaline "Tourma" and Lunar... but other than that we have Tilly, Z'illy, Jeffery, Delilah, and Robin in the background. I know theres more I dont know about yet but I know theres only a few more. But I am the host, my name is Adora, and we are now working towards integration. Wholeness.

So now this blog is focused on my life after.

My life after...

Narcissistic abuse.

Suicidal intention.

Parental alienation.

Ritualistic sexual and physical abuse.

Being sold into child trafficking.

So so so. so. so. many devastating, life altering deaths and losses.

Being kidnapped, tortured, and forced into total silence. Being forced to make cover up stories and to destroy evidence of my abuse.

Housing instability, staying on the street and homeless shelters.

My life after escaping my thundercunt mother and finding my dad.

[melusinah]

When I was a kid a pastor once said to me "nobody knows the hour or the day Jesus will return and anyone who predicts it will be wrong he won't show up" and the end of days as a concept really freaked me out so every so often, maybe once a week, I'd come up with random dates and times for Jesus to "come back" to ensure he wouldn't.

[templepriest-motherfucker]

LOOPHOLE

[july-19th-club]

guy who shoots a gun off once a month to keep the property values low but for the apocalypse

[adorainetheria]

This is so funny but i feel called out because i did the exact same thing

[srrybabe]

oh to lay on top of someone and hug them like a teddy bear and just sleep like that

[claracaboozle]

oh to have someone lay on top of me and have them hug me like a teddy bear and just sleep like that

[adorainetheria]

Oh, to have someone lay thier head on my hip as they cuddle my thigh like a body pillow and just sleep like that

[tastefullyoffensive]

Mother ducker.

[adorainetheria]

"I wanna get the DUCK OUT OF HERE"

[adorainetheria]

Me: *Has a horribly traumatic past, having seen and survived some of the worst of humanity*

Also me: *happens to be a white skinned, cisgendered, heterosexual women with a queer history*

Some fucking idiot: NoNe Of ThAT ACTUALLY hApPenED to YoU! YOuRe LyiNg BecaUSe YoU HaVe WHITE PRIVILEGE anD YoUvE BeTRaYeD ThE LGBT CoMmUnItY bY TurNInG InTo A CIsHeT!! LeAve ThE AdvOcAcY tO tHe ONeS ActUalLy SuFFerInG!1!!!1!

Yeah..............right............... white privilege.................... because i have been so inherently privileged...... I havent been living in poverty all my life, not at all. I also havent had any discrimination ahainst me for my skin color, no siree. Never have I ever faced difficulties getting resources and help because of factors i can't help, totally absolutely never. And yes, i have 100% have had everything handed to me on silver plater, I didnt have to work myself literally almost to death to get where i am. And where i am now is soooooooooooooooooooooo totally above the poverty line, just like i have been everyday of my privileged white life!

[guerrillatech]

[cheshireinthemiddle]

I am no longer immediately dismissive of realistic consiracy theories.

If 10 years ago, you told me there was a Hollywood sex island where...children were raped and it was covered up by the Hollywood elite, I would have called you stupid.

But here we are.

Like...I see people mocking conspiracy theories, and in the back of my mind, I'm like "you're gonna look really stupid if this turns out to be true". Like i'm fully accepting the slight possibility of the claim. Because, yeah, you never know.

[user87262893]

who told you misandry was bad? men??

[stopmakingliberalslookbad]

It's very sexist of you to assume that I had to learn from a man that hating people for existing is bad.

[adorainetheria]

Who told you misogyny was bad? Women??? Doesnt work when its flipped either.

[passinnotesinsecrecy]

this is my favourite poem ever

[nah010-deactivated20260419]

[cheshireinthemiddle]

It isnt “toxic masculinity”.

It is misandry and body shaming.

In the same way that mocking a woman’s boob size is misogyny and body shaming.

We need to learn to recognize sexism when it happen to men instead of creating new phrases to avoid doing just that.

[adorainetheria]

I feel so dirty

So so so dirty

Dirty on the inside.

A dirty that never comes off my skin, not water, nor soap, nor flesh eating acid could ever made me clean.

[ablesisters-remaking-deactivate]

i think tumblr isn’t ready for this take yet but, while solidarity between the mentally ill/neurodivergent and physically disabled communities is important, we face very different kinds of ableism and you really need to stop hijacking posts about issues or positivity related to disability and making it about mental health

[ablesisters-remaking-deactivate]

like it seems to be a trend especially in online spaces like tumblr/twitter and it’s tiring - someone can make a post about, say, being in constant physical pain and someone will try to make it about depression as if the two are remotely comparable. it just feels bad man. let us talk about our issues or spread uplifting messages about the struggles we face without making it about yourselves

[ablesisters-remaking-deactivate]

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[adorainetheria]

I completely agree. Its really sucky when people try to compare physical pain brought by mental illness vs medical illness. Very different effects, my body is literally attacking itsself like a virus, man, im in constant, horrible pain, i dont even understand how my legs carry me sometimes, but youll never see that. I dont really even ever talk about it.

[straightpeoplereceipts]

my favourite thing about people is that we all seem to pick a specific colour of heart emoji and decide that is OUR trademark heart emoji. its deeply endearing

[boy-in-the-stars]

💙💙💙

[tungledotfuck]

💛💛💛

[fairylightsandrainydays-deactiv]

💜💜💜

[adorainetheria]

💖💖💖

[adorainetheria]

My boyfriend told me that some of my metaphors, similes, and symbolic ways of expressing passion are

✨Hot but "slightly" scary✨

"Slightly"

I swear, he legitimately must think I am eother a vampire or some psycho thats going to skin him in sleep, but i rpomise I'm not either when I say

I wanna hide inside your heart 💖

[sirjonsalot]

Mhm, suuuuurrrrreeeee

[adorainetheria]

Ive been exposed

Just dont tell anyone any that other thing, that can be between us

[adorainetheria]

My boyfriend told me that some of my metaphors, similes, and symbolic ways of expressing passion are

✨Hot but "slightly" scary✨

"Slightly"

I swear, he legitimately must think I am eother a vampire or some psycho thats going to skin him in sleep, but i rpomise I'm not either when I say

I wanna hide inside your heart 💖

[adorainetheria]

I've noticed and experienced quite a few type of abuse I feel have gone unrecognized so I'd like to define and coin terms for them.

Here are trigger warnings, uncensored to ensure this doesnt pop up for those with filters on:

Child abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse, sexual abuse, Spiritual Abuse, terror/horror/fear, Religious Abuse, Ritualistic Abuse, Ritual Abuse, Pedophilia, Fetishism, and such grotesque topics.

Cortisol-Based Abuse

First of all, what is Cortisol?

Cortisol is the stress hormone the body produces when faced with an extended period of stress. There is positive stress, the stress that drives us forward; there tolerable stress, the bad stress that we can ultimately cope with; and then there's toxic stress, constant stress that has physical, cognitive, and emotional effects. Children who experience toxic stress, from any of the ACEs, have raised stress responses, and therefore have an exaggerated or elevated Cortisol response. And children being children, it's a lot easier to cause and maintain that response.

Heres the thing about Cortisol and how it interacts with other people. You know how some people are more sensitive to pheromones than others? Like they can consciously smell it? It's unique how humans process smelling hormones and pheromones, but we do in fact respond to them. The saying "I can smell the fear on you" has truth to it. Our fear pheromones are very strong. And some abusers enjoy this smell. They abuse for this smell.

What does Cortisol-Based Abuse look like?

Abusers pushing the child to extreme feelings of fear, terror, horror, panic and anxiety through various forms of abuse; physical, emotional, sexual, neglect, and the like.

This extreme state being maintained for an extended period of time (Over 24 hours) through the same or similar methods

Abusers smelling the child, sniffing their hair, behind their ears, neck, shoulders, under the arms, chest genitals, thighs, behind the knees, the feet, or spaces where sweat is excreted the most.

This smelling ritual seeming to motivate the abuse more.

The abuser talking about the way the child's smell, that it arouses them, wants them to hurt the child more more, and praising the smell they give off.

Abusers rubbing towels, clothing, sheets, etc on th childs skin and smelling it.

Abusers taking the childs dirty clothes, underwear, socks, shoes, bedding and the like to smell.

Abusers prohibiting the child from taking care of their personal hygiene, including laundry.

Often these abuers are users of harder drugs like Methamphetamine, Alcohol, Cocaine, Opioids, Xanax, and the like.

I know, its pretty extreme, I also know I'm not the only one to go through this. And its time this was recognized. I've seen many abusers motivated by this smell and I've heard many stories with some element of this.

This ends my summary of Cortisol-Based Abuse.

While there arent any resources about this specifically I can find, here's a very thorough articles on Cortisol, Children, and ACEs.

What Are ACEs? And How Do They Relate to Toxic Stress?

In this infographic, learn about ACEs (Adverse Childhood Experiences), how they interact with toxic stress, and what we can do to prevent la

Thaank you for reading 💕

[tastefullyoffensive]

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[adorainetheria]

Aordä Yawnëk

I actually like that lol

[mostofmylifeisnotthere]

With Mother & Father’s day coming up, please remember you are not required to be grateful to abusive parents. Please remember,

Don’t break no-contact.

Don’t let family guilt you into breaking no-contact.

Don’t feel guilty for living w/ them as an adult, you’re doing your best.

Don’t feel you’re betraying yourself if you have to give ‘appeasement gifts.’

DO put your mental & physical wellbeing first, as we know they won’t.

Maybe get yourself something, so many of us had to be our own parent anyway.