(I actually really hate lies) (But anything I try to write about myself ends up feeling forced & inauthentic) (Intro sections are the bane of my existence, please make them stop) Frequent topics of this blog include: lgbtqia+ stuff, polyamory, autism spectrum, asexuality spectrum, gender identity, neurodivergence, mental illness, disability, chronic pain, feminism, racism, ableism, other social justice things, various fandoms, writing/roleplaying, singing, cute animals, being over 30 (bc I am), jokes I probably need explained to me, and aggressively boring personal posts.
Just got the call from my mom that my dad coded and they did CPR and got him back but said it would probably happen again and what did he/the family want, and he has a DNR so. Now we're just waiting for that to happen. And my mom didn't call until I got home so I wouldn't come back to the hospital because he's unconscious anyway and how I saw him last night was better, but I didn't know I was saying goodbye then 😭
And now I'm trying not to sob too loudly so I don't scare my cats~
Just got the call from my mom that my dad coded and they did CPR and got him back but said it would probably happen again and what did he/the family want, and he has a DNR so. Now we're just waiting for that to happen. And my mom didn't call until I got home so I wouldn't come back to the hospital because he's unconscious anyway and how I saw him last night was better, but I didn't know I was saying goodbye then 😭
And now I'm trying not to sob too loudly so I don't scare my cats~
Just got the call from my mom that my dad coded and they did CPR and got him back but said it would probably happen again and what did he/the family want, and he has a DNR so. Now we're just waiting for that to happen. And my mom didn't call until I got home so I wouldn't come back to the hospital because he's unconscious anyway and how I saw him last night was better, but I didn't know I was saying goodbye then 😭
And now I'm trying not to sob too loudly so I don't scare my cats~
Idk if it’s the cancer or the medications but my dad is barely eating, sleeping most of the day, and no longer recognizing things he's normally familiar with (he asked me what tres leches cake was, we literally had it on my birthday a few months ago, that's just one example)
speaking of birthdays, his is in a couple weeks and all the birthday cards at the store are like "it's your special day, live it up, do all your favorite things!"
does anyone have that unsettling oil painting of a dark window with a sheet leading out into the darkness? it did the rounds on tumblr a while ago and i need itttt
I'm so upset, I got myself a nice big space heater which I researched for days before investing in during black Friday, it seemed like it was going to be perfect and actually... I hate it. Then I got my birthday gift from my parents which was a nice new vacuum that I also spent hours upon hours researching until I narrowed it down to the perfect one... And I hate it too. And my parents already got rid of the packaging (they were kind enough to put it together & charge it up for me) so I can't even return it. Not that I want to tell my mom how heavy and bulky and difficult it is to use when it was supposed to be the opposite. I should've just gotten a lightweight generic vacuum for less than half the price and at least if that sucked I'd be like, makes sense. I just feel so defeated.
use overdrive, libby, hoopla, cloudlibrary, and kanopy instead of amazon and audible.
use firefox or librewolf (open-source fork of firefox) instead of chrome or opera (both are made with chromium, which blocks functionality for ad-blockers. firefox isn't based on chromium).
use mega instead of google drive
get rid of bloatware
use libreoffice instead of microsoft office suite
get free stuff with the help of r/FREEMEDIAHECKYEAH, r/piracy and r/roms
use trakt (for shows and movies), letterboxd (just movies), or TMB instead of IMDB (owned by amazon).
use storygraph instead of goodreads (owned by amazon).
use darkpatterns to find mobile game with no ads or microtransactions
use mediahuman or cobalt to download music, or support your favorite artists directly through bandcamp
make youtube bearable by using mtube, newpipe, or the unhook extension on chrome, firefox, or microsoft edge
use search for a cause, ecosia, or ocean hero to support the environment instead of google
use thriftbooks to buy new or used books (they also have manga, textbooks, home goods, CDs, DVDs, and blurays)
use flashpoint to play archived online flash games
find books, movies, games, etc. on the internet archive! for starters, here's a bunch of David Attenborough documentaries and all of the Animorphs books
burn your music onto cds
use pdf24 (available online or as a desktop app) instead of adobe
use thunderbird, mailfence, countermail, edison mail, or tuta instead of gmail
remove bloatware on windows PC, macOS, and iOS X
remove bloatware on samsung X
use pixelfed instead of instagram or meta
use project gutenberg for free public domain books, and librivox for public domain books and audiobooks
use the seal app (android only) to download video and audio
use ellipsus instead of microsoft word or google docs
use mastodon instead of twitter
use peertube to create a network of small video hosting providers (disclaimer: not a 1:1 alternative to youtube)
use threema and signal for encrypted communication, on mobile and desktop
use qwant and startpage for secure internet browsers
use syncthing to securely transfer files between devices
learn how to jailbreak your kindle/ereader if you have one (wiki and video walkthrough)
use riseup’s email and VPN for secure communication (aimed towards activists)
use cryptpad and collabora instead of the microsoft office suite
use google takeout to export the data on your google account
use library extension to look for books on online stores and find them at your library
remove paywalls with removepaywalls
install the open-source adblocker ublock origin
install sponsorblock to skip sponsored segments on youtube videos
use bookfinder to look for the cheapest available listings of books, including textbooks
learn a language through mango (duolingo laid off some of its employees and now relies on AI translations) for free with a library card or through your school
edit photos with photopea
edit pdfs with foxit and sumatrapdf
download music with doubledouble
take notes offline and collaborate securely with obsidian
for android tv, use smarttube and cloudstream (ad-free, open-source)
change your OS to linux
changelog:
removed ground news (uses AI to summarize articles)
removed unroll.me (sells your data)
removed proton mail and drive (AI assistant feature, claims of CEO Andy Yen supporting Trump, please DM if you have proof I can add here)
removed NCH suite (only has very basic free features, puts watermark on anything saved)
notes:
this post blew up while I wasn’t looking (the end of my semester was hellish, and i recently came back from a 3-week family vacation). thanks so much for all the suggestions! <3
i included Ecosia because of their financial transparency. It’s physically impossible that they plant a tree for every search, but their profits still go towards projects including reforestation and solar energy. i view their actions as a net-positive
feel free to add more alternatives, resources or advice in the reblogs or replies, and i'll add them to the main post <3
Something that I have noticed is I know almost nobody my age that goes to a food pantry. I know people who regularly run out of money for food and in general have to eat an unsuitable diet because that’s what they can afford and they still don’t go to a food bank, im not sure if it’s because they’re embarrassed or maybe if you didn’t grow up going you don’t know much about it but if you’re financially struggling I really recommend it. And look into other options for food assistance too like community fridges and gardens and other programs that can assist you, where I live Salvation Army pays for an allotted amount of grocery delivery for low income people every month, in the summer farmers take excess produce to the library to be taken by anyone who needs it, etc. There are a LOT of resources for free food that you can look into especially if you are literally not eating because of your financial situation
My dad had to call 911 this morning because he literally couldn't get out of bed, he spent the whole day at the ER only to be told "your tests were fine so go home"
He was able to walk by then at least but he must have fallen at some point because there are blood stains in his bathroom now apparently (I just heard my mom tell him not to try to clean them up)
And I can't talk about any of this on FB because I'm not sure his extended family even knows about his cancer?
My dad's side effects from his cancer meds are getting really bad, and he recently learned that there is no end point of "yay the cancer is gone" where he can stop taking them, he has to be on them for the rest of his life (if he wants to continue living). So that's fun
Also my hip has been in excruciating pain lately for no apparent reason and so of course my brain is telling me I have hip cancer
So my dad decided to stop taking the medication. He's still getting a transfusion that doesn't cause as many side effects but they have no idea if that will keep the cancer at bay by itself
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