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[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

ao3 turns 16 today.

reblog if you’re older than archive of our own

[daikunart]

[𝑅𝒲𝑅𝐵]

[mughler-deactivated20190524]

i just realized,,,,,,,…. i can literally be the best version of myself right at this moment the only one stopping me is,,,.,,,, me ??? wild

[alwaysblooming]

week 1 – january 1-5 2025 🌞

The first week of the year is done! I went to work on thursday and friday and, despite some complications at a task, the days went by nicely. I started reading Jane Eyre, which was on my tbr list for a while already. On sunday, I went out for a quick walk with my mom. I'm also binge watching Supernatural again, it feels great to be obsessed with it again.

I'm happy, I'm healthy, I'm thankful for this week.

[colorlessjay]

hi, idk if someone already asked about this (then sorry, I'm a mess rn) but if the person who decided to write a fic set in your au and they'll let you know are you gonna post the link? :3

No apologies needed!

Funny enough, someone did DM me asking for permission to write something inspired by my art and AUs! (The answer is always yes. Pls just send them to me so I can read and enjoy them to. You writers have full permission to use my art in your fics)

One fic was inspired by my Werebird Castiel drawing! it's called Cabin of Feathers by @casdeans-pie (loving it so far. definitely go check it out) Another one was inspired by the Back to the Future AU mini comics I've been doing! Check out Time Cast A Spell On You by @dantedeservedbetter (Beautifully written and I look forward to every new chapter) EDIT: NEW FIC inspired by the Back to the Future AU mini comics! Go read Return To The Past by @faeryn (So cute, I'm excited for updates!)

seriously tho, this fandom has welcomed me with such open arms and I'm absolutely delighted that such amazing writers are making stories with my art!

AGAIN YOU HAVE FULL PERMISSION TO DO SO! DO NOT HOLD BACK! PLS JUST DM THEM TO ME SO I CAN READ THEM TOO!!!

[artinventor]

y’all I am so sorry for years I assumed that gay ship in supernatural was just a delusion that people overanalyzed and claimed queerbait for no reason cuz I’ve seen that happen a million times but now that I’m actually watching the show they really were gay as fuck LMAOOOO

[wasdeanshole]

free to be - acrylic gouache on postcard 2024

[naked-covered-in-bees]

“Is it bad that I used to watch over you while you slept?” Cas asks. He nestles up closer to Dean in bed, wrapping his arm around him.

“Mmm? Nah, I mean I know I always said it was creepy,” Dean mumbles. “Probably, it was. But I kinda got a kick out of having my own guardian angel. Even back in the beginning.”

“I don’t mean when you could see me.” Cas frowns, giving Dean his best mournful gaze, asking apology. “I mean, when you didn’t know I was there.”

“Oh…?”

“Uh…not always,” Cas says. “But when things were going very badly, I’d stand centurion and wrap my wings around you for protection. Especially if you were sleeping in the car. You didn’t know I was there.”

“You wrapped your wings around me?” Dean whispers. He traces a finger up and down Cas’s arm, hardly aware he’s doing it. “While I was sleepin’ in Baby?”

“I don’t know if it made any difference.” Cas kisses his shoulder. “I was always so worried about you, I didn’t know what to do with myself.”

“Do wings…?” Dean chuckled shyly, resting his hand on Cas’s arm, his thumb grazing back and forth. “Can they protect…like...your mind?”

“They can offer a degree of psychic protection,” Cas said. “Not commonly. But…with the bond we’ve shared…”

“I just wonder… I didn’t get all the nightmares about hell I thought I would,” Dean says. “Sometimes, I did. And then a lot of times, my sleep was so peaceful. Like when you came into my dream and I was fishin’ on the lake.”

“That was me,” Cas murmurs. “I was always afraid to tell you. It seemed invasive. But I didn’t think you’d accept the help.”

“Probably not.” Dean takes his hand, and kisses his palm. “Thanks.”

[lizleeships]

….Going out for New Year’s is overrated; they’re on a case anyway.

(Have a lovely and safe year y’all. Thanks for still being here ❤️🎉)

[ashstfu]

[mirroredmoons]

spn queerbaiting is like being in the middle of the desert and and you're like cool. could i get some water. and someone comes along and is like "here are a billion signs we've got water. here's years of subtext implying water. here's market research specifically proving that we researched whether or not water is popular (it is)." so you follow them for twelve years and then they finally stop and you're like cool. where's the water. and then they splash a little on your shoes and impale you with rebar.

[nahpkmp]

Destiel but make them the Guardians of the Galaxy!!!

@hawster 's idea btw

[beatsheetromanroy]

supernatural said dean and cas can't say "i love you" because we operate from a "show not tell" storytelling perspective. okay where's the making out then.

[deancasbisexual-deactivated2024]

destiel really had all the ingredients needed to become the greatest love story of all time but unfortunately the writers just didn't know how to cook.

[jensenackles-daily]

Rowena + booping Dean’s nose 

[mysteryspotcast]

what do you mean ben edlund confirmed destiel was a thing they had to write around bc the subtext was too obvious on the same day we found out the yuri on ice movie was cancelled. what in the equivalent exchange is going on

[deancasbisexual-deactivated2024]

things I wouldn't believe happened if I hadn't seen them with my own two eyes:

cain implying cas is dean's collette

dean breaking cas out of naomi's mind control

cas' entire confession

dean's s13 widower arc

"I left, but you didn't stop me."

"he was your boyfriend first."

"the stench of that impala is all over your overcoat" or whatever he said

"don't make me lose you too."

dean turning aaron down not because he "doesn't swing that way" but because he's on a "federal investigation."

in fact, dean's entire reaction to aaron hitting on him

dean's disappointment when he found out aaron wasn't actually into him.

dean's siren being a dude and sam not questioning it despite still being under the impression that sirens infect people through sex

destiel divorce arc

dean completely giving up on life whenever cas dies

dean staying in purgatory for an entire year even though he could have left at anytime simply because he didn't want to leave without cas

dean seeing cas everywhere after purgatory just like how sam saw jess everywhere after she died

dean rewriting his memories of purgatory because he couldn't handle the fact that cas willingly chose to leave him and it was easier to believe that he failed cas instead

dean telling cas he's not going to let him die a virgin

"he's in love...with humanity."

cas putting donatello into a coma because he hurt dean

the handprint parallel (and that being jensen's idea)

"you have me confused with the other angel. you know, the one in the dirty trench coat who's in love with you?"

"sorry but i'd rather have you, cursed or not."

destiel dressed up as cowboys

"are you going to look at more anime or are strictly into dick now?"

"and how is it that you lost dean? I thought you two were joined at the, you know...everything."

the look on dean's face when he realized jack broke cas out of the empty (and the look bobby gave him in return)

"you're hoping castiel will return to you."

dean canonically being cas' human weakness

dean dropping to his knees and praying to cas while sobbing because he was scared of losing him

dean and crowley having orgies together

the mixtape

dean flirting with a guy through charlie

just the general way dean and cas look at each other and interact with each other like idk what else to say lmao