(John B's sister x JJ Maybank)
Summary: After John B and Sarah go missing at sea, his little sister and his best friend JJ only feel like they have one thing left, each other. After yet another nightmare, she comforts him and he reveals the her what her brother told him before disapearing.
Note: mention of drowning. Sad fluff. Grab some tissues. I'm very proud of this one. Hope you like it!
It was a silent night here at the Chateau. John B was gone. My big brother was gone. I couldn't say the word dead. I couldn't believe it yet. I would've know right? I would've felt it like I felt it with our father. It was just JJ and I tonight. Kie and Pope stayed for a few days after the storm but it had almost been a week now. I could barely sleep. I didn't have nightmares. It was good dreams. My dreams were just so vivid and John B was in all of them, it had became too painfull to wake up after having them. JJ had them though, the nightmares. He had told me about them. It was him trying to save John B from drowning in the storm. Everytime he would fail, witnessing his best friend choke on salt water, the life slowly leaving his eyes. JJ stayed home with me ever since they've been gone. We only had eachother now. JJ had grew up with John B and I, making him the last bit of family I felt like I had left.
There he was, laying on my lap as I read a book on the couch, the oil lamp lighting up the pages. We still hadn't had any electricity. It was around 2 am and everything around us was dark. I softly brushed my hand through his hair here and there, making sure his sleeping form knew I was there with him. I looked at him carefully. He looked peacefull, his lips barely parted. His hand was clutching my thigh, tensing up from time to time, probably according to his dream. I got back to my book and read for a few more minutes until JJ had became more shaky, small sounds leaving his lips. He wore a frown on his face and didn't look so peacefull anymore. I debated shaking him awake until it was too much. He was clearly having a nightmare again. I leaned into his frame and whispered his name, rubbing his arm lightly. I knew from experience that waking him up to suddently would only scare him more.
“Wake up JJ. It's okay, it's just a dream.”
He opened his eyes suddently and gasped, looking around, realizing he had been dreaming again. He catched his breath and laid back down on my lap, rubbing his eyes.
“Yeah.” He breathed with his sleepy voice.
He nodded, now sitting up, tears in his eyes.
“It's okay... It's your head playing tricks on you, none of it is your fault.” I said, laying my head on his shoulder.
“Something was different this time...” JJ said, taking my hand in his.
I looked up at him. It had always been the same. I didn't have to ask what changed as he continued talking, silent tears rolling down his cheeks.
“This time you were with him, like you were supposed to...”
That night I was supposed to be on that boat with John B. I was supposed to leave with him and hide until the truth came out and we would be safe. But the cops had caught me and I never made it to the boat in time.
“I had to chose if I wanted to save you or John B...” He added.
“Oh JJ, I'm sorry...” I whispered, hugging him. “I feel like my dad made sure I wasn't on that boat. You know, from up there...”
“Yeah you could say that. Like he was protecting me, like I wasn't ready to go and join him just yet.”
“He was looking after you.” JJ whispered, now brushing his hand through my hair. “I'm glad he did. To be honest if you weren't here right now I don't think I would've kept going.”
“What do you mean?” I asked, worried, looking up at him again.
“You're all I had left.” He said.
We stared at each other for way too long. But it felt comforting. JJ's hand fell on my cheek and he ran his thumb across my bottom lip.
“Can I?” He whispered, barely making a sound.
I nodded, letting him lean in to kiss me. Never would've I thought that I would be Kissing JJ Maybank. John B would've been furious. But it felt right. He felt right. When he pulled away he smiled. I did too, even if we were both sad and broken.
“There's something I haven't told you.” JJ said, admiring my features. “When John B left that day, he gave me crushing hug and whispered something to me.”
“He said take care of her for me.” He admitted, tears running down his cheeks again. “In my nightmare, he was saying the same thing. He wanted me to save you.”
“We'll see him again someday.” I said, hugging him tight.
“I love you. I'll always be there for you.”
He pulled me close to him and we laid there, silently, each other's heart beats getting us through the night.
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