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one of our readings this week was said’s heart of darkness analysis and my prof made a joke in class about it like “sorry this was probably really dense for most of you. if you go to grad school you just read stuff like this all the time” and it’s like while this is true some of us have something worse going on where we acquire none of the credentials or experience that would be associated with reading a lot of papers but we read a lot of papers anyway and it manifests in doing fuck all for six years before going back to school to be the only person in your undergrad lit class you have to take for transfer who knows how to pronounce the name michel foucault

#neil.txt #he just started asking me questions directly today in discussion which is like sure of course you know what am i you are

segamascott

#well can i

thinking that everyone else has something figured out that you will always fundamentally lack bc you were born wrong is kind of a core part of the human experience but it’s actually true for me so now what

#neil.txt

omegaversereloaded

r/goth like "how do i dress goth as a male" goth men used to wear women's clothes and got bullied for being too feminine. Continue doing that

stjohnstarling

@3liza I hope it’s okay if I share these.

3liza

thank you for reading my dumb tags, i really appreciate it and the replies to these tags from my fellow goths. one person said that it was sometimes difficult for their trans women friends to be accepted as women in the goth scene specifically because of all the performative gender pageantry by goth men (women and other genders also participate in this aesthetic activity within goth culture, im not excluding them on purpose its just the post was specifically about goth men so im staying focused) and i wanted to highlight that reply because it's an important consideration when talking about this stuff. gender performativity spaces can end up causing a sort of gender essentialist blowback where the assumption is that everyone there is cishet and that everything theyre doing is performance that youre supposed to interpret by clocking their AGAB and following their aesthetic choices from there. this is bad and it does happen

so i got curious because i actually wrote a very amateurish paper in college about goth culture in my sociology class and of course people with actual credentials have been writing about goth subculture, gender, consumption, and display for decades now. a lot of really interesting papers on Academia.edu but please be warned ahed of time i havent read ANY of these paers, they might be bad, they also might directly contradict my claims, but there are lots of papers and they all look interesting.

link to search results for "goth gender" on Academia.edu, only ten results, but if you click on any of them you get lots of relevant suggestions and links in the sidebar to related papers. here are a couple i thought looked interesting to read later if i can

Looking for Something Forever Gone: Gothic Masculinity, Androgyny, and Ethics at the Turn of the Millennium

We draw on a longitudinal study of the Gothic subculture to analyze how particular acts of consumption support the ‘performance’ of gender i

Contemporary sociological research indicates rural men face increasing pressure to comply with hegemonic masculine gender norms. Adopting Bu

Drawing on interviews, participant observation, and Internet postings, this article analyzes gender in a local Goth scene. These Goths use t

god i wish i could pay rent by doing this kind of research and writing. really glad there are people studying these subjects in academia

#to read

segamascott

#nodding

yesterday this girl in my lit class said that 25 was “old” and “once she turned 25 it would be over” and in that moment i was like i’ll show you little 18 year olds what a real it’s over looks like when i blow my head off in front of you

#neil.txt #like ok [crumbles into dust]#when you get to being in your 20s you will see. you will fucking see

working in the college library always makes me so so derangedly convinced of the fact i’m going to change my life in a completely unrealistic way like i start thinking im going to check out all four volumes of the collected hegel they have here and read it all in a week

#neil.txt

Californians are like that bc they’re all clinically insane from living under the newsom regime

#neil.txt

sailatina3

Hi. To make a long story short, my mother received a notice of deportation. My family is fighting this in court. As you can imagine its very expensive and burdensome, my father works many more days to afford lawyers and fees. Which means there isn't much room to spare for my expenses, so its up to me to deal with that.

So, if you have money to spare, it would mean the world to me if you could donate to my cashapp $SnowStorm626. To help with my groceries and necessities. I don't think this will be permanent, I will probably either get a proper job or perhaps start art commissions at some point. But for now I rely on charity work. Thank you.

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sophie-frm-mars

Gnome eminem: just cos I'm gnomey don't mean you know me. Don't call me homie. In fact you can blow me. Since I started seeing lots of gnomes rapping, halvling MCs who don't know what's happening, half-foots who need a half-hand smacking, go back to the shire and ask bilbo baggins. [beat changes] Haley I'm sorry that I drank your potion

#i always forget the last addition until i see it again and it koes me right after the initial ko of how i always lose U in these woods.#Haley I’m sorry that I drank your potion