[jackalopiel]

no offence but is this seriously what we're doing for the rest of our lives. like. just work minimum wage and drink soy lattes? be a 4.75/10? I half-heartedly thrift for my clothes and watch the world collapse around me in a very boring and predictable way? sure I can go hike the fucking pacific crest trail and I romanticise my bus ride and listen to hozier or whatever the tiktok girlies say these days. but this can't be it.

[another-arsonist]

TW: Disordered eating

I drew a bit of vent art about what my eating disorder wants. Even though I am in recovery, my eating disorder still wants me to waste away.

[another-arsonist]

I overwhelmingly want to self harm right now. I'm so fucking bored. I just want to get a nice bath with some candles, bath soaks, and a razor.

[another-arsonist]

The start of some vent art.

[unreasonable-suspicion]

"chronic boredom isn't debilitating" considering I've cut myself out of boredom because I needed to do something.... yes it is

[another-arsonist]

I hate how easily my brain can switch from feeling fine to feeling completely and overwhelmingly suicidal. And I wish I could feel something other than apathy about it. I wish I could even feel sorry for myself. Apathy is dangerous. Apathy makes it so much easier to try...

[bpdohwhatajoy]

“Who want me”

Girl the psych ward

[sleazyowl]

I can agree with "empaths" on one thing... And that's that the majority of pwNPD/pwASPD are fucking awful. Most of you I've had the joy of speaking to have ended up being naz*s, racists, abusers, etc. Come at me for all I care, but they got a valid point avoiding "us".

And this is coming from who's been outcast plentyyyy of times for having these disorders.

[another-arsonist]

Can't say I haven't had a similar experience because... I have, unfortunately. At least with the ASPD crowd.

[thelyreoforpheusmp3]

when radiohead said “i'm trapped in this body and can't get out“ and when mother mother said “cause i’ve grown tired of this body, a cumbersome and heavy body” and when cavetown said “i’m trapped in my tiny human brain and it's killing me” and when arcade fire said “my body is a cage, that keeps me from dancing with the one I love, but my mind holds the key”

[antimasculist]

sometimes it feels like victims of abuse who have more "acceptable" reactions to abuse - like shutting down or fawning - demonize victims who get angry and who have a "fight" reaction and see us as like... not exactly perpetrators but not exactly victims either. i see it the most in siblings with abusive parents, where one fawns or shuts down and the other gets angry. the one who fawns or shuts down sometimes lashes out at their sibling and accuses them of "making it worse" or "encouraging it" or whatever. and it's really disheartening as someone who responds to abuse with anger, as someone whose primary symptom of PTSD is anger issues. we aren't at fault for our abuse and we certainly aren't at fault for your abuse. everyones brain has a different method of protecting them from abuse.

[antimasculist]

your sibling who gets in fights with mom at the dinner table isn't the reason you are abused. they're a victim just as much as you are. treat them with kindness, let go of that resentment

[monster42069-deactivated2024071]

It’s people with other taught roles hating the person raised to have the “scapegoat” role in an abusive family. It works out perfectly in a morbid sense for the abusers. The blame is shifted onto the unstable, angry, and/or antisocial sibling. Then into adulthood, that resentment carries onto new people they meet who respond to trauma in the same way the “scapegoat” child does.

[thethirteenthchild]

The amount of people acting like I should feel guilty for having no empathy, jokes on you guys I also can’t feel guilt! ✌️

[another-arsonist]

I hate that I'm suicidal again. But part of it is nice since I'm actually feeling a strong emotion. It's a familiar place.

[fairycosmos]

mental illness is like you will crave love but never feel comfortable around anyone ever. your welcome

[another-arsonist]

I want to stop taking my bipolar meds since feeling depression or mania is better than feeling nothing. I hate this empty shell feeling. I want that bipolar energy I just don't have anymore.

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Cluster B culture is only being dx'd one of them, but relating to most experiences of your fellow Cluster Bs

[relelvance]

What's wrong with killing people

[tonysopranobignaturals-deactiva]

nothing we just live in a judgmental society

[pack-of-rats-archive]

Sometimes it's okay to admit that you're a stereotype. For example, there are some people who are still part of my life exclusively because they're useful to me. If they had nothing left to offer I'd cut them off without a second thought. Why? Because these people have proven to me that they're not worth my trust nor respect, and at this point I take satisfaction in using them for money etc. If all I have to do is keep pretending to like you why wouldn't I? It's too easy, especially when I just consider it paying taxes for them being a shitty person. Of course I'll take advantage.