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💌 HEART TO HEART — a martin edwards smau ( love letter 07. )
in an attempt to prove he does know how to talk to a pretty girl, martin edwards needs a date to keonho’s valentines-birthday party by friday. with his charming personality and gorgeous smile like no other, it won’t be hard for him to twirl someone into pretending to be his plus one — the actual challenge lies in making sure he doesn’t catch genuine feelings, so that all his firsts are saved for the real thing.
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#🫖: im canonically james’ gf sorry not sorry 😹 call me parasocial all u want NOBODY GAF!!! this is MY au 😛😛😛😛 ALSO🚨 there’s a poll at the bottom of this post so you can all vote for which couple u want to win if u like 🤭 (TEAM YNMARS LETS GO!!!!)🚨
synopsis: you are invited to a wedding of a high school friend, but none of your friends can tag along, so you ask the best option left, the guy you liked since first meeting, James. Will this night draw us closer and reveal the feelings we endlessly denied?
[!] :: mentions of drinking; drinking; mentions of getting drunk (guys it a wedding okay?😭); kissing; fluff; confession; swearing; grammar mistakes (don't jump my ahh pls) ; ≈ 6.3 k words
a/n: this fic has seen a month of my life and I just decided to finish it at once✌️ and it took like 4 years of my life spawn but it was worth it 🤑 came out pretty nicely.Hope yall like it!! Sorry for any errors or grammatical mistakes, this is my longest work so far 😭 And I'm still experimenting with my layout , bear with mee bear with me Sorry for the time skips I needed them to build tension!!💔 The colors and names mentioned are NOT unintentional.
Back pain was a killer after intense practice making packing up after so much worse than dancing 3 hours. The bag was stuffed of everything you needed for maybe 2 days, “shouldn't pack so much next time” you thought. The strap digging in your shoulder as you try to get to the car as quickly as possible so you can finally rest, even if it's just for 10 minutes.
Letting the bag fall to the floor of the car, melting into the seat behind the driver, camera man next to you and your members were complaining they are tired.
Your head rested against the window, watching the silence of the world as you passed every building. It was comforting in a way making your eyes close slowly, just at the edge of falling asleep and when you could feel yourself drifting away, your phone rang, making you a bit annoyed, but when you saw the contact name you immediately straightened up in your seat with a gasp.
Everyone suddenly being interested on whats so important they asked “Wait whats up?”, “WHAT HAPPENED?”, “Whattt?”.
“Oh you don't know her, I've told yall about Yua before though just little fragments”
And the car goes back to the comfortable silence as you answer the phone excited. You didn't even talk with Yua that much maybe a few messages a month, but she's still dear to you.
You met when you did an exchange year in japan, no regrets about that! Everyone welcomed you kindly, showed you around, but Yua was special. She had this energy that just pulled people in, when she smiled everything felt lighter and just radiating joy no matter the situation she was in. When you thought about Yua it was like she's a cartoon character, every time she smiled little flowers and sparkles appeared, so when she told you she was getting married, you were over the moon, happy for her.
“REALLY? This is INSANE news to me. GIRLLL MARRIED!!! Imma steal you from him” you said cheeks hurting from smiling so hard.
“I'm exactly where I want to be, don't worry about all that!” she replied with a laugh.
“I guess I can share… I'm so happy for you!! I hope you have fun!” You joked rolling your eyes sarcastically.
“Well…this is why I called you, I wanted to invite you! Just letting you know though If you will come you need 3-4 business days off for sure…and you have a plus one on your invite so feel free to let me know!” She explained excitedly, waiting for your response.
“Of course I'm coming. I wouldn't miss this in a hundred years!! Just send me the details and i'll let you know if I can make it!”
This invitation just made your whole week, you were so excited to go and see her get married, she's always been there for you and she deserves this more than anyone else…damn you're gonna cry at the speeches.
Looking at the invitation details, the date seems like it couldn't work for some of you members to tag along, one had an interview, other two a vlog and the last one had to go to her brothers birthday, so sadly they can't tag along, it's gonna be fine anyway single traveling sounds like a dream.
Till you met up with the whole group. You group and Cortis, the rookies that shocked the industry with their impact were hanging out eating and talking about if ‘6-7’ is funny or no. I mean pretty believable if you think about it…
You were sat next to James and at the wall, best spot oat but highkey claustrophobic, but it's fine at least everyone is having a good time hanging out and having fun, laughing, making jokes, eating and soon dessert.
Martins said something about his parents which reminded you of the wedding invite, that you don't want to go alone, if that was possible, so you thought about who could you invite with you. Everyone besides James was too young and they most likely couldn't come, but you had a good relationship with James, you understood eachother better for some reason, though it would be a lie to say that you didn't have the littlest of crush on him. He was handsome, smart, funny, I mean he had everything so it was hard to keep your feelings hidden but you pushed through it.
Tapping his arm gently to catch his attention, talking normally but silent so the rest wouldn't hear, not that they cared ,they were loud enough talking, especially when laughing.
“Hey so long story short I got this wedding invite, it's in another country, the girls can't come and I'm lowkey nervous to go alone, would you maybe wanna tag along?” you said with a hint of hesitation, getting ready to say something else if he thinks the idea is to weird.
“Yeah,sure! I will let you know, but mostly yes because I need a break from all of this” he said with a smile while gesturing towards the people at the table, making you laugh and thank him for considering your offer.
So eventually he came back to you with good news, that he could tag along for a few days. That text message made you jump around your room like a teenager, though when you think about it you're gonna have to share a room with him, stay next to him on flight and during the wedding and travel around the area together. And the questions started flowing in inside your head: will your living styles match? will you fight? is he gonna be comfortable with sharing a room with you?
Those are details anyway. You know James and he would be forward, if he doesn't like something or is uncomfortable he will tell you, so when all is said and done you are going to have a hell of a trip not only because one of your favorite friends is getting married, but James is coming.
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The weeks passed and Spring was already settled in. With every slow whistle from the wind the cherry blossoms trees let their soft little petals fall to the ground covering everything in pink and with. Occasionally the petals stuck to your hair just like right now when you made a quick stop to the convenience store with James before heading to the airport. The driver kindly waited for you outside while you tried your best to hurry and secure some snacks for the trip.
“I just hope they are gonna let us pass with all of this” he says, waiting for the lady to scan your products while you packed them. She eventually finishes and James already had his card out paying for the both of you.
“No it's okay I can pay back my part just keep the check so i can see how much I own you” your words came out a little out of breath because of all the fast packing and now the heavy bag in your hand.
“No it's fine, you can always buy me a souvenir from where we are going” he says while taking the check and then taking the bag from your hand. He walked till outside the store where he stoped for a moment and looked at the check before throwing it in the trash bin next to him.
You grabbed his arm stopping him from going to the car, a shocked look on your face, your mouth agape.
“I said I will pay you back, why did you do that?”
“And I said theres no need. Now let's go we have a flight to catch!” He answered, flashing you his dimples. Him now dragging you to the car.
The airport was quiet today no cameras were following you, just you, James , a few bodyguards and busy people. The pass through was easy, snacks secured, now you just had to survive the airplane, wishing there will be no crying baby on board.
Planes can be tiring, like really tiring, you didn't even do anything just slept, listened to music and watched something for a bit, though the landing was beautiful, the country you just entered mesmerized you both like you were little children. The sky clearer than ever, sun hot but enough to not burn you, the different languages, everything was beautiful, but the fatigue hit like a truck and all you both wanted to do was just hit the bed and take a good long nap.
So when the receptionist told you, you have one room separate beds it didn't matter anymore, James made sure you were comfortable with this but you were too tired at the moment to think of all the details, so you just answered ‘yes’ , just wanting to get to that room faster.
After setteling in and changing in your pajamas, just then you hit the bed, the comfy mattress and white sheets warmed you up perfectly. You talked to James about your schedule, what you're going to do throughout the days and thank god tomorrow is rest and get to know the town day, because you already fell asleep within 2 seconds of closing your eyes.
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The first thing you smelled was toothpaste and eventually fresh air from the open window that the sun was shining so brightly through, and then felt a touch, no not the sun, James’ hand shaking your shoulder, trying to slowly wake you up while he talked about being late to breakfast and had his toothbrush in his mouth which muffled his words a bit, but after seeing your eyes slowly open, he left to go to the bathroom and finish his routine, letting you wake up slowly.
It looked like it was gonna be a good day, I mean you were in another city with a really good friend that was the guy you liked from the moment you met for the first time. Now the only worry you had is what were you gonna choose from the food buffet and it was serious, for the both of you.
Standing in line with your plates you chose a bit of everything, so when you finally sat at the table, dying of hunger, you never thought you'd see the bride herself.
The big smile on her face when she saw you, gosh she was glowing, that man really treated her well, you didn't have any other choice but to get up from your seat and hug her with all of your power, jumping up and down together. Pulling away from the hug all kind of praises falling from your lips about her hair, her skin, her eyes and most importantly her ring, you couldn't have missed it. That big rock on her hand looked so beautiful and all you had to say to that was “Damn he LOVES you girl…” with the most shocked face ever.
“Wow and your nails! you took your time to get ready, after all this is the day that's going down in history for the both of us right?”
She blushed lightly at your compliments and the joy you both felt “I would have never thought this day was going to come and to have you here is the best thing ever! I'm so glad you came and not alone” Yua happily turned to the James you told her about, all the late practices nights, dinners, get aways.
Whenever you told her about him, she was excited saying that 'lowkey a love story unfolding in my face and I can't wait to know the ending’ she even got her fiancé involved, you just hoped he will keep his mouth shut, actually both of them.
James quickly got up from his seat, bowing his head down slightly and shaking her hand as a greeting. “Thank you for having me! And it's my pleasure to accompany y/n, she told me about you a lot now that I think of it”
“Wow you're so formal, relax a bit I don't bite” Yua smiles sweetly at James making him loosen up a bit. “And I'm glad she talks about me, I would lie if I said she doesn't talk about you a lot” at that comment, you slap Yuas shoulder with the back of your hand as a warning, but James’ face is a bit confused and with a hint of happiness…?
“I will leave you two to continue breakfast, I hope you'll enjoy the city today if you plan to go out!” She is so evil. After that comment she just leaves, seems like Yua is still the same as she was in high school, teasing you any chance she gets, but you still hug her goodbye whispering in her ear “you are an evil woman” and she just giggles, making her way to the buffet.
You sat down in the plush seats, muscles a bit tense, not wanting James to ask what that was about even though you got your ‘excuse’ ready. Sighing out loud before beginning to eat, fork halfway to your mouth, he begins speaking.
“You really appreciate her, the whole face-to-face meeting was… something to experience, but she is really nice I have a good vibe about her. And you actually talk about me too?” Everything was going great till the last question.
“I mean you are my friend of course I talk about you” James smiles at you softly, in a way grateful that he's thought about like that,especially from you, but then you start rambling about Yua and how much love and appreciation you have for her.
All he could do was enjoy the sparkle in your eyes and all the smiles that made his breath slightly harder at times, your laugh as you remember high school with Yua pulled at his heart strings, making his chest feel warm again. He's not even listening to what you're saying, he's admiring you, just like he was in the morning ,today, a few seconds before waking you up. Sun kissed face, sleep written all over you, hair in all places, but somehow looking good, the list varies but the imagine is still stored in his head clear as day.
After breakfast you went to visit the city, to familiarize yourself with the city and the people, the weather was beautiful, the see was beautiful, local shops were warm and welcoming, restaurants all over the place, the nature was in harmony with the locals. You had your digital camera with you, took some aesthetic photos and candid photos of James, he swore they didn't need to see the light of day but they were really beautiful, he just blended right in with the view.
“I made some of you too, when you weren't looking, I think they are pretty” he said looking over your shoulder into the camera and then at you to see your surprised face.
“Look” he says while putting his hand over yours, that was already on the camera, to press the buttons. Yeah he wasn't lying they were really beautiful, you smiling, you trying on some sunglasses at a shop, actually story worthy, he said they were pretty, does he think you're pretty? Before the thoughts could go any further he asked “You like em, I love them”
“No, James these are like main account post worthy wow!” You flashed him that smile, that smile that made him show his dimples too and his ears to redden a bit.
It was a beautiful day, the first day.
Now back into the hotel room you had to think about all of the rush tomorrow, what hour to shower for you hair to get dry and then style it, when to do your makeup, oh you should dress first and then do your makeup so you don't ruin the outfit and the makeup, then put jewelry and then let your hair down. Just hoping everything will go smoothly without problems tomorrow, and thinking all of this got you hungry, thank goodness James has a snack bag open.
He was watching something on his phone, headphones in and brows furrowed in concentration, seems like it was intense whatever was going on. You didn't want to disturb him, so just got up from your bed, took a few chips and continued your way into the bathroom. You prepared all the makeup you need for tomorrow, taking half of the counter with your stuff, repeating everything you need in your head while you brushed your teeth, counting with one hand.
Seems likd bed time was approaching for the both of you since he came in to brush his teeth too. The sight of all kind of brushes, little bottles and pallets, all over the counter shocked him a bit, but he didn't question it too much.
“Busy day tomorrow, huh?” he says while running the toothbrush under water, looking at you through the mirror. You finished brushing your teeth, cleansing with water finally able to respond to him.
“I'm tired just thinking about it” you say with a smile and a sigh. You didn't know how to feel, it was exciting but exhausting, all the people that were going to be there, you only knew three: James, Yua and her soon to be husband.
“Kinda scared, what if we won't have fun? I mean we don't know anybody there, especially you. Just hoping we will have a nice time” You say while drying your hands with the towel hanging from the cabinet knob.
“We always have fun”
The last words you hear, giving a happy smile to his words, before going back to bed, ready to pass out, but not ready for what the next day holds for you.
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Inevitably, the big day came, Yua probably was stressed more than ever, everything needed to go right, the guests should have a fun time, the list varies, but you and James’ Hotel room looks a mess. Makeup scattered everywhere, clothes thrown randomly on the floor, beds undone, but somehow in all of the chaos you got ready and you looked beautiful, looking back on the pictures you took, everything seemed to be in place, you were ready for a fun night and so was James who looked handsomer in a suit than he already was on the usual, hair done, jewelry, everything fitting perfectly and you were lowkey matching.
Lucky you, Yua put your seats in the second row right next to the aisle. You couldn't wait to see her, how her hair is going to look, the make up and the dress, it's going to be fabulous you could sense it already.
Before you knew it, time flew and the music started, guests rose up from their seats turning around to look at the big wood doors, through them you could see a silhouette, hair over her shoulder and the white that covered her arms and body. When the door opened she came out looking like a goddess, your eyes sparkled at the sight and if you weren't so distracted by her beauty, you could swear you made eye contact with her. As she was making her way to the altar, James whispered to you.
“Yeah she's really beautiful, I get you now” at that comment you nudged him a bit to stop teasing you and pay attention to the ceremony.
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“What did you think about their speeches?” James asked while you were both walking out of the building where the ceremony was done. You took photos with the bride and groom, drank a champagne glass while chatting and getting to know the people you were going to spend the night with, some kid actually recognized James and asked for a picture.
“They were sweet! I'm glad she found someone who loves fully, like her, I'm also glad he didn't do an embarrassing speech like those ones on tik tok cuz I would've walked out so fast” You say while laughing, pulling your dress up a bit so you can walk the stairs safely.
“I'm having a great time so far thanks for taking me with you” He says holding out his elbow so you can hold onto it, just like in the movies, making you giggle before accepting it.
“We didn't even get to the best part, wait till she gets drunk tonight” You laugh saying it, but deep down it's a warning.
And exactly when you entered the lounge, you were greeted with yet another glass of champagne served to you by a worker. The room was big, divided into two, the dance floor and the tables with arranged seats, a big table for the bride and groom to dine at and a band getting ready to play all night next to the bar. The same worker that offered you champagne, guided you to your seats, and luckily you were standing with people your age, a couple you met earlier and they were funny, no swag gap between them too.
Sitting down at the table, tugging your dress under your legs so it doesn't crease, putting your bag beside the plate, hands trembling a bit with nervousness reaching to pull out your lip combo and a little mirror. You were ready to rearrange your make up, your hand just needed to not be so shaky anymore, at which you exhaled aggressively and with a small groan at the end. James familiarized himself with the room when he sat down, before looking at you again and noticing something was wrong.
“Is something bothering you?”
“Yeah my hands! why are they so shaky” you replied frustrated, words slurring through your gritted teeth. Without a second thought, he took your hands in his, putting them on his lap, one hand supporting them at the bottom and the other one tracing comforting touches over your soft skin.
“If you're nervous about meeting new people, I promise you it's going to be okay. It went so smoothly at the ceremony. I mean with everyone we talked, I know they liked you for sure” he smiles softly at you, piercing you with his gentle gaze.
“You think?” You ask, the words leaving your mouth in a single breath.
“I know.” He says, before letting your hands go, which surprisingly didn't shake anymore, and making you puff out a laugh.
Thanks to him, you were able to fix your make up and get comfortable before more guests arrived and started chatting, coming up to make small talk or getting to know you better, asking you different questions about yourself, James or Yua.
You got to know the couple that was dining with you tonight, the girlfriend at some point during the conversation realized that you and James are not together and he was here because you needed someone familiar as company. She was really shocked about this information, talking about how you'd look so good together, you fit the vibes and even reused the compliment you gave her about how there's no swag gap between you too.
At about your third glass of champagne of the night, it was already time for the bride and groom dance. It was really beautiful, since you went to a dancing club with Yua as a side quest during your high school years, she already was so talented and you had no idea her husband could dance like that either. The moment was coming to an end but the music kept playing, which was odd till you hear them encourage guests to come and join too.
You were on the side watching, a permanent smile on your face as you saw everyone being so happy with their own person, body to body, some stealing kisses from one another, some occasionally spinning their partner before resting their hand on the low of their backs again.
Though your thoughts were broken by a familiar presence besides you, offering their palm to you as an invitation to dance. That took you by surprise, not exactly knowing what to say.
“Oh we don't have to-”
“Let's get the full wedding experience, it will be fun” James waits for your answer and when you put your hand on his, a grin plasters its self on his face.
“It's weird, we are idols, but we never slow danced, think this might be the first time” You say walking with him hand in hand to the dance floor, getting lost in the crowd.
“There's a first for everything, right?” He says while putting his hand on your waist, the other one holding your hand up slowly while your free hand crawled it's way to his shoulder, and before you'd know it, you we're swaying with him to the slow beat.
“I'm having an amazing time so far… how are you?” you asked him, looking up searching for his eyes.
“Nothing special, just grateful to the gorgeous girl who has invited me” Thankful to the darkened room and different colored laser effects, that are now purple, sometimes changing to yellow, for hiding the blush creeping up your cheeks at his compliment.
“I’ll take that as a yes”
“It's really beautiful here, not only the wedding, but the location too” He says, tilting his head as he signals for you to take in the beauty of the place. Looking around for two seconds before, finding him still looking at you.
The light of the room only makes him more beautiful, sharper features while his eyes remain soft as ever. Before either of you could say anything else, the song comes to an end, people clapping all around you, making you and James pull away from each other, but both of you hesitated for a moment before withdrawing. You look at Yua and how happy she is, I mean it's really her day today, but James looked at you the whole time. He didn't notice that he was staring, something shifted inside of him since meeting that couple at the venue.
You didn't know this but the boyfriend pulled James aside and talked with him, he was also surprised to find out you weren't together.
“No me and her are just friends” James said with a chuckle
“Wow, I actually couldn't tell…do you have feelings for her maybe?” he raised an eyebrow waiting for a answer.
“Not that I know of ” James said with a smile while bringing the glass to his lips to take a sip of his drink.
“I doubt that…Your actions speak otherwise”
This comment made James shake his head with a smile at the time, but after that conversation was all he could think about, did he like you? You were beautiful of course, always kind with him and he noticed things about you that other people didn't. That stayed with him, till this moment and he realized something, maybe he knew the answer all along.
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After 2 more drinks, now working towards finishing the third, and one shot, it was time for speeches from the brides and groom's family, best friends, long distance friends. Some of them were funny, some made them cry, some both, but they came prepared too. Writing a page front and back for the people being present there. They got in the middle of the room where a mic was standing, greeting and thanking everyone.
“Wow some of these speeches really got me!” Yua joked while laughing and making the crowd laugh too “Don't laugh too hard because it's your turn to get emotional!”
She talked about her parents, her brother, her friends and surprisingly she wrote something about you too.
“I'm so grateful she made time in her busy schedule to come here, I mean the both of you. I know she's going to say it's nothing, but even in high school when she made time for me it meant the world and the thought of having her here today is surreal, because I remember us walking home at night after dance class and talking about finding our person, giggling in class about a guy who tried hitting up on us. Truly that exchange year was magical and I think it was mostly because of her. Always making time for me, always answering my calls, my messages, always having a shoulder to cry on during those hard times. Being a teenager is not easy, but it get a little easier around the right people”
You thought you weren't going to cry, you thought it will be sweet. You were so wrong. So wrong. The words really came from her heart and you could tell, eyes started burning, and wetness building up in the corner of your eyes, it became too overwhelming to hold back and a tear slid down your cheek, more following up.
James immediately grabbed a few napkins, patting your cheeks with the paper a few times, before you grabbed it and took it from there. He let you wipe away the glistening tears, standing close, rubbing your back, steadying you.
“It almost got me too, don't feel bad for crying” He said smiling
“I'm not feeling bad for crying but this make up is expensive!” And that made him let out a chuckle waiting for you to steady your breath again with an exaggerated sigh.
From here on, it was history. Shot count: 8, Drinks count: 9, The room was filled only with the laser lights, all kind of music blasting through the speakers, dance floor never empty, the bar never catching a break. On the dance floor was everyone, some already wasted, the age range went from teenagers to grandparents. You befriended the bridesmaids, dancing with them, you thought your heels will break for sure later, occasionally when you got thirsty or hungry you went to the table rehydrated, ate something so you don't have to worry about stomach pain, redid your lip-combo and fixed your makeup, before heading out again to the dance floor.
You did look for James making sure he had a great time, and he did talking with all sorts of people but he did spend quite some time with the groom and that one boyfriend, that was kinda suspicious so you went and asked Yua, who was resting at a table, because her feet started aching from standing all day and that sweet girl who sat at the same table as you and you took a seat next to them, maybe they had an answer.
“Why is your now husband and your boyfriend talking to James so much? I'm happy they are getting along but maybe too much” You tried speaking clearly over the loud music so you could understand each other.
“Come on…I don't think it's that bad, it's all in your head girl, plus he's spending time with people his age, what you expect him to be talking to grandpas and dads all night” Yua said looking over at you, while the girl shook her head as a sign of agreeing with her.
“Yeah I get that, but me for example I befriend every girl I could, btw your friends are so cool congratulations on that too, and he… he's just with those two”
“I get that…but I don't think it's that deep plus we are here to have a little fun, loosen up, not worry about some guy! Come on let's go dance” The girl says taking your hand but before dragging you all across to the dance floor you had to make sure the bride was okay.
“Is it okay if we leave? I don't want you to be alone in pain” You sat up hand in hand with the girl, kind of in a rush.
“Yeah it's fine, I'll be joining soon anyway!” Yua kind of screamed the last part seeing you get dragged into the heart of the party again.
All good nights come to an end sadly, so when you and James both agreed it was time to go, you had to get one more thing, every singles girl insta.
“You guys were soo funn!! I just had too” You say wait for your phone as it's getting passed from hand to hand.
“No, you were so much fun! Yua really choose her friends so good” a blonde girl with the prettiest pearly whites replied and every single one of the girls besides her agreed with hums and head nods.
Of course you had to say goodbye bye to Yua too. Yeah, you talked with her fifteen minutes and between every sentence you said that you had to go, even if you knew you weren't leaving for another five minutes, it wasn't even a conversation just about how much you’ll miss each other and hopefully you'll meet up again soon and maybe not every once in a full moon.
You finally stepped outside and the cool, chilly breeze of a spring night touched your warm skin, raising a few goosebumps. The side walks were illuminated by warm light coming from the street lamps, you and James shadow moving as you walked to the Hotel. Silence filled the streets, only crickets and birds made a few noise occasionally and the sound of your heels against the concrete, adding to the cozy atmosphere. It was really silent, not the creepy kind, but the comforting kind, the one that usually follows up after a good hang out with your friends or after a really good movie. You and James were quietly walking next to each other, both of you just enjoying the presence of someone.
It went like this since you almost made it in front of the hotel, till James stopped in his tracks. You still walked a bit before noticing that he wasn't by your side anymore, turning around and seeing him just standing there, what was he doing?
“You are gonna catch a cold, let's hurry up” You said puffing out a breath which could be slightly seen with the help of the light.
“Not yet, I…”
“…is something wrong?” You said seeing him hesitate, now fully turning your body around.
“Actually… Yeah there is.” Now that made your breath hitch and not in the good way till you hear the other words that started coming out of his mouth.
“I'm sorry, this might ruin our so called ‘friendship’ , but I think you and me, both, know that's not how friends act. Everyone notices and tonight I did too. Being close to you while dancing, there were a lot of girls there but only one lit the room like you did, how you make everyone feel included and special. All of those made me realize something about myself, that I tried to deny so hard and I truly don't know why.” He stepped closer, now at a step distance from you.
“I like you” It rolled of his tongue so easily, like it didn't make your chest blossom with heat that went straight up to your cheeks, your face looked shocked, you were truly speechless.
“It's okay I you don't feel the same, but I have to know where we stand.” He looked nervous, waiting for the answer that will change everything from this point on, but you started smiling, taking that step towards him, feeling your breath as you spoke.
“Wow you did in one night what I couldn't do in eight months” You giggled
“What does that mean?”
“I thought it was obvious enough? I'll just show you“ You pulled out your hands from your pockets, bringing them to his face.
What happened next lasted about two seconds for normal people, but for the both of you it felt like an eternity. The last thing he remembers were your hand on his cheek, pulling him closer and staring at him, lips parted slightly, before the both of you closed your eyes and kissed. Your lips were softer than he imagined, you still had lipgloss on but that didn't matter. He was broken out of his thoughts with you pulling away, since he didn't kiss you back, you had to make sure this was okay with him.
“Is this oka-” Who cares about that? His hand flew to your waist in an instant and his lips searching for yours desperately. That was the best answer you could get and you pulled away only when you couldn't breathe anymore.
You started deep in his eyes, hoping he wouldn't see the maroon that covered your cheeks, not because of the cold, but because of him and the butterflies that were flying around in your stomach were not helping either.
He heard a chuckle come out of your throat, his ears reddened and senses sharp.
“You have a little…gloss” You said smiling.
“Mmm that's okay… I'll wipe it away later now I need another kiss” but before he could capture your lips, you turned your head, making him kiss your cheek instead and then pulling away, looking at you shocked.
“You dogged my kiss” he says devastated acting like it was the end of the world, that made you roll your eyes.
“You are unbelievable.” you said with a scoff.
“Me?” he leaned in ready to steal a second kiss, stopping a inch in front of your face “You started it” a teasing smile glued on his face the whole time.
“Sassy men apocalypse is crazy these days” You roll your eyes again, but you meet his lips again, granting his wish. This kiss was slow, softer, it spoke your feelings better than you could've imagined. And when you pulled back again, you rested your face on his chest, letting the delicate glow of the street lamp to hug you both and the silence that came with it, made you feel like, you made the right choice tonight, one you’ll never regret.
I hope we fw the new set up, natural cozy environment😴
Green is my second favorite color (first is red ogs know ts) and the color of my eyes (I'm one of them #younghos) 🤑🤑🤑
#Winter depression is over chat!! EVERYONE CHEERED!!
Have a lovely spring! It's the time for new beginnings as the nature reborns and rebuilds itself, it's a great time for starting that new hobby, a work out routine, studying more, whatever goals you have just be careful not to try and do everything at once but a breath at a time!!🩹⊹♡
Also I'm thinking about doing some jurnal entrys on here sometimes, I wanna see more perspectives on how people see different situations and maybe I can put into words what they can't, just a thought tho I'm not sure 😓
i’ll never be able to listen to so high school normally again 😭😭😭😭 the concept of writing it with cortis for martin omg 🥹☹️☹️☹️
And I know she ain't lying cuz me and ivy be listening to that album religiously ✌️🤣🤣 LIKEE GUYSS itss so them coded💗💗
Ivy saying this to me was like my dream since I was a little girl and I couldn't be more proud of the work I put in my dumbahh fan fics and smaus 😆
The concept of people ACTUALLY liking what I write and waiting to see what happens is highkey insane and impossible for me to imagine 💔 like guys stop lying yall actually FW ITT ORRR 🤥? I'm still new to this so I'll just sybau 🤣✌️
And I took that comment of yours that "juhoon is so emotionally intelligent" as my compliment cuz I highkey wrote that so🤣🤣🤣🤣 GUYS DONT CANCEL MEEE (thank you so much for that too icon 🫰)
ilysm like actually your support never goes unnoticed queen and I'm greatful for meeting 💗
(when part 6 coming out of YOUR martin smau!?) (I love giving you messages through your inbox sorry for highkey spamming) and I had a deja vu writing this so it is meant to be😆
01 :: So High School ; note—this chapter smells like a rain in the forest, billie eilish No.2 eau de perfume, coca cola zero with lemon and ice, fresh cold air and moss
synopsis: you had been humming a song for days now and deciding to actually work on it you ask Martin to make a beat. the lyrics just flow along, some with hidden meaning behind?
❤︎ ⋅.˳smau mini-series!˳.⋅ ♬
a/n: This idea came to me while I was in the car because I actually started listening to the lyrics, first I thought about James 'You know how to ball/ I know aristotle' , but then I thought about how Martin isn't afraid to say he loves love, like when he said in a yt video that the color orange feels "romantic" to him, and I have beebn highkey neglecting the other members so...enjoy this guys 💗
[!] :: swearing; fluff; grammar mistakes (yes this is a warning😭);
woahhh it has been a hell of a ride to get here but in the end it's worth it having 200 people wanna read my work and keep track of what I post and they GENUINELY like my shi is amazing MIND BLOWING FOR ME 😭
I'm so glad I decided to start writing not only for me but for everyone and when I got a positive feed back I was just in cloud nine. I mean 30 people is A LOT if they are all watching you, 200 is already crazy about half of a school (I think..)
Guys I REALLY REALLY wanna give yall pt 2 of this fic but I have zero ideas and I also wanna know what COULD possibly happen so if you have ANY IDEA it doesn't matter if it's stupid or nah (yall can go annon and if you plan to stay even claim an emoji) I REALLY want pt2 for that fic because I always leave yall in suspense...for most of what I write.. yeah sorry for that you guys😭 ACTUALLY THO I don't know why
📨 — Also keep in mind my inbox is opennn and I want to get to know yall and your ideas for smaus or fics so if you wanna talk or just suggest something you wanna see I GOT YOU. Keep in mind you can be an annon/emoji annon (so I remember you and know who im talking too) and I can't wait to expand out little town 🖇️
I appreciate you all!! the reblogs, the likes and comments I will always respond and I couldn't thank you enough for all the support I've received even when my writing was buns, and thank you for letting me grow and experience!!💗💗😆😆